PANIMULA

"My heart tells me this is the best and greatest feeling I have ever had. But my mind knows the difference between wanting what you can't have and wanting what you shouldn't want. And I shouldn't want you." 

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"Hindi tama to, Tristyn. Mali ang ginawa nating ito," sabi ko bago kumawala sa mahigpit na pagkakayakap n'ya.

"Mali na ba ang mahalin kita, Keish?" madilim ang mga matang nakatitig s'ya ngayon sa akin dahilan upang mapaiwas ako sa kaniya ng tingin. "Mali na bang sundin ang itinitibok nito?" tinuro n'ya ang kanang bahagi ng dibdib n'ya. "Tell me! Mali ba?" 

Napapikit ako sa biglang pagsigaw n'ya. 

"Oo Tristyn. Mali ang mahalin mo ako kaya please, intindihin mo naman ang sitwasyon-"

"I can do everything just to make you mine, Keishana! At kung ang makipaghiwalay sa kaniya ang tanging paraan para mapasa-akin ka, gagawin ko!" putol n'ya sa litanya ko dahilan upang marahas akong mapatingin sa kaniya.

"Hindi mo gagawin ang bagay na yan, Tristyn! Sabrina is already your Fiancé for pete's sake! Niyaya mo na s'yang magpakasal bago s'ya umalis papunta sa ibang bansa, tapos yan ang gagawin mo?" Hindi ko makapaniwalang tanong sa kaniya. "Nahihibang ka na ba?"

"It's been one and a half year since she left me here, Keish. I tried to stop her how many times, but guess what? She choose her dreams than me! Yes I asked her for marriage, I meant it. Pero kasalanan ko ba na mahulog ako sa'yo?" Lumapit s'ya sa akin at hinawakan ako sa magkabilang braso. "I already fall for you hard and deep. Mahal na mahal na kita, Keishana-"

"I can't betray my sister-"

"But you already did. Because you already love me," he said like he was really sure of it.

"How can you be so sure of that, Mr. Guevera?" tanong ko at pilit itinatago ang aking totoong nararamdaman dahil mali ito.

Maling mali. Bali-baliktarin man ang mundo, alam kong kasalanan ang maramdaman ko ito sa fiancé ng kapatid ko. 

"Dahil yun ang nakikita ko sa mga mata mo, Keish."

Nagulat ako nang bigla na lamang n'ya akong sinunggaban ng halik sa labi. Yung halik n'yang nakakabaliw. At hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong tumugon. His kiss is very torrid. He invade my mouth with his tongue as he kissed me deeper. Ilang sandali pa nang pareho naming hinahabol ang aming hininga. He placed his forehead to mine as he stared at me intently with his eyes showing lots of emotions that I can't name.

"You tend to push me away, but you still answered my kiss," sabi n'ya na bahagyang napangisi.

I lost my words to say. I know even how hard I try to stop anything between the two of us, I can't do it. I don't know but I just can't.

"If you'll going to answer my kiss that means, you're still mine. Alone," wika n'ya. At bago pa ako makapagreact ay sinakop n'ya na agad ang mga labi ko para sa isang malalim na halik.

He expertly bit my lower lip which made him invade my mouth once again and kiss me deeper. I was no longer able to object. The kiss was really tempting, until I realized that I was responding to his torrid kisses.

"You love me, Keish. At alam na alam ko ang bagay na iyon," he said between our kisses. "Sabihin mong Mahal mo ako, Keish," he demanded afterwards.

The kiss went further, hanggang sa nahubad n'ya na ang damit ko. His one hand expertly massage my breast while his other hand grabbed my waist as he laid me to the couch of his condo. Kinubabawan n'ya ako saka mariing hinalikan. Ang dalawa n'yang kamay ay nagmamasahe na ngayon sa magkabilang dibdib ko.

"Tell me you love me, Keish," he demanded once again. 

Pababa ng pababa ang halik n'ya, from my lips to my neck, down to my hardened peak. His other hand is no longer massaging my breast, it is now busy exploring my naked body. Tanging ungol lang ang nagagawa kong tugon dahil sa init ng mga haplos n'ya sa kahubdan ko.

His hand reached my sensitive bud. The heat of my insides became more define. I was like burning in fire. I'm already consumed on him and his kisses.

I moaned loud when his slowly touching the sides of my wetness. 

"Tristyn... Ahh." I said begging.

His fingers were a pain. He didn't even touch my spot yet and I'm almost angry. I wanted him to touch it but I don't know why he didn't doing it.

I tried to close my thighs to encourage his hand to find me but he noticed it. Imbis na hayaan ako ay mas lalo n'ya lang ibinuka ang mga hita ko.

"Tristyn please, I can't anymore.." I begged once again.

Hinalikan n'ya ulit ako bago hinubad ang mga saplot n'ya sa katawan. Then he roughly pulled me as he prepared himself to enter, directing his head on my entrance. 

Heat washed over me when he did it. Napayakap ako sa kan'ya ng mahigpit nang bumilis ang pag-ulos n'ya sa loob ko. His thrust is very hard and deep. His moans and groans ignited the lustful atmosphere we have until all I did is to moan and moan his name. 

He released his semen inside of me after we reach our climax together. 

"I love you, Keisha," he said before kissing me on my lips again. Yung halik n'ya ay yung tipong mababasa ang buong bibig ko pababa sa leeg ko.

I can still feel his oozing semen inside of me when he started to thrust inside me once again. He was so good at it that he was moving spontaneously fast inside me. Nakakailang ulos pa lamang s'ya ay napapaungol na naman ako sa sarap ng sensasyong bumabalot sa buong pagkatao ko. He enjoy seeing me cage at his own love making. 

Buong magdamag ay iyon ang ginagawa namin. Ayaw n'ya akong tantanan. He released his semen inside of me once again before staying in that position for a couple of minutes.

"Sa akin ka lang, Keish. At wala ka nang magagawa sa bagay na yun," he said as he started moving again.

Isa lang ang nasa isip ko ngayon.

My sister will hate me to death when she will find out that her fiancé is cheating, and he is cheating with me. And even if I hate to admit it, but what I did is unforgivable.