It was hard getting mom permission to allow me to attend that hangout again not after what happened the last time . I knew that she was just trying to look out for me but I really did appreciate if she didn’t have to do all the time when I was going out , I have to ask her every time that I had to go out and it was beginning to get on my nerves knowing how much I didn’t want to do that . “ Don’t tell me you are still mad because your mom asked you a few questions , you should be damn lucky that your mom is that way with you and even let you go out even though the both of you live in the same house and in the same state . It it was my mama , you would be damn to even step out of the house , not when he knows you have classes the next day , that’s the worst thing that can ever happen you and I know you don’t want it , so be grateful that your mom isn’t that way , but I still love my mama still I just feel like she’s just trying to protect and I appreciate that . “ I would really love
The tears kept falling off my eyes as I sat at a corner of the bar house .The tears were falling down and it was just as if I couldn’t control them .No matter what I did or how much I tried to hold myself from not crying , I just couldn’t help it , I was losing every inch of it .My heart was hurting, it was hurting right inside of me .I felt like I was going to explode if I spent more time here , I just couldn’t help the way I felt right now .“ Don't tell me you are crying because of Trevor , don’t tell me that girl “ I raised my head and that was when I saw angel looking at me .I could see how much she was panting from chasing after me and trying to get to me .I didn’t know why I had to cry , and couldn’t control my emotions .I just didn’t know why I couldn’t help it , was I stupid enough to know that he would never take me seriously .I shouldn’t have thought about something else when I thought that it was going to be him .“ Come on girl you didn’t have to run off like
The past few weeks have been the worst of my life , I must admit .The thought that I had people who would support me in any way and I thought that they loved me was just pure lies and I hated the way I had been lied to .I just had doubts and I didn’t want anyone to even come say hi to me , that is how mad I am right now .After finding out that the girl I considered to be my friend was with the same person who plotted against me , I didn’t know if I would be able to be free with anyone again .I still couldn’t understand why everything turned out this way and why she stopped so low to my face when she could just tell me the truth .I must admit that I miss Angel but then I am hurt and she has betrayed me which is the worst thing that I had to even imagine .Never did I think that I was going to be a bet to some guy whom I thought liked me .It was after everything that I began to Understand why he did some kind of shit , he just wanted to get me on his bed and he d
School didn’t feel so different when I got back .I didn’t fail to notice that everything was just the same as of Nothing had happened .I packed my car in my usual spot and then walked out of the car .The first thing I noticed when I got out was the weird stare that most of the girls gave me when I stepped out .I didn’t try much to put my thoughts on it , I just didn’t care why they were staring at me and it didn’t seem to matter because I have been getting those state from the first day that I set my foot in this school .I didn’t know why it felt weird but something told me that there was something off about the weird stare that I got .I didn’t want to think much about it , the only thing that I got on my mind at this moment was to attend the class and once all my classes for today are over , I would be going back home and straight to my room .Shuan had promised that he was going to take me out tonight and mom even agreed to it. I didn’t know if I was doing the right thing
I walked out of the classroom and I could see the stares that the student were giving me Even though I didn’t seem to care , I just wanted to get home and get this done with .The stares, the mockery and the betrayal made me hurt the most .I thought that I could trust people but the more that I could see how much they were not worth it .Walking towards my car, I could notice angel standing by it .She looked rough and her hair was the worst , I had never seen her in such a state before .A part of me wanted to care and ask if she was alright but remembering everything that I had gone to go through , I didn’t know if I even wanted to see her or just wanted her to die .“ Get away from my car Angel , the last thing that I want is to see you , I guess you know how much I hate you and I would really appreciate if you stay the fuck away from my stupid life that I am living and let me be , I don’t want to be friends with you anymore , so stop it .Angel ran towards me and h
The next few weeks of my life were dedicated to writing books .Writing was something that I had loved doing since I was a kid and after everything that happened to me .I decided to put more focus on it and maybe if it was my dream then I was definitely going to chase it but if it wasn’t , I was definitely going to leave it . I didn’t want to start thinking about all the things that I had been through over the past few weeks .My life had taken a turn for the worst and I was grateful that I had my mom and shuan to support me .I tried my best not to think about all that stuff , but Trevor's words haunted me to the core .There wasn’t a day that passed without me thinking of how worried I might be .I didn’t want to think that it was true what he said but I still didn’t let it go .There was still a part of me that still had that likeness for Trevor regardless of what he said of what he had told me .I didn’t know why I felt that way but I didn’t care .I wasn’t going to let
Today was literally the last day of school and the only thing that I could keep thinking of was what I was going to do when the whole semester was over .I had a mind of visiting my grandparents but on a second thought , I cleaned that off. I actually did not want to see them , it wasn't just now and it didn’t feel like the right time .Well I wouldn’t want to say this but no time felt like the right time .I knew that the semester was about to close and we were going on holiday but not yet but thanksgiving was in a few days .Thanksgiving is something that I had always looked forward to attending .I must say that it’s one of the best ceremonies that my family celebrated and I am just so happy that they get to do this all the time. I am pretty sure that everyone is definitely going to attend and that is exactly what I am looking forward to .I didn’t know how I was able to go to school over the past few days .The stares had reduced a bit and now everyone was minding their whole b
Classes ended even faster than I thought that it would .I had so many things that I wanted to do once I got home and that was stuff like completing my book since that was the only thing that I could do at that moment .There was nothing that was going to distract me at this point .I knew how much I had worked so hard for this and I wasn’t going to fuck up anything , I didn’t want to do .My heart belonged to my dad only and I knew that .The moment the professor walked out , I grabbed my bag , put on my headset and walked out of the class .One thing that I so much appreciated was the fact that I had no one to talk to .I could just go whenever I wanted to go and no one would bury or say a word about it .I was most grateful that the stares had reduced and people had seen reasons to see that they couldn’t keep on watching me like I am some kind of movie .I was about to get into a car when I felt a hand grab me .I turned immediately and it was angel .“ I am dying Ri