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Chapter 69
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2021-01-17 05:44:17I can't get his words out of my head, no matter how much I try. What he said, has brought so many thoughts into mind and those words, could only mean one thing, whatever it is, is important. His body language and tone suggested it and I can't think otherwise.
I know that he has given me free reign over his phone, like I have done so too, but I just couldn't find myself checking his phone as if I am snooping around. I mean I trust Roman so much, it's bloody impossible for me not to.
I can't go and straight out ask him, because that would mean I was eavesdropping. I didn't mean to overhear his private conversation, I just happened to hear, that's all.
There are so many things I don't want do, that may come out wrong in his eyes. " Urgh, this is so exhausting!" I groan out.
" What's exhausting?" My head snap up in the direction of his voice, where he stands at the doorway.
Before I can an
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