Sorry I had a hospital appointment yesterday and no time to write. nothing serious, just to make a plan regarding my hernia in an old scar. I'll probably get an operation in the future, just need to wait until they have an opening.
Zev’s povDid I kiss her? I knew I wanted to at the time.I had claimed it was like a truth serum, but this was one truth I didn’t want to admit to anyone. Especially myself.Of course, I could just have Atalanta for a brief moment. And then once I met my mate, I’d reject my mate, and what? Live happily ever after with Lana?No, she had her own mate out there.And what if she was mine? Would I be able to reject her?I would have to. For her and my sake.And then there was Raiden.My best friend. The person I cared for the most, beside my mother. The one person who had seen me at my lowest and never held it against me. Who helped me….And who clearly wanted Atalanta.Maybe it was a crush. But what if it was more?What if he was in love with his little mouse and I ruined things for him? What if she had to choose?No.All these questions didn’t matter anyway, because it was clear that Lana needed friends. Not boyfriends, and I almost ruined that.“Wake up!” Raiden knocked on my door.I ha
AtalantaThe memories of that weekend replayed in my mind long after we went home.I had never felt stronger than I did when I finished the obstacle course. Not just, because I finished a really difficult task, but because Zev only helped me when I really needed it.They both said I was fragile and needed help, but Raiden and Zev hadn’t treated me as fragile then.They had let me try, even if they might have thought I wouldn’t make it.It didn’t seem like they did, because they were both rooting for me, as was Suzie.To them, I had just finished an obstacle course, but to me, it was so much more. It was the first time I felt proud of myself and the first time others showed they were proud of me, besides the few praises from General Sweets.But I had done something that’s hard for werewolves, even. Me, a weak human. A nobody.My feelings of pride lessened when people started to comment on my relationship with Raiden and Zev, reminding me that while everyone might think they want me, the
Raiden’s povHow do I keep messing up? How do I keep hurting her?I chased behind Atalanta, wanting to explain myself, but she had already bumped into Zev.“What happened, are you okay?” He asked our little mouse.Could he smell me on her? Could he smell how our kiss had made her feel? I sure could.That kiss… My goddess, it was something else.It was supposed to be one-time. Just once to get her out of my system. It usually works. I kiss or fuck someone and then lose interest. But I wanted more. So much more that it wasn’t healthy.It was a mistake to kiss her, because now that I had a taste, I would never be able to forget her.I wanted to taste every part of her body to see if it had the same taste as that beautiful mouth of hers. Those lips. The way she shyly tried to follow my lead. She did so very well. Goddess, she was so responsive.“I’m okay,” Atalanta said.Zev growled, seeing me running towards them. “What did you do?”“I, -“ How could I explain what I had done wrong? Even i
Zev’s povPerhaps my concern for Lana stemmed from the recent letters I received from my penpal. Or, as she called herself, shy girl. SG. She started calling me KS, kind stranger.There wasn’t really a point to knowing her name. I would never meet her. There wasn’t a need to know her name or see her face. Yet when I did try to picture what she looked like, Atalanta’s face kept popping up.Maybe because they were similar in a way.Like Atalanta, SG had gone through so much. But she was actually brave enough to tell me.After I shared about my dad, SG wrote about her home life.The part that hurt the most was when she spoke about the neglect.“When I was young, I did anything I could to gain their attention. Being ignored was so painful, especially when I saw how they loved my brother. I didn’t exist to them unless I misbehaved.So whatever task they gave me, I would do it wrong on purpose. I knew they'd yell at me or punish me. Isn’t that pathetic?I wish I could say I’ve gotten used to
Atalanta’s povIt felt like there was a large rock in my stomach and a smaller one in my throat. All I wanted to do was cry. I felt so guilty about what I had done.Not just because of the way Zev reacted, but because it was wrong to kiss a werewolf in the first place.It went against everything my parents taught me.“Little Mouse, you did nothing wrong.” Raiden told me during breakfast. “We did nothing wrong.”But it didn’t feel like it. I had enjoyed kissing Raiden, so that must make me evil, right? Doing something so wrong, so dirty? Like kissing an animal, my parents would say.There was almost nobody here at school. There were maybe ten students total, and it felt very strange—almost forbidden to stay here.Suzie had suggested I come with her, and I wish I could have said yes. General Sweets had asked if I could look around and see what I could find. But Raiden was practically glued to me. It was sweet that he cared, but it made me feel even more guilty.He cared, but he didn’t re
Atalanta's pov“Is this some competition? Let’s see who Lana likes better. Let’s see if the guy who has kissed more girls than he can count can compete with the virgin best friend.” Zev scoffed, but he didn’t let go of my hand.“No, Zev.” Raiden said. “Just admit it, it feels right, the three of us. Doesn’t it?”Zev looked at me and grabbed a lock of my hair, twirling it around his finger while he thought about what Raiden just said.Raiden put me on his lap, facing Zev.“Take her face in your hands,” Raiden said to Zev. It didn’t feel like an order, but like he was trying to help Zev.“Are you sure?” Zev whispered, looking into my eyes for any signs, as he slowly did what Raiden had instructed him.“Yes.” I said. If Archer was going to tell everyone what I did, my life was already over anyway. It didn’t matter anymore what I did. And I wanted this. I wanted both of them.Before Zev could make the first move, I had already placed my lips on his. His hands were on my face, pulling me cl
Zev’s povWhen Raiden left, Lana looked at me with a sad smile.What was going on in that beautiful head of hers?“It’s weird, right?” I chuckled nervously, wishing I had some clothes on. “Maybe we should get dressed. Or shower?”“Together?” she asked shyly.Goddess, she keeps surprising me. She had found ways to reassure me every step of the way, knowing how this all made me feel without even saying a word.Raiden too. He knew I was worried and overthinking everything, and every time he told me what to do, I could shut off my mind for a bit.In those moments, I forgot about my plans. Forget about what happened to my family. But now I’m back on earth, and I can’t stop thinking about the consequences of our actions.The connection I felt to Lana was so intense that I kept wondering if she could be my mate. But then, what was Raiden’s part in all of this?He might be fine sharing now, but nobody shares their Luna. Not even Raiden.But even if Lana is my partner, it doesn't change anythin
Raiden’s povThe moment I left to get food, I felt nervous. In our room, everything felt safe and fine. I didn’t care if what we were doing was considered wrong by some people.When I was in there with my best friend and our mouse, things felt right.But while I was getting food, I started worrying about Zev.I have had casual hookups. Damn, I have only had casual hookups. But this was his first kiss, his first everything. Same goes for Atalanta.As good as the three of us feel, this can’t last.There’s no such thing as an alpha with a shared mate. It just doesn’t happen. And besides, someone like Atalanta could never be my mate.She’s not the type of Luna our pack needs. Or that I need.I need someone who will challenge me, not someone who is afraid to say no.But that doesn’t mean we can’t enjoy what we have now. And I plan to enjoy our little mouse in every way she allows it.This new talkative Atalanta is sexy as hell. The way she just grabbed Zev to kiss him. The way she took him
Raiden’s povAlthough we don’t celebrate Christmas, because you know, we don’t believe in Jesus or God, we do have our own celebration. Our celebration is rooted in pagan holidays such as Saturnalia, the winter solstice, and Yule, which also serve as the basis for Christmas, but we won't delve into that.The lights, the tree, the gifts—it's all there. Just no Santa and definitely no nativity stable and stuff.But I was working to a point… My point is, we have watched a few Christmas movies, and I am familiar with some of the songs.And the one that keeps repeating in my head is, “he’s making a list. He’s checking it twice.”I have a list as well. It’s sort of like a naughty or nice list, but it only contains those who have been bad. Those that need punishment.And I am not talking about some coal in their stocking. No… Just some good old-fashioned murder.First on my list is, of course, that fucking dickhead General Sweets. Not far behind are mommy dearest and stepdaddy. I’ve already
Atalanta’s povI looked around me, trying to hear and see if anyone noticed me. I had run here quickly, and with my size, I wasn’t as noticeable as Raiden or Zev. But I am still a wolf in a hunter's village.Everyone around me seemed too busy with the wolves near the borders of the village. People were either hiding or going out to fight, none of them expecting one of the wolves had already gotten through.I could run back. I could stick to the plan. But this is probably where the scout is being held. This could be a chance to free him.While I had my eyes closed during the night the General took me down to his laboratory, I could still hear and smell. And the only other person who was there was the doctor. Most of the people here weren’t even aware of the experiments the General performed.There could be a chance he was hiding him elsewhere, a place prisoners usually are kept. But I had this feeling in my gut. General Sweets would want more than information if he found a strong male w
Atalanta’s povTo say I was freaking out was an understatement. The only thing holding me together was reminding myself why we were doing this.It was for our future. Raiden, Zev, and I together, having our own family.And a safe place to raise that family with people that we cared about.I don’t know when the idea of having a family, of having a baby, popped up in my head. It might have been because of Zev’s letter.Even now that we’re marked, he continues to write me little notes or letters on the days I’m scheduled to work alongside Raiden or Odin.In one of them he shared how Suzie made him see sense by showing him what he could have. He described this family, with us as parents. There was no intent behind it, no pressure for me to have a baby. He was just saying that in a perfect world, one day that could be us.And it made sense. Zev and I both wanted a loving family more than anything. Raiden already has a loving family, so he’s in less of a hurry.‘And he wants you all to hims
Zev’s pov“Do you think Odin remembers what I told him about hunters using the bow and arrow first? because it makes less noise?” Lana asked while Raiden kissed her neck.She moaned softly as I unbuttoned her shirt, as instructed by Raiden during the meeting.‘We’re going to distract our mate as much as possible while enjoying each other to the fullest.’ Raiden had mindlinked me earlier. ‘I need your help, because I’m pretty sure she’s freaking the fuck out.’He had used his stupid alpha voice when he asked me. I’m not even sure he realizes he uses a different voice for some things. It’s like more authoritarian, lower somehow?To me it just sounds stupid, because I’ve grown up with the man. Honestly, it sounds like a little boy's version of how a big, strong man should sound.But if it makes him feel good, who cares, right?I removed one sleeve, and then the next, while Raiden’s kisses went lower. “He knows, little mouse.”Lana looked at me, “first bows, then guns, then knives for clos
hi, I'm sorry for the lack of updates. Last Friday I had a meeting about my oldest and the school informed me he is doing so well, they think he can transfer to a different type of school. so, from special education to a school that still has smaller classes, but the kids there need less help. he's currently going to a school with kids who are on the autism spectrum, have adhd or behavior issues. it would be a chance for him to be in a classroom that isn't as loud or disruptive. Anyway, I've been busy contacting schools and visited two today. also my husband got a vasectomy today, so I'm his nurse lol. tomorrow I should be able to write. but I wanted to explain why it's been a bit hard to find time. I'm fine, just busy.
Raiden’s povBeing the alpha is fucking awesome. Especially when you have many people around to do all the parts of the job you don’t want to do. I’m the alpha of delegating.I don’t like numbers, so, Zev, why don’t you and Stephen handle it?I’d rather hang out with my mate instead of speaking to a girl I used to hook up with once, because she has a complaint. Suzie, you’ve got this. Go speak to someone who's probably going to be pissed because I don't remember anything past her name.I need to talk to some alphas who are supposed to be our allies. You know what, Dad… Aah, fuck, that is actually something only an alpha can do.To send someone else would look like I was disrespecting them. Not that I respect most of these dickheads; they’ve been working against me and my mate behind our backs.But it’s been a few weeks now since we took over, and I think it’s time to start hunting these hunters. And I’d rather do it with more people than less.Which means I need other packs to support
Atalanta’s pov“Are you getting your period or something?” Raiden asked before Zev hit him against his arm.“You can’t just ask a woman that!”Raiden rolled his eyes, “as if you would know when she’s about to have her period; you have only been back in this relationship for a little over a week.”“That’s not the point!” Zev argued back, while I stayed quiet, watching them fight over nothing.“What is the fucking point then?” Raiden asked. “Atalanta has been more quiet than usual and a bit grumpy,” he looked at me. “Sorry, little mouse, but you are a bit moody.” Then went back to Zev, “it’s just a question.”Zev sighed, “it could be many things, and to blame it on hormones is so immature.”“Besides,” Suzie added. “Lana was probably never allowed to behave differently during her periods back home, so who knows how differently she acts around that time? I mean, I never noticed anything, and we shared a room.”Raiden looked at her while shaking his head in disbelief, “you do know we share
Atalanta’s pov“Today was perfect, everything… Just, thank you, Lana. The breakfast, my surprise, the party. I’ll thank the rest later, but I knew you had a hand in most of it.” Suzie said, as we walked to the woods together.“Not the car; I had no idea Raiden was doing that.” I replied.“Yeah, that’s crazy.” Suzie laughed nervously.“Are you sure you want me there and not him?” I knew it might be better if her future alpha was here, instead of someone who had only shifted once.She shook her head, “no. I want you there. Besides, if Stephen and Raiden were both there, they would end up bickering, and I would be too busy telling them to shut up to shift.”I giggled, “probably.”“Besides, your first shift was so different. With the being knocked out and everything. I think you need a do-over. And I like the idea of doing this together with someone for the first time. I don’t need someone telling me what to do; I have my wolf for that. I just need people around me who have my back. Who wi
Raiden’s pov‘It was so beautiful to see, and I just can’t believe how well the shift went.’ Atalanta said this as we ran back to the packhouse, still in our wolf shape.‘Uh-huh,’ I replied.She giggled, ‘you don’t want to talk right now?’‘No,’ I answered truthfully, until Zev loudly scoffed in our shared mindlink.‘Raiden! You can’t just say that!’‘Little mouse, normally I would love to hear all about how you supported your friend and how well your second time shifting went. I would love nothing more than to hear every single detail about tonight, but after. Not now.’Our mate giggled, while Zev growled. ‘You’re such an ass.’I sighed, ‘Zev… You know me better than anyone. Do you honestly think I possess the patience to listen to a story mere minutes after our mate informed us she wants to mark me?’‘Us.’“Yeah, whatever us. Do you think I’d actually be able to listen to anything she has to say? It would be a disservice to our sweet mate to let her tell her story about tonight, beca