“Thank you,” pasalamat ko sa staff nang makuha ko ang surfboard na nirentahan ko.
I quickly welcomed the waves. Mahigit ilang taon ko na ring hindi nagagawa ito kaya hindi ako sigurado kung marunong pa ba ako.
The waves aren't that wild, so, it made me enjoyed surfing. Marami rin na surfers ang nakakatuwang panoorin dahil sa paulit-ulit nilang pagbagsak at pagtayo muli.
Nakikipagsapalaran ako sa alon nang makita ko si River na nakikipagtawanan sa babaeng kasama niya. He was at the balcony of his house with a girl beside him. Sumulyap siya sakin subalit saglit lang iyon.
Kaagad akong inatake ng kaba at hindi namalayan ang paparating na alon kaya natumba ako sa pagkakatayo at nahulog sa dagat.
Shit!
The sea was deep. It was clear but since I'm far from the shore, hindi gaanong malinaw iyon at hindi ko maabot ang ilalim!
Sa bawat subok kong maglangoy patungo sa ibabaw ay hinahampas ako ng alon pabalik sa baba. May ibang surfe
“Come on, don't be shy. Eat all you can because the bill is ours!” anunsyo noong si Farina. Napaangat ako ng tingin. I realized that I was thinking too much about everything. Isang buwan lang naman ako rito at pagbalik ay hindi ko na makikitang muli si River. “Kain ka, Sandra.” Inabot sakin ni David ang kanin kaya nakangiti kong tinanggap iyon. When I got the rice, I observed everyone and smiled when I saw them eating with their hands. Hindi rin matawaran ang kwentuhan nila at komportableng komportable. Everyone has their own share of the story, except for River and me who are both silent at parehong nagpapakiramdaman. Para kaming mga tanga rito na hindi nagkikibuan. Oh, ako nga lang pala. I’m the only one who feels awkward and stupid because River is fucking busy with Farina. Letse. “Chicken?” tanong ni Xyrene. Itinago ko ang gulat at tumango na lang. Akmang kukuhanin ko iyon pero ipinaglagay niya na ako sa aking plato. She’s
“Why didn't you chose me?” tanong ni River sa akin. Everyone looked at me and waited for my answer.But I know, I cannot answer him in a situation like this. Gusto ko mang sagutin ang tanong niya, hindi ko kaya ngayon.So, instead of answering, I did the counterpart of the game.“Body shot,” nakangiting sabi ko. Napanganga ang lahat at parang nanlumo nang maisip na hindi ko sasagutin iyon.“Sige, Captain! Pili ka na,” sambit ni Xyrene.“Pwedeng sa ibang tourists, ah? Kahit hindi lang dito sa table,” Farina said.Ngumiti ako at tumango. Sinulyapan ko si River na masama ang tingin sakin pero hindi ko siya pinansin. Luminga-linga ako sa paligid at nag-isip kung sinong pwedeng biktimahin ng body shot.“I'll go with that man over there.” Itinuro ko ang isang lalaking nagsasayaw sa ‘di kalayuan. He looks so playful and that’s better than men in corporate attire.
I woke up early that morning, napatingin ako sa labas at mataas na ang sinag ng araw. I couldn’t actually remember how, but I know that I had a great sleep last night. When River warmed my hands, I felt comfortable. Napatitig ako sa aking kama at naalala ang nangyari kagabi. It was all still unbelievable and fascinating.My head still hurts because of alcohol, but I know that I have to get up. Pero kahit masakit iyon, mas lumalamang pa rin ang alaala ng pag-uusap namin kagabi. My head might hurt, but my heart feels so light.Napapikit ako nang mariin at nagulo ko ang aking buhok. The feeling was relieving, almost telling me that I should be happy about this. Subalit, patuloy pa rin akong dinadalaw ng konsensya ko patungkol sa amin ni Damien.Pero wala na nga pala kami ni Damien, niloko niya nga pala ako. I love River. But it just feels so... not right.I mean, parang hindi ako nagiging patas kay River.Sa halip na mamroblema lalo, inayos ko n
Just because of not having me, he tried to kill himself, and that is not acceptable!“I was just rebelling because I know I can swim, but... the sea was dark and so deep—”Kinwelyuhan ko siya at hinarap ko siya sakin. His eyes widened at it. Nahihibang na ba siya? Dapat hindi niya ginawa iyon!“What the fuck are you thinking, River?! Why the hell did you do that? Paano kung natuluyan ka?” inis kong singhal sa kaniya.Hinawakan niya ang parehong kamay ko na nakahawak sa kaniya.“Now, you're worried.” Parang natuwa pa siyang nag-alala ako! Nasisiraan na yata talaga siya. Kahit hindi maging kami, dapat hindi niya ‘yon ginawa!Dahil sa panlalambot, napaupo ako sa buhanginan.River hugged me and rested his forehead on my shoulders. May kakaiba mang pakiramdam na dulot iyon ay hindi pa rin noon napawi ang iritasyon at galit ko sa nalaman.He shouldn't have tried to do that! He sho
My brows furrowed when I saw him smile. Bakit siya ngumingiti riyan? Ayos lang sa kaniya na sa kabila ng lahat, nagawa kong magmahal ng iba? Hindi ako makapaniwala sa naging reaksyon niya.How can he smile when we both know that he's hurt? How can he still manage to still love me even if he's hurting so much?!My lips parted and a tear escape from my eyes, hindi makapaniwalang nagagawa pa rin niyang ngumiti.“I love you, Sandra,” he said. This is fucking insane. I can’t believe him!“Are you serious, River? Bakit ang martyr mo?” inis kong tanong sa kaniya.Naiirita ako dahil hindi siya dapat ganito! There are other women better than me! Someone better than me! Iyong kaya siyang pantayan kaya hindi siya dapat ganito sakin!I didn't choose him, and I loved another man! I feel so guilty about it. Habang si River... walang ibang ginawa kundi ang mahalin ako!“Hmm, I wish I had a good answer for that,&rd
“Excuse me?”“What? I know it... hindi mo na kailangang magpanggap,” she said.“Do you think River hires an escort?” tanong ko. My back was still firm as her eyes widened a bit.It was just the start, but she seems scared already.“I didn't say that!” she nearly shouted.Damn it, her voice is really high! It can break glasses!“Hmm, what you said seems like it.”“Bitch! Kung ano ka man ni River, siguro tuwang tuwa ka? Just a reminder... he's not serious. Kaya kung ano man kayo, hanggang doon na lang. It's just something physical so don't fall, okay?” He smiled and held my hand. Halos mapatawa ako sa narinig mula sa kaniya.If I am her, I would be really ashamed.“Well, at least he's attracted to me, right? Did you even attract him? Kahit isang beses lang?” I asked her.Her eyes widened.“I'm not like you!”
“What happened?” River asked when I entered the house. Pakiramdam ko ay pagod na pagod ako dahil sa pag-uusap namin ni Damien.“Pinauwi ko na. You should also get rest,” I told him. Kanina pa siyang pagod sigurado.Subalit pumungay lang ang kaniyang mata habang nakatitig sakin. It broke my heart to see River’s eyes hurt like that. Ayaw ko na ganoon ang mata niya. Ayaw kong pagod ang hitsura niya. I don’t like seeing him tired, crying, and heartbroken,He may look so rough and hard, but his eyes are very expressive. You can see whatever he's feeling inside him.“Did he ask you back?” he asked.Umiling ako sa kaniya.“No, and I won't get back with him,” I said with finality. Dahil hindi talaga kahit kailan.Tumango si River at saka ngumiti. Nilingon ko naman si Mama nang mapansin kong nakatayo siya sa gilid at nakangiti sa amin.“Naghapunan na ba kayo? Kumain ka na
“Damn it, shit!” I laughed as River cursed loudly. Kanina pa kasi kaming naghahabulan para sa kawawang alimango na pinaglalaruan namin.“Ang lampa naman!” sigaw ko sa kaniya. Ngumiwi siya at naupo sa buhangin. Kanina niya pa kasing inaagaw ang maliit na alimango na ayaw ko namang ibigay sa kaniya.Kaya ang kinahantungan niya ay ang pagkakadapa sa buhangin.“Shit,” he cursed. I'm not supposed to laugh, but I can't help it. Natatawa ako habang lumalapit sa kaniya.Binitawan ko ang alimango at ginamit ang kamay ko pansalok ng tubig para ibuhos sa sugat niya habang tumatawa pa rin.“Kawawa naman si Baby River. Uwaah uwahh!” pang-aasar ko sa kaniya at naupo sa tabi niya. Damn it, this is so funny!“Stop it, Sandra," inis na singhal niya. Napipikon kaya mas lalo lamang akong natawa.Napaka cute naman ng pikon na ilog!“Uwaaah, cry baby. Nakakaawa naman. Masakit ba ang pagkak
“I'll stay here for a bit. Iuwi niyo na lang muna si Jordan. Susunduin ko na lang siya bago ako umuwi sa bahay,” sambit ko at inihiga ang natutulog na si Jordan sa backseat ng van kung nasaan si Aubree. “Alright. We'll go home already. Umuwi ka rin agad at magpahinga…” Dad said. Tumango ako at hinawakan ang pinto para isara. I closed the door and watched them go. Tahimik na ang lugar. The tent was still built, but the chairs were gone already. Bumuntonghininga ako at saka nilingon ang sasakyan ng taong alam kong kanina pa nanonood. “You can come near if you want to. Hindi kita bubugbugin ngayon,” I said after sitting in the grass in front of the grave, knowing that someone can hear me.
I woke up the next day, feeling more tired than usual. Rinig ko ang pagiging abala ng lahat sa labas kaya't tumayo na ako mula sa pagkakahiga.Napabaling ang aking tingin sa kabilang bahagi ng kama. My tears fell once again at the sight of it.“Dad,” I heard Jordan knocking on the door.Pinunasan ko ang aking mga luha at nilingon ang pinto. Jordan managed to open the door and ran immediately to hug me.“W-What's wrong, Jordan?” I asked him.Umiyak siya at mas humigpit ang yakap sa akin.“H-Have you had breakfast?” tanong ko sa kaniya. Umiling siya at narinig ko ang kaniyang hikbi habang nakayakap sa akin.
“You’re marrying Charlotte, and that’s final.” Napatanga ako sa sinabi ni Mom sa kabilang linya ng telepono. What the fuck?“Mom, I thought we’re on the same side? You promised me that we’ll convince Dad that I will never marry Cha!”Damn it. It’s been days since I went to Batanes with Cha. Pumayag akong pumunta rito, and even lied to my love that I have a business trip with Dad dahil nangako si Mom na tutulungan niya akong kausapin si Dad basta sumama muna ako pero…“I don’t like that girl, River! Kung ayaw mo siyang hiwalayan… ako ang maghihiwalay sa inyo.” Before I could even argue, ibinaba niya na ang telepono. This is frustrating!Pero hindi
She never really took me seriously at first. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero sa palagay ko ay dahil iyon sa lahat ng katarantaduhang nagawa ko noon.It felt like all of my sins were recorded, and she became my punishment.“I don’t believe you, River. I’m sorry, but you’re unbelievable.” I couldn’t remember how many times Sandra replied this statement to me every time I told her that I like her very much.Kalimitan ay dinadaan ko na lang talaga sa pagbibiro ng pamimilit o di kaya’y pagsuyo sa kaniya. But deep inside, it’s slowly hurting me. It’s like she never trusted me.Imagine? She even tried to turn me into a gay just so her family wouldn’t know about it!
I ran to the hallway quickly and quietly. I don't want to attend the philosophy class. It's boring.“Hey, River,” Alice greeted me nang malampasan ko siya sa hallway.I winked at her and she held my arms. But damn, this isn’t the time for flirting.“I'll catch up with you later at the party. Right now, I just need to run away from class,” I said and kissed her cheeks.“Alright, see you later,” she said.I smirked and continued running. Surely, the lecturer will catch me in no time kaya mas dapat ko pang bilisan ang takbo. Madaya naman kasi at foundation day tapos may klase siya sa amin.
“I'm sorry, the patient died due to the wound in her chest and internal bleeding. Her ribs are broken, and it affected her lungs. Kung nabuhay siya… she won't be able to walk. Her legs are fractured badly.”That’s what the doctor told us.I stood up slowly and noticed Kuya Angelo wiping his tears.I bit my lip. I remembered our youth. She was blooming like a flower, and her brother was already building fences so no man could touch her.I had that flower. But somehow… I failed to protect her.“Gusto kong makita ang anak ko… pupuntahan ko si Sandra,” Mama Alondra told Kuya Angelo.“Makikita rin natin si Sandra. Konting tiis la
“River! What the hell happened? What did that bastard do to Sandra?” salubong sa akin ni Lionel nang makarating ako sa kanila.Bumaba ako ng sasakyan at ngumiti sa kaniya. He looks so worried and behind him is his wife. Nakita ko ang galit at panggigigil sa kaniya. It seems like Alejandro wronged them as well.Subalit nang makita niya kung gaano ako kalugmok ay unti-unti niyang ikinalma ang sarili. Dapat lang niyang ikalma dahil pinapahanap ko na si Alejandro. Ang gusto ko munang tutukan sa ngayon ay ang aking asawa.When Lionel sensed my mood, wari ko ay naintindihan niya na agad ang nangyayari. M-Maybe he already has an idea.“I-Is the news… t-true?” tanong niya sa akin. Ramdam ko ang pag-aalinlangan sa boses niya.
Without any hesitation, nag u-turn ako kaagad at mas binilisan ang takbo ng aking sasakyan dahil sa sinabi sa akin ni Vincent. I’m not sure what it is pero kung mula sila sa tower control at hinahanap nila ako ay paniguradong may kinalaman ito kay Sandra!“C-Come quick.” Iyon ang huling sinabi ni Vincent bago ko narinig ang hikbi niya at pagpatay niya sa tawag.I was too excited to go back. Thinking that Sandra is already there excites me. Goodness. Sana ay naroon na siya dahil kung wala pa ring balita ay hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko! Masisiraan na yata ako ng ulo.Gustong-gusto ko nang bilisan ang takbo ng aking sasakyan at makarating doon kaagad.The sun is already shining. I haven't slept or eaten yet. Gusto ko lamang makita ang aking asawa. Mabut
The storm is still preventing us from searching the sky clearly. Wala kaming ideya kung anong aircraft ang ginamit ni Alejandro... o kung talaga bang ginamit niya iyon.“Why are you still awake? Hmm?” I asked Jordan when I visited him.“I can’t sleep properly. Have you eaten?” he asked.I smiled weakly and shook my head.“You should eat. If Mommy comes back, she'll be angry if she'll know that you didn't eat,” he said and held my hand.Nag-angat ako ng tingin nang makita sa likuran niya si Dad.“How is everything going?” Dad asked.“The authorities are helping us too. Sinisimu