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14 - My Imagination Is Far Worse
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2021-04-13 12:03:04Over the next few months I went through every possible emotion. I was so angry at Jace. My initial reaction of course was to blame him. This should have never happened, there's so many other ways we could have gone about it.
When the commotion happened that morning between his parents we should have just ran. I could kill myself forever on the what ifs, and I pretty much was.
I went to his grave often, and most of the time I just yelled at him. I told him about all the things we could have done, seen and experienced together. Sometimes I would take a blanket and just lay there for hours, talking to him.
Sometimes I would yell at the sky, sometimes I just cried myself to sleep.
Jace's plan went right in some fashion at least ... his mom got $250,000 in l
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