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2021-12-06 13:54:13When Jacob sat down, Seth startled awake. His shoulders sank when he realized it was Jacob beside him. Jacob’s heart sank in response. He thought he could handle anything other than Seth looking at him with regret. Seth shook his head and leaned against the window.
“Can we talk?” Jacob asked as quietly as he could.
“And talk about what?” Seth said without turning. “It’s not like we can really talk here.”
Seth had a point. Anyone could overhear. Jacob would have to be careful about what he said, but he couldn’t pass up this opportunity having Seth stuck with him on the bus. He might not get another chance.
The bus lurched forward, and Jacob saw Seth go rigid. He realized he hadn’t even thought about how much difficulty Seth might have with a bus ride. Had
Blair SterlingSorry it has taken so long to get this chapter out. I was traveling for thanksgiving, and then went straight back to work. I have a feeling I will have a hard time sticking to a schedule through the Holidays. I will be back to regular posting in January! All the best, and Happy Holidays! - Blair
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