The car ride was going to be awkward. My whole body trembled the moment I lowered myself into the seat. My heart was beating so hard from standing up to Lachlan, and I could not lie, it also ached from the fact I had walked away from everything between us so easily… okay, maybe not so easly. It had taken a lot of thought over the previous days. Maia was whimpering at the back of mind as we drove away from him, and as I turned back to look at him through the window, he remained where we left him, simply stood with his hands by his sides, his eyes upon the car as it drove away. His eyes dark and blank. Very much looking like a broken man. How had things come to this?
‘Don’t go.’ Maia whimpered. ‘Let him speak.’ She urged. I knew she was fighting every natural urge a wolf had when it came to their fated mate, but she had also spoken of her need to protect me. She had fought everything within her to help me heal, and she knew
I didn’t imagine I would be coming of age without my Dad there to guide me. That does not mean I do not appreciate my Mum. Hell no, she is the strongest woman I know. Losing your fated mate can destroy you. Though, personally, I think losing the one you love is enough to break anyone. But, the bond we share as werewolves with our mates is something else; and when that is broken, it can tear you apart from the inside.Yet my Mum pulled through it. Not just any old she-wolf either. A Beta’s wife. Bringing up a hard-headed son who, I am not ashamed to say, is a stubborn little fucker. I took after my Dad in that respect. I know that much. But, taking after him was the last connection I could have with him. That and the fact I would be inheriting his title.Yet, despite losing him, and knowing she had a heart-broken son struggling to cope with the loss of his father to bring up, my Mum battled on through, resilient as ever, never letting her determination waiver, or at least never in fron
Seems my wolf was quite an irritating little fucker. Either that or he liked to disagree with everything I said just to rile me up. I was undecided. I picked at my breakfast, making polite conversation with those sitting around me, just as my eyes were caught by a movement by the large window of the dining hall. My gaze was instinctively drawn in that direction, only to be greeted by the dark-haired figure of Seren stalking past. The one member of the pack I hated above all others.Her long dark hair pulled up into a high pony-tail, and dressed in yoga pants and a cropped top. Maybe she had been at the gym? But I felt irritation bubbling... Everyone had come to the dining hall to wish me a happy birthday, I assumed, at the former Alpha or former Luna's request. All except her. I can’t say I am surprised. While I hated a fuss, and would rather nobody felt they needed to do all this for me, I appreciated the effort they had gone to. It was more that Seren felt she was above joining in..
Today was a day that the pack was making such a big deal over. Lachlan, one of my older brother’s best friends, had his birthday. Yes, it was an important birthday, because he was coming of age, but, because he was the pack’s soon-to-be-Beta, everyone appeared to be acting like the world needed to stop spinning.My Mum was friends with his mum, and had been involved in decorating the packhouse, like they so often did for birthdays, and I had been instructed to ensure I would be there for the ‘Birthday Breakfast Banquet’ or something along those lines, I believe my Mum had named it. So we could all blow smoke up Lachlan’s ass… I mean, wish him a happy birthday as a pack, and celebrate with him. Anyone would think the guy was royalty or something.As a whole, I loved pack celebrations. Being part of a pack was amazing. The community spirit and camaraderie was something that I don’t think you would get anywhere else. It was like an extended family. So, when it was someone’s birthday and
She was giving as good as she got, while I was struggling, battling with the noises from within coming from this new wolf I was trying to adapt to. He had been one thing before this new development, but this was something else entirely. Now he had gone from the cocky and cheeky character he was, to one that was a whimpering mess. One that so clearly had decided that he needed his mate. That was not the strong, ruthless Beta wolf I had been expecting to receive when meeting my wolf, that is for sure!But, one thing is for certain, my wolf, Tyr, was determined. He was resilient in fighting me to get out. To get to his mate. But, I knew that could not happen. Because the moment I allowed that to happen, he would be all over her. I had seen what an uncontrolled wolf could do, and I had no intention of letting him take over with Seren. She may have been fated to me, but she was never going to be mine. And I don't think Tyr was ready to accept that just yet.I felt her eyes upon me, but as
My head was a mess by the time I walked into the house. Only to find my Mum’s angry eyes staring at me. Yes, I had managed it again. I had pissed her off. I could win awards in that.“I lost my bracelet when I went for a run, okay?” I explained, hoping she might at least show me some sympathy, or, if not, then try to understand the reason I had not returned when she had asked me to. “So I had to go back and look for it.”Her big green eyes darkened at those words, her brow furrowed. “As in the bracelet your Dad gave you?” Her voice was hoarse, and already I knew this was not going to go as I hoped, so I simply nodded.A heavy sigh slipped from my Mum’s lips as her hands fell to her sides in what I could only assume was frustration. “How could you be so irresponsible, Seren?” she snapped. “You know how precious that bracelet is! It is not like you can just get another one. Or at least not one that would hold the same meaning.”My eyes widened at her reaction. She had to be kidding, rig
I had done the good guy role. Going against every part of me that hated Seren. But, the part of me that knew what it was like to lose my father. The part that clung to that pain day in and day out was what made me step up and offer to help her find her bracelet. Or at least try. That had been torture being that close to her. I hate her. I truly do. But my body want her. The matebond wants her. This is nothing but a mess.Her scent was overwhelming. Enticing. Alluring. As it teased at my senses. Like it wanted me to reach for her and sink my teeth into her neck. Mark her and make her mine. Her scent had filled every part of that forest as we searched for that damn bracelet. As I did the decent thing. Torturing myself while being the good guy. Yet, we never found the damn thing, and she rushed away with tears in her eyes, and I had to ask our patrols to look out for it. Another promise to the bane of my life...Now I needed to go and party. Reward myself for being the good guy. I think
The party was in full swing by the time Marcus and I arrive, more than a couple of shots down. Seemed my friend was not about to let me leave the house having had only one. He was out to ensure I had a good night, and for that I was not going to complain.The moment we arrived to the party we were swamped with well-wishers. Most of whom I had already seen today at my birthday breakfast, or in and around pack, but I was gracious as always. They were, after all, members of the pack I had grown up in, and members of the pack I would be assisting in running once they allowed me to begin my Beta training now I had my wolf. The next stage in my life. One that I had to say I was excited about. Following in my Dad's footsteps. Earning the title he had passed on to me. One my Mum had tried hard to bring me up honourably to earn.Once Marcus and I had managed to ease ourselves away from the majority of the crowd, we noticed three women approaching. All three with affectionate smiles upon their
I made my way around the party, just as my Mum asked, ensuring the food tables were stocked up, and the drink tables too. Vry much being used like staff today, to ensure the party went as smoothly as it could. Heaven forbid that Lachlan did not have the most wonderful party that ever existed. It was on one of those run arounds that I noticed the king of the hour. Beta Blockhead himself. Some slutty-she-wolf draped all over him...No surprise really, we had quite a few she-wolves in pack more than willing to do that to get ahead. My brother had been known to take advantage of his title in that way, as disappointed in him as that makes me to admit it. And, I believe, our very own Alpha, Marcus, had done the same too, until he had met his mate. I think it is just a very shameful part of being a senior role within pack. The lure of the senior title in the pack was appealing to a certain type of she-wolf, and they found themselves flinging themselves upon said wolves at every given opport
The car ride was going to be awkward. My whole body trembled the moment I lowered myself into the seat. My heart was beating so hard from standing up to Lachlan, and I could not lie, it also ached from the fact I had walked away from everything between us so easily… okay, maybe not so easly. It had taken a lot of thought over the previous days. Maia was whimpering at the back of mind as we drove away from him, and as I turned back to look at him through the window, he remained where we left him, simply stood with his hands by his sides, his eyes upon the car as it drove away. His eyes dark and blank. Very much looking like a broken man. How had things come to this?‘Don’t go.’ Maia whimpered. ‘Let him speak.’ She urged. I knew she was fighting every natural urge a wolf had when it came to their fated mate, but she had also spoken of her need to protect me. She had fought everything within her to help me heal, and she knew
It had tore me apart hearing that Seren was leaving pack. When I had been all but forced to agree to not seeing her, I was comforted by the fact that Seren was in pack. She was being cared for by our own doctors, and some of the best around at that. Plus, she had our families visiting her. I knew, despite not being able to see her, she was close, and she was well. Hearing she was well enough to be discharged from the pack hospital had been a rush of relief, of course it had, but that had soon been replaced by a flood of pain the moment Marcus told me that he had permitted for her to go and continue her studies in the city. He was allowing her to leave me. Leave our pack. And, I believed his reasoning for that was because of how I had treated her.Marcus was my friend, but he was also a friend to Seren. I believed, considering the way in which he acted around me of late that he found himself torn between the two friendships... perhaps rightly so. We had alway
Marcus and Cole had come to the hospital to collect me. I was finally able to leave. Relief was not a word to describe it. I did not know how to explain it, for it simply felt like time had been paused, yet I had been here for an eternity. The same four walls of a room begin to feel like a prison despite the fact you are not being forced to stay there. I think I knew every part of that room in far too much detail. But, the moment had come for me to be discharged with my body all but healed.There were still the occasional niggling pain, or ache depending upon how I moved, but it was nothing I could not cope with. The doctors had reassured me I was well on the way to a full recovery. I had been told I had been lucky. But, I did not feel lucky. Far from it. I had chosen not to consider all of that though. I had a future to focus upon, and thanks to Marcus, his mate and my planning, I was able to do that.“Still don’t agree with this.” Cole grumbled as h
It was destroying me not doing as I had wanted, and as I had promised and, being by Seren’s side as she healed. I had desperately wanted to prove to her I was not the monster she likely created within her mind… or my bad behaviour and treatment had created. I wanted to prove to her I could be a good man. But, I was respecting the wishes of my Aunt, and more so my mother.These were the women that had been a greater part of my life growing up, and I respected their opinions as much as I did my Uncle as a former Alpha. And, as much as it hurt, I knew they may well be right. Seren did deserve better. My wolf had been right all along and my bad choices, be it through lack of information or not, had caused me to lose my mate. Now I was faced with dealing with the consequences.Tyr had retreated to the nether reaches of my mind. It was strange to say I even missed his sly digs that I had grown accustomed to. The lingering that he had done previ
I had laid within the now familiar walls of my hospital room looking around, losing all sense of time. I could not help but wonder where Lachlan had got to. Yes, he had said he would give me space, but what exactly did that mean? I assumed, giving everything else he had said he would be returning later that day. Maybe the next. But here we were, or here I was, days later and there was still no sign of him. I would not lie, it hurt.And, I felt like a fool for ever allowing it to hurt. Not to mention to have allowed, once again, my hopes to be built around anything Lachlan Lamont had said or done. He said he could change. He said he was a good guy. All things were pointing to nothing having changed. And, forgiven or not, I was finding it increasingly harder to view him as a good guy. Despite me craving the company of Lachlan, I still had company; and plenty of it too. My Mum continued her dai
I had returned to my family home, a place I had not returned in the days since Seren’s accident, and took a shower. The warmth of the water feeling like a welcome relief upon my aching body. Having slept within that hard and uncomfortable hospital chair for far too many nights my body was not doing too well, and I feared Tyr was becoming weaker.His communication with me was lesser. And it had been sometime since I had last shifted. My priorities of course had been sitting by the bedside of Seren until she awoke. Now that had occurred I could try to take care of both her and myself. Begin to put things right. I knew we may have a long road ahead, but I swore I had seen something within her eyes when I mentioned proving myself to her. I just hoped I was capable of it.Fate had always been something in the back of my mind. Part of our life cycle, but something for the future. Nothing I was in a hurry for, I guess you could say. I was always a bit
Well I had not been wrong, the moment I closed my eyes to get some rest, my Mum had been in, And now she would not leave me alone. In the end I had to ask the doctor to tell her to leave because I needed some peace. My entire body had ached and my eyes felt so heavy. But more than anything my heas banging from the amount of talking from my mother. Maybe there were advantages to being in that odd state between being here and not. Because it meant I didn’t have to listen to my Mum telling me all the pack gossip. And, having been unconscious for days, it meant there was even more to catch up on!After finally being able to relax a little and settle to some silence my peace was disturbed once more as my older brother strode into my room. He looked anxious and on edge. Oddly there had been little else but silence since his arrival because Cole was sitting by my bed now, watching me through narrowed eyes and barely speaking a word. I was unsure why he had co
It broke my heart hearing Lachlan be so open and honest about things to me. In all the years he and I have known one another never do I recall him talking so freely with me. I felt honoured he trusted me to share some of the things he had, because I doubted many others knew of the things he spoke of. And, while the things he said may have hurt, in my mind there was nothing to forgive.I never knew he had struggled that way. I certainly never knew he had felt so alone. Growing up side by side, being so close, yet I was clueless of his struggles. Guilt flooded my body that he had endured this alone. I knew how much he loved his Mum, and how close they were, so hearing him say he had to witness her fall apart in secret was soul destroying. He was a young boy. But this was through no fault of my Aunt's either. Circumstance had brought them to this. Lachlan would have been struggling with the loss of his Dad and needed support, and likely feared he could not seek
My body once again felt like it was frozen in time as Seren lay there looking over at us. Her big brown eyes looking like they were focused upon me, while I was vaguely aware of Marcus calling her name. After everything she had come around. She was finally awake.I felt a swift punch to my arm. “You lost all fucking ability to think straight?” Marcus muttered, snapping me back to reality. “Going to mark her and then can't fucking talk now she is here.”Seren attempted to shake her head but I noticed her wince in pain, her hand moving toward her neck, and she stopped herself, every movement seemingly hurting her. I moved across the short distance from where we stood to her bed. “Don’t move Ren, if it hurts stay still, yeah?” I urged her. “Do you want some water? I imagine you must be thirsty.”“Maybe we should check with the doctor first.” Marcus said. “Damn woman, you had u