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Love Will Never Be Enough
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2024-10-29 19:42:56…Jenna POV…
You can't have healing without sickness. Your body can stand almost anything; it is your mind that you need to convince.
It is two weeks today. Two weeks. Fuck. Time is just gone. It is two weeks since the chemo has started, and I am getting really sick. I am still trying to convince myself that my body can win this. But each day, as I look in the mirror and I see something new that is slipping away, I am losing hope.
The only one that is not losing hope is Tyler. It is you that are fighting for both of us. You have been there beyond what is even required.
From the moment I met you, I knew I'd love you forever, that you were something precious, perfect. After four months of marriage, I still get butterflies when looking into your eyes. You've made me a better person, given me a more fulfilled life, and you've given me a happiness that I didn't know existed.
Our lives have changed immensely since that frightening, confusing, life-ch
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