Flashback
What really was the reason why I was becoming like this -- disguising as a woman and as a dancer, a sexy dancer to be exact?"You have just made the right thing," I whispered to myself for me to calm down. Majority of me wanted to step backward and do not continue my plan. But I shook my head at the end. I should do this.I should do this because in this way you would feel relieved. This was you want, right? You wanted to test Neil's love for you? So what are you waiting for? Never hesitate because what you are doing now is for your own sake.Fortunately, I knew someone who's a manager in a bar. We were not that close,NeilTo say that I was disappointed and hurt would be an understatement. I wanted to create a chaos because someone special to me had just fool me. She made me felt like a dork for blaming myself again and again before by the fact that I was in love with two women. And then I had just heard her story. All the reason why she hid her identity and became a dancer in a bar I was usually stayed at.Blaming her crossed in my mind -- of course you could not blame me if I thought this way because she had just victimize me. I felt abandoned, Especially now that I had found out Brecken, my said to be private investigator, fooled me as what Sydney did.But funny how I just chose to calm myself down. Regardless of all the pain I was feeling, the satisfying feeling overflowed over anything. The feeling was so nice to hug. Instead of shouting, I calmed down. Instead of blaming, I just listened -- fuck, was I belonged in her charm or wha
Days had passed, and so I needed to face the day that I must control myself not to collapse in everyone's front. And today was that day. Even though I wanted to just run and escape from my faith, I still could not because regardless I was not part of the council anymore, I was still the daughter of my parents' company; I was still the heiress no matter what.And now, before we proceeded to the hotel that Neil specially picked for the negotiation event, we needed to have a brief counseling to talk about some matter. Daniel was here, he's beside me -- Neil forbid him to, but I just requested a favor. Neil radiated smart vibes, and I wanted to get light energy from him."Are you okay?" my friend asked me by whispering since Neil was presenting something in front. In this place, only the three of us knew the real situation, that after this event, the video would be posted and everything would be completely sucked up. I asked Neil earlier, actually, and I asked him why he n
In just a blink, Neil was already in the stage holding a microphone. He's standing in a beautiful posture and one look at him you would realize how dangerous he was. Using my phone, I also took some photos of him. I was used to do this, anyway, when he still could remember me. Many also did the same thing. Well, that was Neil, he caught attention without doing something. I even saw someone, a woman to be exact, who giggled as my husband looked at her direction -- that's how he affected people. He's like a curse, a very beautiful curse, and everyone would be willing to be a victim."In behalf of my team, I wanna say my gratitude for standing in here to face such important people in this industry," I heard him again. And then, he mentioned mom's name and the some names I knew that were part in our company. "And of course, special thanks to the one who stole lots of pictures of me earlier, Sydney Klein, how's my pictures?"Cameras immediately turned at me and my nose just
When morning came, I had no appetite to even take a bath -- all I wanted was to stay in my bed for twenty four hours and just feel nothing. Yeah, I wished to be dead even for one day. And then I would just wake up feeling so relieved and healed a later on.Breaking news : Neil Sandoval is said to be currently dating a well-known model.That's what welcomed me the moment I turned on the small tv. I was about to turn it off when a video had played -- it was the one I saw in the event yesterday. Feeling my chest contracting, I closed my eyes, hoping all my problems were just a dream. This could not be. I was expecting my video with Neil to be shown out, not Neil's whereby he's kissing Feli.From Daniel:I am coming in there. I buy lots of foods for you. I wanna discuss with you about Marcus.Marcus.Speaking of that evil man, I was certain he's the reason behind all these pro
It was somehow a great activity, I guessed. I thought Mom and Felicia would ruin my day but they did not. Well, I still could not trust them since the day had not ended yet and so they still had time to bother me.So, we finished the activity with our smiling faces. Me and Neil actually did have fun in enjoying the calmness of water, because we ended up talking about life, causing me to know his perspective, and I had just realized on how deep it was. He's not drunk yet he seemed like one because he's very exposed in telling me his voice.At the same time, my system was being poisoned by his eyes, making me to tell my side too, also causing him to hear and feel how painful it was.Mom and Felia totally enjoyed the water and that was probably the reason why they forgot to annoy us."I have committed a sin," I heard his statement again. That was what he said to me hours ago. And yet, it was already hours ago but it still sounded so fresh, the regrets and ac
Luckily, I managed to speak so that I could make him believe that he was disturbing me even though he really was not, I even wanted to hear his voice until I drifted off into sleep. I hanged up first the call that night, wanting him to stop me but since he did not at all, I just ended our call. I slept with a broken heart -- well, it wasn't new to me anymore.When I woke up, I realized that I just did so late, since the clock read ten o'clock in the morning! And then, I remembered my conversation with that evil Marcus!'I do not wait, Sydney. I am lazy'. I still could remember his favorite line. He did not wait. He instantly got tired, and so without thinking so long, I went to the bathroom and bombarded myself with lots of soap. Damn!I chose my favorite white t-shirt and wore it. I partnered it with a faded jeans. To make a disguise as what I had planning to do days ago, I found my shades inside my small drawer. Feeling contented of my appearance while s
I came back to my apartment with my heart still aching so hard, memories after memories happened minutes ago between me and mom still dancing in my head. I wished to just forget since my mother was also like wishing the same way, but I just could not because I was not the only one who's involved in here, dad was also included in here.I thought he had passed away in this world without commiting such a big mistake. Actually, before, if you ask me me about cheating, my father would be surely not pop up in my head because I had known him well -- he would never do such thing that would ruin my future."Stop being a dramatic woman, you dumb. I do not have any idea who said that to you but pasts are pasts, Sydney. Do not cage yourself," I heard mom again. If it was easy for her to move on, please do not ever count me in. Actually, I could still remember that after mom said that, Feli revealed herself."You bitch!" That was much I said in too much irritation. Although
Lies after lies had been said by that damn mouth of hers. Only fool people would only surely trust her words. Even the reporters seemed to be addicted by her answers. I chuckled again. Why was she like that? I was the wife and I never said that to anyone -- I kept that as my deepest secret -- and she was just an intruder yet liked to say things that were very imposible to happen."I know you are craving. And you just do not like to see me that's why I just ordered online for you," that was the message pasted in the box of foods. At the bottom of it, Daniel's name was being highlighted. I was planning to be back at being a dancer again, and so eating foods high of calories would be not really good in my health. I should maintain my body because this was one of my assets.And yeah, withdrawing from any of my old cards never flashed in my mind again, because through those things, she would know how much I spent in a specific week or month. That's why I wanted to prove to