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All Chapters of It's Fine, I am Fine! : Chapter 1 - Chapter 10
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The Beginning
It's Fine, I am Fine! /Ravenwhere
Hello everyone! This story contains mature language and scenes. This is your only warning đđ Enjoy it!! đ ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Lena The restaurant was quite full today. Today out of all days, for my bad luck. The loud chatter around me was very distracting and I couldn't move as fast as I wanted to. People were walking constantly towards and outwards the bathroom, leaving me almost no space to move around. Some kids screamed their lungs out, after devouring our special ice cream bundle and their mothers made no effort to quiet them down. As I walked towards the kitchen with a full tray of dishes in my hand, I deliberately inhaled all the delicious smells from around the tables in the dining hall, so the awful scent of the kitchen wouldn't overwhelm me. Smelling burned oil and dirty dishes could easily make me lose my appetite or the will to work. Once inside the kitchen, I stepp
Last Updated : 2023-04-05Chapter 1
It's Fine, I am Fine! /Ravenwhere
LenaWhat I liked about this gym when I first came here was that it was close to work, and it was quiet. I never liked big crowds, so I avoided places with lots of people.I avoided conversations with people as well, so I guessed I could be a little agoraphobic. Or maybe I was just fine. Being cautious never hurt anyone.As I walked inside, the woman at the front desk smiled widely at me. She always does that, not just to me but to everyone. It was her job to do so, and she was good at it and so pretty.I could never land a job like that because I wasn't as attractive as her. Physical appearance mattered around here. I wasn't a monster, but I wasn't an I*******m model either.I paid ten euros to allow me access to the showers and I walked through the weights area towards my destination. On my way there, I was astonished to realize that there were a few handsome guys working out.Usually, most guys around here are too bulky for my taste. I prefer a lean muscular guy and not the Hulk. I
Last Updated : 2023-04-05Chapter 2
It's Fine, I am Fine! /Ravenwhere
Lena "Finally!" I exhaled with joy, while holding my new laptop like a new born child in my arms. My driver's seat felt somehow smaller than before, like the laptop was a huge box. A huge box of joy! How much did I want one. How difficult was to save up for it. But finally I have it right here with me. I felt like a was in love, with an object, but still. I would listen to the sweet keyboard sound, touching its smooth surface, clicking on websites, enjoy a piece of technology and most importantly edit my stories with ease, like a normal person and not with pen and paper. Erase, write over... bah... It was a pain in the ass! It might took me three days to transfer my manuscript to my laptop, even though I was typing like a mad person, but hearing the sound of typing made me feel like an actual writer. It was almost too sexy to handle! The guy didn't text me about the cover and it was expected. I didn't really gave it much thought, since I my mind was occupied by my new shiny toy
Last Updated : 2023-04-05Chapter 3
It's Fine, I am Fine! /Ravenwhere
LenaI have been waiting for Max to text me for four days. How busy was he? I was impatient indeed.I really wanted for the cover to be done and ready to be uploaded along side my story, but also I wanted to see him again, He was very nice and very pleasant to be around. And I finally got a text, Friday I'm free.It was more like a statement, rather than a friendly text. But it would suffice. I was getting nervous even for these small social interactions and that wasn't great, wasn't it?It was only Monday. Bah! I was getting very impatient indeed. I was quick to reply,Great. Let's say around 19:00?AlrightHe isn't a great texter, but who was I to judge, I laughed with myself. Can we meet at Sunset Park on Bridge Street, near the picnic area?I suggested because it was my favorite park and I knew a few places we could take great pictures at. My phone camera couldn't really provide me with the result I wanted without good lighting anyway, Sure. I'll see you thereSee you there :)
Last Updated : 2023-04-16Chapter 4
It's Fine, I am Fine! /Ravenwhere
Lena I took another deep breath. I kept telling myself that I was stronger than this. I repeated it like a mantra. Not the best coping mechanism, but it was the only thing that worked, at least temporarily. I locked the car and walked slowly towards my meeting spot. I kept looking over my shoulder nonstop. I felt like everyone was looking at me and judging me, when in fact no one paid the least attention to me. People were happily strolling, playing with balls and rackets, smiling, having a picnic, walking their dogs. Some couples were kissing, babies were crying and laughing, and children happily enjoyed the playground... and all I wanted was to curse them all. Even though my life problems weren't their fault, I really wanted to shout at the top of my lungs for everyone to disappear. I took another deep breath to calm the fuck down! For my surprise, I saw Max sitting on a bench talking on the phone. Did he come early? Or was I late? I took my phone out of my pocket and it
Last Updated : 2023-04-16Chapter 5
It's Fine, I am Fine! /Ravenwhere
Maximus I stayed there watching her run away from me like I had the plague. What just happened? I honestly felt foolish, for even offering to take her home. It was a decent thing to do, but she refused again. I think I even saw her eyes water, but she left me no time to react. I stayed there with my eyes wide open, in some sort of shock. What just happened I wondered for the hundredth time. That drunk asshole apologized to me first, as if the ball hit me instead of her. Who does that? It was obviously an accident, but his attitude really pissed me off. He couldn't even stand on two feet, let alone play with a ball in open space. Damn that ball hit her hard. Lena seemed so angry and yet said nothing, did nothing at all. She didn't even demand a new phone as she should. She just stayed there motionless. What was wrong with her? She was clearly in pain, but she said she was fine, as she froze there and then ran away. She was gone in seconds. So weird. I have never had a w
Last Updated : 2023-04-17Chapter 6
It's Fine, I am Fine! /Ravenwhere
Lena I had such a bad day. Such a lousy fucking day. I ran to my car so fast that he I definitely made him think I was mad. From the moment I found a place to park for the night, I couldn't stop crying, and not just crying, but sobbing! After a good thirty minutes of doing just that, I felt a little better, as anyone does after a good cry. Since I felt haunted by imaginary dangers all night long, I slept worse than I ever had. The heat didn't help either. It took me a while to finally fall asleep and forget, even for a little bit, how messed up my life was. I woke up about four times during the night, nightmares filled my dreams and I prayed desperately for some peace. That peace never came. I woke up sweaty and tired. I must fix the AC, or I might burn in my sleep in this heat if fear or panic doesn't do the trick! Most definitely, I need a safe place to sleep at night and a better job to afford it. This living in my car situation must end at some point. But unfortunately, th
Last Updated : 2023-04-19Chapter 7
It's Fine, I am Fine! /Ravenwhere
LenaOnce we were outside, I burst into laughter. "Oh, Max thanks for this. Sheâll hate me forever now" "Why?" he smiled while letting my hand go. Didn't like that. "She was flirting with you, and you left with me. That will kill her" I laughed some more. "I see. And that is good for you because...?" he smiled. "I don't really like her and you... you are handsome and all and... oh forget it, it's childish, but I loved her reaction" I kept giggling. "So, imagine if I do this" he almost whispered and immediately leaned closer to me. He put his hand around my waist and caressed my cheek for just a moment before he softly pressed his lips on mine. Dear God! I thought my heart would burst out of my chest. What happened? My whole body caught on fire instantly and I didn't feel like touching the ground anymore. I released every reservation I had, and I kissed him back. I indulged in that, without thinking... A moan slipped my mouth and the little voice inside my head screamed 'W
Last Updated : 2023-04-21Chapter 8
It's Fine, I am Fine! /Ravenwhere
Lena I drove near Larson Street, which was close by, and walked two blocks to reach his apartment building. Basically, I hid my car. I saw his name written on the intercom and buzzed M. Walker. The camera was pointing at me, and I guessed he could see my face in high definition. He buzzed me in, and I took the super clean elevator to the seventh floor. That was a very nice building. I would be lying if I said that I didnât check myself in the elevatorâs mirror. My heart was still racing out of excitement, and I walked slowly towards his apartment, somehow making the surroundings my own. I took a deep breath and raised my slightly trembling finger to press his doorbell. A very monotonous sound emerged from the inside and after a few seconds that felt like minutes, he opened the door. He wore long grey pajama pants and a plain white T-shirt. His muscles looked toned as always and he softly smiled at me. "Your order, sir" I awkwardly smiled back. He waved at me to come i
Last Updated : 2023-04-22Chapter 9
It's Fine, I am Fine! /Ravenwhere
Lena His living room was covered in tones of grey and white. There was a big white sofa in front of the huge windows, that displayed the whole city and a TV on the wall. A king-size bed for Jake was near the sofa. There was a modern fireplace in the corner and a really nice grey capret underneath our feet. He had a minimal white kitchen and a stool kitchen island. A few paintings on the wall, a PS5 underneath the TV, a bookshelf that covered almost the entire wall between the narrow hall, and a door next to the glass staircase that led upstairs. There was no space for new books. His place was very neat. "Can I use your bathroom?" I asked. "Of course, it's that door over there" He pointed to the door near the glass staircase that led up to his bedroom. My eyes spotted a huge bed with white linens on it, right before I entered the bathroom. The bathroom had a shower with glass doors, very fancy. I looked at myself in the mirror and took a deep breath. Why the hell did
Last Updated : 2023-04-22
