209

EDEN

I'd come home the day after that. The doctor said that I was free and healthy to leave but I didn't feel free.

“Why the long face? Aren't you happy to come home?”

I turned to Roman who was driving.

”Oh no, it's nothing like that. I'm just tired."

What was the point of being happy when I knew what was coming? And I couldn't tell him. I didn't want him to feel responsible for it.

Roman is very quick to blame himself and I didn't want him to. I should just die peacefully so that he would have the guts to move on from me.

If I told him that it was because of him I was going to die, then I would mess things up.

I recalled my last conversation with Balari.

“Are you sure it's what you want, Eden? Men are not worth it. You can live with your kids and raise them in your own way. You don't have to do this.”

But it seemed like the more we spoke about it, the more determined I was to do it.

“I do, actually. I love Roman, I can't let him die for something he has no hand in.”

“And you have a