And the chapters are locked! So here's a very long chapter to celebrate. My editor still hasn't contacted me, but at least the book is finally locked. So, I guess that's something ;)
Atalanta’s pov“These are the guest rooms. Alpha Albert wanted nothing but the best for you, all.” It was clear this was all meant for Raiden, because Alpha Albert didn’t seem to care for me or Zev.I could understand why he wouldn’t like me, but Zev had done nothing wrong.We all got our own rooms, something I did not expect. I thought I’d be rooming with Suzie here too, but it was dumb of me to think that.“Dump your stuff, and then we'll go down for lunch,” Suzie ordered before going to her own room.“I’ll take the one on the left; you’re next to me and Zev; you can take the one opposite our little mouse,” Raiden said to me and Zev.I nodded and headed inside, ready to unpack.Thanks to my birthday presents, I actually had some nice outfits to bring.But the first things I unpacked weren’t my clothes, but the letters I had received all week. We had started placing the letters in a less obvious place; now we hide them inside a book in the back of the library.We had been writing each
ZevWith every outfit, Atalanta seemed to gain some confidence. She started off with her eyes peeled to the floor, but the more compliments we gave her, the more she began to lift her head. She started looking at herself in the mirror and trying to decide if she liked the clothes.I don’t think she ever had a choice in what she was able to wear. Which is crazy, right?Or maybe it just didn’t interest her before?“That’s really cute, Lana. Let’s buy that.” Suzie spoke, while Raiden and I nodded in agreement.Raiden and Lana took turns showing off their outfits, although Suzie had picked out a lot more clothes than Raiden had.While I did my best to show enthiasm, my mind was elsewhere.Every day for a week, I had been able to write about my feelings, and every day I had gotten a reply. Writing letters to my new penpal had made me stop writing my mom, which had filled me with a guilt I didn’t expect.Would she look down from the moon and feel disappointed? Or was she happy I was finally
Atalanta’s povAlthough I don’t consider myself smart and I don’t know much about the world, there are things I’ve heard and seen growing up.Seeing my brother getting ready to go swimming. Him talking to our parents about learning to swim and seeing pictures of people swimming in the few text books I got when mom homeschooled me.And I also know that I have never swum.But it didn’t click until we were actually there, and I saw all the people wearing their bikinis and swimming trunks, jumping into the large pool.Swimming is a lot different than I thought it was.Mostly, the diving and jumping were different. They made themselves into a ball, splashing water everywhere.One thing I did realize soon enough was that it was better that I didn’t get into the pool. I was already ruining Zev and Raiden’s night by having them babysit me.Since I’m not good at most things, I’m pretty sure swimming won’t be any different.Thankfully, Raiden's stomach pulled him towards the barbeque, and he pul
Raiden’s povThis girl… This little mouse that suddenly grew balls and wanted to jump in the pool, say whatever she thought and straddled my lap, giving me the biggest tent in my swimming trunks I ever had.As she’s sitting underneath my arm, trying to hide her embarrassment, I’m replaying the hour or so she spent high as a kite.When Zev and the little mouse accidentally drank belladonna, I tried to act calm. Secretly, I was already plotting the death of the guy who served us the drink without a fair warning.Or maybe I wouldn’t kill him, I’d just drug him and then throw him in the pool with weights tied to his body so he could experience what Atalanta had.It was Zevm I was worried about most. If he started to hallucinate, what would he see? His mom?Or would he be reliving the worst possible night of his life, unable to stop it?While Zev didn’t voice his worries out loud, I knew what he was thinking.My loyalties had always been with Zev, but tonight I had to choose. And for some r
Zev’s povDid I kiss her? I knew I wanted to at the time.I had claimed it was like a truth serum, but this was one truth I didn’t want to admit to anyone. Especially myself.Of course, I could just have Atalanta for a brief moment. And then once I met my mate, I’d reject my mate, and what? Live happily ever after with Lana?No, she had her own mate out there.And what if she was mine? Would I be able to reject her?I would have to. For her and my sake.And then there was Raiden.My best friend. The person I cared for the most, beside my mother. The one person who had seen me at my lowest and never held it against me. Who helped me….And who clearly wanted Atalanta.Maybe it was a crush. But what if it was more?What if he was in love with his little mouse and I ruined things for him? What if she had to choose?No.All these questions didn’t matter anyway, because it was clear that Lana needed friends. Not boyfriends, and I almost ruined that.“Wake up!” Raiden knocked on my door.I ha
AtalantaThe memories of that weekend replayed in my mind long after we went home.I had never felt stronger than I did when I finished the obstacle course. Not just, because I finished a really difficult task, but because Zev only helped me when I really needed it.They both said I was fragile and needed help, but Raiden and Zev hadn’t treated me as fragile then.They had let me try, even if they might have thought I wouldn’t make it.It didn’t seem like they did, because they were both rooting for me, as was Suzie.To them, I had just finished an obstacle course, but to me, it was so much more. It was the first time I felt proud of myself and the first time others showed they were proud of me, besides the few praises from General Sweets.But I had done something that’s hard for werewolves, even. Me, a weak human. A nobody.My feelings of pride lessened when people started to comment on my relationship with Raiden and Zev, reminding me that while everyone might think they want me, the
Raiden’s povHow do I keep messing up? How do I keep hurting her?I chased behind Atalanta, wanting to explain myself, but she had already bumped into Zev.“What happened, are you okay?” He asked our little mouse.Could he smell me on her? Could he smell how our kiss had made her feel? I sure could.That kiss… My goddess, it was something else.It was supposed to be one-time. Just once to get her out of my system. It usually works. I kiss or fuck someone and then lose interest. But I wanted more. So much more that it wasn’t healthy.It was a mistake to kiss her, because now that I had a taste, I would never be able to forget her.I wanted to taste every part of her body to see if it had the same taste as that beautiful mouth of hers. Those lips. The way she shyly tried to follow my lead. She did so very well. Goddess, she was so responsive.“I’m okay,” Atalanta said.Zev growled, seeing me running towards them. “What did you do?”“I, -“ How could I explain what I had done wrong? Even i
Zev’s povPerhaps my concern for Lana stemmed from the recent letters I received from my penpal. Or, as she called herself, shy girl. SG. She started calling me KS, kind stranger.There wasn’t really a point to knowing her name. I would never meet her. There wasn’t a need to know her name or see her face. Yet when I did try to picture what she looked like, Atalanta’s face kept popping up.Maybe because they were similar in a way.Like Atalanta, SG had gone through so much. But she was actually brave enough to tell me.After I shared about my dad, SG wrote about her home life.The part that hurt the most was when she spoke about the neglect.“When I was young, I did anything I could to gain their attention. Being ignored was so painful, especially when I saw how they loved my brother. I didn’t exist to them unless I misbehaved.So whatever task they gave me, I would do it wrong on purpose. I knew they'd yell at me or punish me. Isn’t that pathetic?I wish I could say I’ve gotten used to