I've been dealing with migraines. The weather has been a lot better, which means sunshine and I get a headache if I walk without shades in bright sunlight. Even for a short while. Plus the heat... So, trying to keep cool.
AtalantaThe memories of that weekend replayed in my mind long after we went home.I had never felt stronger than I did when I finished the obstacle course. Not just, because I finished a really difficult task, but because Zev only helped me when I really needed it.They both said I was fragile and needed help, but Raiden and Zev hadn’t treated me as fragile then.They had let me try, even if they might have thought I wouldn’t make it.It didn’t seem like they did, because they were both rooting for me, as was Suzie.To them, I had just finished an obstacle course, but to me, it was so much more. It was the first time I felt proud of myself and the first time others showed they were proud of me, besides the few praises from General Sweets.But I had done something that’s hard for werewolves, even. Me, a weak human. A nobody.My feelings of pride lessened when people started to comment on my relationship with Raiden and Zev, reminding me that while everyone might think they want me, the
Raiden’s povHow do I keep messing up? How do I keep hurting her?I chased behind Atalanta, wanting to explain myself, but she had already bumped into Zev.“What happened, are you okay?” He asked our little mouse.Could he smell me on her? Could he smell how our kiss had made her feel? I sure could.That kiss… My goddess, it was something else.It was supposed to be one-time. Just once to get her out of my system. It usually works. I kiss or fuck someone and then lose interest. But I wanted more. So much more that it wasn’t healthy.It was a mistake to kiss her, because now that I had a taste, I would never be able to forget her.I wanted to taste every part of her body to see if it had the same taste as that beautiful mouth of hers. Those lips. The way she shyly tried to follow my lead. She did so very well. Goddess, she was so responsive.“I’m okay,” Atalanta said.Zev growled, seeing me running towards them. “What did you do?”“I, -“ How could I explain what I had done wrong? Even i
Zev’s povPerhaps my concern for Lana stemmed from the recent letters I received from my penpal. Or, as she called herself, shy girl. SG. She started calling me KS, kind stranger.There wasn’t really a point to knowing her name. I would never meet her. There wasn’t a need to know her name or see her face. Yet when I did try to picture what she looked like, Atalanta’s face kept popping up.Maybe because they were similar in a way.Like Atalanta, SG had gone through so much. But she was actually brave enough to tell me.After I shared about my dad, SG wrote about her home life.The part that hurt the most was when she spoke about the neglect.“When I was young, I did anything I could to gain their attention. Being ignored was so painful, especially when I saw how they loved my brother. I didn’t exist to them unless I misbehaved.So whatever task they gave me, I would do it wrong on purpose. I knew they'd yell at me or punish me. Isn’t that pathetic?I wish I could say I’ve gotten used to
Atalanta’s povIt felt like there was a large rock in my stomach and a smaller one in my throat. All I wanted to do was cry. I felt so guilty about what I had done.Not just because of the way Zev reacted, but because it was wrong to kiss a werewolf in the first place.It went against everything my parents taught me.“Little Mouse, you did nothing wrong.” Raiden told me during breakfast. “We did nothing wrong.”But it didn’t feel like it. I had enjoyed kissing Raiden, so that must make me evil, right? Doing something so wrong, so dirty? Like kissing an animal, my parents would say.There was almost nobody here at school. There were maybe ten students total, and it felt very strange—almost forbidden to stay here.Suzie had suggested I come with her, and I wish I could have said yes. General Sweets had asked if I could look around and see what I could find. But Raiden was practically glued to me. It was sweet that he cared, but it made me feel even more guilty.He cared, but he didn’t re
Atalanta's pov“Is this some competition? Let’s see who Lana likes better. Let’s see if the guy who has kissed more girls than he can count can compete with the virgin best friend.” Zev scoffed, but he didn’t let go of my hand.“No, Zev.” Raiden said. “Just admit it, it feels right, the three of us. Doesn’t it?”Zev looked at me and grabbed a lock of my hair, twirling it around his finger while he thought about what Raiden just said.Raiden put me on his lap, facing Zev.“Take her face in your hands,” Raiden said to Zev. It didn’t feel like an order, but like he was trying to help Zev.“Are you sure?” Zev whispered, looking into my eyes for any signs, as he slowly did what Raiden had instructed him.“Yes.” I said. If Archer was going to tell everyone what I did, my life was already over anyway. It didn’t matter anymore what I did. And I wanted this. I wanted both of them.Before Zev could make the first move, I had already placed my lips on his. His hands were on my face, pulling me cl
Zev’s povWhen Raiden left, Lana looked at me with a sad smile.What was going on in that beautiful head of hers?“It’s weird, right?” I chuckled nervously, wishing I had some clothes on. “Maybe we should get dressed. Or shower?”“Together?” she asked shyly.Goddess, she keeps surprising me. She had found ways to reassure me every step of the way, knowing how this all made me feel without even saying a word.Raiden too. He knew I was worried and overthinking everything, and every time he told me what to do, I could shut off my mind for a bit.In those moments, I forgot about my plans. Forget about what happened to my family. But now I’m back on earth, and I can’t stop thinking about the consequences of our actions.The connection I felt to Lana was so intense that I kept wondering if she could be my mate. But then, what was Raiden’s part in all of this?He might be fine sharing now, but nobody shares their Luna. Not even Raiden.But even if Lana is my partner, it doesn't change anythin
Raiden’s povThe moment I left to get food, I felt nervous. In our room, everything felt safe and fine. I didn’t care if what we were doing was considered wrong by some people.When I was in there with my best friend and our mouse, things felt right.But while I was getting food, I started worrying about Zev.I have had casual hookups. Damn, I have only had casual hookups. But this was his first kiss, his first everything. Same goes for Atalanta.As good as the three of us feel, this can’t last.There’s no such thing as an alpha with a shared mate. It just doesn’t happen. And besides, someone like Atalanta could never be my mate.She’s not the type of Luna our pack needs. Or that I need.I need someone who will challenge me, not someone who is afraid to say no.But that doesn’t mean we can’t enjoy what we have now. And I plan to enjoy our little mouse in every way she allows it.This new talkative Atalanta is sexy as hell. The way she just grabbed Zev to kiss him. The way she took him
Atalanta’s povAfter Raiden offered to help me heal faster, which meant licking me everywhere I was sore, we all decided to watch a movie together.Zev had placed both his and Raiden’s matrass on the floor and propped up pillows so we could use it as a couch, while Raiden hooked up his laptop to a projector.I didn’t even know this existed, but suddenly the wall turned into a huge screen.“Like going to the movie theater,” Zev said.“Uhuh.” I replied, not wanting to admit I had never been to one.Today had been freeing, knowing soon it would all be over. Telling them everything and revealing who I was didn’t feel like an option, though. I might not have been fair to them, but this was the only way I could have them.The only way I could be happy.And God, did I feel happy.It was like a dream. Literally, because I had dreamed about the two of them. But to actually be with them? Together?I had never experienced pleasure like that. Never experienced feeling so wanted and liked. I had ne