How will they ever go back to being just friends after this?
Atalanta’s povAfter Raiden offered to help me heal faster, which meant licking me everywhere I was sore, we all decided to watch a movie together.Zev had placed both his and Raiden’s matrass on the floor and propped up pillows so we could use it as a couch, while Raiden hooked up his laptop to a projector.I didn’t even know this existed, but suddenly the wall turned into a huge screen.“Like going to the movie theater,” Zev said.“Uhuh.” I replied, not wanting to admit I had never been to one.Today had been freeing, knowing soon it would all be over. Telling them everything and revealing who I was didn’t feel like an option, though. I might not have been fair to them, but this was the only way I could have them.The only way I could be happy.And God, did I feel happy.It was like a dream. Literally, because I had dreamed about the two of them. But to actually be with them? Together?I had never experienced pleasure like that. Never experienced feeling so wanted and liked. I had ne
Raiden’s povZev was a damn mess; little mouse snuck off to her room.This is not how I pictured the rest of the weekend. I thought we’d have a sex fest. I mean, it’s only one weekend, and I want to use every minute of it.I am aware that they’re both dealing with their crap. As am I, although my crap is a lot less serious than theirs.To summarize, I don’t think Atalanta is my mate and don’t want to fall in love with her. Which is getting harder by the second. So after this weekend, I’ll need to go back to being her friend, for her sake and mine.Zev... well, Zev has gone from keeping everyone at a distance to double-penetrating a girl with me. Yeah, he’s obviously going through an existential crisis right now because everything he tried to do has failed. He likes our mouse. It’s clear as day. He’s so gentle with him. It’s not just lust, and it will be really hard for him to reject her if she’s his mate. Which wouldn’t surprise me because of the connection they share.But then I wou
Zev’s povWe spent the rest of Sunday training, studying, eating, and walking around the empty school. We all acted like things were fine, but there was a tension there that was hard to ignore.Every time Lana sat near me, I wanted to touch her. But I knew better.We were honoring her wishes and, at the same time, keeping our hearts safe.It had been getting more difficult to keep my dad out of my head, knowing that the closer I got to Lana, the likelier the chance of me losing control one day.Maybe I get lucky, and maybe my mate won’t die, but that’s not something you can predict. It is better to avoid accepting my mate entirely than risking the chance of turning into my father.And what’s to say—something else couldn’t trigger me from turning into a raging lunatic? What if it’s seeing my mate with another man?It’s too dangerous. Even if there's only a small chance of something happening to me, like what happened to my dad, I can't risk it. Who would I hurt in the process? If my dad
Raiden’s povIt’s been torture. For several weeks now, I have had to pretend not to want to pick up our little mouse, throw her over my shoulder, take her to the woods, and take her in the woods, if you know what I mean.Yeah, you know what I mean. I want to fuck her senseless. Perefably with Zev, but at this point I wouldn’t mind some solo action. Maybe just some fingering. One blowjob. One taste of her pussy. Even a kiss, although I have stolen a few pecks here and there, because a man can only handle so much.I’m obsessed.There is no other word to describe it.Okay, there is, but I am not going to say that four-letter word because there is no point to it. Especially not when my birthday is this close.Our birthday, because Zev and I were born an hour apart.He seems anxious the closer we get to our birthday, but I guess that’s for a different reason than me. I know Atalanta wants me, too. Every time we train, I can smell it. Every time I’m near her, and especially when it’s just
Atalanta’s povIt’s Zev. Kind Stranger is Zev...Somehow it doesn’t surprise me, which makes me feel even dumber for realizing it after so many letters. What did I tell him? Did I write anything that could reveal who I really am?I talked about Archer, and I told both of them I’m an only child.How will I get out of that?And the stuff he shared... Will he hate me for knowing?Will he pull back even more now that he knows I read his thoughts and deepest secrets?If he wanted me to know, he would have told me. I guess we both had our reasons not to share, but mine has more to do with my real identity.But he has such a great support system, yet he doesn’t talk about the things that bother him the most.Does Zev feel like a burden? A failure?It makes so much sense. The teddy bear remark, why he’s so reluctant to date girls. Why he was so worried after we had sex. The way he talks about his best friend. Every letter fit.I feel like such an idiot for not realizing it sooner.I thought ba
Atalanta’s pov“Did you get me dunk, so I tell you evything?” I said, unable to stop myself from slurring.Suzie and I had dinner together, which turned into drinks and more drinks.She giggled as she handed me a coke. “Drink this. No more alcohol for you.”“They reaaaaally are the best.” I said, thinking back to the best day of my life. “I had sooo many organismesss. What’s that word again?”Suzie giggled even louder, “organ… organisms… organic…? O, orgasms!”“You are dwunk too!” I could barely stand.“Yes,” she nodded and kept nodding her head. “I am.”“Did I tell you they were both inside of me….” I whispered, my eyes wide. “At the same time!”I guess I didn’t whisper that last part because I saw a few heads turn my way.Suzie pouted, “you’re so much cooler than I am. I only had sex like three times, and none of them were any good.”“Poor you,” I said, pouting with my best friend.“I know! That’s why I’m waiting until I meet my mate. And I’m too busy doing, uh.. beta stuff. Oh!”“Y
Zev’s pov“I would wipe that look off your face, or mom will not stop asking questions.” Raiden scolded me.“What look?” I replied.“Dude. Seriously. You’ve been moody ever since you lost your virginity in the most awesome threesome that ever existed, but lately it’s like it’s gotten worse and now you’ve infected our mouse. She’s barely talking. After finally getting her out of her shell, I would hate for her to go back to being shy and scared all the time.”Raiden wasn’t wrong. She had been more quiet than usual, almost going back to how she was. And it was my fault. Ever since I wrote that letter...It made everything worse.“I’m trying, man.” I admitted.“You can talk to me, you know.” Raiden offered, but I shook my head.“No,-“ Raiden didn’t even let me finish my sentence, growling at my response.“No? What the hell is wrong with you? You’re not just pulling back from her, but from me too. Just because of one weekend? You’re making it mean something. It was supposed to be just sex
Atalanta’s povI had no clue what they were talking about. My scent? I knew it was a special thing for werewolves, and while I had to admit both Zev and Raiden smell great to me, that’s just because of the perfume they wear.Honestly, everyone here smells better than at home.Maybe because hunters don’t really pride themselves on their hygiene. It’s easier to hide your scent when you’re dirty. But it could be the serum I’m taking, that is enhancing my senses.All week, I have been feeling stressed. Like I had suspected, Archer had told General Sweets where I was heading this weekend, and he had a bunch of plans for me.He said to gather as much information as I could, but not just by talking to people. Which was hard enough as is. But also by making a map of the packhouse and the pack grounds.I don’t know why he thought I would be able to do this. I had no training like Archer had. But he wanted me to count guards and watch the soldiers train. To take down the names of everyone of imp