It had tore me apart hearing that Seren was leaving pack. When I had been all but forced to agree to not seeing her, I was comforted by the fact that Seren was in pack. She was being cared for by our own doctors, and some of the best around at that. Plus, she had our families visiting her. I knew, despite not being able to see her, she was close, and she was well. Hearing she was well enough to be discharged from the pack hospital had been a rush of relief, of course it had, but that had soon been replaced by a flood of pain the moment Marcus told me that he had permitted for her to go and continue her studies in the city. He was allowing her to leave me. Leave our pack. And, I believed his reasoning for that was because of how I had treated her.
Marcus was my friend, but he was also a friend to Seren. I believed, considering the way in which he acted around me of late that he found himself torn between the two friendships... perhaps rightly so. We had alway
The car ride was going to be awkward. My whole body trembled the moment I lowered myself into the seat. My heart was beating so hard from standing up to Lachlan, and I could not lie, it also ached from the fact I had walked away from everything between us so easily… okay, maybe not so easly. It had taken a lot of thought over the previous days. Maia was whimpering at the back of mind as we drove away from him, and as I turned back to look at him through the window, he remained where we left him, simply stood with his hands by his sides, his eyes upon the car as it drove away. His eyes dark and blank. Very much looking like a broken man. How had things come to this?‘Don’t go.’ Maia whimpered. ‘Let him speak.’ She urged. I knew she was fighting every natural urge a wolf had when it came to their fated mate, but she had also spoken of her need to protect me. She had fought everything within her to help me heal, and she knew
The campus was busy. Busier than I had expected when I had imagined it, I think. Though, we had arrived on a day that there was a sports match taking place, so from what I understood that did add to the capacity of people that passed through. Who knew? I sure did not… Maybe I had led a somewhat sheltered life having lived within the pack, so being brought to this chaotic new surrounding may take more than a little getting used to.I could see my older brother’s eyes darting around as we moved to the small area of campus in which my apartment sat, and he still had that same displeased expression upon his face. I did not think he was going to have anything but a disgruntled expression on that face of his the entire time we were here in all honesty, because he did not think this was the right decision for me. But, Marcus was trying harder to be postive.“The sun is shining, that tells you the moon goddess is blessing you with her prese
Having shared food with Marcus and my brother within my new home, I now found myself alone and oddly unsure of my new surroundings. The moment the two of them had left me to return to pack I had busied myself with unpacking the few things that needed unpacking, and rearranging things to how I would like them. But, because my Mum and my Aunts had done so much there was very little for me to do; and very soon I found my way to the sofa with a deflated sigh...I felt an unease settling over me as I sat down. No matter the way my family may have gone to the effort to decorate the new home to resemble my old home, I was in an unfamiliar place, and it was making me feel a little on edge. But, I was sure that was just the thought of the new things I had facing me in the coming days. Also, I knew my wolf was unsettled by this new beginning I had chosen for us, despite it not being a long term choice, it was one purely for my education, my wolf evidently did not agree with my decision. I did n
I do not know how many days have passed since she went. All I know is Seren is no longer in pack. And any lingering presence of my wolf have drifted further into the ether of my mind. I think he has weakened further without her. Seemed my plan to simply manage without her may not have been the best one… I remained at the cabin. I was of no use to anyone at present, I knew that, and it appeared neither Marcus nor Cole were in any rush to come and find me. I believed by now they both knew where I was, so if either one wanted or needed me they were more than capable of coming to find me. But at the same time I knew they were both angry at me for my treatment of Seren. Cole, understandably so as her brother, but Marcus too, as not only her Alpha but in a big brother type way too, having grown up alongside her. I had managed to fuck things up in one foul-swoop. What frustrated me more than anything w
I had no clue how long I had sat there, my Uncle by my side, and tears filling my eyes. My mind wandered with thoughts of the potential things my Mum may think of me… feel toward me… what if she resented me? That was a thought I had never considered before. But, I had never believed for a moment that my own mother could be scared of me until now. What if she remained scared of me over all these years? That was not something a mother should feel toward her son. The very thought sickened me. Our closeness had always been something that brought me comfort after my Dad died. She was all I had left. Now I could not help but question if that connection we shared had simply been an act? All through fear?It was only as Uncle Harry’s hand touched my back in an attempt to bring some form of reassurance that I snapped out of the pained filled daze I was in. “Crying may do you some good son.” He rubbed my back gently. “I cried like
My first week of classes had been hectic. Meeting all my new tutors and, of course, all my new class mates. I was learning the new schedule that would become my new normal for the coming months. All while I learned my way around campus. And, I had to say I loved it! The place was massive, like a maze if you did not know your way around, but it was so fun, and there was so much to do. I could not be happier to be here...In truth, I had surprised myself with how easily I had settled in, and how equally easily I had made friends. Within my first two days of class I had met Laila and Charlie, both girls were within my General medicine class, and we instantly hit it off. We had so much in common, and when put together to work alongside one another we bonded over our love of music. We chatted as we worked, laughing so much, to the point we got ourselves in trouble! But, I loved every moment of it. And, the girls had barely left my side since.Most evenings after classes had
The drive to pack was awkward and near silent. The occasional uncomfortable glance from my brother made me wish I had found an excuse to stay on campus rather than return home this weekend. It was only as we neared the gates that he chose to speak up, and I knew in that moment what was laying heavy on his mind.“I think it is better you don’t mention anything about the situation with you and Lachlan while you are home. It hurt a lot of people that neither one of you spoke up about it. Secrets among family are not right, let alone going against pack beliefs…” Cole’s tone was tense, and irritation built within my body at his words, but I held back. I knew when I agreed to keep silent about the matebond that it would hurt those close to us. I knew the damage it could do, but I made the agreement with Lachlan all the same,and now we were fcing the consequences.Cole did not wait for a response as he continued brusquely. &ldq
I didn’t imagine I would be coming of age without my Dad there to guide me. That does not mean I do not appreciate my Mum. Hell no, she is the strongest woman I know. Losing your fated mate can destroy you. Though, personally, I think losing the one you love is enough to break anyone. But, the bond we share as werewolves with our mates is something else; and when that is broken, it can tear you apart from the inside.Yet my Mum pulled through it. Not just any old she-wolf either. A Beta’s wife. Bringing up a hard-headed son who, I am not ashamed to say, is a stubborn little fucker. I took after my Dad in that respect. I know that much. But, taking after him was the last connection I could have with him. That and the fact I would be inheriting his title.Yet, despite losing him, and knowing she had a heart-broken son struggling to cope with the loss of his father to bring up, my Mum battled on through, resilient as ever, never letting her determination waiver, or at least never in fron
The drive to pack was awkward and near silent. The occasional uncomfortable glance from my brother made me wish I had found an excuse to stay on campus rather than return home this weekend. It was only as we neared the gates that he chose to speak up, and I knew in that moment what was laying heavy on his mind.“I think it is better you don’t mention anything about the situation with you and Lachlan while you are home. It hurt a lot of people that neither one of you spoke up about it. Secrets among family are not right, let alone going against pack beliefs…” Cole’s tone was tense, and irritation built within my body at his words, but I held back. I knew when I agreed to keep silent about the matebond that it would hurt those close to us. I knew the damage it could do, but I made the agreement with Lachlan all the same,and now we were fcing the consequences.Cole did not wait for a response as he continued brusquely. &ldq
My first week of classes had been hectic. Meeting all my new tutors and, of course, all my new class mates. I was learning the new schedule that would become my new normal for the coming months. All while I learned my way around campus. And, I had to say I loved it! The place was massive, like a maze if you did not know your way around, but it was so fun, and there was so much to do. I could not be happier to be here...In truth, I had surprised myself with how easily I had settled in, and how equally easily I had made friends. Within my first two days of class I had met Laila and Charlie, both girls were within my General medicine class, and we instantly hit it off. We had so much in common, and when put together to work alongside one another we bonded over our love of music. We chatted as we worked, laughing so much, to the point we got ourselves in trouble! But, I loved every moment of it. And, the girls had barely left my side since.Most evenings after classes had
I had no clue how long I had sat there, my Uncle by my side, and tears filling my eyes. My mind wandered with thoughts of the potential things my Mum may think of me… feel toward me… what if she resented me? That was a thought I had never considered before. But, I had never believed for a moment that my own mother could be scared of me until now. What if she remained scared of me over all these years? That was not something a mother should feel toward her son. The very thought sickened me. Our closeness had always been something that brought me comfort after my Dad died. She was all I had left. Now I could not help but question if that connection we shared had simply been an act? All through fear?It was only as Uncle Harry’s hand touched my back in an attempt to bring some form of reassurance that I snapped out of the pained filled daze I was in. “Crying may do you some good son.” He rubbed my back gently. “I cried like
I do not know how many days have passed since she went. All I know is Seren is no longer in pack. And any lingering presence of my wolf have drifted further into the ether of my mind. I think he has weakened further without her. Seemed my plan to simply manage without her may not have been the best one… I remained at the cabin. I was of no use to anyone at present, I knew that, and it appeared neither Marcus nor Cole were in any rush to come and find me. I believed by now they both knew where I was, so if either one wanted or needed me they were more than capable of coming to find me. But at the same time I knew they were both angry at me for my treatment of Seren. Cole, understandably so as her brother, but Marcus too, as not only her Alpha but in a big brother type way too, having grown up alongside her. I had managed to fuck things up in one foul-swoop. What frustrated me more than anything w
Having shared food with Marcus and my brother within my new home, I now found myself alone and oddly unsure of my new surroundings. The moment the two of them had left me to return to pack I had busied myself with unpacking the few things that needed unpacking, and rearranging things to how I would like them. But, because my Mum and my Aunts had done so much there was very little for me to do; and very soon I found my way to the sofa with a deflated sigh...I felt an unease settling over me as I sat down. No matter the way my family may have gone to the effort to decorate the new home to resemble my old home, I was in an unfamiliar place, and it was making me feel a little on edge. But, I was sure that was just the thought of the new things I had facing me in the coming days. Also, I knew my wolf was unsettled by this new beginning I had chosen for us, despite it not being a long term choice, it was one purely for my education, my wolf evidently did not agree with my decision. I did n
The campus was busy. Busier than I had expected when I had imagined it, I think. Though, we had arrived on a day that there was a sports match taking place, so from what I understood that did add to the capacity of people that passed through. Who knew? I sure did not… Maybe I had led a somewhat sheltered life having lived within the pack, so being brought to this chaotic new surrounding may take more than a little getting used to.I could see my older brother’s eyes darting around as we moved to the small area of campus in which my apartment sat, and he still had that same displeased expression upon his face. I did not think he was going to have anything but a disgruntled expression on that face of his the entire time we were here in all honesty, because he did not think this was the right decision for me. But, Marcus was trying harder to be postive.“The sun is shining, that tells you the moon goddess is blessing you with her prese
The car ride was going to be awkward. My whole body trembled the moment I lowered myself into the seat. My heart was beating so hard from standing up to Lachlan, and I could not lie, it also ached from the fact I had walked away from everything between us so easily… okay, maybe not so easly. It had taken a lot of thought over the previous days. Maia was whimpering at the back of mind as we drove away from him, and as I turned back to look at him through the window, he remained where we left him, simply stood with his hands by his sides, his eyes upon the car as it drove away. His eyes dark and blank. Very much looking like a broken man. How had things come to this?‘Don’t go.’ Maia whimpered. ‘Let him speak.’ She urged. I knew she was fighting every natural urge a wolf had when it came to their fated mate, but she had also spoken of her need to protect me. She had fought everything within her to help me heal, and she knew
It had tore me apart hearing that Seren was leaving pack. When I had been all but forced to agree to not seeing her, I was comforted by the fact that Seren was in pack. She was being cared for by our own doctors, and some of the best around at that. Plus, she had our families visiting her. I knew, despite not being able to see her, she was close, and she was well. Hearing she was well enough to be discharged from the pack hospital had been a rush of relief, of course it had, but that had soon been replaced by a flood of pain the moment Marcus told me that he had permitted for her to go and continue her studies in the city. He was allowing her to leave me. Leave our pack. And, I believed his reasoning for that was because of how I had treated her.Marcus was my friend, but he was also a friend to Seren. I believed, considering the way in which he acted around me of late that he found himself torn between the two friendships... perhaps rightly so. We had alway
Marcus and Cole had come to the hospital to collect me. I was finally able to leave. Relief was not a word to describe it. I did not know how to explain it, for it simply felt like time had been paused, yet I had been here for an eternity. The same four walls of a room begin to feel like a prison despite the fact you are not being forced to stay there. I think I knew every part of that room in far too much detail. But, the moment had come for me to be discharged with my body all but healed.There were still the occasional niggling pain, or ache depending upon how I moved, but it was nothing I could not cope with. The doctors had reassured me I was well on the way to a full recovery. I had been told I had been lucky. But, I did not feel lucky. Far from it. I had chosen not to consider all of that though. I had a future to focus upon, and thanks to Marcus, his mate and my planning, I was able to do that.“Still don’t agree with this.” Cole grumbled as h