To say that I was speechless would be really an understatement. My heart, that's now rapidly pounding, wanted to tell the truth -- that I was engaged, that Neil and I were together. Although I decided to shut up because I was afraid that I might also reveal Neil forgetting me. For some reason, I found the scenario of me revealing the truth not favorable on my end for everyone might pity me. Everyone might hate me more. Everyone might think I was the unluckiest woman in the whole world. And I never liked that to happen.
"We're good. Neil and I are good friends. The news about us having a secret relationship are not true." I ate the lump in my throat, my system drastically waiting for this show to end so that I would be safe from all dangerous questions. "We're kind of childhood friends, and that relationship of ours remain still."
I was not sure if I sounded so plausible or not, all I knew was that the show was finally ending so me and F
"You can say no to me, Sydney, and I will just inform Neil,"my manager again, waking me up from my senses. "Actually, he says that's the decision is all yours. If you want to entertain him, then it is totally okay with him; if not, it's still okay for him."At the end, I said 'no'. Call me childish or what for being unprofessional but I really was not ready to dance in his front. I mean, I used to dance with him especially when we were doing love before but our today's situation was kinda different before."Okay, I will just inform him." My manager smiled at me to obviously calm me down, and she went gone, so I was left staring at my own reflection in the mirror.Alright, I whispered to myself, I did the right thing.Seconds later, I forced myself to be okay for me to have a better performance, and now I was currently performing in front of my customers, pleasing them using my sexy dance moves. What confused me the most was that I could not find Nei
Minutes had passed, and I did not have any plan go back to my own apartment because I could not leave Neil being so wasted. Yes, he's already sleeping -- that his body was finally resting -- although parts me wanted to end this night together with him."I love you, Neil," I whispered in my weak voice, did not mind if he would hear me or not. The most important thing was that here I was staring at the most beautiful painting I had ever seen in my entire life. "I know you still can't remember me but I love you to the core.""I like you too," I was surprised as I heard him talking. I thought he's fuly awake, but when his eyes still were closed, I sighed, waiting for his upcoming words. "I like you regardless I can't remember you. You... You are like my moon... I mean... You're so beautiful. And I used to adore you from afar."I covered my mouth to suppressed my sobs. I hugged Neil's torso and felt his hot chest. I did not feel him throwing back the hugs I sent but
"I just want to invite you, Neil. I mean, I have been living abroad and it's been years since I first saw you. Well, it's your decision, I do not want to force you, although you are the most special guest in my birthday party."That's what I read as I opened my laptop. It came from Felicia, who happened to be an acquaintance because she's close to Auntie Trinidad. To know that her birthday was coming was already expected but to know that she wanted me to be in her celebration made me confused.I was not that innocent not to know that she liked me more than she should. Yes, she knew nothing about my relationship with Sydney, although she must stop liking me because for God's sake I had been showing lots of signs that I didn't not want her around.From Auntie Trinidad:Stop working for a while. Go on and join in Felicia's celebration tomorrow.Damn.They were really friends.I looked at the woman beside me whose hair covering her beautifu
I looked at her as she bowed down her head again, obviously trying to satisfy myself with her uncountable sorries. Although, I was not wanting her to apologize to me, I was just wishing her to directly confess to Sydney about what she did to me, to us, about her trying to ruin my relationship with Sydney.The most painful part was that Sydney thought the best from this Felicia. She idolized this girl without knowing that she's liking a snake. I was not sure enough if Sydney would believe me in saying the truth that's why I wanted Felicia to do her responsibility for the actions she had done."You're in my territory, Felicia. Do not try my patience," I warned her again because what I said was the truth. She's currently steeping in my territory. If it's not just because of Auntie Trinidad, she would not have any chance to come in here. I personally did not like to accept any visitors and so this woman, including all her damn actions, was irrit
Today was another day to be conquered. I was currently gawking at Neil who's eating his breakfast. Beside me was Mom who's observing Neil's behavior. Judging by his vibes today, I could say that he's somehow okay. Although I noticed that he was usually pinching the gap between his two eyes as if he was feeling dizzy. I did not want to ask him directly though because Mom might freak out again. She did already minutes ago that was I why I was also thankful that she was kinda calmed down a bit now."Are you not going to finish your foods? You only have eaten small amount of food," Neil told me, worrying. "Come on, Sydney. Eat more.""I am on diet," I said the truth, stoping myself from looking at him because I was afraid that he would see in my eyes how broken I was. My wish as for now was to show to him how I wanted to see him totally healed. "Mom, if you want to cook for more later, foods on the refrigerator really are available," I reminded Mom again incase she's feeli
Neil and I decided to give each other a little break, and that meant of me going back to my own room temporarily to think on my own. As I did so, a news had been updated through the television. All I could feel was the relief the news caused me because it's all about my manager being arrested for hiding illegal drugs.Some of her men even admitted that they were just being forced to work because they were threatened. Soon as I fell asleep, the idea of Neil rescuing me could not still get off my mind to the point that it also appeared on my dream."Maybe it's now time to visit him," I whispered to myself. I put a light make-up on my face so that I would be gonna look more presentable. I got my phone and walked towards his room."How are you feeling now?" he greeted me with a wide smile. We're now here in a kitchen and he was preparing something. I smelled the scent his cooking skills was creating, making me adore him for more."I am good. Although, parts o
"Just call me immediately if you need something from me," Daniel reminded me as he stopped the car's machine. I could feel that he did not want to see me walking away, but I should not really stay in here for two reasons.1. I was so excited to meet Neil as of right now as if we had not meet for a decade.2. I should never stay in Daniel's side because he might assume some things again."Okay, Daniel. Thanks for the drive. Anyway, take care, okay? If something urgent happens, feel free to call me as well, okay?"He let out a desperate sigh, seemingly controlling himself from talking about his feelings over me. "You are welcome, Sydney. Take care, too. Uhmm, just expect my message at nights. Though you do not need to reply. Well... if you want to, then that's still nice."I flashed my smile and got myself out of the car. Walking along the pathway, I wondered why I saw digits in my bank account earlier as I withdrew. I did believe that my mind was sh
I was not sure where was my Mom going, all I knew was that she left us soon as Neil came closer to me to say something. Me being so paranoid waited for him to explain. If this was all about Felicia again, then what's the problem?"It's hard to say this but you really need to know this thing," I heard him again. His voice weak as if he could collapse in any moment. "Sydney, I need your understanding this time. But, if you're not agreeing with your mom's decision, then that is still okay for me.""Tell me what is it," I said, popping the 't'."Felicia is now residing in the hospital."Silence fell. And soon as I did not answer, he spoke up again, "I know you two are not in good terms that's why I rejected your Mom's demand of me taking care of that woman. And if you are asking why your Mom encouraged me is that Felicia requested it."My lips were in a grim line as I nodded my head.