It was somehow a great activity, I guessed. I thought Mom and Felicia would ruin my day but they did not. Well, I still could not trust them since the day had not ended yet and so they still had time to bother me.
So, we finished the activity with our smiling faces. Me and Neil actually did have fun in enjoying the calmness of water, because we ended up talking about life, causing me to know his perspective, and I had just realized on how deep it was. He's not drunk yet he seemed like one because he's very exposed in telling me his voice.
At the same time, my system was being poisoned by his eyes, making me to tell my side too, also causing him to hear and feel how painful it was.
Mom and Felia totally enjoyed the water and that was probably the reason why they forgot to annoy us.
"I have committed a sin," I heard his statement again. That was what he said to me hours ago. And yet, it was already hours ago but it still sounded so fresh, the regrets and ac
Luckily, I managed to speak so that I could make him believe that he was disturbing me even though he really was not, I even wanted to hear his voice until I drifted off into sleep. I hanged up first the call that night, wanting him to stop me but since he did not at all, I just ended our call. I slept with a broken heart -- well, it wasn't new to me anymore.When I woke up, I realized that I just did so late, since the clock read ten o'clock in the morning! And then, I remembered my conversation with that evil Marcus!'I do not wait, Sydney. I am lazy'. I still could remember his favorite line. He did not wait. He instantly got tired, and so without thinking so long, I went to the bathroom and bombarded myself with lots of soap. Damn!I chose my favorite white t-shirt and wore it. I partnered it with a faded jeans. To make a disguise as what I had planning to do days ago, I found my shades inside my small drawer. Feeling contented of my appearance while s
I came back to my apartment with my heart still aching so hard, memories after memories happened minutes ago between me and mom still dancing in my head. I wished to just forget since my mother was also like wishing the same way, but I just could not because I was not the only one who's involved in here, dad was also included in here.I thought he had passed away in this world without commiting such a big mistake. Actually, before, if you ask me me about cheating, my father would be surely not pop up in my head because I had known him well -- he would never do such thing that would ruin my future."Stop being a dramatic woman, you dumb. I do not have any idea who said that to you but pasts are pasts, Sydney. Do not cage yourself," I heard mom again. If it was easy for her to move on, please do not ever count me in. Actually, I could still remember that after mom said that, Feli revealed herself."You bitch!" That was much I said in too much irritation. Although
Lies after lies had been said by that damn mouth of hers. Only fool people would only surely trust her words. Even the reporters seemed to be addicted by her answers. I chuckled again. Why was she like that? I was the wife and I never said that to anyone -- I kept that as my deepest secret -- and she was just an intruder yet liked to say things that were very imposible to happen."I know you are craving. And you just do not like to see me that's why I just ordered online for you," that was the message pasted in the box of foods. At the bottom of it, Daniel's name was being highlighted. I was planning to be back at being a dancer again, and so eating foods high of calories would be not really good in my health. I should maintain my body because this was one of my assets.And yeah, withdrawing from any of my old cards never flashed in my mind again, because through those things, she would know how much I spent in a specific week or month. That's why I wanted to prove to
Sadly, one look at my back and I did not see my husband's presence again, creating a certain confusion within my system."Be thankful that I need to go back home right now or else I will really take you to my bed," I heard the man again, but my attention was not in his words. Where did Neil go? I was sure he was staring at me out of anger but now he's nowhere to be found already!"Sydney, congratulations! I don't know if I need to say this but are you even real? You just hit thousands of customers for this night!" My manager approached me. Hiding my disappointment for not seeing a particular person, I gave my manager a heart warming smile, thanking her. "Anyway, you have just earned lots of income. I will transfer it to your bank.""You can give me the cash, directly," I said, my attention was still shaken."Okay. That's noted. All right, I am planning to go home now. You can actually choose to sleep
It's early in the morning as I thought I did not have anything to do but to take a rest because I have had just worked yesterday as a dancer. Still, I felt so tired and I gussed I could not take to work during day and night times. Yesterday, I could say that I had a very awkward moment as I did my job. Just imagine a wife wearing an exposed dress swaying her hips in front of a man who happened to be not only her solid customer but also her great and handsome husband.My manager kept talking about professionalism and every dancer in her club knew the essence of that word.I looked at my phone again, registering what I had seen seconds ago, confirming something. And I was right; the message was for me since I could see my name being placed before the content.I did not mind anymore the one who texted me, because what's important was the message he/she texted me. I sighed again. Who the fuck made the idea of me joining in a reality show and for God's sake it was li
To say that I was speechless would be really an understatement. My heart, that's now rapidly pounding, wanted to tell the truth -- thatI was engaged, that Neil and I were together. Although I decided to shut up because I was afraid that I might also reveal Neil forgetting me. For some reason, I found the scenario of me revealing the truth not favorable on my end for everyone might pity me. Everyone might hate me more. Everyone might think I was the unluckiest woman in the whole world. And I never liked that to happen."We're good. Neil and I are good friends. The news about us having a secret relationship are not true." I ate the lump in my throat, my system drastically waiting for this show to end so that I would be safe from all dangerous questions. "We're kind of childhood friends, and that relationship of ours remain still."I was not sure if I sounded so plausible or not, all I knew was that the show was finally ending so me and F
"You can say no to me, Sydney, and I will just inform Neil,"my manager again, waking me up from my senses. "Actually, he says that's the decision is all yours. If you want to entertain him, then it is totally okay with him; if not, it's still okay for him."At the end, I said 'no'. Call me childish or what for being unprofessional but I really was not ready to dance in his front. I mean, I used to dance with him especially when we were doing love before but our today's situation was kinda different before."Okay, I will just inform him." My manager smiled at me to obviously calm me down, and she went gone, so I was left staring at my own reflection in the mirror.Alright, I whispered to myself, I did the right thing.Seconds later, I forced myself to be okay for me to have a better performance, and now I was currently performing in front of my customers, pleasing them using my sexy dance moves. What confused me the most was that I could not find Nei
Minutes had passed, and I did not have any plan go back to my own apartment because I could not leave Neil being so wasted. Yes, he's already sleeping -- that his body was finally resting -- although parts me wanted to end this night together with him."I love you, Neil," I whispered in my weak voice, did not mind if he would hear me or not. The most important thing was that here I was staring at the most beautiful painting I had ever seen in my entire life. "I know you still can't remember me but I love you to the core.""I like you too," I was surprised as I heard him talking. I thought he's fuly awake, but when his eyes still were closed, I sighed, waiting for his upcoming words. "I like you regardless I can't remember you. You... You are like my moon... I mean... You're so beautiful. And I used to adore you from afar."I covered my mouth to suppressed my sobs. I hugged Neil's torso and felt his hot chest. I did not feel him throwing back the hugs I sent but
Mom and I were finally okay. She asked for my forgiveness even though I never loathed her. For all the bad things she had done to me, I still loved her. Nothing could change that fact."What is the name of this place once again, Mom?" Kyra asked curiously as she roamed her eyes around the place.A smile touched my lips. "Azucalda."We were safe to live not worrying about anything. Ambrosia's family were now settled in jail. Daniel, also, already found his life, the woman who would change the fake romantic love he felt towards me. "This is where we belong, Kyra. Be comfortable in this place, because starting from now, we will leave here, we will start new memories," I hugged her."When Dad will come back?" she asked me out of the blue. "I mean, we have been already waiting for years! Last night, Dad and I talked, but since this morning, he never texted me anymore. I am worrying, Mom! What if he alread
"If I could just turn back the time."I was used to say that statement to myself. Days and years without Sydney, I realized life was hard without her. Though I had no choice, I could not get her back because I had no right. I hurt her. I should face the consequences of my actions."Sydney has a daughter, Auntie. And she is now currently studying. She is an academic achiever," Marcus informed me. Marcus was one of my enemy before even though we were blood related, but as time gone by, we became close and decided to help each other."I have a granddaughter, then..." I whispered using my weak voice. That meant that Sydney was pregnant during the moments she was not in this country. That meant she lived without my guide. That meant she raised my grandaughter alone. "I have remembered what you told me before. You told me she has a business in this country, right?"He nodded. "She owns a grocery."&
We still lived in the same house, and I witnessed how they both loved each other. But I never liked that."Auntie Trinidad, I successfully closed the deal," Neil announced to me. To my delight, I smiled. "Thanks to Sydney, though. He pushed me to work hard."I heard a lot of news from work, especially from company employees. Because Sydney and Neil worked often at the same time... they also went home together so that caused surprise to others."I know they are both married," Marcus threatened me. This businessman had never really changed. Still ruthless. There was no sanctification. Even so, I still treated him well because we were just relatives. I know he was not gay to spread the word."Just do not let them know." I got up. I would have planned to build a boutique. Because since I was a child, that was really what I wanted to have. Now that Neil was taking care of the company, maybe
"Starting today, you are the only one I will love. Expect me to love you every day."I closed my eyes when Zimon, my husband, gently gave his tender kisses to me. To this day, I still could not believe it. We were married. We were officially legal.Our family welcomed us as well. Nothing could stop us from being together. We would also be able to form our dreams together, and one of them was having a child, or if possible ‘children’. We even wanted a girl to be our first child. But what the Lord gave us, we would wholeheartedly accept it."Zimon, here is your lunchbox. Please, do not stay up too late at work. I know you want to give us a very good future but we are already rich. I am not proud of our living condition, but I just hope you learn how to rest, okay?"That was really what I kelt reminding him of. Health was important so I wanted him to take care of himself. We would have a chi
How many times had I tried to love my child as much as many mothers like me love. But even so, I still could not bear to look at her without remembering what his Dad did to me and how he hurt me until I was exhausted.I could say that me giving her birth was the most important event in my life, but like I said, I could not... I could not afford to love her, because whenever I smiled at her, I felt like I just forgave her Dad right away. And for me, that shoul not have happened. No one could stop me...I did not know if my own child hated me. If she wanted to hate me until she voluntarily gave up, go on! I did not care. Even if it was bad in the eyes of others, I would do what I thought was good for me, for the comfort of my chest."Is the average yourself from studying? How dare you smile at me while you were showing this shit to me? How many times have I told you that this grade is not enough for me? You are stupid, really. I am still wondering why you ev
When we were at the venue, we looked around. Until the woman who invited us to be in here acknowledged us with a big smile. I immediately recognized her because of the sweetness of her smile. She talked to us and the other guests. I could say the event was really social and prepared for elites because you could just see from the guests' gowns that they were really expensive. Not to mention that Neil Sandoval was admired by many."Hi, there is still an empty table near the long table. Other guests also want to meet you. Because you know how much everyone admires you, Neil Sandoval," the woman praised him again.Neil was really grabbing attention now, not only because he was handsome in what he was wearing, but also because he looked like the girl he was holding so tightly. Just a look at them and you would know that they were blood related - the way they walked was similar.Anyway, he was no longer wearing jogging pants. Before we finally went here we also reserv
"Thank you, Sydney," said the one in front of me. Because of the bonfire, his eyes seemed to be on fire as well. You could even mirror yourself through those orbs. "I will be back. I will be back safe. I am not going to hurt myself."I knew. Because of Kyra, you would have even more reason to be safe forever. We both knew we could not afford to see Kyra struggling, so that was enough reason for both of us to make sure we were safe."Are you cold already? Do you want us to go inside?" he asked me."You? Do you want to?""Yeah, so that Kyra can lie down properly."I laughed and immediately stood up. We entered the house, and I helped him put Kyra to bed. Even though I was just helping, I could already feel the weight of my daughter."I'm leaving--"I stopped him."Just sleep here. It's okay with me."He was shocked. He looked at me with indescribable amazement in his eyes. "All right. But I will just sleep on the sofa so y
"You are really sweet, Dad! Mama must have sweetly answered you so you prepared all of these!" Kyra shouted happily at Neil. Neil, on the other hand, still looked serious, who also seemed to just chose to smile even though the truth was, just like me, he also felt a lot of embarrassment right now.Soon, the cold wind blew, and we all sat down to begin what had to begin."Kyra, darling, don't be surprised by what we are going to say but ..." Neil took a deep breath, and in the depth of it, I almost drowned. "I'm doing this for you, for your future and for your mommy's. I can't just be here forever and happy without worrying about of our business."Kyra fell silent. Her smile faded. She turned to me, and I averted my eyes. I had tears in my eyes now, and I did not want them to see me being emotional.Maybe it was just because I was so tired. Tomorrow, I would definitely okay again."Are you leaving?" My daughter's voice was full of fear. I also rarel
I almost kissed him. I meant, I almost kissed him! Marcus' appearance was really right so that Neil wouldn't think that only Azucalda would soften my heart and push me to kiss him. Goodness, I still had to control myself. It was not because I was happy with what he said that I would tolerate it. You were indeed a great fool, self."Oh, why did you two stop? Go on with what you were supposed to do and I will just quietly watch it." And as expected, Marcus never left us again. He would really use what he saw to make me die of nervousness. "It's a pity that Kyra did not see you almost kissing. I hope I was able to take a picture too!"Neil picked up some sand and threw it towards my cousin's face. I also wanted to keep laughing at him because his cheeks were red like a ripe tomato."Jerk! Get out of here! You have a business problem so prioritize that over messing with us here!" I told him. Really, right? His business was also in danger so that was what he should f