Chapter Sixty Five

“So have you thought about what you want to do next?” Juniper’s voice infiltrated my thoughts and I chuckled, shaking my head. My eyes went to my wrist and I easily noticed the scars around my wrist had almost slowly faded away. It was almost unbelievable that my little paste had worked. I had made some mre for Serena and Julianna and they had joked about how they might willingly offered themselves to be test subjects.

“How are you and the king recently?” Juniper asked again and I met his eyes shrugging.

“Very ordinary” I replied and Juniper furrowed his brow, “What do you mean by very ordinary?” he asked and I laughed.

“Exactly what it means. There’s nothing special” I replied softly.

The truth was that there was nothing special indeed. For some reason, I and Jonathan had returned to our former routine but with less talking. I wasn’t as interested in speaking to him anymore and while he didn’t know why, I knew.

I had to get rid of my feelings for him first and while out of sight, out of mind could work, not with Jonathan. He was the king, he could summon me or call me anywhere or at any time. The truth was that nothing was helping.

I wasn’t talking to him but I wished that he spoke to me more but knowing my stubbornness, he wasn’t even trying to. All we had was n ordinary cold conversations and Jonathan stopped trying to force me to speak to him. My ears still turned red each time I saw him sometimes because nothing about Jonathan eer left my head, his body, his kiss or the wet dream I had about him. I have never had a wet dream ever again since then. I would flip out if I had one though.

“The truth is that you don’t think you can get rid of your likeness for the King Ami and that makes you helpless of yourself” Juniper said and I laughed slowly.

“Maybe one of these days, I’ll tell him about you. You really should join his advisors. You are just wasting here, in the kitchen, washing plates. You are too smart for your own good” I replied and Juniper grinned.

“Even if you mention me to him, I doubt if he will remember me or even know me, don’t bother wasting your time” Juniper responded and we both burst into laughter again.

“And it’s fine that you want to stay by his side, don’t go start feeling ashamed about that” Juniper muttered and I laughed.

“I’m not ashamed of my feelings for him” I replied softly and that was me being honest. I had somewhat graduated from being ashamed, from blaming myself for falling for Jonathan to basically being numb to it. I could blame myself, insult myself all day and then nothing would. If blaming and cursing myself and wondering why I liked him could work, I would have stopped liking him a long time ago.

“Just….” Juniper pursed as he shook his head.

“You know what? It’s fine, whatever happens or whatever it is” he said and I laughed again.

“You’ve laughed so many times but I can’t even feel any genuine happiness in your laughter. Why bother laughing?” Juniper asked with displeasure in his tone.

“I find it funny, that’s why I’m laughing. I'm not happy and I’m not sad either, just in a state of stillness” I replied and he glared at me.

“Stillness my ass” he replied and this time around we both burst into laughter.

“I’m fine Juni and I’ll be fine. You should know me by now” I assured him. I knew he was worried about me. After all, my circumstances were quite special but there was nothing he could do about it. Sometimes i felt it at the tip of tongue, him asking me to leave everything and leave even though we both know my chance of escaping without any outside help was impossible.

And the Berg Kingdom was impenetrable. I had seen it first hand myself. The first time I escaped, I was placed at a prison near the borders and the guards on patrol were switching routines which caused a lax in security and even at that, I was still caught, very easily at that.

“Yes your highness. Of course you will be fine” Juniper replied, bowing to me and I quickly kicked them in the calf as we both burst into laughter.

“Stop that” I said and chuckled, my heart beating loudly in my ears. I didn’t remember when last someone called me my your highness.

“I’ll be on my way back to the palace soon. I need to do a few things” I told Juniper and we both rose to our feet, Juniper Holding at me as he placed his hand on my shoulders.

“I have no idea what you are going to do because you are taking your time but I do know that when you take your time, it means that whatever decision you are making, no one will be able to change your mind” he started firmly and I opened my lips to argue but on the second thought, I kept quiet allowing him to continue.

“Don’t leave without telling me goodbye” Juniper whispered and I chuckled.

“That won’t be happening” I replied nodding at him, ‘See you” I added as I turned and started walking away, Juniper’s words on my mind.

He was right. Once I made up my mind, that was it. Nothing and no one would be able to change my mind.

I was so caught up in my thoughts and I didn’t notice someone slamming into me. I staggered backwards from the impact.

‘Sorry” I said but the latter had walked away like he didn’t even notice that he hit someone. I immediately frowned in annoyance.

“At least apologise” I said as I rubbed my shoulder, I had yet to take a single step when I realized that I had something in my pal. I frowned as I opened my palm and found a crumpled paper in it. Alarm bells went out in my head as I turned again trying to find the person I had hit but he had disappeared. I immediately scuttled to a corner, opening the paper and the beautiful italic handwriting hit me.

At 10:00pm.

Meet me in the words.

It took me one look for me to realize who had written it. I had seen that handwriting a million times.

It was Triss