All Chapters of Let me in tears: Chapter 21 - Chapter 30

Sobrang bilis ng pagkalabog ng dibdib ko. Nangangatog ang tuhod ko at nagtataas at baba na ang balikat ko habang walang humpay ang pagtulo ng mga luha sa aking pisnge.He left me again.Sa totoo lang nahihirapan ako. I know na hindi pa ga'no katagal ko siyang kilala. Wala pang isang taon pero ba't nasasaktan ako na para bang nadama ko 'to ng mahigit sampung taon?The tears... this tears keep on betraying me. This feeling betrayed me.I want to ask him, sa lumipas ba na mga araw habang kasama ako ay naging masaya siya? Kahit sikreto lang? Nakaramdam ba siya ng kakaibang feelings? Nakaramdam ba siya ng onting pagmamahal para sa'kin? Naattached ba siya? Pero... wala, napapanghinaan ako. Kasi alam ko na naman ang sagot sa mga itatanong ko.Kasi nga... hindi niya ako mahal. Hindi niya naman talaga ako minahal.I'm aware with it."M-magen! L-let's talk properly! P-please!" I cried while knocking at his door.I stood up properly as I closed my fist to gain more strength. No one can hear me e

It was as if I was in a vast and quiet forest and his words echoed around me as if deafening. I did not let go of his scorching stares at me. He slowly remove my eyeglasses. I caught all his blistering gaze even though my confused heart was pounding."M-magen..." mahinang tawag ko sa kaniya bago mag-iwas ng tingin.My knees are still shaking even though I am sitting here at his desk. His two hands were on both sides of me so he cornered me. I will admit that I cannot think too much because his face is too close to me. He planted again a kissed on my forehead.I felt his lips so soft that it feels like a marshmallow. "Honey..." he whispered again before facing me with a smile on his face "As time went on I felt more and more interested in you ..." my eyes widened in shock "Habang tumatagal parang rumurupok 'yung... heart button ko," he chuckled "Kaya lalo akong natatakot," umiwas siya ng tingin bago umayos ng pagkakatayo.Pinanood ko siya na prenteng nakatayo habang dahan-dahan na pina

"Heart!" sigaw ni Magen.Pumalakpak pa ako ng makita ang namumula na mukha ng babae na napaupo sa sahig."You deserve that..." malditang sabi ko at akmang hihilahin ko ang buhok niya ng hawakan ni Magen ang kamay ko."Stop it..." mahinahon niyang sabi.I was wearing a simple yet fitted color black dress partnered with my favorite chunky boots while Magen is wearing a simple white t-shirt and black trouser partnered with his favorite Gucci loafers, another design huh?Napairap na lang ako. Pinanood kong tinulungan ng mga pulis sa pagtayo 'tong pasimuno sa pagkidnap sa Ate ni Anica. Anica looks scared earlier!"I didn't slap her hard!" pagdedepensa ko sa sarili ko. "Isang sampal lang naman 'yon, Magen," I added and rolled my eyes."Bitch! Who the hell are you?! Hindi mo 'ko sinampal ng malakas?! I can still feel it! Bullshit!""Then congrats?" I asked sarcastically."Heart, just behave, okay? You told me that you're going to behave..." Magen mocked as he stared at my eyes.Galing kahapo

Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang ginawa kong mali? Did I make a mistake that trigger him to avoid me? Wala naman diba? He must give me a damn reason, why? Bakit biglang gano'n nalang? Gan'to pala talaga 'no? Kahit anong tapang mo... kahit anong lakas mo harapin ang iba... kahit na alam mong matatag ka... once the person you treasure the most leave you manghihina ka pala talaga... guguho pala talaga lahat.Ang hirap kapag 'yung taong gustong-gusto mo lapitan ay gustong-gusto naman na iwasan ka. Hindi ko kasi alam ang dahilan. Gusto kong sulusyunan but I can't dahil paano? kung unang-una palang ay hindi ko alam ang problema. I want to take a grip on him so he can't leave me again. Leave me with this bullshit situation. He crumpled my heart into pieces and leave me without even saying even a simple word. Wala... iniwan niya nalang ako basta. Hindi kona alam! Ang daya niya! ang daya-daya niya!Napahilamos ako sa aking mukha. my hands were shaking and even my shoulders were moving because of

---Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko at malakas na napasigaw. Umiling-iling na baka sakaling sa pag-iling ko ay maglaho ang mga tawanan na naririnig ko. I cried while running somewhere. Hindi ko na rin maintindihan ang malakas na pagkalabog ng dibdib ko. Hinihingal at namamawis na ako pero hindi ko parin alam kung paano tatakas ang mga tinig."Happy birthday!" Pumalakpak pa si Mom when my Dad exploded confetti on the air. I just shook my head and ignored them. I saw that they were next to Magen and my cousins but not Hailey. Tama lang! Dahil ayaw ko muna siya makita! Nagtama ang mga mata namin ni Magen na agad kong iniwasan. I restrained myself from approaching him and asking if he had treated the bruises on his face. Gusto ko siyang lapitan at yakapin. Gusto ko siyang kausapin pero pinipigilan ko hanggang sa makaya ko.Ngayon ko lang nakita ang hawak niyang cake na three layers. May mga bitbit din na mga refalo para sa akin. Alam kong naghanda sila para ngayon at nagbabakasali na magiging