Lahat ng Kabanata ng A Blissful Grief: Kabanata 11 - Kabanata 20

Hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakarating sa harap ng condominium building na tinitirhan namin... ng wala sa sarili. It's already 2:00 in the afternoon. I sat on the wooden chair which is located at the small playground in front of the condominium.    I sighed and look at the sky above. Malungkot ang langit na tila sumasalamin sa nararamdaman ko ngayon. Bilang sa daliri ang masasayang araw sa buhay ko at nangingibabaw ang lungkot.    True happiness comes from within but for me...it comes from ignorance. Iyan ang paniniwala ko dahil nagiging masaya lang ako sa mga bagay na nagiging tanga ako.  Does loving someone who doesn't care about your feelings is bliss or ignorance? Maybe you will judge me if I will say it's bliss. Well, loving him makes me happy.     My phone rang the reason for breaking my reverie. I immediately get it from my bag.    Daddy calling...

“Fortunate!”   I heard him call my name but I didn't looked back. Looking back at him will only cause pain in my heart. Mas binilisan ko ang lakad hanggang sa napadpad ako sa bakanteng silid. I'm about to step inside when he grabbed my wrist.    “Where are you going?”   Hindi ako sumagot. I get away from his hold and stared at his face. Salubong ang makakapal niyang kilay habang mariing nakatitig sa akin.   “Babalik sa room namin. Ikaw...why are you here?” mahinang tanong ko.   His forehead wrinkled. “Hindi rito ang room niyo.”   “I don't wanna see your face! Iyon ba ang gusto mong marinig?” asik ko.   He sighed. “I'm sorry.”   Natahimik ako. Hindi ko pa rin maalis sa isip ang kahihiyang natamo kanina. Buti nalang hindi ako lumapit sa kaniya.   I don't know how to react in front o

I didn't tell Rius what happened yesterday. I don't want this to be the reason for him to leave his work just because of what Cassidy did. Sa restaurant siya nila Cassidy nagtatrabaho at alam kong aalis siya roon sa oras na malaman niya ang nangyari. Nilagyan ko nalang ng band aid ang mga sugat na natamo ko mula kay Cassidy.   Tumunog ang cellphone ko. I saw his name on the screen.   Rius: How's your day with Winslet?   Napangiti ako sa tanong niya. See? Even his messages brought happiness in my heart.    I giggled and changed his name into 'bebu' on my contacts.    Me: It was fun! I enjoyed a lot.   Bebu: Hmm... let's date tomorrow?    Kumalabog ang puso ko sa mensahe niya. Napakagat labi ako habang nagtitipa.    Me: Is it okay? Baka may work ka pa.    Bebu: It's

Everyone's dream is to have someone who will accept them as who they are. Dati pinapangarap ko lang na mapansin ni Rius pero ngayon he's my boyfriend officially. Umaapaw sa galak ang puso ko na pakiramdam ko'y babawiin din kalaunan. “Why ka sad? You're happy dapat kasi he's your boyfriend na,” Si Hope. Sinusuklay niya ang kaniyang buhok habang naglalakad kami sa academic oval ng UP para magpahangin. This place was surrounded with trees that will surely make us breath fresh air. Nililipad ng hangin ang mahabang buhok ko kaya pilit ko itong hinahawakan gamit ang isang kamay. I sighed. “Hindi ko lang mapigilan. Sa sobrang sarap sa pakiramdam feeling ko kasalanan nang makaramdam ng kasiyahan.”Tumigil siya sa paglalakad kaya gano'n din ako. Humarap siya sa akin nang nakasimangot. “You're overthinking again. Syempre we can't pigil the sadness na dumating because not all the time masaya. Just enjoy your masa

Warning: This chapter contains violence. Reader discretion is advised.  “Kahit anong pilit niyong itago, mabubunyag at mabubunyag pa rin ang totoong kalagayan niya,” mariing bigkas ng isang boses. “If you shut your mouth, hindi niya malalaman...walang makakaalam.”  I heard murmurings and I forced my eyes to open. Puting kisame ang unang bumungad sa aking paningin. I looked around and saw mommy and Kuya Lucky whispering to each other as if they were afraid that someone might hear what they're saying. “K-Kuya...” Their eyes shifted at me. Agad na lumapit si Kuya sa tabi ko habang si mommy ay umupo sa gilid.  My chest feels heavy. I tried to get up but Kuya Lucky stopped me from moving. “Wag ka munang bumangon,” he said gently. “W-Why, Kuya?” “You need to rest.” Naguguluhang tumingin ako sa kanilang dalawa. What's going on? Something feels odd. “Mommy... Kuya, ano bang meron?