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86 - She Sacrificed Her Dignity
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2021-04-18 01:44:29~One Year Later, Rae’s Point of View~
I was utterly and completely exhausted. I had been up two days helping finalize the new build for our D.C. village location. We really wanted to hit up L.A. next since the homelessness situation out there is beyond dire, but with a small baby we just couldn’t be back and forth like that right now.
We let Marcus take the reins on L.A., and he was out scouting locations and getting conversations started to make it our third location. The guys were really flourishing and it just seemed like this what we were all meant to be doing.
Even more time flew by and we were now about 95% finished with things for the D.C. location ... I was so ready for it to be done. We planned to take a long and much needed month long vacation once it was ready.
SareeThank you so very much for reading! This was the first book I had ever written and I was so proud of it. Please comment and let me know what you thought!
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