41 - Defeated

HARI YASIEL SIERRA

I watched as Daniel and Cheska walked away, feeling a pang of sadness. Theo came up and patted my shoulder. “You should move on, Hari,” he said gently.

I laughed bitterly. “How? Kung araw-araw, gabi-gabi ko siyang kasama?”

Hindi ko na hinintay na sumagot si Theo nang lumangoy ako papunta sa kabilang dulo ng pool para maalis sa isip ko ang mukha ni Cheska. But every time I closed my eyes, siya laging lumalabas sa isip ko.

I should have courted her first before Daniel could. Binalot lang ako ng takot dahil baka hindi ako sagutin ni Cheska dahil sa age gap namin.

And so? I could be mature for her. It's just a two-year gap. Does it matter?

Ilang beses niyang pinaramdam sa akin na parang kapatid lang ang turing niya sa akin. Damn. Ayokong hanggang doon nalang kami. I want to step the boundaries, but every time I do, lumalayo siya sa akin. And that's fucking hurt worse than being rejected.

I used to be with her all the time, lalayo? Hindi ko kakayanin. OA? No, I just love