My head was a mess by the time I walked into the house. Only to find my Mum’s angry eyes staring at me. Yes, I had managed it again. I had pissed her off. I could win awards in that.
“I lost my bracelet when I went for a run, okay?” I explained, hoping she might at least show me some sympathy, or, if not, then try to understand the reason I had not returned when she had asked me to. “So I had to go back and look for it.”
Her big green eyes darkened at those words, her brow furrowed. “As in the bracelet your Dad gave you?” Her voice was hoarse, and already I knew this was not going to go as I hoped, so I simply nodded.
A heavy sigh slipped from my Mum’s lips as her hands fell to her sides in what I could only assume was frustration. “How could you be so irresponsible, Seren?” she snapped. “You know how precious that bracelet is! It is not like you can just get another one. Or at least not one that would hold the same meaning.”
My eyes widened at her reaction. She had to be kidding, right? Like I had chosen to lose it on purpose? My heart was breaking at the fact I had not been able to find it, and the last thing I needed was my Mum yelling at me over it. And the weird thing was the one person in the pack who hated me more than anyone else had shown me more sympathy than my own fucking mother!
“No shit!” I sobbed. “I didn’t choose for it to fall off. But, you will be glad to know while I was up there I saw King Lachlan and wished him a happy birthday. He actually tried to help me find the bracelet. So, I did as you asked, okay?” I walked away from her, wiping the stray tear that had slipped from my eye. Hating that my Mum had been so harsh over the bracelet. I felt incomplete without it, and now I had her giving me a hard time over losing it. Almost like she felt it had been intentional.
“Seren, wait!” Mum’s voice echoed along the hallway of our family home. A home that had never felt the same to me since my Dad passed away. It felt empty almost, which was crazy when there were still three of us living here. But it just didn't feel right without my Dad here.
I turned sharply as I reached the staircase, and looked back toward her. “So you can tell me how bad I am?” I questioned, sniffling the tears away.
My Mum offered me a sympathetic smile. “I am sorry for yelling, it just hurts that you may have lost the last thing your Dad gave you, Ren.” Her voice sounded a little unsteady, telling me she may be as close to tears as I was. I wish I had never told her about the bracelet now, and just took the blame for being late. Anything would have been better than the guilt I was currently feeling...
“Do you not think that is how I am feeling?” I suggested, and she nodded slowly, that same smile offered once more.
“It was nice of Lach to help you look for it. Such a sweet boy. And on his birthday too.” Mum said with a tenderness in her voice that made me roll my eyes. Both her and my Aunt Zoe, the former Luna, saw Lachlan as an additional son. Acted like the sun shone from his ass.
“Uh-huh.”
“Seren, give the boy a break. Today will be hard for him. A day he should be sharing with his Dad. His Dad gave his life so you could be here. Remember that.” My Mum’s words hit hard. She had a habit of reminding me of one of the scariest days of my life… one I would forever hold guilt over, but it was unfair to hold it over me like that.
I walked away from her without a further word. I was not about to get into this again. “Oh, Seren, get yourself cleaned up, we are expected at the training field in an hour to put the finishing touches to the party.” Mum ordered me, and again I felt my shoulders sag in anticipation of what would lie ahead for me.
Before I knew it, we were walking out of the house together, my Mum already wittering in my ear about all the things that she wanted me to do once we arrived, and then moved onto all the things they had arranged for the celebrations. They had, just as I had expected, gone to a lot of effort for Lachlan’s birthday. But, they had done the same for my brother, Cole, when he had come of age, and the same for our Alpha, Marcus, as he came of age. So, no doubt they wanted to ensure that Lachlan received the same treatment. Our pack liked to celebrate properly, and tonight, the atmosphere would be a good one. I just wish I did not have to join in.
“Can you please try to look like you want to be there, Seren.” Mum admonished me and I plastered on a fake smile, only to earn myself a frown from the woman to my left. “You are not clever, young lady.”
“No, I don’t suppose I am.” I muttered under my breath, just as my Aunt Zoe, our former pack Luna, wrapped her arms around me in a huge hug, almost smothering me in the process.
“Aww, hello beautiful!” she said excitedly. I looked across at my Mum in a bid for help, and she simply grinned. They were all as over-affectionate as one another. All over-friendly, and far too cheerful for my liking, but they were my closest family at the end of the day. I had to love them.
“Hey Aunt Zoe.” I smiled awkwardly, trying to extricate myself from her embrace.
“Mom, let the poor girl go!” Marcus, the pack Alpha, and my brother’s best friend laughed as he walked past. “Alright Rennie!” he offered me a hand for a high five. I hated his nickname, but he had picked it when he was about eight, and it has stuck ever since.
“Hey Marcus, sorry, Alpha!” I stuck my tongue out at him. While Lachlan and I may no longer get along, Marcus has always looked out for me. He and his mate, our new pack Luna, Amalie, often spent time with my brother, Cole, so I enjoyed seeing them.
“They roped you into setting up the party?” he asked, and I nodded.
“Unlcuky. I get out of it, because I am important.” He laughed, giving me a wink, so I shook my head at him, giving him the middle finger as he walked away laughing.
“Right, come on, still lots to do.” Aunt Zoe told me, just as Lachlan’s Mum, Alena, rushed over.
“Lachlan is already on his way!” she fusses, and instantly I felt any happiness draining from me. I don’t think I was ready for spending time with him again yet. The time spent together earlier in the forest had been awkward enough, as much as I may have appreciated his help. The way his dark eyes continued to fall upon me had made me feel uncomfortable. Something seemed different about him. Maybe it was the new wolf... the Beta aura he now possessed. But, whatever it was, I did not like it. That look was intimidating. And it scared me. He scared me.
“I will get Harry to send a pack link out then we can get everyone here. And Marcus can delay him.” Aunt Zoe said calmly, with a smile, as if she had no worries at all in the world. She was a queen at organizing celebrations, so she had nothing to stress about tonight. I, however, had everything to worry about. I was being forced to come to a party I wanted to avoid.
A party that the special guest was already on his way to. A special guest that hated me, yet I was expected to treat him like he was something special, especially today. Great…
I had done the good guy role. Going against every part of me that hated Seren. But, the part of me that knew what it was like to lose my father. The part that clung to that pain day in and day out was what made me step up and offer to help her find her bracelet. Or at least try. That had been torture being that close to her. I hate her. I truly do. But my body want her. The matebond wants her. This is nothing but a mess.Her scent was overwhelming. Enticing. Alluring. As it teased at my senses. Like it wanted me to reach for her and sink my teeth into her neck. Mark her and make her mine. Her scent had filled every part of that forest as we searched for that damn bracelet. As I did the decent thing. Torturing myself while being the good guy. Yet, we never found the damn thing, and she rushed away with tears in her eyes, and I had to ask our patrols to look out for it. Another promise to the bane of my life...Now I needed to go and party. Reward myself for being the good guy. I think
The party was in full swing by the time Marcus and I arrive, more than a couple of shots down. Seemed my friend was not about to let me leave the house having had only one. He was out to ensure I had a good night, and for that I was not going to complain.The moment we arrived to the party we were swamped with well-wishers. Most of whom I had already seen today at my birthday breakfast, or in and around pack, but I was gracious as always. They were, after all, members of the pack I had grown up in, and members of the pack I would be assisting in running once they allowed me to begin my Beta training now I had my wolf. The next stage in my life. One that I had to say I was excited about. Following in my Dad's footsteps. Earning the title he had passed on to me. One my Mum had tried hard to bring me up honourably to earn.Once Marcus and I had managed to ease ourselves away from the majority of the crowd, we noticed three women approaching. All three with affectionate smiles upon their
I made my way around the party, just as my Mum asked, ensuring the food tables were stocked up, and the drink tables too. Vry much being used like staff today, to ensure the party went as smoothly as it could. Heaven forbid that Lachlan did not have the most wonderful party that ever existed. It was on one of those run arounds that I noticed the king of the hour. Beta Blockhead himself. Some slutty-she-wolf draped all over him...No surprise really, we had quite a few she-wolves in pack more than willing to do that to get ahead. My brother had been known to take advantage of his title in that way, as disappointed in him as that makes me to admit it. And, I believe, our very own Alpha, Marcus, had done the same too, until he had met his mate. I think it is just a very shameful part of being a senior role within pack. The lure of the senior title in the pack was appealing to a certain type of she-wolf, and they found themselves flinging themselves upon said wolves at every given opport
Seren’s attitude with me had ruined my mood, and any chance I had with Cara… or Zara… or whatever her name was. So, I had gone back to joining my friends, disregarding my initial plans of spending my birthday evening finding she-wolves to keep me occupied and rid my mind of thoughts of the filthy, repulsive she-wolf that fate had given me for a mate. The night had not gone the way I had hoped. But, my friends were always good company. Especially when we had a few drinks down us.The party was, as parties go, not a bad one. Plenty of laughter, and fun, as to be expected from a pack celebration where there was an ongoing supply of food and alcohol. Music playing until the early hours. Everything a person could want for a party. Yet, I headed home at the end of my party feeling deflated. Like my coming of age had been nothing but a disappointment. Nothing like I had expected.Tyr had slipped to the nether regions of my mind early in the evening, in one hell of a mood with me, likely bec
Already a week into being of age, and I had to say it sucked. I had waited eighteen damn years for this period of my life, and as it turned out, it was nothing but a big, fat disappointment. My wolf had decided he was hibernating. Or, as the case was more likely to be, ignoring me like the ignorant little shit it appeared he was. My wolf was everything I did not want in a wolf. In truth, I had hoped for a wolf that I would gain another friend in, instead it appeared I had gained an enemy. A mortal enemy with the way things were going.I was now having to dodge my friends in their requests to go for a run, both Cole and Marcus desperate to meet my wolf. Neither one having been able to on my birthday, so trying each day since to arrange a chance to train together in our wolf form or run together. There was only one issue with that, the little fucker did not want to come out to play. My wolf was being as awkward as he could be.I liked to keep myself fit, and exercise was an important pa
I stood watching Seren walk away. Her long dark hair swinging as she walked. She was in a hurry to get away from me, that was evident to see. A part of me wanted to go after her, but I stayed, almost fixed to the spot, as she strode further away. While listening to my wolf snarling angrily at me. My gut twisting, along with my heart. I knew the pain she was in. I knew the struggle of losing your father…FLASHBACK – 8 years ago.I played happily with Cole. Climbing the large tree in the garden of their home. The sun was shining and we loved to make the most of the sunshine. Any opportunity to be outside. Climbing trees was one of our favorite things to do, and the one sitting in the Bradshaw's garden was one of the many trees we had fallen from countless times before. The slightly smaller one alongside it was the tree where the treehouse sat. I believed we had fallen from that a few times too. We made a habit of falling. Always so clumsy. Too busy having fun...Thankfully, Aunt Sofia
Today had been a day I had been dreading. But as sure as the sun was to rise, it had arrived. A day that filled me with pain. A day that left me contemplating so much. Reliving memories. My eyes filled with tears. Losing someone you love is the worst imagineable loss, but when that someone is someone you depend upon… turn to… look up to… he had been my everything. Is that not what a Dad was meant to be to his little girl? I had never expected to lose him whilst I was so young. Though, I don’t suppose many people expect to lose the ones they love… and, no matter how hard I tried, I did not know how to make that loss any easier.Three years this year since he had left us. Three years since I had heard his voice. Three years since he had lovingly wrapped his arms around my Mum's waist as she made him his morning coffee, making her giggle, despite their many years together as mates. 1095 days feeling lost without my Dad by my side to turn to for
That smug look lingered across Lachlan's dark features as his smirk widened. His dark eyes never leaving me for a second as he watched me move along the corridor. “Alright, Ren.” He nodded at me, before raising his coffee mug to me.Without further acknowledgement of him, I quickly continued striding along the corridor, before my anger well and truly bubbled out of control. I did not know what he was doing here, and I did not need him here. Marching into the kitchen to find my brother tossing one of the pancakes as I did, he looked up at me with a welcoming smile. The lightness in his face only to be brought down by me as I snapped. “What is he doing here?”Cole’s eyes rolled upward, like he was sick of my words. It was something I had asked him multiple times before. I hated the sight of Lachlan making himself comfortable within our family home, especially when he had his arrogant head on. Unfortunately, as a close family friend, he made
Pain. Heat. Tenderness radiated through my body. As did warmth. No, not warmth, boiling, temperatures. Hours? Days? I did not know now. I was in a state of confusion. Agony. Discomfort. Sobbing. Screaming. Crying one moment, yelling the next… I did not like this. How was this a normal state for anyone or anything to be in?!‘Why won’t he help us?’ I wailed to Maia. She was our wolf, why could she not talk to his wolf? Surely he could convince Lachlan to surrender to the matebond again. He had done it before. This good-boy image did not suit him. If he would surrender to the matebond we could ease this pain. Put an end to this suffering. It may even bring us closer...‘We have gone over this. So many times.’ She snapped, and she was right. I had begged her so many times, and I had argued this point with Lachlan too. He was not about to give in to me. He was determined to do the right thing. Why he deemed this the ri
I saw pain and anger flicker across Seren’s face at my words. I had expected nothing more. I had known the moment I had chosen to say those things that it would be the last thing she would be wanting to hear. She had sought me out for a reason. I was her mate. She knew the relief her mate could bring when in heat. Angry with me or not, she was willing to bypass that to gain the relief she needed. But, I was not willing to sink to that. And, no matter the pain nor anger I was causing her, and hating that fact, I knew I had to do this. It would be too easy to give her what she craved. But it would be wrong. We were not together. Yes, we may be fated mates, but we had agreed not to be together. I had surrendered to the matebond before, and in doing so I had hurt Seren and regretted that massively.I knew she saw this as me trying to hurt her, but it was me trying to do the right thing. Thankfully, with Tyr being absent resisting her was somewhat easier as
My whole body burned. It ached like never before. And now added to that was the delectable scent of my mate. I am sure it smelled stronger than it had previously, or was that what happened when a she-wolf went into heat? He smelled divine, I knew that much. I was desperate to be close to him. Rip those close right off his body…But Lachlan had stepped away from me. And now his eyes were dark, with a frown etching his face as he avoided my gaze. What was wrong with him? This was not how I had imagined this woud go. The last time we had seen each other he had wanted to talk. And all the times he and I had been intimate Lachlan had been unable to resist. He was insatiable. My scent should trigger that, I was sure of it. I had imagined the moment he caught a note of my scent and realized I was in heat he would pull me to the cabin and rip my clothes off. Make up for the time we had lost. Ease the pain I was feeling...But, just now he had stepped away from me. That
The silence was deafening, and frustration rushed through me at the fact Seren had not replied. I know it had to have hurt her that I never went back to the hospital. I had sworn to her I would prove myself and because of my Aunt telling me to stay away, and my mother agreeing I had gone back on my promise to Seren. I had failed her yet again. Was it any wonder that she would not trust me now? But, my Aunt's words had hurt, and I did as she asked, especially when my own Mum had backed her up. Family meant everything to me. But, now I relaize that maybe Seren meant more.A matebond is something to be cherished. And I had tossed mine away so easily. A choice I would forever regret. I should have gone to Seren. She deserved better. I should have put the matebond first and done all I could to fix the mess my fucked up brain had created. Her and I could have been good together. The moon goddess clearly believed so. My heart ached once again as I thought it all ov
I was tired. Sleep rarely found me, and despite it now being what I assumed was likely early evening I was laid upon the bed within the cabin staring up at the now familiar ceiling. I should be out enjoying a run, or cooking dinner, anything but lounging around doing nothing, but instead here I was, wanting to try to sleep again because I felt I was becoming weaker as the days went on. This was never a good position for a werewolf to be in.This was what more of my days were becoming. Days merged into one another, as did the hours now. The only way I could differentiate between day and night was the colour of the sky outside. My sleep pattern was fucked so I simply slept when I could, which was less and less of late; creating an ever increasingly tireder version of myself. Tired and weaker.I was slowly losing any will to live, and I feared that could be because Seren was gone. I had fucked up, and I had fucked up big time. But, I was scared it may be
I awoke on my bed, in sheer confusion, and a raging rush of heat charging through my body. I felt sick. My head hurt and I felt drained. This was not a pleasant feeling. I was sure I had been in the lounge of the packhouse only moments ago had I not? It had been light outside had it not? Now as my eyes wandered to the window the sky was a mixture of altering hues as the sun was going down... just how long had I been out of it?!I attempted to sit up but my head spun as I did, and heat flooded my body. Nausea sat heavy on my stomach. I quickly laid myself back down, closing my eyes tightly wishing I could fall back into the heavy sleep I had clearly just woken from. At least while sleeping I was not being forced to endure this hell...I could hear raised voices outside of my room. My Mum, My Aunts, Marcus and Cole. Why were they all here? And was there any need to be shouting? From what I could hear they were discussing me. Of course they were. What el
Aunt Alena’s desperate eyes were watching me. I could see the pain and desperation within her gaze and it made me feel bad for her. She was waiting on an answer from me, I knew that. But, in all honesty, what answer did I have to give? No answer that was going to ease the pain she was feeling, that was for certain. I had no clue where Lachlan was, or why he was acting this way. I had tried to mindlink him as I left only for him to ignore me. No, I did not reach out to him otherwise, but that was purely because I could not handle the disapointment of looking at my phone only to see he had once again not responded...What could I tell my Aunt? All I had done was follow the orders he had given me. That did not paint her son in the best way, and I did not want to make her feel worse than she already did. I had a feeling enough bad things were currently being said about Lachlan as it was, and they had to hurt Aunt Alena, I did not need to add to that. Lachl
The drive to pack was awkward and near silent. The occasional uncomfortable glance from my brother made me wish I had found an excuse to stay on campus rather than return home this weekend. It was only as we neared the gates that he chose to speak up, and I knew in that moment what was laying heavy on his mind.“I think it is better you don’t mention anything about the situation with you and Lachlan while you are home. It hurt a lot of people that neither one of you spoke up about it. Secrets among family are not right, let alone going against pack beliefs…” Cole’s tone was tense, and irritation built within my body at his words, but I held back. I knew when I agreed to keep silent about the matebond that it would hurt those close to us. I knew the damage it could do, but I made the agreement with Lachlan all the same,and now we were fcing the consequences.Cole did not wait for a response as he continued brusquely. &ldq
My first week of classes had been hectic. Meeting all my new tutors and, of course, all my new class mates. I was learning the new schedule that would become my new normal for the coming months. All while I learned my way around campus. And, I had to say I loved it! The place was massive, like a maze if you did not know your way around, but it was so fun, and there was so much to do. I could not be happier to be here...In truth, I had surprised myself with how easily I had settled in, and how equally easily I had made friends. Within my first two days of class I had met Laila and Charlie, both girls were within my General medicine class, and we instantly hit it off. We had so much in common, and when put together to work alongside one another we bonded over our love of music. We chatted as we worked, laughing so much, to the point we got ourselves in trouble! But, I loved every moment of it. And, the girls had barely left my side since.Most evenings after classes had