Chapter 33
Elijah's POV “Sir, you have a visitor. I let her in,” my secretary said to me as soon as I arrived at Luciero's firm. “Her?” My brows crossed. I couldn't think of any woman who would visit me. I mean, I might have a lot of women before I try to work things out with Faith, but they wouldn't dare to set foot here. Besides, I don't even remember their names. “It’s your wife's mother,” he avoided my gazes immediately when he said that. I froze at that moment, absorbing it in my head. Few seconds later, I found myself wearing a tiny smirk beside my lips before I quickly headed inside my office. How can she go here after the mess she created herself to her own daughter’s event? “Mom,” I called. I stared at her for a short time before I went straight to my chair. “Do you need anything? I'm busy,” I made that up. I wasn't that busy. But then, remembering how my wife cried that night makes me hate her. “Are you now siding with her?” I knew from that very moment that she was pertaining to Faith. “She's my wife,” I said coldly. “You were the one who made her marry me, right?” She laughed like a crazy woman. “You volunteered, don't you remember?” She wore that arrogant smile, telling me not to act clean when I am full of dirt as well. “You already created a mess on the runway, you wouldn't want to have another scandal,” her stares at me were sharp. If eyes could kill, I would probably be dead right now. “If you don't have any concern, you may now leave, Mom…with all due my respect,” I intentionally pointed out as I bravely exchanged gazes with her. I do respect her a lot as the mother of my wife, and as the mother of the woman I once loved. “Have you forgotten whom she killed?” “Don't drag Freya here,” my hands crumpled on my desk while I didn't break my stare at her. “Why, Elijah? You once loved my daughter. She's the one you love and not Faith! How can you change right away? How dare you smile with the person who killed Freya?! You should mourn and grieve for her, Elijah! You're a traitor to my daughter!” She knows how to use my weakness over me. I was lost in the argument. There was something in my throat that refrains me from uttering a single word. My heart breaks again when I thought I was already healing. “Faith knows that Freya cannot drive. She fucking knows that I forbidden her to drive and yet Freya was the one who's driving from the accident! She planned it, Elijah. Your wife planned it all because she's insecure of her own sister!” “Leave,” that's all I could say. My hands that were crumpled were already trembling in anger. I was gritting my teeth so hard. “Wake up, Elijah! Don't forget what she di—” “I said leave!” “Mam, I'm sorry, but you should leave.” I heard my secretary say this as he entered my office. I was already breathing heavily and slowly that I wanted to break a wall. “FUCK!” I shouted and threw everything on my desk with my messy head again. I'm trying. I'm so fucking trying to forget it all. But I guess, I would never be able to forget and forgive even if I try so hard to. Faith's POV “Meaning to say, our new collection’s release is a success!” I couldn't not shorten my smile while looking at the graph of our sales since the runway. We indeed made a blast beyond the scandal that happened! My heart was so happy that I feel like I'm on top of the world. “Let's give an applause to ourselves,” I said as I stood up there and was the first one who clapped to all of them. “I want to apologize for what suddenly happened. However, I want to express my deepest gratitude to the efforts that you invested in every project that we do. Guys,” I paused, lost for words for a moment. I don't know what to say anymore while looking at all of them wearing their sparkling smiles filled with delight. “This wouldn't happen without all of you. Congratulations everyone!” I shouted deafeningly. “Woahhh!” “Congrats guys!” “Congrats, Charm!” Watching them celebrate in joy nurtures my heart. While I was watching them, I realized one thing; I could never ask for more with everything that I have right now. This is the joy that I always dream of. The joy that I thought wouldn't happen in my life. But then, it's all happening. I am happy—very happy. “Ask the food they want, it's on me.” I whispered to my secretary while they were all still celebrating our victory inside the meeting room. As for me, I decided to step out as I wasn't feeling well yet. I still feel dizzy for no reason. “Congratulations!” My lips parted when Lily suddenly appeared there, holding a bouquet of roses in her hand. “I didn't expect you here today,” I commented. “It's a kind of surprise. I didn't go to your house yesterday because I thought you needed to rest first. Anyway, flowers.” Her smile was so genuine that I feel like she was happier in my success than me. I'm so grateful to have her in my life. “Thanks. Let's go inside,” we both headed to my office so we could have a little chat. “By the way, do you know a doctor?” That suddenly popped in my head. “A doctor? Why? Who's sick?” Her brows crossed immediately. “I have felt dizzy since yesterday and I kept throwing up. I think something's wrong with my stomach,” I explained. “It’s probably because of stress,” she said as if she was so sure of it. “Yeah, I'm thinking the same. But Elijah wants me to see a doctor tomorrow. If I can go now, I think I'll pay a visit.” “I have a friend who is a doctor. Should I send you the hospital's address?” I quickly nodded. I don't think I'll go there tomorrow. I cannot bear this unexplainable feeling anymore. “Yeah. I'll go later,” “Alright. Hold on,” she also sent me the address and even the name of the doctor. “So, is everything really going well for the both of you?” Her eyes twinkled immediately as she placed her hand under her chin while cornering me again. “You're teasing me,” I accused her. “Am I? I'm asking,” I chuckled when she still tried to come clean. “Oh, I know you well, Lily.” “Do you want me to ask about Lucas’ feelings towards you or your status with Elijah right now?” I glared at her. She's really blatant most of the time. “We're really starting over. The old Elijah is back. He's taking care of me, he now cares for me, and we're already sleeping on the same bed. Plus, we're not arguing anymore.” I could not even erase the smile on my face while I was telling those to Lily. “Are you happy?” Her voice softened. “Of course. He said that he's trying,” I heaved a heavy sigh. “I couldn't ask for anything now, Lily. I am very happy with everything in my life,” I can't believe that this time would come. Who would have thought that I would be able to say that I am very happy with no stain of lies in my heart? This time, it came from the bottom of my heart. I meant it all. I hope Elijah and I don't just start over. I hope we make it until the end. “I'm happy as long as you are,” Lily said and held my hand on the desk. We both talked a lot as if we hadn't seen each other for decades. Right after I worked a little, I headed straight to the doctor that she referred to me. “You said you were dizzy and throwing up, right?” The doctor asked while reading the test they ran. “Yeah. It happened suddenly last night. I was totally fine the entire day then all of a sudden I felt sick and threw up.” I explained. I must admit that I was a bit anxious while I was telling everything to her. What if I have an illness that has no cure? I'm just starting to be happy with my life recently to die early. “And you threw up this morning right after you woke up?” She asked again. I was bewildered a bit, but I also nodded as my answer. “Am I sick?” I asked. “That's what we called morning sickness,” she said. My brows crossed, having no idea at all. I heard about it before. But I'm not really familiar with it. “When you feel dizzy and often throw up, it's not because you're sick, Faith.” “Then, what is it? What's happening to me?” “It's because you're pregnant, Faith. 1 week pregnant to be exact,” itsclarixassChapter 34“It's because you're pregnant, Faith. 1 week pregnant to be exact,” The world just stopped. Everything around me suddenly turned silent. My brain was not working. I couldn't move on my seat; I was too stunned to speak. No words came out of my mouth. Even my eyes were glued at the doctor in front of me. “You're pregnant and everything you're experiencing is normal, Faith.” I am what? I'm pregnant? I don't know what to say. I don't know what to feel at that moment. I was trying to process it all in my head. But I was too speechless to speak. “Are you married?” She asked again. I can clearly hear her. But perhaps, there was a lump in my throat that forbids me to speak. My heart was pounding. I can hear its deafening beat that makes me feel like I'm going deaf. I suddenly felt cold as if my entire body was freezing. I found my shivering hand placed on my belly.“Yes, I'm married.” My voice almost broke as I nodded to her. There is one thing I know, it wasn't sadness nor p
Chapter 35Instead of waiting in the living room until Elijah comes home, I headed straight to the room where he slept last night. My entire body was shivering while I was walking there repeatedly. I was biting my nails already while I couldn't calm the storms in my head. They were flirting. I knew it from one glance. How can a married man allow another woman to play with his hair? That woman's look at him was sticky like a leech clinging on him. She has the same look that his women had before. That moment, I was so scared. My fear was already filling me up that my brain is not working anymore. “What are you doing here?”“Elijah,” I stopped when he came inside the room. His eyes were cold and blank again, totally different from the way he looked at me when we were in Siargao. There was no glimpse of care from his eyes. All I can see was hatred and pain that fills him up. “W-Where have you been?” My voice trembled. I waited so long for him and yet I couldn't construct the words that
Chapter 36I woke up with the same old film again. My eyes were swollen and my pillows on the bed were soaked by all my tears last night. I don't know how many hours I only slept. I couldn't take Elijah out of my head. “Don't worry, baby. You'll have a father,” I chuckled as I talked to my baby inside me. “We will have a happy family,” that's all I want. I don't just want this for myself, I want this for our child. I don't want this baby to grow up witnessing all this chaos and seeing how wrecked the parents he has. Am I asking for too much? Is it a big wish to grant? I just want to have a very simple life where happiness and peace are always present. This mansion is damn big and expensive. But little did they know, it's the darkest home in the entire world. All the pain and hurtful words are filling this house. Joy was once present here, but it drifted away in one snap and I wasn't able to do anything. Why do I feel like the world isn't happy when I am? “Ms. Faith,” I eyed Marie
Chapter 37“Y-You're what?” Lily asked.They were all looking at me, filled with surprise. None of them were able to react swiftly right after I announced my pregnancy to them. Lucas beside Lily wasn't moving at all. His widened eyes remained at me, unable to speak up. “Y-You're pregnant?” She asked again. It seems like her world collided all of a sudden, which made her feeble after hearing the news. I nodded at her as my answer. I even placed my hand on my belly as I drew a tiny smile on my lips. “I'm one week pregnant,” I can already picture myself carrying my baby. I can imagine myself taking care of this baby, but not alone. That's what I cannot picture in my head, taking care of our baby alone without Elijah beside me. I don't know what to do if I take this all alone. I don't know what would be the life of this child if I carry it alone. I need Elijah the most right now. I need him so fucking bad that I am willing to drop who I am just to beg him to stay. Not for me, but for
Chapter 38“How long will you experience that?” Marie asked while caressing my back as I was throwing up again on the toilet in my room. I couldn't even paint my face anymore with the pain that I feel inside my stomach. I almost glued my face there after it finally stopped. I feel so feeble, early in the morning. “Are you okay? What should I do?” She asked, being hysterical. Her entire face was showing me how worried she was. She looks at me as if I am sick when I am just pregnant.“I'm good,” I replied. I tried to stand up and she didn't let me do it alone. I had to brush my teeth immediately before I threw myself back on my bed again. I didn't know that it is so hard to carry a baby inside your womb. “Is it still morning sickness? Maybe you should see a doctor again,” I chuckled when Marie couldn't really calm her own storms. She's too worried to me that she's overthinking already. “The doctor said that this is normal. Besides, I'll go back tomorrow for another check up,” I men
Chapter 39It was a nightmare—a nightmare that I thought I already overcome before. Nightmare that I thought would never visit me again. “Ohhhh,”“Ahhhh, Elijah!”“Faster, baby!” I was facing my ceiling with my tears slipping out of my eyes endlessly. I am soaking my pillow again and the ceiling of my room is the witness of how I cried again. I can hear them clearly from the next room. The moan of the woman was filling my ears. I don't hear Elijah's moan, but that doesn't change the fact that my husband is fucking another woman again right in front of me. How am I even supposed to sleep? I don't know how long I've been hearing that. If I can only gather my tears, I can probably make my own ocean. The next few minutes, it became silent. Now, I'm stuck there, picturing in my head what they are doing right now on the same bed where Elijah and I did it and where we both slept together. Is his hand wrapped on her waist? Are they cuddling? Are they breathing closer to each other so that
Chapter 40Starting that day that my doctor warned me about my sensitive pregnancy, I chose peace above all. Elijah continued what he was doing; bringing different women to our house and fucking them all night. I had to do something to bear it and unhear their moanings. I started listening to music, wearing my earphones to fall asleep, as I make sure that I won't hear any disgusting noise from all his fantasies. I avoided stress as much as I could, and that means I had to avoid Elijah who's bringing stress in my life. “He's not stopping,” Marie uttered while I was eating my breakfast. It became my hobby to eat breakfast, leave for work and come back again to sleep. I always see different women here each night that I go home. It's either a woman, or Elijah is drunk. I decided to act and treat them like a damn wind as I am carrying my child with me. “I saw them doing that in the garden,” I can see how Marie is disgusted to see Elijah's mess being brought here. “Don't mention it to
Chapter 41 “It was planned?” Lily asked with her eyes widened in surprise at the news she just heard from us. We are in my office and I was already spacing out. I couldn't focus my mind on work because of what the policemen said. Freya’s death wasn't an accident. What happened to the two of us there was not an accident; it was all planned by someone we don't know. “The police said it was planned. The brake of the car was destroyed when Freya and Faith used it. They investigated it, and it was not really broken. It seems like someone really just broke it intentionally,” Lucas explained. I don't know what I should feel. My sister died because of that and I don't know who killed her. “Who will do such a thing?” Lily was also stunned. She was totally puzzled. Just like me, she has no idea who would plan such a cruel death. “That only means that the person behind this wants the two of you dead, not just Freya.” Lucas now said. “Freya has no enemies, you know that. I couldn't thin
Chapter 69“I know you won't listen to any of my reasons and explanations,” I remained silent while looking outside the window. Elijah was already driving and we are near to the place we are going. We ate together earlier. We became silent and cold after how I reacted after seeing a happy family again. “But I am sincere, Faith. I want to prove to you that,” my hands were crumpled on my lap. I did everything to ignore him as I chose not to respond. Up until now, all I can feel towards him is hatred. The wounds are too deep to be cured in one snap. But then, I don't know where my pain and this revenge I planned and prepared for four damn years would take me. We arrived at the place and when I was about to escape him, he quickly grabbed my hands and I once again felt the warmth of those hands. He was able to capture my eyes as we faced each other inside the car. His eyes were begging at me, asking for another chance. I knew from that moment that I was being fragile already. I knew th
Chapter 68“You have to leave today and come back tomorrow?” Lily asked while I was packing all my things. My secretary called me and just told me that I have an important meeting with an important client. The place would be just next to the city where we are, but it would still be a long trip. “Yup. I gotta go, that's a huge client.” I replied. I think this is better than staying with her. “It's our last day here in the hotel. Would you just like to head straight to my condo tomorrow?” I paused from packing my things when she mentioned that. I almost forgot about that already. I agreed to live with her before finding out about Freya's death. Lily has been with me all my life and I would always want to be with her eternally. “I don't think I can live there,” I was able to capture her eyes when I said that. She looks surprised and a bit confused. Well, we already agreed to live together in her condo. However, the situation is different now. I am in an extreme peril and she is one
Chapter 67 “Then I wouldn't mind killing people,” his eyes were glued to me the moment he said that. We exchanged tough stares together, and he was reading me like a damn book. I didn't back down as I was trying to examine every reaction from him. He wouldn't mind killing people? I suddenly remember how I found out that he has feelings for me. It was the day Elijah and Lucas fought that they almost killed each other. He had feelings for me and Lucas knew all my life that my parents didn't treat me right as they always had their eyes on Freya. “Really?” I asked, trying to catch him. The side of his lips moved and nodded. “Yeah, of course. I mean, that's how I love. I don't want my woman getting hurt,” Tension—that was what filled the entire room. It felt like there were only the two of us and Lily and Brian were not there at all. He remained looking at me and I didn't back down. But inside me, I was terrified. Not with the fact that he might hurt me, but the fact that if he's rea
Chapter 66 “It's really them,” Elijah uttered while reviewing the documents that the detective brought. I was in awe, or perhaps in despair. My eyes were stuck in nowhere. I couldn't say a single word after he told us the new suspects. Lily and Lucas. They were both close in my heart. I have been with them my entire life and they have witnessed everything that I have been through. It's not just that, Freya is also their friend. We are all damn friends and yet one of them might be the culprit. “Now we have three suspects: your mother, Lily and Lucas.” The detective said while my entire world is already colliding. I wanted to prepare myself, but I couldn't. No matter who it is, it would surely shatter me to the point that I might not know how to stand up again. All my life, I thought we were not just friends but a family that I never had. “Only one of them is the suspect,” Elijah uttered, trying to crack the puzzle. “As of now, all I can do is to watch them closely. You should
Chapter 65I closed my eyes, trying to feel the same feeling I've felt towards Elijah. My lips were on his lips, and my hand even traveled on his neck. I moved my lips, still eager to make myself feel those strange feelings I used to have. But then, no matter how I tried, I felt nothing. It was not the same when I remember myself kissing Elijah. It was totally different. It was always strange, but I loved it. The soft kiss that would make my eyes close without me noticing. The silence, as if no one was around us. Our breaths hit each other's face. Our eyes together were filled with delight and unbeatable romance. His hands on my waist felt warm. It has always been like that. A very short kiss that feels like the longest one. I didn't feel any of that when I kissed Brian. We eyed each other and his eyes were satiated with delight, love and sincerity. I wore the same eyes before. But right now, my blank eyes remain—or perhaps, disappointed. I crumpled my hands as I faced Elijah who
Chapter 64“I still fucking love you, Faith.” I felt betrayed. The worst is, I was fighting with myself. The moment Elijah said that, my heart began to race, which I didn't feel a long time ago. As far as I remember, the last time I felt the same was also because of him. I hate myself for feeling this strange feeling again. I could not move in my position as if my feet were glued on the floor. Our eyes were both stuck towards each other. His eyes were filled with sincerity. They were soft as before, which reminds me of how I was captivated by those eyes before—when everything was still fine, when our souls were not ripped yet. He was begging with those eyes. They were speaking to me, trying to make me believe how pure she is. “Trust me, I regret everything. Every day that you were away in four years, I couldn't stop thinking of you that I felt like going mad,” it was the first time that I listened. I have heard all those reasons from him ever since I arrived here. But right that m
Chapter 63“Where have you been last night? Sorry, I slept early. I didn't see you coming home,” Lily said while I was the one cooking our breakfast. I only stared at her for a moment. Just like what the detective said, I should not trust anyone until the culprit is caught. As of now, my mother is the biggest suspect that we have. But knowing that the culprit is around me, I felt like I cannot trust any of them. Who knows? The person behind this might be just playing under my nose for a long time. “Work? I work overtime,” I avoided her eyes and acted normal right in front of her. If it is not my mother, would it be Lily? Would she plan something cruel like that? I don't know. She has been my one and only best friend in my entire life. If it is her, I don't know what I can do, but I am sure that it would break me into a million pieces. Inside me, I was hoping that she is not the culprit. I hope she's innocent. “What else do you want? I really don't understand why you want triple sa
Chapter 62I was in awe. The image of my mother wearing that earring before was flashing back in my head. How can I forget her favorite earring to wear in every grand event that she attended in the past? My entire world was crumbling again and I couldn't pull myself back together. My palm was already filled with bruises because of my nails that bury everytime I clench my hands, just like right now. I was shivering right there and it felt like I'm going mad. “What do you want me to do?” The detective asked in front of me. I couldn't even touch the food that I bought. He was only eating in front of me comfortably, waiting for whatever I wanted to do. “The case is not closed right?” “Yeah. I can open it again and continue what I started if you want me to do that,” he shrugged; he's now giving me the authority to decide whether to continue the digging or not. “Do it, investigate the case. This time, I want it done.” A smirk played beside his lips. “I've been wanting to dig this up, y
Chapter 61“We can move next week to my condo,” Lily mentioned while we are on our way to our businesses. I was the one driving with my head flying elsewhere. I just have to drop her off at the mall before I go to my company. “Okay,” I shortly replied, having no energy in my voice. The weather was gloomy, it makes me feel lazy to move and work today. “Are you sure you don't want to come with me and go shopping? You need this. Take time to unwind,” she has been asking me to come since last night. This is our usual way of decreasing stress, by spending our wealth in luxury things that we love. “How can I go there? I can't even visit my shop in the mall because of the issue,” I can't blame anyone. I was the one behind that exposure of the truth from our past. In my state right now, shopping wouldn't fix everything. “Well, you have a point,” she nodded and shook her head at the same time. I stopped the car in front of the mall for her. She could have used her car but she's being lazy