Some tears slides on my cheeks oftens. sadly, it's really make me sad and feels lonely.My chest hurts. I'm having a lot of trouble because of my situation. It's hard to think that the man I love won't accept our baby.I love you Lucas! I love you very much. My feelings for him will never change. You're the only one who makes my heart beat. You really just drives me fool.I can't live without you Lucas. I can't live without you in my side. We shared a lot together and I will never forget that.Every piece we shared is very matter. Sadly, the memories I will never throw away. You and I spent a lot of time together.I wish you will always be here. I want to hug you and make you feel my love.There's a fear in my heart. But I can't go away from Lucas. I can't hate you. You was really matter in my heart.My tears just kept pours. I can't stop my screaming. My feelings are so creepy. My life is very sad.I just found myself crying in a corner. I hugged my knees and started crying again. M
"Your son got my daughter pregnant. Then he will say that nothing happened between him and her? Your son is a fraud." Tears just trembled down in the corner of my eyes. I feel the sadness in my chest tighten. It's like stabbing my heart.I want to wean my mom but I couldn't move my legs. Instead I just kept crying in front of them.I can see the flashing anger in mom's eyes. I didn't think she would come here to the company to attack Lucas."Tell me the truth Lucas. Did you get Iris pregnant? Are you the father of the child! I need your answer right now!"Lucas's eyes widened as he looked at his mom. He couldn't answer his mom directly so he swallowed hard.I know he is afraid to tell the truth. But whatever he does. He is still the father of the child I am carrying. He doesn't need to kept the truth.Lucas's eyes narrowed when he looked at me. I know he is afraid to reveal the truth. But he doesn't need to run away from the truth.Lucas! My love! I'm here for you! Don't be afraid to
My tears are blurring my vision. Pain stabs my heart deepen.My knees shakes. My hands were trembling from wailing. Every question runs through my mind.Why was Lucas able to let me go? Am I really worthless to him? Does he really not love me anymore?Why does it seem so easy for him to throw everything away? Why did he have to hurt me like this?I endured everything Lucas! I made myself fool! I fully accept you! I never got tired of loving you!Because I always thought you would change! So even though I was suffering from what you made? I can't run away from you! It's really hard on myself that I'm always the one who chasing after you Lucas! I keep making myself foolish. I feel sorry for myself!But I didn't drives you away! Because you are the only man I always dreaming! You're the only one who drives me fool.I can't escape from the memories we've made. Your sweet promises, your hugs. Your touches. Your kisses are too soft to feel.I scream into tears and gently rubbed my eyes. M
It's really sad to imagine that Lucas can only let me go away from his side. That he just lets me get hurt. But I can't lose him.I feel so empty with my situation but Lucas can't even come after me. He didn't even find a way to fix us up!Why is it easy for him to forget me? Why did he just let me get hurt even more? My tears just kept falling. I kept crying for you Lucas all the time. I keep fooling myself to you! Even though I'm tired I never give up! I can't forget you Lucas from my heart! I loved you so much!Every moment you gave I can't let it go! How is it amusing? What are you doing right now? Maybe you're sad? Maybe you're very hurt because of me?Not knowing that I'm the reason for everything. I know I'm the reason why you changed Lucas! It's all my fault.I'm the one who can blame for where you are now. I know you're suffering right now because of me. I know your world is very messed up.But Lucas! Don't think that my heart has let you go! Because I can never do that to
My heart is very sad and lonely. I'm still hurting because of my final decision. I deserve to be hurt because I loved him!It's hard to accept being away from your side Lucas, but I'll be patient. My heart is full of longing. Yes, does it hurt? Too much hurts! I'm restless with sadness. Lucas was running through in my mind.I know I hurt him now. I know he's suffering because of what I have done. It hurts for me to feel that Lucas felt it too.I'm sorry Lucas! I left you without saying anything but you are still here in my heart. I kept loving you and I will never changed!I know your world is still in mess right now. I know you're just so confused that you have to push me away from you.But I believe your heart still loves. I know your heart still beats for me.I know your heart is just hurting that's why you made me hate you. I know I failed you so you are very upset with me. But even if you feel sorry for me Lucas! I will never push you away. I never get tired of loving you! You
"Son Andrie! You need to eat before you play! You're going to get sick, son.""I don't like to eat mommy! I want to play."Andrie was just playing around in front of me. He flies his toy airplane. He's very cute.A while ago I was dizzy because of my son's playing. Yes I named him Andrie. That's what I want for my son.Andrie continued to fly the toy he was holding in the air. He was already sweating because of his playing earlier. Andrie was a really naughty child while growing up. Is that natural for a boy? In the past five years. As Andrie grew up. He becomes like his father Lucas. Some tears suddenly fall down when I remember Lucas and I's past. I can't forget him. I always imagine him.The memories we made will always engraved my heart. Even though what happened was so painful, I had to accept everything.Lucas was the man I loved. Until now, my heart still beats for him. Life is hard when he is not by my side.I want to go and hug him but I can't. We are far from each other. I
The coldness and sadness snuggled my heart. All things in the past flashed in my mind repeatedly. It hurts to think that all things left behind is terrible.Lucas's hugs are the ones that warm my arms. His kisses are so soft to feel. His hugs can heal my loneliness.Lucas, I will never forget the things we shared together, the nights, every moment we shared seems passing by right away.Your promises full of hope. Your eyes are so drowning when you stares at me slowly. Your touches made me flimsy.Not knowing that tears fell down from my eyes. It really hurts to remember about those moments. What happened in the past it just a nightmare.You loved me. I always fall in love with you Lucas all the time. We were happy with each other. I gave everything as early as you wish.But why is that? Suddenly your dreams disappeared? Suddenly you vanished from my sight like a bubble? Everything pops like a foam.Absolutely, it hurts to accept. But I remain hopeful. I remain in love. I remain faithf
Clara's POVThis is the most special day for me and Mr. Lucas. After five years. I have him. I never thought that he fell in love with me, cherish the moments with him.This is our wedding day. I can say that I'm more than grateful. I don't know how lucky I am?This is what I have been waiting for in my entire life. And I know this is also what Lucas is waiting for. To get married us to each other. To legalize our relationship. I'm so lucky that I have him. Lucas is the man in my dreams. I love him very much. I did everything to have him, and now I have him.A few seconds later. We are here at the wedding place. Everyone is here. Many guests attended in our wedding. Our wedding was a grand wedding.I walked to the wedding place. I felt I was walking in the Disney land. I was bombarded by the highest definition of cameras but I ignored them. I'm still walking along to the beautiful aisle. I know the whole world is watching our wedding today. I will be his legal wife at this moment.L