How will they ever go back to being just friends after this?
Atalanta’s povAfter Raiden offered to help me heal faster, which meant licking me everywhere I was sore, we all decided to watch a movie together.Zev had placed both his and Raiden’s matrass on the floor and propped up pillows so we could use it as a couch, while Raiden hooked up his laptop to a projector.I didn’t even know this existed, but suddenly the wall turned into a huge screen.“Like going to the movie theater,” Zev said.“Uhuh.” I replied, not wanting to admit I had never been to one.Today had been freeing, knowing soon it would all be over. Telling them everything and revealing who I was didn’t feel like an option, though. I might not have been fair to them, but this was the only way I could have them.The only way I could be happy.And God, did I feel happy.It was like a dream. Literally, because I had dreamed about the two of them. But to actually be with them? Together?I had never experienced pleasure like that. Never experienced feeling so wanted and liked. I had ne
Raiden’s povZev was a damn mess; little mouse snuck off to her room.This is not how I pictured the rest of the weekend. I thought we’d have a sex fest. I mean, it’s only one weekend, and I want to use every minute of it.I am aware that they’re both dealing with their crap. As am I, although my crap is a lot less serious than theirs.To summarize, I don’t think Atalanta is my mate and don’t want to fall in love with her. Which is getting harder by the second. So after this weekend, I’ll need to go back to being her friend, for her sake and mine.Zev... well, Zev has gone from keeping everyone at a distance to double-penetrating a girl with me. Yeah, he’s obviously going through an existential crisis right now because everything he tried to do has failed. He likes our mouse. It’s clear as day. He’s so gentle with him. It’s not just lust, and it will be really hard for him to reject her if she’s his mate. Which wouldn’t surprise me because of the connection they share.But then I wou
Zev’s povWe spent the rest of Sunday training, studying, eating, and walking around the empty school. We all acted like things were fine, but there was a tension there that was hard to ignore.Every time Lana sat near me, I wanted to touch her. But I knew better.We were honoring her wishes and, at the same time, keeping our hearts safe.It had been getting more difficult to keep my dad out of my head, knowing that the closer I got to Lana, the likelier the chance of me losing control one day.Maybe I get lucky, and maybe my mate won’t die, but that’s not something you can predict. It is better to avoid accepting my mate entirely than risking the chance of turning into my father.And what’s to say—something else couldn’t trigger me from turning into a raging lunatic? What if it’s seeing my mate with another man?It’s too dangerous. Even if there's only a small chance of something happening to me, like what happened to my dad, I can't risk it. Who would I hurt in the process? If my dad
Raiden’s povIt’s been torture. For several weeks now, I have had to pretend not to want to pick up our little mouse, throw her over my shoulder, take her to the woods, and take her in the woods, if you know what I mean.Yeah, you know what I mean. I want to fuck her senseless. Perefably with Zev, but at this point I wouldn’t mind some solo action. Maybe just some fingering. One blowjob. One taste of her pussy. Even a kiss, although I have stolen a few pecks here and there, because a man can only handle so much.I’m obsessed.There is no other word to describe it.Okay, there is, but I am not going to say that four-letter word because there is no point to it. Especially not when my birthday is this close.Our birthday, because Zev and I were born an hour apart.He seems anxious the closer we get to our birthday, but I guess that’s for a different reason than me. I know Atalanta wants me, too. Every time we train, I can smell it. Every time I’m near her, and especially when it’s just
Atalanta’s povIt’s Zev. Kind Stranger is Zev...Somehow it doesn’t surprise me, which makes me feel even dumber for realizing it after so many letters. What did I tell him? Did I write anything that could reveal who I really am?I talked about Archer, and I told both of them I’m an only child.How will I get out of that?And the stuff he shared... Will he hate me for knowing?Will he pull back even more now that he knows I read his thoughts and deepest secrets?If he wanted me to know, he would have told me. I guess we both had our reasons not to share, but mine has more to do with my real identity.But he has such a great support system, yet he doesn’t talk about the things that bother him the most.Does Zev feel like a burden? A failure?It makes so much sense. The teddy bear remark, why he’s so reluctant to date girls. Why he was so worried after we had sex. The way he talks about his best friend. Every letter fit.I feel like such an idiot for not realizing it sooner.I thought ba
Atalanta’s pov“Did you get me dunk, so I tell you evything?” I said, unable to stop myself from slurring.Suzie and I had dinner together, which turned into drinks and more drinks.She giggled as she handed me a coke. “Drink this. No more alcohol for you.”“They reaaaaally are the best.” I said, thinking back to the best day of my life. “I had sooo many organismesss. What’s that word again?”Suzie giggled even louder, “organ… organisms… organic…? O, orgasms!”“You are dwunk too!” I could barely stand.“Yes,” she nodded and kept nodding her head. “I am.”“Did I tell you they were both inside of me….” I whispered, my eyes wide. “At the same time!”I guess I didn’t whisper that last part because I saw a few heads turn my way.Suzie pouted, “you’re so much cooler than I am. I only had sex like three times, and none of them were any good.”“Poor you,” I said, pouting with my best friend.“I know! That’s why I’m waiting until I meet my mate. And I’m too busy doing, uh.. beta stuff. Oh!”“Y
Zev’s pov“I would wipe that look off your face, or mom will not stop asking questions.” Raiden scolded me.“What look?” I replied.“Dude. Seriously. You’ve been moody ever since you lost your virginity in the most awesome threesome that ever existed, but lately it’s like it’s gotten worse and now you’ve infected our mouse. She’s barely talking. After finally getting her out of her shell, I would hate for her to go back to being shy and scared all the time.”Raiden wasn’t wrong. She had been more quiet than usual, almost going back to how she was. And it was my fault. Ever since I wrote that letter...It made everything worse.“I’m trying, man.” I admitted.“You can talk to me, you know.” Raiden offered, but I shook my head.“No,-“ Raiden didn’t even let me finish my sentence, growling at my response.“No? What the hell is wrong with you? You’re not just pulling back from her, but from me too. Just because of one weekend? You’re making it mean something. It was supposed to be just sex
Atalanta’s povI had no clue what they were talking about. My scent? I knew it was a special thing for werewolves, and while I had to admit both Zev and Raiden smell great to me, that’s just because of the perfume they wear.Honestly, everyone here smells better than at home.Maybe because hunters don’t really pride themselves on their hygiene. It’s easier to hide your scent when you’re dirty. But it could be the serum I’m taking, that is enhancing my senses.All week, I have been feeling stressed. Like I had suspected, Archer had told General Sweets where I was heading this weekend, and he had a bunch of plans for me.He said to gather as much information as I could, but not just by talking to people. Which was hard enough as is. But also by making a map of the packhouse and the pack grounds.I don’t know why he thought I would be able to do this. I had no training like Archer had. But he wanted me to count guards and watch the soldiers train. To take down the names of everyone of imp
Raiden’s povAlthough we don’t celebrate Christmas, because you know, we don’t believe in Jesus or God, we do have our own celebration. Our celebration is rooted in pagan holidays such as Saturnalia, the winter solstice, and Yule, which also serve as the basis for Christmas, but we won't delve into that.The lights, the tree, the gifts—it's all there. Just no Santa and definitely no nativity stable and stuff.But I was working to a point… My point is, we have watched a few Christmas movies, and I am familiar with some of the songs.And the one that keeps repeating in my head is, “he’s making a list. He’s checking it twice.”I have a list as well. It’s sort of like a naughty or nice list, but it only contains those who have been bad. Those that need punishment.And I am not talking about some coal in their stocking. No… Just some good old-fashioned murder.First on my list is, of course, that fucking dickhead General Sweets. Not far behind are mommy dearest and stepdaddy. I’ve already
Atalanta’s povI looked around me, trying to hear and see if anyone noticed me. I had run here quickly, and with my size, I wasn’t as noticeable as Raiden or Zev. But I am still a wolf in a hunter's village.Everyone around me seemed too busy with the wolves near the borders of the village. People were either hiding or going out to fight, none of them expecting one of the wolves had already gotten through.I could run back. I could stick to the plan. But this is probably where the scout is being held. This could be a chance to free him.While I had my eyes closed during the night the General took me down to his laboratory, I could still hear and smell. And the only other person who was there was the doctor. Most of the people here weren’t even aware of the experiments the General performed.There could be a chance he was hiding him elsewhere, a place prisoners usually are kept. But I had this feeling in my gut. General Sweets would want more than information if he found a strong male w
Atalanta’s povTo say I was freaking out was an understatement. The only thing holding me together was reminding myself why we were doing this.It was for our future. Raiden, Zev, and I together, having our own family.And a safe place to raise that family with people that we cared about.I don’t know when the idea of having a family, of having a baby, popped up in my head. It might have been because of Zev’s letter.Even now that we’re marked, he continues to write me little notes or letters on the days I’m scheduled to work alongside Raiden or Odin.In one of them he shared how Suzie made him see sense by showing him what he could have. He described this family, with us as parents. There was no intent behind it, no pressure for me to have a baby. He was just saying that in a perfect world, one day that could be us.And it made sense. Zev and I both wanted a loving family more than anything. Raiden already has a loving family, so he’s in less of a hurry.‘And he wants you all to hims
Zev’s pov“Do you think Odin remembers what I told him about hunters using the bow and arrow first? because it makes less noise?” Lana asked while Raiden kissed her neck.She moaned softly as I unbuttoned her shirt, as instructed by Raiden during the meeting.‘We’re going to distract our mate as much as possible while enjoying each other to the fullest.’ Raiden had mindlinked me earlier. ‘I need your help, because I’m pretty sure she’s freaking the fuck out.’He had used his stupid alpha voice when he asked me. I’m not even sure he realizes he uses a different voice for some things. It’s like more authoritarian, lower somehow?To me it just sounds stupid, because I’ve grown up with the man. Honestly, it sounds like a little boy's version of how a big, strong man should sound.But if it makes him feel good, who cares, right?I removed one sleeve, and then the next, while Raiden’s kisses went lower. “He knows, little mouse.”Lana looked at me, “first bows, then guns, then knives for clos
hi, I'm sorry for the lack of updates. Last Friday I had a meeting about my oldest and the school informed me he is doing so well, they think he can transfer to a different type of school. so, from special education to a school that still has smaller classes, but the kids there need less help. he's currently going to a school with kids who are on the autism spectrum, have adhd or behavior issues. it would be a chance for him to be in a classroom that isn't as loud or disruptive. Anyway, I've been busy contacting schools and visited two today. also my husband got a vasectomy today, so I'm his nurse lol. tomorrow I should be able to write. but I wanted to explain why it's been a bit hard to find time. I'm fine, just busy.
Raiden’s povBeing the alpha is fucking awesome. Especially when you have many people around to do all the parts of the job you don’t want to do. I’m the alpha of delegating.I don’t like numbers, so, Zev, why don’t you and Stephen handle it?I’d rather hang out with my mate instead of speaking to a girl I used to hook up with once, because she has a complaint. Suzie, you’ve got this. Go speak to someone who's probably going to be pissed because I don't remember anything past her name.I need to talk to some alphas who are supposed to be our allies. You know what, Dad… Aah, fuck, that is actually something only an alpha can do.To send someone else would look like I was disrespecting them. Not that I respect most of these dickheads; they’ve been working against me and my mate behind our backs.But it’s been a few weeks now since we took over, and I think it’s time to start hunting these hunters. And I’d rather do it with more people than less.Which means I need other packs to support
Atalanta’s pov“Are you getting your period or something?” Raiden asked before Zev hit him against his arm.“You can’t just ask a woman that!”Raiden rolled his eyes, “as if you would know when she’s about to have her period; you have only been back in this relationship for a little over a week.”“That’s not the point!” Zev argued back, while I stayed quiet, watching them fight over nothing.“What is the fucking point then?” Raiden asked. “Atalanta has been more quiet than usual and a bit grumpy,” he looked at me. “Sorry, little mouse, but you are a bit moody.” Then went back to Zev, “it’s just a question.”Zev sighed, “it could be many things, and to blame it on hormones is so immature.”“Besides,” Suzie added. “Lana was probably never allowed to behave differently during her periods back home, so who knows how differently she acts around that time? I mean, I never noticed anything, and we shared a room.”Raiden looked at her while shaking his head in disbelief, “you do know we share
Atalanta’s pov“Today was perfect, everything… Just, thank you, Lana. The breakfast, my surprise, the party. I’ll thank the rest later, but I knew you had a hand in most of it.” Suzie said, as we walked to the woods together.“Not the car; I had no idea Raiden was doing that.” I replied.“Yeah, that’s crazy.” Suzie laughed nervously.“Are you sure you want me there and not him?” I knew it might be better if her future alpha was here, instead of someone who had only shifted once.She shook her head, “no. I want you there. Besides, if Stephen and Raiden were both there, they would end up bickering, and I would be too busy telling them to shut up to shift.”I giggled, “probably.”“Besides, your first shift was so different. With the being knocked out and everything. I think you need a do-over. And I like the idea of doing this together with someone for the first time. I don’t need someone telling me what to do; I have my wolf for that. I just need people around me who have my back. Who wi
Raiden’s pov‘It was so beautiful to see, and I just can’t believe how well the shift went.’ Atalanta said this as we ran back to the packhouse, still in our wolf shape.‘Uh-huh,’ I replied.She giggled, ‘you don’t want to talk right now?’‘No,’ I answered truthfully, until Zev loudly scoffed in our shared mindlink.‘Raiden! You can’t just say that!’‘Little mouse, normally I would love to hear all about how you supported your friend and how well your second time shifting went. I would love nothing more than to hear every single detail about tonight, but after. Not now.’Our mate giggled, while Zev growled. ‘You’re such an ass.’I sighed, ‘Zev… You know me better than anyone. Do you honestly think I possess the patience to listen to a story mere minutes after our mate informed us she wants to mark me?’‘Us.’“Yeah, whatever us. Do you think I’d actually be able to listen to anything she has to say? It would be a disservice to our sweet mate to let her tell her story about tonight, beca