Chapter 34
“It's because you're pregnant, Faith. 1 week pregnant to be exact,” The world just stopped. Everything around me suddenly turned silent. My brain was not working. I couldn't move on my seat; I was too stunned to speak. No words came out of my mouth. Even my eyes were glued at the doctor in front of me. “You're pregnant and everything you're experiencing is normal, Faith.” I am what? I'm pregnant? I don't know what to say. I don't know what to feel at that moment. I was trying to process it all in my head. But I was too speechless to speak. “Are you married?” She asked again. I can clearly hear her. But perhaps, there was a lump in my throat that forbids me to speak. My heart was pounding. I can hear its deafening beat that makes me feel like I'm going deaf. I suddenly felt cold as if my entire body was freezing. I found my shivering hand placed on my belly. “Yes, I'm married.” My voice almost broke as I nodded to her. There is one thing I know, it wasn't sadness nor pain that I felt. It was joy—a great depth of joy that I wanted to jump. My tears began to slip out of my eyes and I had no control of it. “I'm sorry,” I uttered and chuckled. I'm being emotional all of a sudden. It was a tear of joy, indeed. “Congratulations, Faith. I'm sure your husband would be so happy to hear about this,” He surely will. When I left the hospital and drove back to our house, I couldn't even stop from hearing what the doctor said. It was echoing in my head and my lips would probably be torn from smiling all the time. “Ms. Faith, we prepared your dinner. Are you eating now or will you wait for Sir Elijah?” Marie asked when I arrived. I heaved a heavy sigh while wearing a broad smile. I wanted to tell her the news that I have, which joys my heart so much. But I want Elijah to know about it first more than anyone else. “It’s still early. I'm sure he's on his way here. I'll just wait,” I said. I decided to take a shower while waiting for Elijah. I already messaged him but I received nothing. Well, maybe he's still busy working so I didn't bother him anymore. “Ms. Faith, are you sure you're gonna wait for him? I think he's going home late,” Marie said when I was already in the living room, waiting for Marie. I checked the time on my phone and it's already 10 pm, a bit late for dinner. “I'll call him,” I blew out a light sigh before I started to dial his number. I tried to dial him five times and he wasn't answering the call. I glanced at Marie whose eyes were glued to me. “He's not answering. Do you think he's busy?” I'm already worried. Elijah usually answers my calls and he's already updating me. But ever since he left home earlier, I didn't receive anything from him anymore. “Maybe? I think you should eat. You're not feeling well, right?” I wanted to wait for him a little longer. But I know that I do not just decide for myself but for my baby as well. “I'll wait for another thirty minutes. You can rest, I'll eat by myself.” She couldn't leave her eyes at me and I know that she was already worried. At the end, I waited there for another thirty minutes. I even opened the door so I could watch the gate of our mansion from afar. But then, another hour passed and there were still no shadows of Elijah. He didn't respond to any of my texts and calls, either. I had no choice but to eat for the sake of my baby. Where is he? I really want to deliver him the exciting news. I don't know how many hours I waited even after I ate my dinner. I just woke up when I heard a car from outside and found myself sleeping in the living room. “Elijah?” I quickly stood up and opened the door. In one snap, a bright smile appeared on my lips when I finally saw him. “Elijah,” I called again. I couldn't wait to tell him everything and watch his reaction. His eyes landed at me, but there was something different from those. It disturbed and bothered me for a moment. “Where have you been?” I asked. He didn't say anything and just came inside. My brows crossed when I smelled the reek of alcohol from him. Did he drink? Is that the reason why he came home late? “Did you drink?” No answer. He went inside as if I was a wind. “Hey, is there a problem?” I grabbed his arm to make him stop from walking. He glanced at me with those blank and coldest eyes of his, which made me see the cruel Elijah I once met. “I’m tired,” he said and turned his back at me. “I have something to tell you,” I followed him upstairs with still the excitement I have since earlier. “Can we talk for a moment? It's really impor—” “Can you shut up?!” He exclaimed. I froze right there when he raised his voice to me. He looks very upset. My chest began to pound heavily with a glimpse of fear. That moment, I feel like I saw the cruel Elijah that I never wished to meet again. He shut his eyes firmly and walked a bit away from me. “I'm sorry,” he mumbled. “I can't do this right now,” he added, while I was still lost for words. “I'll sleep in my old room,” he said before he left me there. I was too stunned to speak. My fear came back again, satiating me entirely. I stayed up all night to wait for him so I can tell him that he's gonna be a father. But then, it ended in a way that I wasn't anticipating. Was he just tired and a bit drunk? Was it just bad timing? I made myself believe that all night, trying to gaslight myself that the cruel Elijah would not come back anymore. I wasn't able to sleep all night. I pulled myself out of my bed when the sun hit my room. I stayed up all night looking beside my bed where Elijah used to sleep. My biggest fear is eating me up all night, that I wasn't able to sleep anymore. “Shit,” I cursed, the next day. I was throwing up on the toilet again while I felt the same pain in my stomach. I stayed there for a few minutes after throwing up. I suddenly felt feeble that I couldn't stand up from the cold floor. I have no one beside me to even just caress my back. After a few minutes, I took a shower and went downstairs. “Is he awake?” I quickly asked Marie as soon as I came downstairs after dressing up for work. “He left early, around 6 am?” She breathed heavily as she eyed me. “Is everything fine?” I bit my lower lip as I sat in the dining hall with my shoulders down. Disappointment invaded me. I really thought I would see him so I could tell him the news. “Yeah,” I lied. Everything's not fine. My fear of losing Elijah again is filling me up. It's killing me inside and out. “From now on, can you serve me milk and some healthy food like vegetables and fruits?” I asked Marie while I was eating. “Of course. Why do you suddenly want to be healthy?” She even chuckled. I wouldn't want to change my eating habits, only if I am not pregnant. “I went to the doctor. She told me that I just lack some vitamins,” I made that up again. I don't know until when I will conceal the truth. I have no idea when I plan to carry this by myself. I'm scared. I'm so scared of what might happen in the future together with this baby. I headed to my shop after that. I have no energy at all. I couldn't rest my mind from overthinking. Elijah was different last night. I felt like I met the cruel Elijah once again. I feel like he's coming back again and everything is about to sink again. “Are you okay? You've been staring to nowhere since earlier,” Lily uttered while she had her laptop on her lap, working here. “Huh? Of course,” I closed my eyes firmly as I tried to pull myself together. “Is everything fine? Is it Elijah?” I paused when she guessed it right. “No,” I quickly denied. “I'm just a bit tired,” I added and forced a smile on my lips. I don't want her to worry again about my relationship with Elijah. I've seen how glad she was when she heard that Elijah and I are finally working things out. I don't want to get it back anymore. “You should go home early, then.” She commented. Thankfully, she was too busy to check on me. If not, she would probably have caught me lying on her face. I did what she told me. I went home a bit early, not to rest, but to hope that Elijah is now home. “Is there no other way?” I asked my driver. We've been on the road for almost twenty minutes and we are not even moving. We're damn stuck with this heavy traffic. “We're too stuck to go the other way,” he uttered. I shut my eyes firmly. I guess this day isn't for me at all. “Shit,” I muttered. Not until my eyes landed on the café along the road. I froze the moment I saw a very familiar face inside, laughing with a woman who's playing with his hair. “E-Elijah,” I mumbled. My husband was there, having a blast with that unknown woman. I'm sure that she's a new one as I didn't see her before in our house. But then, I felt like I lost all my strength the moment I caught them again. In one snap, my world crumbled again and everything around me started to move. I closed my eyes firmly as I felt sick again. I don't know if it was because of my pregnancy or because I saw Elijah with another woman again. I thought we're done with her women? I thought it's over? When the car finally moved, I found myself bursting into tears as I glanced at Elijah again until they vanished from my sight. Is he back? Is the old Elijah who despised me is back again? Why now? Why now when I'm pregnant? itsclarixassChapter 35Instead of waiting in the living room until Elijah comes home, I headed straight to the room where he slept last night. My entire body was shivering while I was walking there repeatedly. I was biting my nails already while I couldn't calm the storms in my head. They were flirting. I knew it from one glance. How can a married man allow another woman to play with his hair? That woman's look at him was sticky like a leech clinging on him. She has the same look that his women had before. That moment, I was so scared. My fear was already filling me up that my brain is not working anymore. “What are you doing here?”“Elijah,” I stopped when he came inside the room. His eyes were cold and blank again, totally different from the way he looked at me when we were in Siargao. There was no glimpse of care from his eyes. All I can see was hatred and pain that fills him up. “W-Where have you been?” My voice trembled. I waited so long for him and yet I couldn't construct the words that
Chapter 36I woke up with the same old film again. My eyes were swollen and my pillows on the bed were soaked by all my tears last night. I don't know how many hours I only slept. I couldn't take Elijah out of my head. “Don't worry, baby. You'll have a father,” I chuckled as I talked to my baby inside me. “We will have a happy family,” that's all I want. I don't just want this for myself, I want this for our child. I don't want this baby to grow up witnessing all this chaos and seeing how wrecked the parents he has. Am I asking for too much? Is it a big wish to grant? I just want to have a very simple life where happiness and peace are always present. This mansion is damn big and expensive. But little did they know, it's the darkest home in the entire world. All the pain and hurtful words are filling this house. Joy was once present here, but it drifted away in one snap and I wasn't able to do anything. Why do I feel like the world isn't happy when I am? “Ms. Faith,” I eyed Marie
Chapter 37“Y-You're what?” Lily asked.They were all looking at me, filled with surprise. None of them were able to react swiftly right after I announced my pregnancy to them. Lucas beside Lily wasn't moving at all. His widened eyes remained at me, unable to speak up. “Y-You're pregnant?” She asked again. It seems like her world collided all of a sudden, which made her feeble after hearing the news. I nodded at her as my answer. I even placed my hand on my belly as I drew a tiny smile on my lips. “I'm one week pregnant,” I can already picture myself carrying my baby. I can imagine myself taking care of this baby, but not alone. That's what I cannot picture in my head, taking care of our baby alone without Elijah beside me. I don't know what to do if I take this all alone. I don't know what would be the life of this child if I carry it alone. I need Elijah the most right now. I need him so fucking bad that I am willing to drop who I am just to beg him to stay. Not for me, but for
Chapter 38“How long will you experience that?” Marie asked while caressing my back as I was throwing up again on the toilet in my room. I couldn't even paint my face anymore with the pain that I feel inside my stomach. I almost glued my face there after it finally stopped. I feel so feeble, early in the morning. “Are you okay? What should I do?” She asked, being hysterical. Her entire face was showing me how worried she was. She looks at me as if I am sick when I am just pregnant.“I'm good,” I replied. I tried to stand up and she didn't let me do it alone. I had to brush my teeth immediately before I threw myself back on my bed again. I didn't know that it is so hard to carry a baby inside your womb. “Is it still morning sickness? Maybe you should see a doctor again,” I chuckled when Marie couldn't really calm her own storms. She's too worried to me that she's overthinking already. “The doctor said that this is normal. Besides, I'll go back tomorrow for another check up,” I men
Chapter 39It was a nightmare—a nightmare that I thought I already overcome before. Nightmare that I thought would never visit me again. “Ohhhh,”“Ahhhh, Elijah!”“Faster, baby!” I was facing my ceiling with my tears slipping out of my eyes endlessly. I am soaking my pillow again and the ceiling of my room is the witness of how I cried again. I can hear them clearly from the next room. The moan of the woman was filling my ears. I don't hear Elijah's moan, but that doesn't change the fact that my husband is fucking another woman again right in front of me. How am I even supposed to sleep? I don't know how long I've been hearing that. If I can only gather my tears, I can probably make my own ocean. The next few minutes, it became silent. Now, I'm stuck there, picturing in my head what they are doing right now on the same bed where Elijah and I did it and where we both slept together. Is his hand wrapped on her waist? Are they cuddling? Are they breathing closer to each other so that
Chapter 40Starting that day that my doctor warned me about my sensitive pregnancy, I chose peace above all. Elijah continued what he was doing; bringing different women to our house and fucking them all night. I had to do something to bear it and unhear their moanings. I started listening to music, wearing my earphones to fall asleep, as I make sure that I won't hear any disgusting noise from all his fantasies. I avoided stress as much as I could, and that means I had to avoid Elijah who's bringing stress in my life. “He's not stopping,” Marie uttered while I was eating my breakfast. It became my hobby to eat breakfast, leave for work and come back again to sleep. I always see different women here each night that I go home. It's either a woman, or Elijah is drunk. I decided to act and treat them like a damn wind as I am carrying my child with me. “I saw them doing that in the garden,” I can see how Marie is disgusted to see Elijah's mess being brought here. “Don't mention it to
Chapter 41 “It was planned?” Lily asked with her eyes widened in surprise at the news she just heard from us. We are in my office and I was already spacing out. I couldn't focus my mind on work because of what the policemen said. Freya’s death wasn't an accident. What happened to the two of us there was not an accident; it was all planned by someone we don't know. “The police said it was planned. The brake of the car was destroyed when Freya and Faith used it. They investigated it, and it was not really broken. It seems like someone really just broke it intentionally,” Lucas explained. I don't know what I should feel. My sister died because of that and I don't know who killed her. “Who will do such a thing?” Lily was also stunned. She was totally puzzled. Just like me, she has no idea who would plan such a cruel death. “That only means that the person behind this wants the two of you dead, not just Freya.” Lucas now said. “Freya has no enemies, you know that. I couldn't thin
Chapter 42Third Person’s POV“Faith, wake up. Stay with me, Faith!” Elijah was trembling as he tried to make his wife conscious just until they arrived at the hospital. Faith was still bleeding down there, which made him even more nervous. He didn't know that his wife was nervous. He has no fucking idea that Faith is already with a baby and yet he became a jerk, hurting her each day as he brings tons of women to their house. “Drive faster!” He exclaimed to the driver who couldn't speak anymore. Even him was trembling with what just happened. As soon as they arrived, Elijah carried out her wife, followed by the driver who's already reaching out to Lily and Lucas. “What happened?” The nurses quickly helped him as they put her on the stretcher and ran to the emergency room. “She's pregnant,” Elijah replied. “You can't go inside, Sir. The doctor will take over,” the nurse said and stopped him from coming in. “Fuck!” He shouted as he kicked the wall. His entire hands were covered
Chapter 69“I know you won't listen to any of my reasons and explanations,” I remained silent while looking outside the window. Elijah was already driving and we are near to the place we are going. We ate together earlier. We became silent and cold after how I reacted after seeing a happy family again. “But I am sincere, Faith. I want to prove to you that,” my hands were crumpled on my lap. I did everything to ignore him as I chose not to respond. Up until now, all I can feel towards him is hatred. The wounds are too deep to be cured in one snap. But then, I don't know where my pain and this revenge I planned and prepared for four damn years would take me. We arrived at the place and when I was about to escape him, he quickly grabbed my hands and I once again felt the warmth of those hands. He was able to capture my eyes as we faced each other inside the car. His eyes were begging at me, asking for another chance. I knew from that moment that I was being fragile already. I knew th
Chapter 68“You have to leave today and come back tomorrow?” Lily asked while I was packing all my things. My secretary called me and just told me that I have an important meeting with an important client. The place would be just next to the city where we are, but it would still be a long trip. “Yup. I gotta go, that's a huge client.” I replied. I think this is better than staying with her. “It's our last day here in the hotel. Would you just like to head straight to my condo tomorrow?” I paused from packing my things when she mentioned that. I almost forgot about that already. I agreed to live with her before finding out about Freya's death. Lily has been with me all my life and I would always want to be with her eternally. “I don't think I can live there,” I was able to capture her eyes when I said that. She looks surprised and a bit confused. Well, we already agreed to live together in her condo. However, the situation is different now. I am in an extreme peril and she is one
Chapter 67 “Then I wouldn't mind killing people,” his eyes were glued to me the moment he said that. We exchanged tough stares together, and he was reading me like a damn book. I didn't back down as I was trying to examine every reaction from him. He wouldn't mind killing people? I suddenly remember how I found out that he has feelings for me. It was the day Elijah and Lucas fought that they almost killed each other. He had feelings for me and Lucas knew all my life that my parents didn't treat me right as they always had their eyes on Freya. “Really?” I asked, trying to catch him. The side of his lips moved and nodded. “Yeah, of course. I mean, that's how I love. I don't want my woman getting hurt,” Tension—that was what filled the entire room. It felt like there were only the two of us and Lily and Brian were not there at all. He remained looking at me and I didn't back down. But inside me, I was terrified. Not with the fact that he might hurt me, but the fact that if he's rea
Chapter 66 “It's really them,” Elijah uttered while reviewing the documents that the detective brought. I was in awe, or perhaps in despair. My eyes were stuck in nowhere. I couldn't say a single word after he told us the new suspects. Lily and Lucas. They were both close in my heart. I have been with them my entire life and they have witnessed everything that I have been through. It's not just that, Freya is also their friend. We are all damn friends and yet one of them might be the culprit. “Now we have three suspects: your mother, Lily and Lucas.” The detective said while my entire world is already colliding. I wanted to prepare myself, but I couldn't. No matter who it is, it would surely shatter me to the point that I might not know how to stand up again. All my life, I thought we were not just friends but a family that I never had. “Only one of them is the suspect,” Elijah uttered, trying to crack the puzzle. “As of now, all I can do is to watch them closely. You should
Chapter 65I closed my eyes, trying to feel the same feeling I've felt towards Elijah. My lips were on his lips, and my hand even traveled on his neck. I moved my lips, still eager to make myself feel those strange feelings I used to have. But then, no matter how I tried, I felt nothing. It was not the same when I remember myself kissing Elijah. It was totally different. It was always strange, but I loved it. The soft kiss that would make my eyes close without me noticing. The silence, as if no one was around us. Our breaths hit each other's face. Our eyes together were filled with delight and unbeatable romance. His hands on my waist felt warm. It has always been like that. A very short kiss that feels like the longest one. I didn't feel any of that when I kissed Brian. We eyed each other and his eyes were satiated with delight, love and sincerity. I wore the same eyes before. But right now, my blank eyes remain—or perhaps, disappointed. I crumpled my hands as I faced Elijah who
Chapter 64“I still fucking love you, Faith.” I felt betrayed. The worst is, I was fighting with myself. The moment Elijah said that, my heart began to race, which I didn't feel a long time ago. As far as I remember, the last time I felt the same was also because of him. I hate myself for feeling this strange feeling again. I could not move in my position as if my feet were glued on the floor. Our eyes were both stuck towards each other. His eyes were filled with sincerity. They were soft as before, which reminds me of how I was captivated by those eyes before—when everything was still fine, when our souls were not ripped yet. He was begging with those eyes. They were speaking to me, trying to make me believe how pure she is. “Trust me, I regret everything. Every day that you were away in four years, I couldn't stop thinking of you that I felt like going mad,” it was the first time that I listened. I have heard all those reasons from him ever since I arrived here. But right that m
Chapter 63“Where have you been last night? Sorry, I slept early. I didn't see you coming home,” Lily said while I was the one cooking our breakfast. I only stared at her for a moment. Just like what the detective said, I should not trust anyone until the culprit is caught. As of now, my mother is the biggest suspect that we have. But knowing that the culprit is around me, I felt like I cannot trust any of them. Who knows? The person behind this might be just playing under my nose for a long time. “Work? I work overtime,” I avoided her eyes and acted normal right in front of her. If it is not my mother, would it be Lily? Would she plan something cruel like that? I don't know. She has been my one and only best friend in my entire life. If it is her, I don't know what I can do, but I am sure that it would break me into a million pieces. Inside me, I was hoping that she is not the culprit. I hope she's innocent. “What else do you want? I really don't understand why you want triple sa
Chapter 62I was in awe. The image of my mother wearing that earring before was flashing back in my head. How can I forget her favorite earring to wear in every grand event that she attended in the past? My entire world was crumbling again and I couldn't pull myself back together. My palm was already filled with bruises because of my nails that bury everytime I clench my hands, just like right now. I was shivering right there and it felt like I'm going mad. “What do you want me to do?” The detective asked in front of me. I couldn't even touch the food that I bought. He was only eating in front of me comfortably, waiting for whatever I wanted to do. “The case is not closed right?” “Yeah. I can open it again and continue what I started if you want me to do that,” he shrugged; he's now giving me the authority to decide whether to continue the digging or not. “Do it, investigate the case. This time, I want it done.” A smirk played beside his lips. “I've been wanting to dig this up, y
Chapter 61“We can move next week to my condo,” Lily mentioned while we are on our way to our businesses. I was the one driving with my head flying elsewhere. I just have to drop her off at the mall before I go to my company. “Okay,” I shortly replied, having no energy in my voice. The weather was gloomy, it makes me feel lazy to move and work today. “Are you sure you don't want to come with me and go shopping? You need this. Take time to unwind,” she has been asking me to come since last night. This is our usual way of decreasing stress, by spending our wealth in luxury things that we love. “How can I go there? I can't even visit my shop in the mall because of the issue,” I can't blame anyone. I was the one behind that exposure of the truth from our past. In my state right now, shopping wouldn't fix everything. “Well, you have a point,” she nodded and shook her head at the same time. I stopped the car in front of the mall for her. She could have used her car but she's being lazy