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33. Epilogue
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! How could this happen? I'm supposed to be protected. Shit! Did my fall really alter the implant?
I was sitting down in a dinner, across my doctor's office. She just confirmed my pregnancy. I had been throwing up for two weeks now. I thought it was a stomach bug, I thought it was because of something that I ate, maybe the classes were making me tired until Marco told me to take a pregnancy test.
I put my hand on my stomach, little Brenton is growing inside me now. I smiled and I cried at the same time.
"You okay mam? Can I get you something else?" The waiter was looking at me, concerned now.
"I'm good. Sorry, hormones." I smiled at her, pointing at my still non-existent baby bump.
Then she left me alone knowingly.
I stared down at the busy street. Damn. This was too fast. I wanted this baby, I really do. Since I was trying so hard with C
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