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6- Looking Good Jansen
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2021-04-12 02:36:30I was absolutely devastated that Jace/Julia dumped me. Not that we were really "together" but I came to desperately rely on our relationship and losing it was not in the cards for me.
What the hell was I supposed to say to my dad and Erik about it? Even Mr. Drew made a comment about not seeing us together anymore. I didn't do anything wrong, at least not that I could tell.
I still had all of Julia's clothes, makeup and a couple wigs in my room, as a constant reminder of what I lost. Jace started missing a lot of school and even dropped baseball.
I started getting very nervous for him, but what could I do?
I tried going to his house one night, and his mom just said he wasn't feeling well. I even tried talking to his sister Victoria, who was only in
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