All Chapters of When the Skies are Gray: Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

“Goodnight, Darling,” River said as he opened the gate for me.“Good night, salamat sa paghatid,” nakangiting sabi ko. He held my hand and kissed the back of it and smiled back.“Anything for you,” aniya.Bumukas ang pinto kaya napatingin kami roon. Lumabas doon si Kuya Angelo kaya napatawa kaming pareho.“I'll go ahead, baka mapatay na ako ng Kuya mo,” pamamaalam ni River. Tumango ako at kumaway sa kaniya. It was romantic. Ilang buwan ang nakalipas na halos siya na ang parati kong kasama. Hindi ko pa siya sinasagot dahil sa pagtugon namin sa kagustuhan ni Kuya.But we know we're a thing. Sagot na lang ang kulang at opisyal na kami. Halos kalat na nga sa buong department ang panliligaw niya sakin. River was famous of course and... I don't know if I am, pero marami rin pala ang may kilala sakin.I was so

“Come on, don't be shy. Eat all you can because the bill is ours!” anunsyo noong si Farina. Napaangat ako ng tingin. I realized that I was thinking too much about everything. Isang buwan lang naman ako rito at pagbalik ay hindi ko na makikitang muli si River. “Kain ka, Sandra.” Inabot sakin ni David ang kanin kaya nakangiti kong tinanggap iyon. When I got the rice, I observed everyone and smiled when I saw them eating with their hands. Hindi rin matawaran ang kwentuhan nila at komportableng komportable. Everyone has their own share of the story, except for River and me who are both silent at parehong nagpapakiramdaman. Para kaming mga tanga rito na hindi nagkikibuan. Oh, ako nga lang pala. I’m the only one who feels awkward and stupid because River is fucking busy with Farina. Letse. “Chicken?” tanong ni Xyrene. Itinago ko ang gulat at tumango na lang. Akmang kukuhanin ko iyon pero ipinaglagay niya na ako sa aking plato. She’s

I woke up early that morning, napatingin ako sa labas at mataas na ang sinag ng araw. I couldn’t actually remember how, but I know that I had a great sleep last night. When River warmed my hands, I felt comfortable. Napatitig ako sa aking kama at naalala ang nangyari kagabi. It was all still unbelievable and fascinating.My head still hurts because of alcohol, but I know that I have to get up. Pero kahit masakit iyon, mas lumalamang pa rin ang alaala ng pag-uusap namin kagabi. My head might hurt, but my heart feels so light.Napapikit ako nang mariin at nagulo ko ang aking buhok. The feeling was relieving, almost telling me that I should be happy about this. Subalit, patuloy pa rin akong dinadalaw ng konsensya ko patungkol sa amin ni Damien.Pero wala na nga pala kami ni Damien, niloko niya nga pala ako. I love River. But it just feels so... not right.I mean, parang hindi ako nagiging patas kay River.Sa halip na mamroblema lalo, inayos ko n

My brows furrowed when I saw him smile. Bakit siya ngumingiti riyan? Ayos lang sa kaniya na sa kabila ng lahat, nagawa kong magmahal ng iba? Hindi ako makapaniwala sa naging reaksyon niya.How can he smile when we both know that he's hurt? How can he still manage to still love me even if he's hurting so much?!My lips parted and a tear escape from my eyes, hindi makapaniwalang nagagawa pa rin niyang ngumiti.“I love you, Sandra,” he said. This is fucking insane. I can’t believe him!“Are you serious, River? Bakit ang martyr mo?” inis kong tanong sa kaniya.Naiirita ako dahil hindi siya dapat ganito! There are other women better than me! Someone better than me! Iyong kaya siyang pantayan kaya hindi siya dapat ganito sakin!I didn't choose him, and I loved another man! I feel so guilty about it. Habang si River... walang ibang ginawa kundi ang mahalin ako!“Hmm, I wish I had a good answer for that,&rd

“What happened?” River asked when I entered the house. Pakiramdam ko ay pagod na pagod ako dahil sa pag-uusap namin ni Damien.“Pinauwi ko na. You should also get rest,” I told him. Kanina pa siyang pagod sigurado.Subalit pumungay lang ang kaniyang mata habang nakatitig sakin. It broke my heart to see River’s eyes hurt like that. Ayaw ko na ganoon ang mata niya. Ayaw kong pagod ang hitsura niya. I don’t like seeing him tired, crying, and heartbroken,He may look so rough and hard, but his eyes are very expressive. You can see whatever he's feeling inside him.“Did he ask you back?” he asked.Umiling ako sa kaniya.“No, and I won't get back with him,” I said with finality. Dahil hindi talaga kahit kailan.Tumango si River at saka ngumiti. Nilingon ko naman si Mama nang mapansin kong nakatayo siya sa gilid at nakangiti sa amin.“Naghapunan na ba kayo? Kumain ka na