Lahat ng Kabanata ng When Don'ts Became Do's: Kabanata 11 - Kabanata 20

He kissed me again, for the third time. Pero no'ng tumigil s'ya ay doon ko nalaman kung bakit n'ya ginawa 'yon. "What the fvck is that for?!""I did that to cover your face from the paps."I stared at him in disbelief.He sigh before he spoke again. "... I just realized that you don't deserve all of these. Dinala kita dito dahil gusto kong habulin ka rin ng mga taong 'yon, hindi dahil 'yon ang sinabi ni Mom and Dad. Sa lahat-lahat ng mga ginawa mo sa 'kin, gusto... gusto rin kitang pahirapan. Hanggang sa nagkwento ka, hanggang sa nakonsensya ako. I shouldn't have brought you here. I'm sorry."I stared at him for a moment after hearing those words from him. He sounded sincere.A part of me wants to push him to fall down to the ground and curse him, but that time, I realized that he just want to protect me from being chased by those paps. He protected me from having a more fatal life, at least we bo

Two fvcking weeks.  It's been two fvcking week and he's still confined in the hospital, unconcious. Two fvcking weeks since my conscience been bugging the hell out of me. I hated myself even more because of what I've did. I've encounter a ton of failed attempts of visiting him but everytime I stood up infront of his room's door, I lost my courage.  How dare me to visit him where, in fact, I was the one who brought that to him. I deserved it. I deserved hell. 'Di ko na dapat s'ya nilalapitan.  I can still remember how my heart leap as I heard the news that he's awake. After fvcking weeks of hell, finally. Para akong nabunutan ng tinik sa nabalitaan  I heard that the doctor didn't discharged him right after his awakening, so I haven't seen him not util now. "We're here!" I stood up as I heard Tita Teressa screams as she enters the main door.  It's also been one, another week since I heard the news. 

We silently drove along the city's highway. I am right behind him in the passenger seat while his eyes focused on the road. He's driving. I throw him glance sometimes, and I'm afraid he might notice it.We were heading towards the hospital, just like what he have said last night. That's why I quickly prepared myself as I woke up, and no, I am not excited. Really. I turned my gaze back in the side mirror and felt a sudden suspense as I saw the same, white Mustang after us. It sounds following us since earlier.I may be too paranoid, so I shrugged that thought off and focused my gaze to other direction.We reached the hospital and he helped me out of the car. I wandered my eyes in the surroundings, searching for the Mustang who was following us. "Is there something bothering you?" Desmond asked from my behind.I can no longer see any signs of the suspicious car, so I sigh in relief. "No, nothing. Let's go--oh, fvc

Living here in Italia brought me into a great adjustment again. Everyone was treating me like a crappy princess. I have to stay here inside this fvcking mansion where maids and butlers are everywhere, and go with stupid bodyguards if I'll be going outdoors.I hate it, but must to bare with it. I have to bare with these stupid closet of dresses and girly pairs of shoe that grandma brought for me. Ayaw nila akong umakto na parang lalaki at ayaw na ayaw nilang magmura ako na parang hindi babae. They're fvcking conservative, protective, and above all, dramatic.But in the midst adjusting, I found myself taking my old stuffs away. I forgot what alcohol tasted like. I forgot the noise of clubs sounds like, and so as the scent of cigarettes enters my nostrils. I am now preferred staying my room, reading books, and scroll on social media--things I lately called as stupidly, girly stuffs. I know, it's bullshit. But I getting used to it.

Madilim na ang gabi. Walang hirap akong bumaba mula sa balkonahe ng aking kwarto samantalang nasa taas pa rin si Desmond mukhang tulala."What now?" I hissed. "They might caught us. Hurry up!" I gestured my hand and it make him snap back to his consciousness. "You aren't spiderwoman, aren't you?" he asked, trying his best to whisper against his baritone voice.I looked at him in a boredom. "I've been doing these stuffs for years," I informed.He shook his head. "You could be a great robber someday," he commented and started taking his both feet down the terrace."No thanks," I murmured but not enough to reach his ears. Instead, I saw him took a huge gulp while staring at the ground.Hindi naman talaga ganoon kahirap bumaba dahil sa mga bintanang sa baba nito. Pangatlong palapag lang din ang aking kwarto.I sighed and crossed my arms. I tapped my foot in impatience while waiting for him to fully reach the ground. Pero napatigil sa pag-hakbang pababa. "I'