I felt bad when I left Mama's office. It's always like this. I promise to myself that when my contract ends, I'm not going to sign for another contract anymore. I'm tired of this shit.
I went to the bar table to ask for a shot of whiskey. "Oh, Ash, I just saw you here again?" Bryan asked."I'm busy, you know I'm studying right?"He is one of my close friends here at this bar. He's 23 years old and he's two years older than me.He smirked at me while getting my order. "Why do you even have to study? You're just wasting your time there, Ash." He gave me a glass of whiskey at the same time."It's not a waste of time because it's for my dream and for my family." I gave him a simple answer while reaching for the glass I was holding. I closed my eyes as the warm feeling hugged my throat.I looked at Bryan as he continued serving. I get his point...for him, studying is just a waste of time because he has his own responsibility and priority. For him, he needs to work immediately to provide for his family and to help his parents who are also working non stop.My look at Bryan was interrupted when someone sat in the seat next to me. The fragrant smell enveloped my nose. God it's addicting. I glanced at who sat and damn...it's Jake!He's wearing a white longsleeve polo that's tucked inside his black pants. Her hair is messy but nothing seems to have changed in her appearance. The messy hair even suits her look better. No matter what he's doing, he's still handsome."Do you enjoy watching me?" I was surprised when he suddenly asked me that. I didn't realize that he was looking at me.I averted my face because of its heat. Fuck! I'm sure I'm blushing right now. He saw me...damn."N-Just turned around..." I answered to hide my embarassment.He chuckled then he turned his attention all to me. I'm not comfortable with someone looking at me fuck! "Oh okay...if that's what you said." Biting his lip, he promised.I looked at him and was ready to answer him when I went in front of him to Bryan to take his order. He ordered tequila then his attention is back to me again."I am not aware that you go to Bar like this, huh?" he asked me with raised eyebrows.Should he know everything about me?"You're not supposed to know. Besides, I only go once, not every day." In a small voice I promise."Oh, that's sad and cruel..." He took a sip from his glass while still staring at me.My hands are getting cold because of the nervousness. I took the glass full of wine and drank it all at once.Fuck, the feeling is so good.I called Bryan to give me another glass of whiskey which he obliged. When it was given to me, I swallowed it all at once.I raised my hand at Bryan and asked him to give me another glass again. Bryan handed it to me. I was about to drink it when Jake held my arms."Tss, what are you doing? You've had enough..." He snatched the glass from me that I was holding just now."That's mine..." And tried to grab the glass from him but he didn't give it to me and moved further away from me. When he noticed that I wouldn't stop reaching and grabbing the glass, he knocked it down himself.Fuck! That's my drink and glass!I stared at him in shock as he agreed, grinning and seeming to be happy about what was happening now."Hmm...now it's gone." He mockingly said to me. He approached me causing me to back away.He stopped when he noticed the retreat I made."I'll take you home." He then tried to hold me but I refused. "Come on, you're already drunk. I promise I'll just drop you off. I'm not going to enter your house."I shook my head at him. "Not anymore. I can go home again and-" I stopped when I suddenly felt like vomiting. I quickly went to the restroom here to throw up.I even heard him following and calling my name but I didn't pay attention to that.I'm really sick!I knocked on the closed doors to see if anyone was there but when no one answered I went inside to throw up.I was holding my stomach while throwing up when suddenly someone grabbed my hair and fixed it away from my face."Fuck, I already told you that you're already drunk and I offered you a drive but you refused... dam girl."After I threw up I flashed it and cleaned my face.I was still panting while staring at my slightly reddened face. I took Jake out first and he immediately understood what I said.I was still dizzy but I tried to look good when I came out. I frowned when I didn't see Jake outside. He said he'll wait for me?I looked around even though I was still dizzy but I couldn't really see Jake. When I didn't really see him, I made my way out."Are you dumb? Can't you see I'm dancing here and then you're going to bump into us? Are you stupid?", a woman yelled at me after I bumped into her. I already apologized to her but still, she's not listening."Miss, I'm sorry. I j-just didn't see you...""I don't care if you didn't see me! You're a fool!" His companions are already weaning him but the woman still doesn't want to stop.I don't know what I should do. I already apologized to her. I already said sorry to her. But he doesn't listen to me.When I got fed up, I turned away from him but before I got far, he pulled my arm and made me face him.Why! Is it annoying? I said I'm sorry but why don't you still listen? Don't you know how to accept forgiveness?"Don't turn your back on me! I'm still talking to you, aren't I?!" he kept yelling at me. We are also starting to get other people's attention.Is she a scandalous woman?"Miss, is it possible? I already said "I'm sorry" didn't I? Why don't you still want to stop? You're the stupid one here..." and when I couldn't stop myself, that was it to him.He seemed surprised by what I said and his companions who had been holding him back gasped."Repeat what you said?" It's not just stupid, is it? Deaf too?I smiled at him sweetly and came closer. "I said...you are very beautiful but you don't know how to understand so...what a pity--" I stopped when he slapped me.Fuck! My parents never laid hands on me! And him? That there is no contribution in my life that will slap me?I looked at him evilly while holding the cheek he slapped. He smiled at me and whispered. "Oh shut up." She smirked then turned her back at me.Did he think I would lose? I can't not fight back. He doesn't know me yet. He doesn't know what I can do yet. I grabbed his arm and slapped him across the face.The shock on the faces of his companions was obvious. what are you now "H-how dare you slap me?!"I mocked her and made a face. I only stopped when an arm wrapped around my waist and pulled me away a little."I'm sorry miss. My girlfriend is just drunk that's why." Jake tenderly promised the woman with a sweet smile.Girlfriend? Since when? I wasn't informed that I was his girlfriend? I wish he had said so that I could prepare. And where did he go?I just cringed when I saw how that girl blushed. "Ahh, no no. It's okay. I know and I understand," said the woman. "By the way, I am Kaye Tolentino." His introduction.What a thick face! Just now when he screamed it was like there was no tomorrow 'then someone handsome just faced him like he was a gentle tiger? Very plastic!"Huh, plastic.." I whispered as if he heard it so he looked at me again.See? That's her true color."Nice to meet you, Kaye. I wanted to stay longer but my girlfriend is already tired so...we are going now."I didn't wait for what he said next and I went out first. He still wants to stay there for a long time! There was nothing stopping him.And what else is being said! Girlfriend? Huh, he's skinny. It's up to the two of them to be there together.I frowned as I pulled up to the tricycle and was about to ride when a jacket landed on my shoulder and stopped me from entering."Sir, you have no passengers here. I'm sorry." wow This is the first time he talks through straight Filipino. But well...The driver was about to leave when I called him again. "Sir, just a moment! I'm your passenger. I'm going to ride.""I already said no. You're going to ride my car and that's final.""Who told you I agree? Besides, I don't want to ride in your car.""Oh yeah? Why? Do you prefer to ride the rider than the car?" He teasingly promised.Because of what he said, my face turned red. What is he saying? Is he going crazy?"Ah, I'll just ride-""No, you're not.""Of course, I am. It's my body, it's my own, so it's my decision too--""Are you going to ride or not?! If you have a problem, don't empathize with other people! You're affecting other people!" And left.Because of what the man said, I was embarrassed. He's right, this kind of attitude isn't good. And all."Let's go." And went to his car first.I took a deep breath and did nothing but obey. When we got on board, no one said a word until I fell asleep. But before I fell asleep, I felt someone kiss my head and whisper something.Jake was kissing me roughly while his hands were massaging my breasts. He bit my lower lip, which caused me to moan, and he used that as a chance to enter his tongue into my mouth. His tongue explores every part of my mouth.We both gasped when our lips parted."Good morning, Ash." He held my face and showered many small kisses on my lips."Good morning, too," I answered back.His kisses went down to my jaw, down to my neck, and down to my collarbone. He's kissing me on my collarbone now while I'm holding his hair. My head looked up as I bit my bottom lip because of the pleasure he was giving me now.He looked at me as he grabbed the end of my spaghetti strap. He tore it up, which added to the tension I was feeling now.Fuck, I'm very sure I'm wet down there already.He also tore my bra. He stared at it for a few seconds before grabbing it. One was mouthful while the other was holding his hand."Ughhh, J-Jake..." I can't help but moan his name because of the sensation I'm feeling righ
"Are we really not going to include them?" I asked Jake when he told me that the twins will be left behind their house.I would like to say that we should take them with us because they will be left alone there and only the housemaids will be there to be with them. However, I know my limits and boundaries. Jake is their brother. He knows what is good for them more than what I know.Jake took a deep breath and closed his eyes tightly. It's obvious that he's just holding back his patience and I'm afraid that at any moment, he can kick me out of his house."Please, Ash..." He said with difficulty as if he was about to lose his patience.Well, if that's what he says. I just feel sorry for the twins. Of course they have their own housemaids. But still...I just shook my thoughts and followed Jake out of the house. I saw Lake waving at me while Take was frowning. I was surprised when Take's lips slowly lifted.He grinned!Because of what I witnessed, I also smiled. "Ash, come on..." Jake s
Watching the people around me is terrifying. It does show how different I am to them. It does provide the answers to my questions. Why were they given the things I asked for? Or is it better to say "she". Why was she given the man I asked for?On this day, the future we once dreamed for is already shattered, broken, and will never be fixed again, like my heart. I want to ask why but I won't stoop that low again. I want you to tell the reasons without me asking. I want you to come back to me without me begging. Because the last time I asked you, your answers didn't make me happy. And every time I think about everything, I don't deserve you as much as you don't deserve me.From this day until your last breath, you will face and greet the mornings with her face as your first view. You will be eating breakfast with her and much worse you will be eating her for the rest of your life.I chuckled because of the thoughts running in my mind.I gathered all my remaining strength and finally sho
"Always put in your mind the reasons why we're doing these—helping other people, giving them their needs, and providing everything we can to make their lives be more comfortable... for them." he looked at us one by one and then he nodded.This is how I see my life—meaningful. Helping other people who are in need is one of the things I like to do. That's really it, isn't it? When you have the means of helping other people, you must help them without expecting in return."Ash, let's go home together huh? I'll just get my things." said Gizelle.This is my fifth month here in this organization. And during those five months, I became closer to other members just like Gizelle.I nodded to her and went straight to my things to get ready also.We just finished giving medicines and ready-to-eat foods to people living on the streets. I want to give them a house that they can live with. But I don't have the means to do so. The only thing I can provide is my service, this is the means I have that
"Hey Ash, you've been quiet for a while now. I've been talking to you and you're not even listening. Are you still thinking about what happened yesterday?" I turned to Gizelle who looked at me sadly."Of course not, I'm just not really in the mood to talk." I lied.She winced because of my answer. Well, I'm not talking because I'm not in the mood to do so. I do not know. Since what happened yesterday, I have already lost my appetite."It's better if we go back at the organization a minute before our break is over." said Gizelle.We just threw away the plastics of our food and then we went straight to the organization. Every week, donations come to the organization and every week we also prepare them before handing them out to the poorest of the poor."Gizelle, count the canned foods so we can divide how many canned foods we will give to each one," said Joy, one of our fellow volunteers.Gizelle frowned because of Joy's order. I don't know about Gizelle. As soon as I entered here, she
The visitors greeted him one after the other as we entered his home. His house is as big as the mansions I'm seeing in the movies. I looked at the person next to me who was still talking to his guests. I've been standing by his side for a while now but no one has noticed me yet.Jake took a glance at me and held my hand. "Aunt Helen, this is Ash my date for tonight," Jake introduced me to them. I gave them a small but sweet smile. "She's currently taking Business Management in TSU." he is still proud but it seems like it doesn't matter to those who are in front of us.He excused himself for a moment when someone talked to him. I gave the people in front of us my best smile and then held out my hand."Hi! I'm Ash and I am currently taking up Busin-" I said and was immediately cut off by an old woman whom I didn't know."Are you repeating yourself? Jake already introduced you. We don't need to hear your voice dear," she smiled at me but it was obviously fake and sarcastic. I lowered my
The cool breeze caresses my skin. I closed my eyes as I felt the coldness touch my skin. I breathed in and out deeply. I put both my hands on the hot cup in front of me. I took a small sip of my hot coffee.Whenever I can't sleep, I just get myself a coffee and feel the cold breeze in the middle of the night. I looked at the sky full of stars.This is the life I wanted and dreamed for. A peaceful life.But I know that when the morning comes, everything will be back to normal. A stressful life and noisy people. Sometimes I wonder, if everyone was given the privilege to choose the kind of life and family that they live with, would everyone be at right hands and right path?But if I was given a chance? I think...I will never choose another family to live with...because the family I have in this lifetime, is beyond astonishing and amazing. I might feel unfortunate sometimes but I would always tell myself that it is okay in a family.I smiled at my thoughts.I was trying to call my mother
"Are we really not going to include them?" I asked Jake when he told me that the twins will be left behind their house.I would like to say that we should take them with us because they will be left alone there and only the housemaids will be there to be with them. However, I know my limits and boundaries. Jake is their brother. He knows what is good for them more than what I know.Jake took a deep breath and closed his eyes tightly. It's obvious that he's just holding back his patience and I'm afraid that at any moment, he can kick me out of his house."Please, Ash..." He said with difficulty as if he was about to lose his patience.Well, if that's what he says. I just feel sorry for the twins. Of course they have their own housemaids. But still...I just shook my thoughts and followed Jake out of the house. I saw Lake waving at me while Take was frowning. I was surprised when Take's lips slowly lifted.He grinned!Because of what I witnessed, I also smiled. "Ash, come on..." Jake s
Jake was kissing me roughly while his hands were massaging my breasts. He bit my lower lip, which caused me to moan, and he used that as a chance to enter his tongue into my mouth. His tongue explores every part of my mouth.We both gasped when our lips parted."Good morning, Ash." He held my face and showered many small kisses on my lips."Good morning, too," I answered back.His kisses went down to my jaw, down to my neck, and down to my collarbone. He's kissing me on my collarbone now while I'm holding his hair. My head looked up as I bit my bottom lip because of the pleasure he was giving me now.He looked at me as he grabbed the end of my spaghetti strap. He tore it up, which added to the tension I was feeling now.Fuck, I'm very sure I'm wet down there already.He also tore my bra. He stared at it for a few seconds before grabbing it. One was mouthful while the other was holding his hand."Ughhh, J-Jake..." I can't help but moan his name because of the sensation I'm feeling righ
I felt bad when I left Mama's office. It's always like this. I promise to myself that when my contract ends, I'm not going to sign for another contract anymore. I'm tired of this shit.I went to the bar table to ask for a shot of whiskey. "Oh, Ash, I just saw you here again?" Bryan asked."I'm busy, you know I'm studying right?"He is one of my close friends here at this bar. He's 23 years old and he's two years older than me.He smirked at me while getting my order. "Why do you even have to study? You're just wasting your time there, Ash." He gave me a glass of whiskey at the same time."It's not a waste of time because it's for my dream and for my family." I gave him a simple answer while reaching for the glass I was holding. I closed my eyes as the warm feeling hugged my throat.I looked at Bryan as he continued serving. I get his point...for him, studying is just a waste of time because he has his own responsibility and priority. For him, he needs to work immediately to provide fo
The cool breeze caresses my skin. I closed my eyes as I felt the coldness touch my skin. I breathed in and out deeply. I put both my hands on the hot cup in front of me. I took a small sip of my hot coffee.Whenever I can't sleep, I just get myself a coffee and feel the cold breeze in the middle of the night. I looked at the sky full of stars.This is the life I wanted and dreamed for. A peaceful life.But I know that when the morning comes, everything will be back to normal. A stressful life and noisy people. Sometimes I wonder, if everyone was given the privilege to choose the kind of life and family that they live with, would everyone be at right hands and right path?But if I was given a chance? I think...I will never choose another family to live with...because the family I have in this lifetime, is beyond astonishing and amazing. I might feel unfortunate sometimes but I would always tell myself that it is okay in a family.I smiled at my thoughts.I was trying to call my mother
The visitors greeted him one after the other as we entered his home. His house is as big as the mansions I'm seeing in the movies. I looked at the person next to me who was still talking to his guests. I've been standing by his side for a while now but no one has noticed me yet.Jake took a glance at me and held my hand. "Aunt Helen, this is Ash my date for tonight," Jake introduced me to them. I gave them a small but sweet smile. "She's currently taking Business Management in TSU." he is still proud but it seems like it doesn't matter to those who are in front of us.He excused himself for a moment when someone talked to him. I gave the people in front of us my best smile and then held out my hand."Hi! I'm Ash and I am currently taking up Busin-" I said and was immediately cut off by an old woman whom I didn't know."Are you repeating yourself? Jake already introduced you. We don't need to hear your voice dear," she smiled at me but it was obviously fake and sarcastic. I lowered my
"Hey Ash, you've been quiet for a while now. I've been talking to you and you're not even listening. Are you still thinking about what happened yesterday?" I turned to Gizelle who looked at me sadly."Of course not, I'm just not really in the mood to talk." I lied.She winced because of my answer. Well, I'm not talking because I'm not in the mood to do so. I do not know. Since what happened yesterday, I have already lost my appetite."It's better if we go back at the organization a minute before our break is over." said Gizelle.We just threw away the plastics of our food and then we went straight to the organization. Every week, donations come to the organization and every week we also prepare them before handing them out to the poorest of the poor."Gizelle, count the canned foods so we can divide how many canned foods we will give to each one," said Joy, one of our fellow volunteers.Gizelle frowned because of Joy's order. I don't know about Gizelle. As soon as I entered here, she
"Always put in your mind the reasons why we're doing these—helping other people, giving them their needs, and providing everything we can to make their lives be more comfortable... for them." he looked at us one by one and then he nodded.This is how I see my life—meaningful. Helping other people who are in need is one of the things I like to do. That's really it, isn't it? When you have the means of helping other people, you must help them without expecting in return."Ash, let's go home together huh? I'll just get my things." said Gizelle.This is my fifth month here in this organization. And during those five months, I became closer to other members just like Gizelle.I nodded to her and went straight to my things to get ready also.We just finished giving medicines and ready-to-eat foods to people living on the streets. I want to give them a house that they can live with. But I don't have the means to do so. The only thing I can provide is my service, this is the means I have that
Watching the people around me is terrifying. It does show how different I am to them. It does provide the answers to my questions. Why were they given the things I asked for? Or is it better to say "she". Why was she given the man I asked for?On this day, the future we once dreamed for is already shattered, broken, and will never be fixed again, like my heart. I want to ask why but I won't stoop that low again. I want you to tell the reasons without me asking. I want you to come back to me without me begging. Because the last time I asked you, your answers didn't make me happy. And every time I think about everything, I don't deserve you as much as you don't deserve me.From this day until your last breath, you will face and greet the mornings with her face as your first view. You will be eating breakfast with her and much worse you will be eating her for the rest of your life.I chuckled because of the thoughts running in my mind.I gathered all my remaining strength and finally sho