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Four Lives Into The Unknown
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2024-10-29 19:42:56...Jenna POV...
We are getting the results of the tests back today.
As I am sitting and waiting for Tyler in the bedroom, I can hear as he and the Doctor are having a full-blown argument over the phone. I saw that crushed look on his face when we left the Doctor's room the other day. He is feeling defeated once more again as we have entered the unknown. So he is at heads with the Doctor because they have not received the results. He is hurting once more again, and do I even dare to say it is my fault.
So as I see him step through the door, it crushes my heart to pieces. His shoulders are slump, with his head hanging down to the floor. I can see his hands are trembling, and his knuckles are red; he must have hit the wall. The Tyler I know would not have done it; this is a broken man. I don't know where his pieces are to put him back together again. But as his eyes meet my concerned face, he forms the weakest of smiles around his lips. At least he is trying, but I
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