My plan for this day was to swim with Neil because the weather was so great. But I guessed I should think for a new activity that was good for one person only. Since early in the morning I did not see any a glimpse of Neil. I expected a note from him informing me his whereabouts but I found nothing but our empty table. Anyway, enough of worrying about him. I should do my plan for this day.
From Mom:
We are coming.I found her text unanswerable so I just hid my phone inside my drawer. I guessed she just sent her message to the wrong person because as far as I remembered, only me and Neil knew where we were now. Mom only knew that I was taking a vacation and she did not know a specific place.
"Did Neil left something? Or even a reminder?" I asked the guard who was seemingly had no plan of saying any words. He might being instructed to be a robot. "All right, tell your boss that I really like his attitude, to the point that I am starting to blame myself why I
So am I, we are just even, my love, I answered in my mind.He finally left me alone, and I had no choice but to face the closing door. At first, I was torn between staying in here or just going to another hotel for my mother not to know my location, then I chose the first one. I went to my baggage and chose for a short shorts and black-colored brassiere. My clothes were already packed nicely and so I had no trouble in finding my favorites one.Swimming.I wanted to swim now.Even it meant having a bonding with Felicia and Mom."This is great. The foods are already cooked. I planned to call you but since you are here already, let's start eating," Neil announced to all. I forgot to mention that I was facing two people who were also amazed seeing the foods.Mom and Felicia were literally facing each other, while I was in my left side putting some content in my p
It was somehow a great activity, I guessed. I thought Mom and Felicia would ruin my day but they did not. Well, I still could not trust them since the day had not ended yet and so they still had time to bother me.So, we finished the activity with our smiling faces. Me and Neil actually did have fun in enjoying the calmness of water, because we ended up talking about life, causing me to know his perspective, and I had just realized on how deep it was. He's not drunk yet he seemed like one because he's very exposed in telling me his voice.At the same time, my system was being poisoned by his eyes, making me to tell my side too, also causing him to hear and feel how painful it was.Mom and Felia totally enjoyed the water and that was probably the reason why they forgot to annoy us."I have committed a sin," I heard his statement again. That was what he said to me hours ago. And yet, it was already hou
His kisses went deeper and his nakes was all I could think off. Again, I had been used to touch and feel what's mine -- since we had made lots of love whenever I was disguising as Mindy -- but the sensation I felt still spectacular, as if I could be burn again -- no, crap that!-- I was always burning! I would be even feel surprise if my skin would create a smoke!"Are you sure with this?" he asked me again, and this time I laughed again, could not get the fact that he's still unsure despite it's obvious we both wanted to end this. "I am serious, Sydney. Do you want me to continue?""We have been doing this so why asking nowM? Besides, he did not ask for permissipn for those the times that we became like -+ sticking out bodies into each other's. "Go on, Neil, continue what you started."He laughed at my words and carried me in a bridal style. Wanting to feel his broad shoulders, I leaned my head into his chest, an I felt how his heart took leaps, and I did like t
After the conversation with mom, I never saw her and Feli for hours, and until now, I was still searching for her -- though take note that I had no plan of searching Feli.To cure my boredom, I turned our television on and watched my favorite series in Netflix. I was having my good time when the door opened, I thought at first that it would reveal Neil because he probably forgot something, but it was my Mom, who now looked problematic and judging by the look in her face, she was blaming me again. Surely, she had searched Feli but she just did not find her, and so I readied my ears for it's obvious she was gonna rap again and again."I told you to help me but you are just here doing nothing. You really have no conscience. She's your childhood friend yet you're not minding her absence now."I am right, I told myself using my mind, she would never let this moment to pass without scolding me. Anyway, she did say about childh
I again let out a heavy sigh when Neil excused himself, to probably stay away from negative vibe, and it's away from me.Mom revealed herself using her worried face again. She said something that I did not hear -- I was sure it was all about Feli again. Searching that woman was the least of my concern now, I had many problems to think.When the bell rang, I walked toward the door and put my eye near the little hole, only to notice men in their own designated uniforms. They were not Neil's guards. I was sure of that because Neil's had different uniforms.So, this is it, I whispered to myself. This is what Daniel talked about.I did not want to look rude so I opened the door to welcome them."Hi, Miss Sydney Klein. Sir Daniel brought us in in this room and blablabla..."I was not that interested to hear all their explanation since knowing them as Daniel's
The man's hands traveled up to my thighs, and I did not have any strength to swat his hand away. All I could was to shift into my seat and my eyes looked around searching for something -- for someone precisely, because that someone was my only solution for this man in my front, who seemed not having a plan in staying away from me, to go away.If you asked me how irritating this man was, I would say that words were not enough to describe what I felt. I regretted drinking hard liquors because I couldn't move anymore. I wanted to but my seemed glued inside my body"Do you want to go to a room?" the man asked huskily. And I could not help but to cry, knowing Neil was not coming back. I was here waiting for his help, but he was now with Feli taking care with that bitch. "I know you want what I am doing. Let's go somewhere else--""Get yo
FlashbackWhat really was the reason why I was becoming like this -- disguising as a woman and asa dancer, a sexy dancer to be exact?"You have just made the right thing," I whispered to myself for me to calm down. Majority of me wanted to step backward and do not continue my plan. But I shook my head at the end. I should do this.I should do this because in this way you would feel relieved. This was you want, right? You wanted to test Neil's love for you? So what are you waiting for? Never hesitate because what you are doing now is for your own sake.Fortunately, I knew someone who's a manager in a bar. We were not thatclose,
NeilTo say that I was disappointed and hurt would be an understatement. I wanted to create a chaos because someone special to me had just fool me. She made me felt like a dork for blaming myself again and again before by the fact that I was in love with two women. And then I had just heard her story. All the reason why she hid her identity and became a dancer in a bar I was usually stayed at.Blaming her crossed in my mind -- of course you could not blame me if I thought this way because she had just victimize me. I felt abandoned, Especially now that I had found out Brecken, my said to be private investigator, fooled me as what Sydney did.But funny how I just chose to calm myself down. Regardless of all the pain I was feeling, the satisfying feeling overflowed over anything. The feeling was so nice to hug. Instead of shouting, I calmed down. Instead of blaming, I just listened -- fuck, was I belonged in her charm or wha
Mom and I were finally okay. She asked for my forgiveness even though I never loathed her. For all the bad things she had done to me, I still loved her. Nothing could change that fact."What is the name of this place once again, Mom?" Kyra asked curiously as she roamed her eyes around the place.A smile touched my lips. "Azucalda."We were safe to live not worrying about anything. Ambrosia's family were now settled in jail. Daniel, also, already found his life, the woman who would change the fake romantic love he felt towards me. "This is where we belong, Kyra. Be comfortable in this place, because starting from now, we will leave here, we will start new memories," I hugged her."When Dad will come back?" she asked me out of the blue. "I mean, we have been already waiting for years! Last night, Dad and I talked, but since this morning, he never texted me anymore. I am worrying, Mom! What if he alread
"If I could just turn back the time."I was used to say that statement to myself. Days and years without Sydney, I realized life was hard without her. Though I had no choice, I could not get her back because I had no right. I hurt her. I should face the consequences of my actions."Sydney has a daughter, Auntie. And she is now currently studying. She is an academic achiever," Marcus informed me. Marcus was one of my enemy before even though we were blood related, but as time gone by, we became close and decided to help each other."I have a granddaughter, then..." I whispered using my weak voice. That meant that Sydney was pregnant during the moments she was not in this country. That meant she lived without my guide. That meant she raised my grandaughter alone. "I have remembered what you told me before. You told me she has a business in this country, right?"He nodded. "She owns a grocery."&
We still lived in the same house, and I witnessed how they both loved each other. But I never liked that."Auntie Trinidad, I successfully closed the deal," Neil announced to me. To my delight, I smiled. "Thanks to Sydney, though. He pushed me to work hard."I heard a lot of news from work, especially from company employees. Because Sydney and Neil worked often at the same time... they also went home together so that caused surprise to others."I know they are both married," Marcus threatened me. This businessman had never really changed. Still ruthless. There was no sanctification. Even so, I still treated him well because we were just relatives. I know he was not gay to spread the word."Just do not let them know." I got up. I would have planned to build a boutique. Because since I was a child, that was really what I wanted to have. Now that Neil was taking care of the company, maybe
"Starting today, you are the only one I will love. Expect me to love you every day."I closed my eyes when Zimon, my husband, gently gave his tender kisses to me. To this day, I still could not believe it. We were married. We were officially legal.Our family welcomed us as well. Nothing could stop us from being together. We would also be able to form our dreams together, and one of them was having a child, or if possible ‘children’. We even wanted a girl to be our first child. But what the Lord gave us, we would wholeheartedly accept it."Zimon, here is your lunchbox. Please, do not stay up too late at work. I know you want to give us a very good future but we are already rich. I am not proud of our living condition, but I just hope you learn how to rest, okay?"That was really what I kelt reminding him of. Health was important so I wanted him to take care of himself. We would have a chi
How many times had I tried to love my child as much as many mothers like me love. But even so, I still could not bear to look at her without remembering what his Dad did to me and how he hurt me until I was exhausted.I could say that me giving her birth was the most important event in my life, but like I said, I could not... I could not afford to love her, because whenever I smiled at her, I felt like I just forgave her Dad right away. And for me, that shoul not have happened. No one could stop me...I did not know if my own child hated me. If she wanted to hate me until she voluntarily gave up, go on! I did not care. Even if it was bad in the eyes of others, I would do what I thought was good for me, for the comfort of my chest."Is the average yourself from studying? How dare you smile at me while you were showing this shit to me? How many times have I told you that this grade is not enough for me? You are stupid, really. I am still wondering why you ev
When we were at the venue, we looked around. Until the woman who invited us to be in here acknowledged us with a big smile. I immediately recognized her because of the sweetness of her smile. She talked to us and the other guests. I could say the event was really social and prepared for elites because you could just see from the guests' gowns that they were really expensive. Not to mention that Neil Sandoval was admired by many."Hi, there is still an empty table near the long table. Other guests also want to meet you. Because you know how much everyone admires you, Neil Sandoval," the woman praised him again.Neil was really grabbing attention now, not only because he was handsome in what he was wearing, but also because he looked like the girl he was holding so tightly. Just a look at them and you would know that they were blood related - the way they walked was similar.Anyway, he was no longer wearing jogging pants. Before we finally went here we also reserv
"Thank you, Sydney," said the one in front of me. Because of the bonfire, his eyes seemed to be on fire as well. You could even mirror yourself through those orbs. "I will be back. I will be back safe. I am not going to hurt myself."I knew. Because of Kyra, you would have even more reason to be safe forever. We both knew we could not afford to see Kyra struggling, so that was enough reason for both of us to make sure we were safe."Are you cold already? Do you want us to go inside?" he asked me."You? Do you want to?""Yeah, so that Kyra can lie down properly."I laughed and immediately stood up. We entered the house, and I helped him put Kyra to bed. Even though I was just helping, I could already feel the weight of my daughter."I'm leaving--"I stopped him."Just sleep here. It's okay with me."He was shocked. He looked at me with indescribable amazement in his eyes. "All right. But I will just sleep on the sofa so y
"You are really sweet, Dad! Mama must have sweetly answered you so you prepared all of these!" Kyra shouted happily at Neil. Neil, on the other hand, still looked serious, who also seemed to just chose to smile even though the truth was, just like me, he also felt a lot of embarrassment right now.Soon, the cold wind blew, and we all sat down to begin what had to begin."Kyra, darling, don't be surprised by what we are going to say but ..." Neil took a deep breath, and in the depth of it, I almost drowned. "I'm doing this for you, for your future and for your mommy's. I can't just be here forever and happy without worrying about of our business."Kyra fell silent. Her smile faded. She turned to me, and I averted my eyes. I had tears in my eyes now, and I did not want them to see me being emotional.Maybe it was just because I was so tired. Tomorrow, I would definitely okay again."Are you leaving?" My daughter's voice was full of fear. I also rarel
I almost kissed him. I meant, I almost kissed him! Marcus' appearance was really right so that Neil wouldn't think that only Azucalda would soften my heart and push me to kiss him. Goodness, I still had to control myself. It was not because I was happy with what he said that I would tolerate it. You were indeed a great fool, self."Oh, why did you two stop? Go on with what you were supposed to do and I will just quietly watch it." And as expected, Marcus never left us again. He would really use what he saw to make me die of nervousness. "It's a pity that Kyra did not see you almost kissing. I hope I was able to take a picture too!"Neil picked up some sand and threw it towards my cousin's face. I also wanted to keep laughing at him because his cheeks were red like a ripe tomato."Jerk! Get out of here! You have a business problem so prioritize that over messing with us here!" I told him. Really, right? His business was also in danger so that was what he should f