My head was a mess by the time I walked into the house. Only to find my Mum’s angry eyes staring at me. Yes, I had managed it again. I had pissed her off. I could win awards in that.
“I lost my bracelet when I went for a run, okay?” I explained, hoping she might at least show me some sympathy, or, if not, then try to understand the reason I had not returned when she had asked me to. “So I had to go back and look for it.”
Her big green eyes darkened at those words, her brow furrowed. “As in the bracelet your Dad gave you?” Her voice was hoarse, and already I knew this was not going to go as I hoped, so I simply nodded.
A heavy sigh slipped from my Mum’s lips as her hands fell to her sides in what I could only assume was frustration. “How could you be so irresponsible, Seren?” she snapped. “You know how precious that bracelet is! It is not like you can just get another one. Or at least not one that would hold the same meaning.”
My eyes widened at her reaction. She had to be kidding, right? Like I had chosen to lose it on purpose? My heart was breaking at the fact I had not been able to find it, and the last thing I needed was my Mum yelling at me over it. And the weird thing was the one person in the pack who hated me more than anyone else had shown me more sympathy than my own fucking mother!
“No shit!” I sobbed. “I didn’t choose for it to fall off. But, you will be glad to know while I was up there I saw King Lachlan and wished him a happy birthday. He actually tried to help me find the bracelet. So, I did as you asked, okay?” I walked away from her, wiping the stray tear that had slipped from my eye. Hating that my Mum had been so harsh over the bracelet. I felt incomplete without it, and now I had her giving me a hard time over losing it. Almost like she felt it had been intentional.
“Seren, wait!” Mum’s voice echoed along the hallway of our family home. A home that had never felt the same to me since my Dad passed away. It felt empty almost, which was crazy when there were still three of us living here. But it just didn't feel right without my Dad here.
I turned sharply as I reached the staircase, and looked back toward her. “So you can tell me how bad I am?” I questioned, sniffling the tears away.
My Mum offered me a sympathetic smile. “I am sorry for yelling, it just hurts that you may have lost the last thing your Dad gave you, Ren.” Her voice sounded a little unsteady, telling me she may be as close to tears as I was. I wish I had never told her about the bracelet now, and just took the blame for being late. Anything would have been better than the guilt I was currently feeling...
“Do you not think that is how I am feeling?” I suggested, and she nodded slowly, that same smile offered once more.
“It was nice of Lach to help you look for it. Such a sweet boy. And on his birthday too.” Mum said with a tenderness in her voice that made me roll my eyes. Both her and my Aunt Zoe, the former Luna, saw Lachlan as an additional son. Acted like the sun shone from his ass.
“Uh-huh.”
“Seren, give the boy a break. Today will be hard for him. A day he should be sharing with his Dad. His Dad gave his life so you could be here. Remember that.” My Mum’s words hit hard. She had a habit of reminding me of one of the scariest days of my life… one I would forever hold guilt over, but it was unfair to hold it over me like that.
I walked away from her without a further word. I was not about to get into this again. “Oh, Seren, get yourself cleaned up, we are expected at the training field in an hour to put the finishing touches to the party.” Mum ordered me, and again I felt my shoulders sag in anticipation of what would lie ahead for me.
Before I knew it, we were walking out of the house together, my Mum already wittering in my ear about all the things that she wanted me to do once we arrived, and then moved onto all the things they had arranged for the celebrations. They had, just as I had expected, gone to a lot of effort for Lachlan’s birthday. But, they had done the same for my brother, Cole, when he had come of age, and the same for our Alpha, Marcus, as he came of age. So, no doubt they wanted to ensure that Lachlan received the same treatment. Our pack liked to celebrate properly, and tonight, the atmosphere would be a good one. I just wish I did not have to join in.
“Can you please try to look like you want to be there, Seren.” Mum admonished me and I plastered on a fake smile, only to earn myself a frown from the woman to my left. “You are not clever, young lady.”
“No, I don’t suppose I am.” I muttered under my breath, just as my Aunt Zoe, our former pack Luna, wrapped her arms around me in a huge hug, almost smothering me in the process.
“Aww, hello beautiful!” she said excitedly. I looked across at my Mum in a bid for help, and she simply grinned. They were all as over-affectionate as one another. All over-friendly, and far too cheerful for my liking, but they were my closest family at the end of the day. I had to love them.
“Hey Aunt Zoe.” I smiled awkwardly, trying to extricate myself from her embrace.
“Mom, let the poor girl go!” Marcus, the pack Alpha, and my brother’s best friend laughed as he walked past. “Alright Rennie!” he offered me a hand for a high five. I hated his nickname, but he had picked it when he was about eight, and it has stuck ever since.
“Hey Marcus, sorry, Alpha!” I stuck my tongue out at him. While Lachlan and I may no longer get along, Marcus has always looked out for me. He and his mate, our new pack Luna, Amalie, often spent time with my brother, Cole, so I enjoyed seeing them.
“They roped you into setting up the party?” he asked, and I nodded.
“Unlcuky. I get out of it, because I am important.” He laughed, giving me a wink, so I shook my head at him, giving him the middle finger as he walked away laughing.
“Right, come on, still lots to do.” Aunt Zoe told me, just as Lachlan’s Mum, Alena, rushed over.
“Lachlan is already on his way!” she fusses, and instantly I felt any happiness draining from me. I don’t think I was ready for spending time with him again yet. The time spent together earlier in the forest had been awkward enough, as much as I may have appreciated his help. The way his dark eyes continued to fall upon me had made me feel uncomfortable. Something seemed different about him. Maybe it was the new wolf... the Beta aura he now possessed. But, whatever it was, I did not like it. That look was intimidating. And it scared me. He scared me.
“I will get Harry to send a pack link out then we can get everyone here. And Marcus can delay him.” Aunt Zoe said calmly, with a smile, as if she had no worries at all in the world. She was a queen at organizing celebrations, so she had nothing to stress about tonight. I, however, had everything to worry about. I was being forced to come to a party I wanted to avoid.
A party that the special guest was already on his way to. A special guest that hated me, yet I was expected to treat him like he was something special, especially today. Great…
I had done the good guy role. Going against every part of me that hated Seren. But, the part of me that knew what it was like to lose my father. The part that clung to that pain day in and day out was what made me step up and offer to help her find her bracelet. Or at least try. That had been torture being that close to her. I hate her. I truly do. But my body want her. The matebond wants her. This is nothing but a mess.Her scent was overwhelming. Enticing. Alluring. As it teased at my senses. Like it wanted me to reach for her and sink my teeth into her neck. Mark her and make her mine. Her scent had filled every part of that forest as we searched for that damn bracelet. As I did the decent thing. Torturing myself while being the good guy. Yet, we never found the damn thing, and she rushed away with tears in her eyes, and I had to ask our patrols to look out for it. Another promise to the bane of my life...Now I needed to go and party. Reward myself for being the good guy. I think
The party was in full swing by the time Marcus and I arrive, more than a couple of shots down. Seemed my friend was not about to let me leave the house having had only one. He was out to ensure I had a good night, and for that I was not going to complain.The moment we arrived to the party we were swamped with well-wishers. Most of whom I had already seen today at my birthday breakfast, or in and around pack, but I was gracious as always. They were, after all, members of the pack I had grown up in, and members of the pack I would be assisting in running once they allowed me to begin my Beta training now I had my wolf. The next stage in my life. One that I had to say I was excited about. Following in my Dad's footsteps. Earning the title he had passed on to me. One my Mum had tried hard to bring me up honourably to earn.Once Marcus and I had managed to ease ourselves away from the majority of the crowd, we noticed three women approaching. All three with affectionate smiles upon their
I made my way around the party, just as my Mum asked, ensuring the food tables were stocked up, and the drink tables too. Vry much being used like staff today, to ensure the party went as smoothly as it could. Heaven forbid that Lachlan did not have the most wonderful party that ever existed. It was on one of those run arounds that I noticed the king of the hour. Beta Blockhead himself. Some slutty-she-wolf draped all over him...No surprise really, we had quite a few she-wolves in pack more than willing to do that to get ahead. My brother had been known to take advantage of his title in that way, as disappointed in him as that makes me to admit it. And, I believe, our very own Alpha, Marcus, had done the same too, until he had met his mate. I think it is just a very shameful part of being a senior role within pack. The lure of the senior title in the pack was appealing to a certain type of she-wolf, and they found themselves flinging themselves upon said wolves at every given opport
Seren’s attitude with me had ruined my mood, and any chance I had with Cara… or Zara… or whatever her name was. So, I had gone back to joining my friends, disregarding my initial plans of spending my birthday evening finding she-wolves to keep me occupied and rid my mind of thoughts of the filthy, repulsive she-wolf that fate had given me for a mate. The night had not gone the way I had hoped. But, my friends were always good company. Especially when we had a few drinks down us.The party was, as parties go, not a bad one. Plenty of laughter, and fun, as to be expected from a pack celebration where there was an ongoing supply of food and alcohol. Music playing until the early hours. Everything a person could want for a party. Yet, I headed home at the end of my party feeling deflated. Like my coming of age had been nothing but a disappointment. Nothing like I had expected.Tyr had slipped to the nether regions of my mind early in the evening, in one hell of a mood with me, likely bec
Already a week into being of age, and I had to say it sucked. I had waited eighteen damn years for this period of my life, and as it turned out, it was nothing but a big, fat disappointment. My wolf had decided he was hibernating. Or, as the case was more likely to be, ignoring me like the ignorant little shit it appeared he was. My wolf was everything I did not want in a wolf. In truth, I had hoped for a wolf that I would gain another friend in, instead it appeared I had gained an enemy. A mortal enemy with the way things were going.I was now having to dodge my friends in their requests to go for a run, both Cole and Marcus desperate to meet my wolf. Neither one having been able to on my birthday, so trying each day since to arrange a chance to train together in our wolf form or run together. There was only one issue with that, the little fucker did not want to come out to play. My wolf was being as awkward as he could be.I liked to keep myself fit, and exercise was an important pa
I stood watching Seren walk away. Her long dark hair swinging as she walked. She was in a hurry to get away from me, that was evident to see. A part of me wanted to go after her, but I stayed, almost fixed to the spot, as she strode further away. While listening to my wolf snarling angrily at me. My gut twisting, along with my heart. I knew the pain she was in. I knew the struggle of losing your father…FLASHBACK – 8 years ago.I played happily with Cole. Climbing the large tree in the garden of their home. The sun was shining and we loved to make the most of the sunshine. Any opportunity to be outside. Climbing trees was one of our favorite things to do, and the one sitting in the Bradshaw's garden was one of the many trees we had fallen from countless times before. The slightly smaller one alongside it was the tree where the treehouse sat. I believed we had fallen from that a few times too. We made a habit of falling. Always so clumsy. Too busy having fun...Thankfully, Aunt Sofia
Today had been a day I had been dreading. But as sure as the sun was to rise, it had arrived. A day that filled me with pain. A day that left me contemplating so much. Reliving memories. My eyes filled with tears. Losing someone you love is the worst imagineable loss, but when that someone is someone you depend upon… turn to… look up to… he had been my everything. Is that not what a Dad was meant to be to his little girl? I had never expected to lose him whilst I was so young. Though, I don’t suppose many people expect to lose the ones they love… and, no matter how hard I tried, I did not know how to make that loss any easier.Three years this year since he had left us. Three years since I had heard his voice. Three years since he had lovingly wrapped his arms around my Mum's waist as she made him his morning coffee, making her giggle, despite their many years together as mates. 1095 days feeling lost without my Dad by my side to turn to for
That smug look lingered across Lachlan's dark features as his smirk widened. His dark eyes never leaving me for a second as he watched me move along the corridor. “Alright, Ren.” He nodded at me, before raising his coffee mug to me.Without further acknowledgement of him, I quickly continued striding along the corridor, before my anger well and truly bubbled out of control. I did not know what he was doing here, and I did not need him here. Marching into the kitchen to find my brother tossing one of the pancakes as I did, he looked up at me with a welcoming smile. The lightness in his face only to be brought down by me as I snapped. “What is he doing here?”Cole’s eyes rolled upward, like he was sick of my words. It was something I had asked him multiple times before. I hated the sight of Lachlan making himself comfortable within our family home, especially when he had his arrogant head on. Unfortunately, as a close family friend, he made
I felt like I was drifting. Floating. In a state of nothingness. I did not like it. But I did not know how to get out. One moment I had been striding down the main street of our local city, planning the first leg of my journey. As well as having picked up an application form for the local university. Then I was here. Stuck.It had been one hell of a day, but I had took on board the things Lachlan had said. Even researched it a little too. Being apart from your fated mate was going to be difficult, but then, being near him was likely going to be even harder, so I decided I would allow myself the trip I wanted. Not the long, travelling trip I had been planning, but a shorter, more of a vacation sort of trip, with additional ones in the future. Before enrolling for further education upon my return. Living away from pack for most of the week, returning home at weekends. Sort of the best of both worlds. Giving me the much needed space I was craving, as well as be
I had not slept all night I was sure of it. Instead alternating between sitting and pacing around Seren’s room while my Aunt tried to sleep in her seat. I mean, these seats were far from designed to sleep in, but at a push you could manage a nap for a short while if needed. But for me, sleep was not going to come no matter how I tried. My mind had been over-run with thoughts of the things my Aunt had said, and I knew from that moment I had to act upon them.Upon waking I had been forced to make polite conversation with my Aunt as one of the nurses brought us breakfast as they had done each morning since our arrival in the pack hospital. Familiar faces to them now, and they were kind enough to be trying to take care of us as well as their actual patient. Time seemed to be dragging...I had waited for the short time I would have where Aunt Sophia returned to her home to take a shower and change her clothes. It had become part of her daily routine
The move to the pack hospital had occurred. Now I was battling for space within Seren’s room at almost every given moment. Not only with my friends, but also my mother and my Aunts. There was always somebody here to see her. If not friends and family, then of course, understandably, the medical staff to attend to her. Cole had decided that now his sister was back within pack it was only right to break the news to their mother of the accident. It had been difficult to explain her absence for the days she had been gone, so I think he was glad of no longer having to come up with lies.But, what he was not glad of was the agony of seeing his mother suffering as she appeared to be falling apart at seeing her little girl injured within a hospital bed. Aunt Sophia had barely left Seren’s side, which meant I rarely got time alone with my mate. Thankfully, I did not think Cole had shared the news I had given him with his mother, as she was still the same
Two days of sitting by Seren’s bedside. And two days of there being no further progress. She had not moved. There had been nothing to sense from neither her nor her wolf, and damn had I been trying, as had Tyr. I was unsure I found any sleep in the hard and uncofortable chair that sat alongside her bed, but I had sworn not to leave her side, and I planned to stick to that.I had spoken to her at any given opportunity when it was just the two of us in the room on our own, hoping to the Moon Goddess she may hear me. Sharing memories of our times together in pack. The fun things we had done together. Good times. Things I hoped would make her smile if she was listening. I did not have a clue if, when someone was injured so badly and they were sleeping so soundly that they can hear what is happening around them, but I hoped she might be able to, or her wolf... anything to give me hope Seren was still in there.I allowed my eyes to drift to her again.
Cole had slipped out of the room, walking past me with an icy glare, but spoke not a word. Marcus paused for a moment by my side. “We are just going to talk with the head doctor.” He informed me, so I took it that he was giving me the opportunity to walk in and see Seren. He had to have known I needed to see her. That my wolf needed to see her.I lingered for a moment, waiting, and watching as my two friends walked along the corridor, disappearing around the corner. The moment they were out of view I rushed to the doorway of the room I had been waiting for news from since we had arrived. There had been nothing. Neither Cole nor Marcus had come to speak to me, nor had they mindlinked. Everything had been silent, and it had been torture.I tentatively opened the door, and as I stepped inside my blood ran cold. Seren was surrounded by machines, her perfect, petite body covered with a sheet, with only her face visible. Her delicate features st
The words my friend had said sunk in, and my body felt like it was in agony, while time seemed to have stood still as my mind ran away with itself. City hospital had been in touch. That meant one of our pack was injured. Seren was missing. It could only be her. My sweet Seren. My heart twisted in pain. She had been fleeing from pack, and in doing so had put herself in harm's way. She had been hurt, and now lay in the hospital... my mind swam with horrendous images and thoughts. All bringing me back to the possibility of losing her. Losing her now before I had a chance to tell her I was wrong. Before we were able to fix things. Before I could say I was sorry...Chaos was beginning to ensue around me, snapping me from my daze. Cole had rushed back through the door of the office having left only moments ago to begin to speak to Seren’s friends in our bid to find her. “What do you mean the city hospital Marcus?” Cole demanded. “What do yo
The drive to the City had to be one of the longest and most awkward I think there had ever been. Three friends who had spent countless hours together in the car over the years, all now sitting alongside one another with not a word to say between them. Tension hanging heavy within the air while we all waited stressfully to arrive to our destination. The city was one within only half an hour from the pack. A decent distance when it came to being far enough away to give us the privacy we needed as a wolfpack, but close enough for the supplies and things we also needed. It also meant that it offered some escape for those wanting to have time away from packlife… and I cannot help but wonder if that was what Seren had been looking for.Cole had not spoken a word to me. His darkened eyes glowering at me from across the car instead. I knew he had questions, and the unease he was feeling was evident from the way his fingers were tapping upon his thighs. But I don’t think
Cole and I walked into Marcus’s office. Marcus sat at his table, the senior warriors already there, standing either side of him, looking down at the large map laid out on the desk in front of them. They had begun looking to come up with a plan of finding Seren. Thankfully Marcus and the warriors had not waited for us before they begun on working out how far Seren may have travelled. They were well on their way to making a headstart.“You think her friends know anything?” I questioned, wondering if Seren may have called or messaged Ayla or Thea for help or even to say goodbye. The three of them were usually discussing most major things within their lives, so surely this would be considered major, right?Cole shrugged. “I could go and ask.” He said firmly, determination upon his face. Marcus nodded, knowing as well as I did that Cole would need a distraction, and going to speak to someone would likely be better than sitting
Cole’s eyes met mine. Eyes full of questions. Questions and blame. The coldness remained, but I did not have time for the argument we had moments ago been in the throes of. I needed to find my mate. I needed to fix this. I did not wait a moment longer, I was already moving toward the door.‘What do you mean she is nowhere in pack Marcus?’ I demanded. Seren had been in pack not that long ago. She had been in the office with Marcus and I. She had stormed away in one of her mood swings she was known for. We had assumed she needed time to cool down, and she would be good again. How the hell had it gone from that to her no longer being in pack? It made no sense. Had things become too much for her and she ran?‘I wanted to talk to her about the plans she gave me, so I linked her, and I got no reply. So, I thought maybe she was in a mood with me, which would be understandable considering the way she reacted in the office, so I chose t