CHAPTER 6

CHAPTER 6- PROPOSAL

MARIA

"Maria, kindly give me the papers that I needed to sign. Also, bring my schedule for today."

Isang baritonong tinig ang nagpabalik saakin sa realidad. I was just staring blankly infront of my computer. I tried to work my a*s off but I just can't because there is so many things running inside my head. There is so many what ifs that didn't help me to calm down.

I am really nervous right now. I tried to divert my attention, but I still keep on drowning in my thoughts. I want to be calm as possible, but I don't know how to. Being relaxed was out of my vocabulary right now.

I was wondering what would be his reaction. Will he be mad at me? Magagalit kaya sya at pipilitin na ipalaglag ang bata o papanagutan ako nito? Those question keeps on repeating inside my head that will make me end up drowning.

"Maria! Are you listening?" Rinig kong sigaw sa intercom kaya agad akong napabalik sa realidad. Napatayo ako at nanginginig na naglakad papuntang pintuan nya. Muntik na akong matumba at mabuti na nga lang ay nakahawak ako sa mesa ko dahil kung hindi ay baka nakaupo na ako sa sahig.

I sighed deeply and swallowed the lump in my throat. After that I knock on his door before I opened it.

Kagat labi akong pumasok habang nakayuko. I tried to calm my self. Pumikit ako ng mariin bago ako nag angat ng tingin. Napalunok ako ng magtama ang paningin namin. Hindi ko din maiwasan na sawayin ang sarili dahil sa isang emosyon na pilit na lumulukob sakin. Maria! Get rid of that thought! Buntis ka na't lahat lahat ang halay mo pa din!

Maybe that was my hormone. I am pregnant and I am craving for something and that is--him.

"What?! Tatayo ka nalang dyan at tutunganga?! Sabi ko give me the papers! Maria!"

Who would not right? I just can't help but fantasizing him. Habang nakatingin sa kanya ay mas lalo lamang itong gumagwapo sa paningin ko. He looks so hot and sexy that I want to devour him.

It may be the hormones that made me feel this but we can't get rid the fact that he is really hot and gorgeous. Gorgeous is his middle name and Hot is his extension name.

"Maria! Are you listening?!" Napaigtad naman ako ng hampasin nito ang mesa at nanlilisik akong tignan. Napalunok ako at nanginginig ang mga tuhod na lumapit sa kanya at binigay ang papel na kakailanganin nito.

I am so lost with my own thoughts that I didn't notice I was spacing out in front of him. I was used to his shoutings but today I am not just feeling well that I want to cry.

Before I will lost to my emotions I immediately stop my self and tried to regain my composure. I don't want to break down in front of him because that would be embarrassing. Baka mas lalo lamang itong magalit sa akin. Yung mukha nya ngayon ay parang inis na inis na. I don't know if that was because of me or something.

I cleared my throat before I speak. "Sir, may meeting kayo kay Mr. lamayo, One o'clock. Mr. Mendez 2 o'clock at Ms. Gallancia 4 o'clock." I informed him and tried my best not to stutter. I am very thankful that I didn't because it will just add to the frustration that he is feeling. I may not feeling well but I can see that he is frustrated right now. Alam ko na kahit konting pagkakamali ko lang ay mapupuna nito kapag naiinis ito o frustrated.

Tumango naman ito at bago yumuko at kinalikot ang file na binigay ko sa kanya. I was just looking at him and when he noticed that he lift his head to look at me. I cleared my throat but didn't dare to look away. It is not that I don't want to but because I can't. Para bang may magnet ang mga mata nito at ayaw putulin ang titig sa akin.

Earlier I was drowned in my thoughts but now I was drowned in his grey eyes. Sa dalawang taon ko dito ay hindi ko pa rin maiwasan ang maamaze sa mga mata nito. There is so much intensity in his eyes right now.

I tried to look away and blink repeatedly to come back to my senses.

"A-ah may kailangan pa po kayo sir?" Kinakabahang tanong ko sa kanya dahil nakatitig lang ito sakin.It looks like he tried to read me. Para bang may malalim itong iniisip o di kaya ay tinitimbang nito ang reaksyon ko and that makes me confused. Why?

That stares. It didn't help me to relaxed because his stares is like burning me. So I cannot only be burn by his words and actions but also his stares. And that is the reason why I called him a dragon. Dragon is somewhat associated with fire, and his everyday living is like a fire.

Kumunot ang noo ko dahil parang wala itong narinig at nakatitig pa rin sa akin. I decided to remain from my place for one minute and when he didn't said any words I decided to speak up again.

"Kung wala na po kayong kailangan ay aalis na ako." Sabi ko at tatalikod na sana pero tinawag ako nito.

I stopped on my track. Kumunot ang noo ko dahil sa biglaang pagpigil nito sa akin. Earlier, I stayed here for almost 2 minutes but he didn't utter a single word but now that I decided to leave, he called me to stay?

Sometimes, I can't really believe my boss. I know him as a person who values his time. He wants every second of his time to be spent properly. And now I can't believe that he wasted his time by just staring at me. Why? Am I that beautiful?

I wanted to smile but I refrain my self. I cleared my throat and waited for his next statement.

"Maria. Please sit down, and I have a proposal for you." Turan nito kaya kumunot ang noo ko at dahan-dahang umupo sa harap nito. Kahit nagtataka ay wala na akong nagawa kundi ang sumunod sa sasabihin nito.

He get something from his drawer and I was just staring at him. Sobrang tahimik ko na alam ko na isa din sa pinagtataka nya. Yes, I am very serious in my work, but not this serious that I am right now. Maybe because of so many thoughts in my mind and also because of my nervousness.

Mataman na naman itong nakatitig saakin na para bang isa akong magandang painting na nakita nya. Just kidding.

I cleared my throat that made him back to his reverie. Napakurap ito ng isang beses at tinignan ako ng seryoso--like kailan pa ba ito hindi nag seryoso?

I cleared my throat again and decided to asked what he meant by saying 'proposal' "Ahm.. ano po ang ibig mong sabihin boss?" Tanong ko kaya bumuntong hininga ito at nilahad saakin ang isang papel. Kumunot ang noo ko at nagtaka. What was this all about?

Nagtataka man ay kinuha ko ito at nakabuntong hiningang binuksan ang folder. I am very confused right now. Ano ang proposal na gusto nitong iparating?

I started to read the 'proposal' that he is saying and I can't help but raise my brow while reading every sentence. But along the way, I can feel my heartbeat slowly changing its pace. It was starting to beat faster while trying to sink in all of the information written in the paper.

Kumunot ang noo ko at lumalim ang hininga ko. What is he talking about? I mean w-why? H-how? I don't know how to form a sentence anymore. I was so shocked that I can't still process everything. Right now I am not a coward who is trying not to understand everything. Now, I am just plainly a stupid person who can't comprehend everything that I have read on the paper.

Seriously?! Is he really serious about this?

**WRITTEN BY STRINGLILY**