Chapter Sixty Two

I burst into laughter at Serena’s words because I was more than sure that she didn’t know what she was saying.

“You disagree?’ I asked again and Serena nodded her head.

“Yes. He didn’t look like that, didn't act like he didn't. I know it's crazy to think about it but he’s like you. He definitely loves you” she reaffirmed and I laughed again.

“You don’t know anything Serena. I promise you that he doesn’t” I informed you.

“Everything he has done for me is a calculated move to make sure that I remain here because I’m the only reason that your kingdom won’t be attacked by my people. To him. I am merely leveraged so he needs to do everything to keep me here willingly” I revealed and Serena stared at me, her jaw dropping.

“So tell me again Serena that he loves me” I said chuckling, “He did say something along the lines of he didn’t hate me” I added turning my face as I closed my eyes.

I hadn’t imagined that I would be discussing the king with Serena. It was already a lot of comfort to know that she was on my side. That she had the same reaction as Juniper, supportive and kind.

I had thought about the kind of relationship that I and Jonathan currently shared, I knew that it was the type that wouldn’t last long. It was obvious, we could all see it. It wasn’t even a symbiotic relationship, it was sickening paratsic and Jonathan was the paraist, the deafening part was that as of the moment, I was a willing host.

‘So?” Serena finally spoke and I turned to her.

“I know what you want to say” I replied, “You want to tell me that I’m stupid for still staying, for not bursting into a race and escaping” I added and Serna laughed.

“I thought that over time, I had shown you enough proof that I’m not like everyone else. I actually like you a lot Amira. I am also privileged to know you and see the kind of person that you truly are and that girl is amazing. Just because you’ve made bad decisions won’t change who you are and that’s the truth” she replied.

“And I’m not angry at you, I’m angry at the king. What does he think he’s doing?” she asked with an edge in her voice and I laughed.

“You and Juniper are so alike in thinking. He also cursed him, insulted him” I revealed and Serena snorted.

“Does he even realize what he’s doing? Why would he even tell you all of this? It would have been better to just keep deceiving you?” Serena said and I laughed.

‘He never meant to tell me. I overhead speaking to Kareem and the rest. He didn’t have any choice to come clean and at least, he didn’t lie to me. He was honest” I replied and Serena furrowed her brows.

“Kareem was part of that?” Serena asked and I laughed, “Not exactly but he was there” I replied and she squeezed her face.

“Oh Serena, you can’t speak to him about it okay?” I asked her and Serena rolled her eyes before nodding her head.

“Alright” she replied softly.

“So what’s going to happen now?” she asked again and I closed my eyes, “Everyone is asking me the same question, I’m asking the same question and I don't have an answer yet and of course that’s sad that I don’t have an answer yet and I’m coming to that” I replied.

“I need to be rational to make my next decisions and I’m still very emotional right now. I dare not make any rash decisions that I might regret. I can’t afford that” I replied and Serena nodded in agreement.

‘I agree with that line of thought. It’s dangerous to make decisions when your emotions are high” Serena said softly.

“But any rational decision that you would have to make would have sacrifices. Are you sure you can pull through with this?” she asked and I smiled bitterly.

“Ever since I came to the Berg Kingdom, what sacrifice haven’t I made? Every possible one and you have no idea how much sacrifices I’ve had to make before I got here” I replied chuckling.

“You know what I’m talking about” Serena said softly and I merely shrugged.

“Well, we'll see,” I said with a small chuckle.

“So how’s you and Kareem?” I asked out for the blues and Serena chuckled.

“We are fine. Very good” she replied honestly and a small smile crept onto my lips.

“Have you guys held hands yet?” I teased and Serena chuckled.

“Held hands?” she asked, “We can’t help but exchange saliva every single time we meet nowadays” she shot back at me and I burst into laughter.

“Wow. No wonder you smell so different anytime you come back from those night and evening strolls you take” I replied and she snorted playfully for me.

I had long known that Serena’s night and evening strolls were just to meet Kareem and I never asked and sometimes I forgot to ask. I was preoccupied with my own headaches and I just kept forgetting. Knowing that she and Kareem had been kissing made me laugh. I knew their relationship would speed up fast but this was new.

But it didn’t make any difference to me. As long as they were together and happy, it made me glad. Especially since I was the one who helped them fast track their relationship. I could easily imagine them locked in each other’s arms, imagine the way he looked at her. I had seen it twice or maybe even more times than I could remember.

All in all, it was the most good news I had heard in a long time.

“So has he told you he liked you?” I asked and Serena nodded, “He has but I’m yet to tell him” she replied and I furrowed my brows at her.

“Why haven’t you told him?” I asked and Serena lowered her head.

I stared at her wondering what the reason might be. I was even sure that Serena loved him and I was sure that she even fell first but as for why she didn’t want to tell Kareem that she loved him, I couldn’t wrap my head around it.

Was she scared? Was she perhaps unsure?

“Are you scared? Unsure that you love him?” I asked immediately, shaking my head, ‘If you are unsure Seren, I’m the voice of reason telling you that you do, a lot. You like him a whole lot more than you think and I promise you, you should totally tell him that you do, Don’t go making him feel like he’s all alone in whatever this is” I told ehr and Serena smiled.

“I know more than anyone that I love him, Amira. I know and I don’t need you ro anyone to remind me of that” she replied.

“So then, what’s stopping you?’ I asked stretching my hands out dramatically, “Talk to me Serena” I urged her.

“I’m scared” she finally responded, her voice low but loud enough for me to hear her, “Scared because that’s all I have” she replied.

“I’m scared that once I tell him that I love him, that would be all, nothing more” she said and I cocked my eyebrows at her.

“Really?” I asked.

“There’s a lot more after saying I love you to one another Serena, there’s an entire lifetime of proving and showing each other that. You fall in love over and over again and that’s the beauty of love I promise you” I said softly and Serena laughed.

“You are such a romantic Ami” she said and then we both burst into laughter.

“So tell him Serena, tell him that it’s all you have but you love him with the entirety of your heart and I promise you, he’s going to fill up every other emptiness” I said and Serena laughed.

“That sounds like something from a book” she said and I burst into laughter.

“It is but i improvised it” I honestly replied and she laughed again shaking her head.

“I’ll take your advice Ami” she said softly and I chuckled.

My heart was genuinely happy for Kareem and Serena. I knew that their relationship would get a new feel after they confessed to each other. At least it would be better for her, unlike me. I didn’t dare admit anything. I was going to leave anyways and there is no future for us unlike Kareem and Serena and besides, it was a one-sided hopeless and helpless love and I honestly didn’t want a love like that.

I wanted him to look at me the way I looked at him, he did but it had an ulterior motive and besides, he had been clear that day. He had said a lot of things that day but not even once did he mention that I was someone important to him.

“I’m going to take your advice Ami, so for you and his highness, will you take my advice?” Serena asked, a bright smile on her lips and I swallowed.