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Shot Through the Heart
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2024-10-29 19:42:56CONTENT WARNING: Depiction of Panic Attacks and anxiety
Sarah stood in the doorway, as white as a ghost.
“Sarah! What are you doing here?!” Seth gasped, gripping the sheets around his nakedness.
“You left your key at lunch,” she said, obviously at a loss.
“So you decided to just fucking come in?!” Seth was shouting. Jacob couldn’t make any words come to mind, so it amazed him that Seth could form complete sentences at all.
“I knocked… I didn’t think… how could I…” Sarah clamped her mouth shut. She was holding the offending key in her hand. She dropped it like it was white hot and stared at it as if she didn&rsquo
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