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Chapter 11- Letting Go
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2024-10-29 19:42:56“I don’t think we should do this” Ryan says suddenly. I takes a deep breath and look at her. Her words are like a cold shower, but I’m still hard as a rock so I sit to gather my thoughts. I’m silent, I don’t know what happened because one moment she’s sucking my tongue like it’s her life line and I can almost feel my cock claim her wet pussy then boom she says this. My hands are on her perfect ass; rubbing softly. She has the type of ass people pay money for. I want to spank, bite and do incredible things to her ass. But judging by the direction of her thoughts right now all the former will remain a fantasy
“Okay” I say softly, what else can I say? .
“You get why we can’t right?” she asks but doesn’t get up from me and I don’t make a move to get her off. But I stop rubbing her ass.
“No, I don’t” I state and fold my arms on my chest. She looks at my arms looking a little disappointed. I ignore her feelings and care about mine. She doesn’t care that she just fucking lit me up and now she’s putting me out like an illegal fire at the beach.
If only this woman knew how much I want her. I want to fuck her and never stop. I want to worship her body, I want to bury my cock in her pussy, pull out of her eat her out and bury myself in her again. I want to feel her body shiver from my cock thrusting into her. I want her to call out my name in pleasure because she deserves all that and more.
“Gabriel Come on” she says as if I know what’s going on in that brain of hers. I look at her silent.
“Look you don’t want me, I get it,” I say intending to stand up but I don’t. I know I should get up and go. Hell, I shouldn’t even be here but I am and I’m still not leaving. All this has heartbreak written all over it.
“I… “ she starts saying but closes her mouth.
“I’m your brother’s best friend” I say before she says anything. “and you’ll never see me as anything but”. I say standing up, she slides off me sitting on the sofa. I stand up straight and look at her. I scratch my head and lean back down. I look at her soft lips and can’t resist one last kiss. I plunge my tongue into her mouth and she opens up for me. I kiss her with all that I have, taking all that she’s willing to give me right now. She moans and grabs my neck, I move back on the sofa and lay her on her back. I kiss her and slide between her legs, how I wish we didn’t have these clothes on. I stop kissing her and look at her, my heart is beating at 100. I decide to leave before we go too far and I can’t stop.
“Gabe” she whispers and grabs my top and pulls it off.
“Ryan are you… “ I say when she gets up and grazes her teeth on my lips and bite me softly. I feel it all the way in my toes. All thought leaves and lust takes over. I grab her jersey and take it off. I do away with her bra and she takes off her shorts and underwear. My eyes trail to her pussy, I lower down and smell her. I commit her scent to memory, my cock twitches in my pants. He wants to come out and play. I look up at Ryan and her face is lust, excitement and want. She bites her lips and grabs my neck to pull me up for a kiss but I dive into her pussy. I suck on her pussy lips, sucking each labia in turns avoiding her clit. I lick her feasting on her. I raise her ass up with my hand and lick her from her ass hole to her clit. And she explodes screaming my name. I suck on her clit hard, she writhes with pleasure trying to push me away but I keep her where I want her and don’t stop sucking on her clit.
“Please! Gabe Please! Stop” she begs but I don’t relent, I keep sucking and she squirts. She moans my name.
“Fuck yes baby” I say when I come up for air, she smiles and pulls me up for a kiss. I try to move back to her pussy and she stops me.
“I haven’t had my fill my love. I still want more” I say as she kisses me hard, her hands work at taking my pants off. I help her take it all off and my cock stands proudly harder than I’ve ever been. She stares at my cock and twitches even harder, her face says she’s about to change her mind. Thinks about it for a second and she looks at me
“Gabe I’ve never been with anyone as big as you, I don’t think I can…you won’t fit. You’re big” she says looking at me and then my cock, my brain ican only process a few words at a time, I want her. I blink to clear my mind, I need to do this right.
“Ryan I promise you, I’ll take care of you. You can take me. I’m going to take it slow. I promise. She looks at me unsure.
“Do you want to stop?” I ask when I see the look on her face.
“No, but..” she says and keeps quiet.
“Do you want to touch me!” I say and my cock twitches at the anticipation of her touching me.
Precum spills out and Ryan uses her fingers and has a taste then moans. She looks me deep in my eyes and grabs my cock hard and I almost come in her hand. I thrust into her hand and she smiles a knowing smile. She squeezes me hard and the look in her eyes has changed as if she’s decided against all her doubts.
“You like that?” she asks boldly, the undecided shy girl gone. She’s alive and she makes me feel like a king and she is my queen. And I will worship her.
“I fucking love it” I say thrusting into her hand again.
“Then fuck me” she says letting go of me and laying on her back. I reach for my pants to take out protection. She spreads her legs wide and sinks two fingers into her pussy. I get lost on her beauty as I try to remember how to open the suddenly too small foil packet. She moans while she plays with her pussy, her juices flow out. Her scent envelopes me and it takes all the strength in the world to put the condom on I watch her fingers go in and out of her pussy and my cock throbs in the confines of the protection. I look up at her and find her watching me. Her mouth open, she looks exquisite; more than anything I could have conjured up in a fantasy or in a dream.
“I think my pussy likes you” she says smiling.
“I think I like her too” I say kneeling between her legs. I guide my cock to her opening and place the head there and stop. I look at her and she holds my gaze. I start to move into her, the head of my cock is thick so it take a little push to get into her pussy. Ryan feels my cock enter her and she has a look of surprise, I’m big and she’s a little small so we might need to take it a little easy at first. I push further into her and she makes a sound in protest. I move a little further and her pussy grips me, it takes all I have not to shove my whole member into this tight haven.
“Gabe,” she says my name in protest, I slowly move forward so I can be fully on top her I move deeper into her burying myself cock in her completely. She screams and bites into my shoulder from the pain of my cock stretching her completely. I don’t register the pain of her biting me only the pleasure of being buried in her.
“Gabe please” she pleads, I know if she holds on a little while longer the pleasure will kick in. I hold still and give her a moment to adjust to my size.
“I got you, baby, just give it a minute, you’ll adjust to me. Try to relax my love” I say trying to calm her, I bite her neck and soothe it with a kiss. I feel her relax and I pull out of her completely. I bite her neck and thrust into her slowly. I pull out of her again and smooth where I bit her with a kiss. I move to her breast, biting softly on her nipple and sucking hard when I pull out. I fuck her slowly and deeply until I feel her quiver.
“Gabe what are you doing to me?” she whispers as I thrust deep into her.
“I’m worshipping you like the queen you are,” I say pulling out slowly. I look at her eyes, they are filled with pleasure but she’s still holding back.
“I can feel you everywhere, I don’t know…” she trails off as her quiver intensifies, her legs shake slightly and I bury myself inside her and stop moving and look at her beautiful face...
“Why did you stop? I was about to come” she says looking at me like she wants to cuss me out.
“Not yet baby, not yet” I say as I hook my arm under her thighs and thrust hard into her. She screams in pleasure as her pussy takes my cock with ease. The pain she felt gone. I pull out completely and thrust harder into her.
“Fuck, you’re amazing. You were made for me, look at you take me. Thank you for your trust .” I pull out and thrust into her over and over.
“I’m coming Gabe” she screams staring deep into my eyes.
“Come for me my love” I say burying myself in her welcoming folds. She screams, her body tenses and her leg wraps around my arms tightly. Her orgasm tips me over and I come so hard my whole body shakes. I spill my seed into the condom and hope it holds.
We stay like that for a while neither of us able to move, then I carefully untangle my arm from her leg. And pull out her. She sits up watching me take the condom off, I test it out to check for any leaks. I find none and I hear her sigh audibly. I look at her with a raised brow.
“ I’m not on birth control,” she says reaching for her top and she puts it on. She stands up and folds her arms and takes a step away from me. Now I’m the one sighing audibly.
“Ryan” I start to say but she raises her hand to silence me.
“Please leave,” she says and walks away from me and to her bedroom where she slams her door shut.
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