The next few weeks of my life were dedicated to writing books .Writing was something that I had loved doing since I was a kid and after everything that happened to me .I decided to put more focus on it and maybe if it was my dream then I was definitely going to chase it but if it wasn’t , I was definitely going to leave it . I didn’t want to start thinking about all the things that I had been through over the past few weeks .My life had taken a turn for the worst and I was grateful that I had my mom and shuan to support me .I tried my best not to think about all that stuff , but Trevor's words haunted me to the core .There wasn’t a day that passed without me thinking of how worried I might be .I didn’t want to think that it was true what he said but I still didn’t let it go .There was still a part of me that still had that likeness for Trevor regardless of what he said of what he had told me .I didn’t know why I felt that way but I didn’t care .I wasn’t going to let
Today was literally the last day of school and the only thing that I could keep thinking of was what I was going to do when the whole semester was over .I had a mind of visiting my grandparents but on a second thought , I cleaned that off. I actually did not want to see them , it wasn't just now and it didn’t feel like the right time .Well I wouldn’t want to say this but no time felt like the right time .I knew that the semester was about to close and we were going on holiday but not yet but thanksgiving was in a few days .Thanksgiving is something that I had always looked forward to attending .I must say that it’s one of the best ceremonies that my family celebrated and I am just so happy that they get to do this all the time. I am pretty sure that everyone is definitely going to attend and that is exactly what I am looking forward to .I didn’t know how I was able to go to school over the past few days .The stares had reduced a bit and now everyone was minding their whole b
Classes ended even faster than I thought that it would .I had so many things that I wanted to do once I got home and that was stuff like completing my book since that was the only thing that I could do at that moment .There was nothing that was going to distract me at this point .I knew how much I had worked so hard for this and I wasn’t going to fuck up anything , I didn’t want to do .My heart belonged to my dad only and I knew that .The moment the professor walked out , I grabbed my bag , put on my headset and walked out of the class .One thing that I so much appreciated was the fact that I had no one to talk to .I could just go whenever I wanted to go and no one would bury or say a word about it .I was most grateful that the stares had reduced and people had seen reasons to see that they couldn’t keep on watching me like I am some kind of movie .I was about to get into a car when I felt a hand grab me .I turned immediately and it was angel .“ I am dying Ri
I didn’t know how long I stood there after she had driven off .I knew that all that she had said was nothing but just the truth .I couldn’t blame anyone for whatever that was happening to me right now .I made the wrong decision and now I would have to pay for it .I knew that the last thing that I ever wanted was to lose this girl .I didn’t know why I felt that way towards her but I wished I never felt it .I was hurt and my girl wasn’t talking to me anymore and all of this is Jane's fault . I didn’t know why I had to move with those kinds of people who did have respect or human sympathy for anyone .Hurt was the least of how I am feeling right now .Never did I think that a day would come that I would stop talking to her .I was just getting to know and love her and my stupid self had to mess things up .I hated my life for sure . I didn’t know why my stuff had to be the opposite of what other people had to go through .No matter how much it ruined , I just couldn’t se
Happy thanksgiving baby “ My mom's voice rang into my head as I tried to open my eyes .I didn’t know what was happening , what thanksgiving exactly she was talking about , my head felt blank like there was nothing in it I forcefully opened my eyes and that was when I saw my mom standing inside my room staring at me with those smiles that I love so much .For a moment my head went blank trying to think of what she was doing here and it was at that moment that everything came rushing back into my head .It was thanksgiving and everyone was here in my step dad's house to spend thanksgiving with us .The whole mansion was filled and it made my heart bubble with so much joy .“ happy thanksgiving mom , I love you “I stood up from the bed ignoring the tiredness that I felt the moment I walked up and stood up to my mom and hugged her .I couldn’t imagine what she had in stores for me today .Thanksgiving was one of those things that I love so much .I didn’t know why my mom held i
I stood by the hallway waiting for my step dad to pass by .I had so much in my mind that I wanted to say out loud and I was so pissed at him .I didn’t know why I was so hurt by what I had just heard , there was just nothing that I wanted at this moment , I just wanted to know why he did it .For the past few days I could tell that my step dad had been doing everything to avoid me , I didn’t want to think that this was the reason why he was doing that .I thought that he loved me but why the fuck did he get my mom pregenant .I hated him for that , how could he do something as crazy as that .I made sure that everyone was already asleep before I asked him to see me. I didn’t want my mom to see us together like this , because it was definitely going to hurt and I don’t Think that I was in my best frame of mind but I was still going to confront him now or never .When I stood there and looked ahead , I saw his figure approaching me .I didn’t know exactly how to react , I di
For the longest that I could remember , my heart was still aching from all that had just happened over the past few days .I didn’t want to say that I was mad or anything , but damn , how could it be that crazy .It was just some few months away that it all happened and if a fact , it still felt like a ducking dream for me .I could see mom protruding. stomach but I also wondered if it was the best thing that could happen .On second thought , I know that it was the best decision that he made .There was no way possible that he was going to keep on fucking me after getting my mom pregnant , that wasn’t something that I was going to support no matter what it was .I knew how much I was hurt and mad at the same time , I knew that I shouldn’t have gotten involved with him in the first place , but now that I am in this situation what can I do , there’s absolutely nothing that could be done .Never had I felt that lonely my entire life .I wanted someone that I could talk to
Christmas came in a hurry and I didn’t know that it would come that quickly .I could literally remember the last Christmas that I celebrated , it was with my mom and just the both of us and even though she had been seeing shuan , she didn’t let him spend Christmas with us.I didn’t know if I should be happy or sad that someone else was joining us to spend Christmas for the first time since my dad died but what could I say?I didn’t know how it was going to be , but one holiday that I really love was Christmas .I didn’t want it to end . I picked up my phone from the side and looked at it .I raised up my body from the duvet and looked out and I could see that it was Really snowing outside . I stood up from my bed immediately and rushed to wash my face. After that I rushed out of the bathroom again and this time I never hesitated to send a text to Angel first .After the conversation we had , the both of us had started talking again and I was enjoying every bit of it , i