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Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang ginawa kong mali? Did I make a mistake that trigger him to avoid me? Wala naman diba? He must give me a damn reason, why? Bakit biglang gano'n nalang? Gan'to pala talaga 'no? Kahit anong tapang mo... kahit anong lakas mo harapin ang iba... kahit na alam mong matatag ka... once the person you treasure the most leave you manghihina ka pala talaga... guguho pala talaga lahat.Ang hirap kapag 'yung taong gustong-gusto mo lapitan ay gustong-gusto naman na iwasan ka. Hindi ko kasi alam ang dahilan. Gusto kong sulusyunan but I can't dahil paano? kung unang-una palang ay hindi ko alam ang problema. I want to take a grip on him so he can't leave me again. Leave me with this bullshit situation. He crumpled my heart into pieces and leave me without even saying even a simple word. Wala... iniwan niya nalang ako basta. Hindi kona alam! Ang daya niya! ang daya-daya niya!Napahilamos ako sa aking mukha. my hands were shaking and even my shoulders were moving because of
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"J-just give me a time, Heart. Layuan mo muna ako. Bigyan mo muna ako ng sapat na oras," and then he walked away with this broken heart.Galit ako... galit na galit ako sa kaniya dahil hindi ko ineexpect na sa lahat pala ng pinapakita niya ay pilit lang. Mahal ko siya at mahal na mahal ko siya at hindi ko gusto na 'yung pagmamahal na matanggap ko sa kaniya ay pilit lang din.Mahal ko siya pero babae ako. Hindi ko deserve ang pagmamahal na pilit lang.Pinanood ko siya na tumakbo papunta sa kung saan and there... I saw again Phoebe. Siya... siya at siya parin talaga ang pipiliin ni Magen na balikan. Wala na ata ako talagang magagawa. Kahit hirap ay ngumiti ako kay Phoebe.Sana... mahalin niya si Magen the way I loved him because he still deserve a love. Kahit na hindi galing sa akin. Pakiramdam ko mas mararamdaman niya 'yon sa taong gusto niya. He can't receive my feelings because he was destined for her.. for Phoebe.Maybe, I was blinded of this love kaya puro pag-asa ang nakita ko. I l
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---Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko at malakas na napasigaw. Umiling-iling na baka sakaling sa pag-iling ko ay maglaho ang mga tawanan na naririnig ko. I cried while running somewhere. Hindi ko na rin maintindihan ang malakas na pagkalabog ng dibdib ko. Hinihingal at namamawis na ako pero hindi ko parin alam kung paano tatakas ang mga tinig."Happy birthday!" Pumalakpak pa si Mom when my Dad exploded confetti on the air. I just shook my head and ignored them. I saw that they were next to Magen and my cousins but not Hailey. Tama lang! Dahil ayaw ko muna siya makita! Nagtama ang mga mata namin ni Magen na agad kong iniwasan. I restrained myself from approaching him and asking if he had treated the bruises on his face. Gusto ko siyang lapitan at yakapin. Gusto ko siyang kausapin pero pinipigilan ko hanggang sa makaya ko.Ngayon ko lang nakita ang hawak niyang cake na three layers. May mga bitbit din na mga refalo para sa akin. Alam kong naghanda sila para ngayon at nagbabakasali na magiging
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Over the past few weeks my life has become quiet and some days I can hear the laughter of demons in my ears again. It's so hard because I don't know how long they will keep hunting me. Wala rin akong masyadong kinakausap kahit na umaakto silang lahat dito sa bahay na masigla. Halos lahat ng pinsan ko ay nandito pwera lang kay Hailey. Mom and Dad always peek at me in the bedroom every hour.I promised them one thing. that I don't even have to think about ending my life because I know it's all happening because there's a reason. My life matters in a different way. Ayaw kong tapusin 'yon ng dahil sa mga masasamang nangyari.I don't fancy ending my life. This world is chock-full of failure, strifes, and defeats but this is also a paradise and utopia. I'm exhausted of everything and I don't aspire to unite more suicidal and lethal solicitudes to my mind and soul. I must fight because I knew I was in the cryptic part of my journey and I was sure that there was a light waiting for me at the
Huling Na-update : 2023-02-22Let me in tears meet-30
Napatingin ako sa mga alon na naghahampasan at gumagawa ng ingay. Ang malamig na hangin ay dinama ko nang dumampi ang mga 'to sa aking balat. Napangiti ako na umupo sa buhangin at pinagmasdan ang paligid. The smiles on the lips of everyone didn't fade they look happier while laughing and playing with their friends and families. I can't help but smile too before hugging myself. Sitting here feels good."Layuan niyo ako!"My eyes swelled before looking around. My heart pounds so fast while looking at the girl. She stepped back and the waves were already splashing his foot. There are two men around her. The first one is on her right side wearing a white T-shirt and jersey short while the other one is on the left side that is topless and wearing red basketball shorts. Suddenly my eyes landed on the woman wearing a silk dress and holding the hem of her dress so as not to be blown away by the wind. She is wearing her eyeglasses reason why I can't see her eyes and the length of her hair is s
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He is wearing his usual black tshirt and cargo short partnered with his loafers. Hindi ako makagalaw habang pinapakatitigan ang maamo niyang mukha. Wala halos nagbago sa kaniya at kung mayroon man ay mas lalo lang siyang naging perpekto. I can't find any words. Ang malalim at maganda niyang mata ay pinapalambot ang expression niya. He formed his lips into a thin line before smiling like everything is alright. I avoided his lovable gaze and started to take a step. Palayo sa kaniya... dahil doon naman ako magaling. Ang lumayo kapag alam kong delikado na.It's been a years but still.. he is the one. No one can blame me about this, like.. what the hell?! It's been a years! Matagal na 'yon at impossibleng siya at siya parin ang gusto ko dahil.... walang impossible sa taong nagmamahal.Katulad ng isang maliwanag na buwan sa madilim na kalangitan... bumabalik at bumabalik parin."Heart!" my Mom called me as I got near them. Napatingin din sa gawi ko si Dad at sila Tito at Tita. I can't help
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Umiwas ako ng tingin at bumuntong hininga. I heard my cousins' giggles like they want what they heard. Tinutukso nila ako gamit ang tingin nila sa akin kaya mas lalo akong namula. Hindi na ako umimik kasi ayaw ko na patulan ang mga pang-aasar nila. I know that this time I can't win. They're good at teasing me to Magen at kahit baliktarin kopa ang lamesa na ito ay hindi ako mananalo."Gan'to, paunahan na makarating sa dulo ta's kailangan makuha 'yung red na ribbon na nakapatong sa dulo pero..." pagbitin ni Lami. "Kailangan na by partner then yung isa ay siya ang lalangoy ta's 'yung isa naman ay pabigat lang gano'n. So, papasan or kakapit 'yung isa sa likuran nung lalangoy.I don't want that idea since they're looking at me and Magen. They look like a push over."I don't want to---""Ang kj!" sabay sabay nilang sigaw.Narinig ko ang tawanan ng mga magulang namin. I just take a deep breath and nodded. Alam ko kung sino ang ipapartner nila sa akin dahil humawak na agad sila sa mga kapatid
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"Miya, umuwi ka muna," napahilamos ako sa aking mukha.Nandito kami ngayon sa dining area. Nakaupo sa aking tapat si Hanz na katabi ni Miya. They offered a glass of water but I refused."Dito lang muna ako..." pilit niya na kinatango ko nalang.Napahilot ako sa sintido ko bago ipatong sa lamesa ang aking siko. I don't know what to do next and I don't want to do anything because I'm exhausted."Hayaan mo hanggang ngayong month nalang din ang contract ni Tamara sa Cole clothing. I'll never renew it. Lagi niya rin kasi inaaway si Chacha," Hanz uttered, softly.Hindi ko nalang pinansin ang sinabi niya. I don't want to hear even her name. I'm pissed because of her childish act. Wala naman akong gagawin na masama kung talagang sila ni Magen. I'm not that desperate anymore to beg for his love. Kung kami ay kami! Kung sila ay sila! I don't need to sugarcoat anything just to ease this feeling. I'm dissappointed and I admit it. Magen dissappoint me again."Bakit ka nandito?" mahinahon kong tano
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Dawn Magen's POV"Just sign the annulment paper! I want our marriage to be void!" malakas na sigaw ni Papa.Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta. Mukha kasing nag-aaway na naman sila. I don't know what is the reason behind this. Ilang beses kona naririnig kay Papa ang pare-parehong sigaw na 'yon t'wing uuwi ako galing school. Mabuti nalang at maaga akong umuuwi kaysa kay Mint. Ayaw kong makita niyang ganito sila Mama.I'm still in Grade 5 and Mint is grade 1. Mas matanda ako sa kaniya ng limang taon. Masyado pa siyang bata para maguluhan sa nangyayari.Umatras ako palayo at bumalik sa gate. Ilang beses pa akong bumuntonghininga para makakuha ng lakas para makapagsalita."Mama!" malakas kong sigaw at pilit na ngumiti. "Sunduin na raw si Mint maya-maya sabi nung teacher niya! Nagugutom na po ako!" I added.Napalunok ako at malakas na kumatok sa pintuan ng kwarto nila. Nakuyom ko ang aking palad nang makita si Papa na ngumiti sa'kin. He is trying to end our family? Why?"Pa! Sunduin mo nga
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They said was let the windblown you in any direction because love is like a wind. Ang pagmahahal ay mararamdaman natin pero kadalasan ay hindi natin nakikita because we are all blinded with all buts and what-ifs. Like, you love someone but... Someone loves you but.... and also You love someone, what if... Someone loves you, what if...We all chose to take a grip on the buts and what-ifs in our mind because of one reason. Iyon ay dahil natatakot tayong masaktan at umiyak. We are scared to experience strife, struggles, and failures so we kept on looking for possible preventive thoughts. Kasi gano'n naman talaga... gano'n naman talaga dapat.Sino ba ang hindi takot na masaktan at umiyak ng paulit-ulit because of someone? Who want to have a sleepless night? Who want to have a miserable life?The stiff breeze of salty air from the facade of the ocean kept on sweeping. Madilim na ang paligid kaya ang iilan na ilaw galing sa mga cottage ay nakabukas. The sunset is waving, beautifully.L
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Time flies so fast, It's been a week since the video got viral. It's no big deal for me and my parents anymore. Maybe, we know if when we make that big deal that means we will be defeated by them.Well, I received many death threats from Tamara's fanbase. They ship Magen to Tamara easily! Ang daming kumakalat sa mga social media na mga edited pictures nila. Hanggang edit lang naman!They attacked me too, they message me on every social media account that I have! Kung ano-ano ang mga pinagsasabi nila and I just seen their messages. Minsan naiinis ako at gusto ko sila replyan but I don't want to join their clan. The keyboard warriors clan. So, it funny how I pissed them because they know that I didn't care at all. Go on... do whatever you want. The level of this issue is only on the lower part and it will puff nothing away from my previous experiences."Stop accepting that death threats," mahinahon na sabi ni Magen.I lifted my head when he entered my condo. Well, we want to catch up. Hin
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"Miya, umuwi ka muna," napahilamos ako sa aking mukha.Nandito kami ngayon sa dining area. Nakaupo sa aking tapat si Hanz na katabi ni Miya. They offered a glass of water but I refused."Dito lang muna ako..." pilit niya na kinatango ko nalang.Napahilot ako sa sintido ko bago ipatong sa lamesa ang aking siko. I don't know what to do next and I don't want to do anything because I'm exhausted."Hayaan mo hanggang ngayong month nalang din ang contract ni Tamara sa Cole clothing. I'll never renew it. Lagi niya rin kasi inaaway si Chacha," Hanz uttered, softly.Hindi ko nalang pinansin ang sinabi niya. I don't want to hear even her name. I'm pissed because of her childish act. Wala naman akong gagawin na masama kung talagang sila ni Magen. I'm not that desperate anymore to beg for his love. Kung kami ay kami! Kung sila ay sila! I don't need to sugarcoat anything just to ease this feeling. I'm dissappointed and I admit it. Magen dissappoint me again."Bakit ka nandito?" mahinahon kong tano
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Umiwas ako ng tingin at bumuntong hininga. I heard my cousins' giggles like they want what they heard. Tinutukso nila ako gamit ang tingin nila sa akin kaya mas lalo akong namula. Hindi na ako umimik kasi ayaw ko na patulan ang mga pang-aasar nila. I know that this time I can't win. They're good at teasing me to Magen at kahit baliktarin kopa ang lamesa na ito ay hindi ako mananalo."Gan'to, paunahan na makarating sa dulo ta's kailangan makuha 'yung red na ribbon na nakapatong sa dulo pero..." pagbitin ni Lami. "Kailangan na by partner then yung isa ay siya ang lalangoy ta's 'yung isa naman ay pabigat lang gano'n. So, papasan or kakapit 'yung isa sa likuran nung lalangoy.I don't want that idea since they're looking at me and Magen. They look like a push over."I don't want to---""Ang kj!" sabay sabay nilang sigaw.Narinig ko ang tawanan ng mga magulang namin. I just take a deep breath and nodded. Alam ko kung sino ang ipapartner nila sa akin dahil humawak na agad sila sa mga kapatid
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He is wearing his usual black tshirt and cargo short partnered with his loafers. Hindi ako makagalaw habang pinapakatitigan ang maamo niyang mukha. Wala halos nagbago sa kaniya at kung mayroon man ay mas lalo lang siyang naging perpekto. I can't find any words. Ang malalim at maganda niyang mata ay pinapalambot ang expression niya. He formed his lips into a thin line before smiling like everything is alright. I avoided his lovable gaze and started to take a step. Palayo sa kaniya... dahil doon naman ako magaling. Ang lumayo kapag alam kong delikado na.It's been a years but still.. he is the one. No one can blame me about this, like.. what the hell?! It's been a years! Matagal na 'yon at impossibleng siya at siya parin ang gusto ko dahil.... walang impossible sa taong nagmamahal.Katulad ng isang maliwanag na buwan sa madilim na kalangitan... bumabalik at bumabalik parin."Heart!" my Mom called me as I got near them. Napatingin din sa gawi ko si Dad at sila Tito at Tita. I can't help
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Napatingin ako sa mga alon na naghahampasan at gumagawa ng ingay. Ang malamig na hangin ay dinama ko nang dumampi ang mga 'to sa aking balat. Napangiti ako na umupo sa buhangin at pinagmasdan ang paligid. The smiles on the lips of everyone didn't fade they look happier while laughing and playing with their friends and families. I can't help but smile too before hugging myself. Sitting here feels good."Layuan niyo ako!"My eyes swelled before looking around. My heart pounds so fast while looking at the girl. She stepped back and the waves were already splashing his foot. There are two men around her. The first one is on her right side wearing a white T-shirt and jersey short while the other one is on the left side that is topless and wearing red basketball shorts. Suddenly my eyes landed on the woman wearing a silk dress and holding the hem of her dress so as not to be blown away by the wind. She is wearing her eyeglasses reason why I can't see her eyes and the length of her hair is s
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Over the past few weeks my life has become quiet and some days I can hear the laughter of demons in my ears again. It's so hard because I don't know how long they will keep hunting me. Wala rin akong masyadong kinakausap kahit na umaakto silang lahat dito sa bahay na masigla. Halos lahat ng pinsan ko ay nandito pwera lang kay Hailey. Mom and Dad always peek at me in the bedroom every hour.I promised them one thing. that I don't even have to think about ending my life because I know it's all happening because there's a reason. My life matters in a different way. Ayaw kong tapusin 'yon ng dahil sa mga masasamang nangyari.I don't fancy ending my life. This world is chock-full of failure, strifes, and defeats but this is also a paradise and utopia. I'm exhausted of everything and I don't aspire to unite more suicidal and lethal solicitudes to my mind and soul. I must fight because I knew I was in the cryptic part of my journey and I was sure that there was a light waiting for me at the
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---Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko at malakas na napasigaw. Umiling-iling na baka sakaling sa pag-iling ko ay maglaho ang mga tawanan na naririnig ko. I cried while running somewhere. Hindi ko na rin maintindihan ang malakas na pagkalabog ng dibdib ko. Hinihingal at namamawis na ako pero hindi ko parin alam kung paano tatakas ang mga tinig."Happy birthday!" Pumalakpak pa si Mom when my Dad exploded confetti on the air. I just shook my head and ignored them. I saw that they were next to Magen and my cousins but not Hailey. Tama lang! Dahil ayaw ko muna siya makita! Nagtama ang mga mata namin ni Magen na agad kong iniwasan. I restrained myself from approaching him and asking if he had treated the bruises on his face. Gusto ko siyang lapitan at yakapin. Gusto ko siyang kausapin pero pinipigilan ko hanggang sa makaya ko.Ngayon ko lang nakita ang hawak niyang cake na three layers. May mga bitbit din na mga refalo para sa akin. Alam kong naghanda sila para ngayon at nagbabakasali na magiging
