EDENI couldn't understand what was going on.After everything that had happened, I'd been struggling with very gruesome dreams where I'd see death and I ended up waking up bathed in sweat. I was hallucinating, I had no appetite and for some reason, I hated my baby.Since the dreams started, I hadn't carried him for up to an hour. Whenever Roman came in to take him away, I didn't fight him anymore. I just let him do what he wanted and he didn't bring the baby back until he wanted to be breastfed or it was nightfall already.Even when the baby was being breastfed, I told him to wait so he could take him back. Thankfully, Roman hadn't noticed yet because he was still in the obsession stage.He looked at that baby like he was his entire life and I banked on that to get some peace of mind. I could barely come out of my room. I didn't want to embarrass myself because I saw something and I screamed.Everything frightened me and it looked like it was going to get me. The fear that came from
EDENI needed help. Badly.When I gave birth to Belle, I was suicidal but it wasn't like this. I guess the fact that I was navigating child birth alone and for the first time as well, I had some crazy thoughts. I was very scared about what was going to happen.But luckily, I had Alicia and that was enough. But this time around, I don't know if it was the trauma of the events of the last few months but I knew that I was feeling something different this time around.Not only was I suicidal but I was feeling very murderous. I didn't want Roman around me and every time he came around me with that baby, I wanted to tell him to take himself and the baby out of my face.He was saying I said things I didn't remember saying. Like when Belle fell down from the table and he said that it was because of me, I didn't remember saying that.I'd black out for hours and then wake up with no recollection of what happened and then Roman would come and say that I did something. I didn't even know what to
EDENI looked to Roman for help as Ethan begged me.“Um, mummy actually can't go with you right now. She has some important work to do and she can't take you along but I'm here. Daddy's here. We can go to the water park.”He knew how much Ethan loved the water park.His face fell.“Okay, don't stay too long. Daddy plays rough.”Roman faked being hurt and came to snatch him from the ground.As he laughed, I looked at my children and couldn't imagine leaving them behind. But I had to . For their own safety.Tears gathered in my eyes and I had to walk out of the room so they wouldn't see me crying.Roman would ask me if something was wrong and I didnt want him to. I just ran into the room and fell on the bed in tears.“What am I going to do?”I wanted to speak to someone about this but I didn't know who to talk to. They might not understand and they may think that I would hurt my children even though I would never do that in a million years.The door opened and I thought it was Roman but
EDENThere was someone else inside me.Now everything was making sense. All the things I did that I couldn't remember, all the things I said that I couldn't remember even the people that I hurt.I mean, how would I tell my six year old daughter never to ask me for help? I would never do that and I'm so glad that Belle knew better.She would have hated me from something I didn't do.But there was a more pressing issue.Who was Lilith?And how did she get inside me?My sudden fear for mirrors would explain a lot. She probably didn't like looking at herself in the mirror. What the hell was going on with me?Does that mean I've lost all my powers? And how the hell would I get her out of me?Maybe she could hear my thoughts. I should probably stop thinking about how to get rid of her.But I need help. Even though I went away, I couldn't stay away forever. I have my family and three kids here. Roman was here and my entire life was here too.What will I do when it's time to come back? I can'
EDEN“Goodbye, Roman.”“Why’re you saying it like I'll never see you again?He laughed but I couldn't bring myself to laugh too because I knew more than he did.He tried to take the baby from me but his hand was firmly wrapped around my shirt and he started crying when he realized he was being taken away.“Roman, it's fine. Let me just take him. He's too young to be away from me.”“It’s fine. What's a vacation if you're still going to be with the kids? Go on, I'm here. Daddy's here.”He finally unplucked Roman's hand from my shirt and that's when the river of tears burst out.Seeing my baby like that brought tears to my eyes.“That’s the last of them, Alpha.”Roman nodded and turned back to me.“I guess that's your cue. You sure you don't want any of the drivers to take you?"I cleaned the tears and smiled.“No, I want to be alone. You sure the kids would be fine?”I looked at my children and everything in me wanted to stay.“Yes, they'll be fine. If anything goes wrong, I'll call you.
ROMAN“Ethan, stop dragging the dog's chew toy with it! And-”The baby's loud wailing distracted me and I ran out of the room to his room.Okay, so maybe I couldn't handle things by myself. It has been two days since Eden left and I have no idea what I'm doing.Not like I didn't know what to do but I was doing too much at the same time. I felt that since Belle and Ethan were grown, they wouldn't require as much attention as Roman did.How wrong was I?It turns out that it's them who always need to be watched all the time. I picked the baby up, rocking him in my arms and apologizing for shouting and waking him up.It was like the slightest noise woke him up and at one point, I wanted to make his room soundproof but then I won't be able to hear him when he's crying.After taking his bottle, he thankfully quieted down but he refused to go back to sleep.Now I understand what Eden goes through.Speaking of Eden, I haven't been able to get in contact with her. At first I thought her phone
ROMANActually, there was no need to ask Alicia.“Quinn, I need to start looking for her. I had no idea that things like that were that serious. What did I do? Where do I even start looking?”Actually, I knew what to do and where to start looking but I was panicking too much to even put two thoughts together.“I feel so stupid for not knowing that something like this happened. Why did it have to be that day? I got back yesterday, Roman. You didn't deem it fit to tell me?”“As I said before, Quinn, my mind wasn't there back then. I mean, I have two kids and a baby to take care of and my wife is probably dead so where. Right now, my mind is all over the place."She stopped packing and turned to me.“Don’t say that."“Don’t say that she's dead. She's not.”I don't mean to say that, I was just scared. She's never done something like this before so I know that anything that would make her leave the kids just be very strong because she would never do so. Right now, I don't even know whether
EDENI was running. What I was running from, I had no idea. As my heart beat fast in my chest, I looked behind me to see whether whatever it was that was after me was still chasing me but it wasn't. So why was I still running? I tried to slow down but my legs won't stop moving on their own. “What the hell?” I thought to myself. My leg hit a stone and I fell in a puddle of water. As I lifted myself up, my eyes met with the image in the water. That was it. I was running from myself but whose face was that in the pool? Whose face was I wearing? I woke up with a jolt, the same way my heart had been beating in the dream was the same way it was beating right now.What the hell was that?And what the hell had happened?More importantly, where was I?Different objects hung from the ceiling, some of them shaped like birds and some shapes like things I hadn't seen before.How did I fall asleep and end up here?Last thing I remembered was seeing the dead man and running away. The fact that