The party was in full swing by the time Marcus and I arrive, more than a couple of shots down. Seemed my friend was not about to let me leave the house having had only one. He was out to ensure I had a good night, and for that I was not going to complain.The moment we arrived to the party we were swamped with well-wishers. Most of whom I had already seen today at my birthday breakfast, or in and around pack, but I was gracious as always. They were, after all, members of the pack I had grown up in, and members of the pack I would be assisting in running once they allowed me to begin my Beta training now I had my wolf. The next stage in my life. One that I had to say I was excited about. Following in my Dad's footsteps. Earning the title he had passed on to me. One my Mum had tried hard to bring me up honourably to earn.Once Marcus and I had managed to ease ourselves away from the majority of the crowd, we noticed three women approaching. All three with affectionate smiles upon their
I made my way around the party, just as my Mum asked, ensuring the food tables were stocked up, and the drink tables too. Vry much being used like staff today, to ensure the party went as smoothly as it could. Heaven forbid that Lachlan did not have the most wonderful party that ever existed. It was on one of those run arounds that I noticed the king of the hour. Beta Blockhead himself. Some slutty-she-wolf draped all over him...No surprise really, we had quite a few she-wolves in pack more than willing to do that to get ahead. My brother had been known to take advantage of his title in that way, as disappointed in him as that makes me to admit it. And, I believe, our very own Alpha, Marcus, had done the same too, until he had met his mate. I think it is just a very shameful part of being a senior role within pack. The lure of the senior title in the pack was appealing to a certain type of she-wolf, and they found themselves flinging themselves upon said wolves at every given opport
Seren’s attitude with me had ruined my mood, and any chance I had with Cara… or Zara… or whatever her name was. So, I had gone back to joining my friends, disregarding my initial plans of spending my birthday evening finding she-wolves to keep me occupied and rid my mind of thoughts of the filthy, repulsive she-wolf that fate had given me for a mate. The night had not gone the way I had hoped. But, my friends were always good company. Especially when we had a few drinks down us.The party was, as parties go, not a bad one. Plenty of laughter, and fun, as to be expected from a pack celebration where there was an ongoing supply of food and alcohol. Music playing until the early hours. Everything a person could want for a party. Yet, I headed home at the end of my party feeling deflated. Like my coming of age had been nothing but a disappointment. Nothing like I had expected.Tyr had slipped to the nether regions of my mind early in the evening, in one hell of a mood with me, likely bec
Already a week into being of age, and I had to say it sucked. I had waited eighteen damn years for this period of my life, and as it turned out, it was nothing but a big, fat disappointment. My wolf had decided he was hibernating. Or, as the case was more likely to be, ignoring me like the ignorant little shit it appeared he was. My wolf was everything I did not want in a wolf. In truth, I had hoped for a wolf that I would gain another friend in, instead it appeared I had gained an enemy. A mortal enemy with the way things were going.I was now having to dodge my friends in their requests to go for a run, both Cole and Marcus desperate to meet my wolf. Neither one having been able to on my birthday, so trying each day since to arrange a chance to train together in our wolf form or run together. There was only one issue with that, the little fucker did not want to come out to play. My wolf was being as awkward as he could be.I liked to keep myself fit, and exercise was an important pa
I stood watching Seren walk away. Her long dark hair swinging as she walked. She was in a hurry to get away from me, that was evident to see. A part of me wanted to go after her, but I stayed, almost fixed to the spot, as she strode further away. While listening to my wolf snarling angrily at me. My gut twisting, along with my heart. I knew the pain she was in. I knew the struggle of losing your father…FLASHBACK – 8 years ago.I played happily with Cole. Climbing the large tree in the garden of their home. The sun was shining and we loved to make the most of the sunshine. Any opportunity to be outside. Climbing trees was one of our favorite things to do, and the one sitting in the Bradshaw's garden was one of the many trees we had fallen from countless times before. The slightly smaller one alongside it was the tree where the treehouse sat. I believed we had fallen from that a few times too. We made a habit of falling. Always so clumsy. Too busy having fun...Thankfully, Aunt Sofia
Today had been a day I had been dreading. But as sure as the sun was to rise, it had arrived. A day that filled me with pain. A day that left me contemplating so much. Reliving memories. My eyes filled with tears. Losing someone you love is the worst imagineable loss, but when that someone is someone you depend upon… turn to… look up to… he had been my everything. Is that not what a Dad was meant to be to his little girl? I had never expected to lose him whilst I was so young. Though, I don’t suppose many people expect to lose the ones they love… and, no matter how hard I tried, I did not know how to make that loss any easier.Three years this year since he had left us. Three years since I had heard his voice. Three years since he had lovingly wrapped his arms around my Mum's waist as she made him his morning coffee, making her giggle, despite their many years together as mates. 1095 days feeling lost without my Dad by my side to turn to for
That smug look lingered across Lachlan's dark features as his smirk widened. His dark eyes never leaving me for a second as he watched me move along the corridor. “Alright, Ren.” He nodded at me, before raising his coffee mug to me.Without further acknowledgement of him, I quickly continued striding along the corridor, before my anger well and truly bubbled out of control. I did not know what he was doing here, and I did not need him here. Marching into the kitchen to find my brother tossing one of the pancakes as I did, he looked up at me with a welcoming smile. The lightness in his face only to be brought down by me as I snapped. “What is he doing here?”Cole’s eyes rolled upward, like he was sick of my words. It was something I had asked him multiple times before. I hated the sight of Lachlan making himself comfortable within our family home, especially when he had his arrogant head on. Unfortunately, as a close family friend, he made
I was doing all I could to avoid my fated mate. The sight of her infuriated me. The sound of her voice made me angry. I could not be near her without fury bubbling through my veins; and that was a dangerous situation to be in. Not to mention difficult, because, Tyr had grown angry with me for my outburst at Seren, and how could I blame him? The fear within her eyes was one of terror. No matter the hate or resentment I may feel for that girl, she should not fear me. No woman should fear me.I think of my mother, and the very thought of her fearing a man, and the thought infuriates me. No woman should be made to feel like that. So, I decided, that because being around Seren was evidently causing me to lose my temper, I should do all I could to avoid her. Stay away from her, and any place she was likely to be. I needed to find another focus.So, I went all in to the Beta training. This was going to be something I needed to do anyway. Soon enough I was to become the Beta of this fine pack
Pain. Heat. Tenderness radiated through my body. As did warmth. No, not warmth, boiling, temperatures. Hours? Days? I did not know now. I was in a state of confusion. Agony. Discomfort. Sobbing. Screaming. Crying one moment, yelling the next… I did not like this. How was this a normal state for anyone or anything to be in?!‘Why won’t he help us?’ I wailed to Maia. She was our wolf, why could she not talk to his wolf? Surely he could convince Lachlan to surrender to the matebond again. He had done it before. This good-boy image did not suit him. If he would surrender to the matebond we could ease this pain. Put an end to this suffering. It may even bring us closer...‘We have gone over this. So many times.’ She snapped, and she was right. I had begged her so many times, and I had argued this point with Lachlan too. He was not about to give in to me. He was determined to do the right thing. Why he deemed this the ri
I saw pain and anger flicker across Seren’s face at my words. I had expected nothing more. I had known the moment I had chosen to say those things that it would be the last thing she would be wanting to hear. She had sought me out for a reason. I was her mate. She knew the relief her mate could bring when in heat. Angry with me or not, she was willing to bypass that to gain the relief she needed. But, I was not willing to sink to that. And, no matter the pain nor anger I was causing her, and hating that fact, I knew I had to do this. It would be too easy to give her what she craved. But it would be wrong. We were not together. Yes, we may be fated mates, but we had agreed not to be together. I had surrendered to the matebond before, and in doing so I had hurt Seren and regretted that massively.I knew she saw this as me trying to hurt her, but it was me trying to do the right thing. Thankfully, with Tyr being absent resisting her was somewhat easier as
My whole body burned. It ached like never before. And now added to that was the delectable scent of my mate. I am sure it smelled stronger than it had previously, or was that what happened when a she-wolf went into heat? He smelled divine, I knew that much. I was desperate to be close to him. Rip those close right off his body…But Lachlan had stepped away from me. And now his eyes were dark, with a frown etching his face as he avoided my gaze. What was wrong with him? This was not how I had imagined this woud go. The last time we had seen each other he had wanted to talk. And all the times he and I had been intimate Lachlan had been unable to resist. He was insatiable. My scent should trigger that, I was sure of it. I had imagined the moment he caught a note of my scent and realized I was in heat he would pull me to the cabin and rip my clothes off. Make up for the time we had lost. Ease the pain I was feeling...But, just now he had stepped away from me. That
The silence was deafening, and frustration rushed through me at the fact Seren had not replied. I know it had to have hurt her that I never went back to the hospital. I had sworn to her I would prove myself and because of my Aunt telling me to stay away, and my mother agreeing I had gone back on my promise to Seren. I had failed her yet again. Was it any wonder that she would not trust me now? But, my Aunt's words had hurt, and I did as she asked, especially when my own Mum had backed her up. Family meant everything to me. But, now I relaize that maybe Seren meant more.A matebond is something to be cherished. And I had tossed mine away so easily. A choice I would forever regret. I should have gone to Seren. She deserved better. I should have put the matebond first and done all I could to fix the mess my fucked up brain had created. Her and I could have been good together. The moon goddess clearly believed so. My heart ached once again as I thought it all ov
I was tired. Sleep rarely found me, and despite it now being what I assumed was likely early evening I was laid upon the bed within the cabin staring up at the now familiar ceiling. I should be out enjoying a run, or cooking dinner, anything but lounging around doing nothing, but instead here I was, wanting to try to sleep again because I felt I was becoming weaker as the days went on. This was never a good position for a werewolf to be in.This was what more of my days were becoming. Days merged into one another, as did the hours now. The only way I could differentiate between day and night was the colour of the sky outside. My sleep pattern was fucked so I simply slept when I could, which was less and less of late; creating an ever increasingly tireder version of myself. Tired and weaker.I was slowly losing any will to live, and I feared that could be because Seren was gone. I had fucked up, and I had fucked up big time. But, I was scared it may be
I awoke on my bed, in sheer confusion, and a raging rush of heat charging through my body. I felt sick. My head hurt and I felt drained. This was not a pleasant feeling. I was sure I had been in the lounge of the packhouse only moments ago had I not? It had been light outside had it not? Now as my eyes wandered to the window the sky was a mixture of altering hues as the sun was going down... just how long had I been out of it?!I attempted to sit up but my head spun as I did, and heat flooded my body. Nausea sat heavy on my stomach. I quickly laid myself back down, closing my eyes tightly wishing I could fall back into the heavy sleep I had clearly just woken from. At least while sleeping I was not being forced to endure this hell...I could hear raised voices outside of my room. My Mum, My Aunts, Marcus and Cole. Why were they all here? And was there any need to be shouting? From what I could hear they were discussing me. Of course they were. What el
Aunt Alena’s desperate eyes were watching me. I could see the pain and desperation within her gaze and it made me feel bad for her. She was waiting on an answer from me, I knew that. But, in all honesty, what answer did I have to give? No answer that was going to ease the pain she was feeling, that was for certain. I had no clue where Lachlan was, or why he was acting this way. I had tried to mindlink him as I left only for him to ignore me. No, I did not reach out to him otherwise, but that was purely because I could not handle the disapointment of looking at my phone only to see he had once again not responded...What could I tell my Aunt? All I had done was follow the orders he had given me. That did not paint her son in the best way, and I did not want to make her feel worse than she already did. I had a feeling enough bad things were currently being said about Lachlan as it was, and they had to hurt Aunt Alena, I did not need to add to that. Lachl
The drive to pack was awkward and near silent. The occasional uncomfortable glance from my brother made me wish I had found an excuse to stay on campus rather than return home this weekend. It was only as we neared the gates that he chose to speak up, and I knew in that moment what was laying heavy on his mind.“I think it is better you don’t mention anything about the situation with you and Lachlan while you are home. It hurt a lot of people that neither one of you spoke up about it. Secrets among family are not right, let alone going against pack beliefs…” Cole’s tone was tense, and irritation built within my body at his words, but I held back. I knew when I agreed to keep silent about the matebond that it would hurt those close to us. I knew the damage it could do, but I made the agreement with Lachlan all the same,and now we were fcing the consequences.Cole did not wait for a response as he continued brusquely. &ldq
My first week of classes had been hectic. Meeting all my new tutors and, of course, all my new class mates. I was learning the new schedule that would become my new normal for the coming months. All while I learned my way around campus. And, I had to say I loved it! The place was massive, like a maze if you did not know your way around, but it was so fun, and there was so much to do. I could not be happier to be here...In truth, I had surprised myself with how easily I had settled in, and how equally easily I had made friends. Within my first two days of class I had met Laila and Charlie, both girls were within my General medicine class, and we instantly hit it off. We had so much in common, and when put together to work alongside one another we bonded over our love of music. We chatted as we worked, laughing so much, to the point we got ourselves in trouble! But, I loved every moment of it. And, the girls had barely left my side since.Most evenings after classes had