“Nahihibang ka na ba, Roselle? Ano namang pumasok sa isip mo at sinabi mo iyan?!” tanong ng Mama.
“Walang nangyaring kahit ano samin ni Alondra,” may kahinaan na sabi ni Tito Lucio sa asawa. Bumuntonghininga si Ma'am Roselle. Maging ako ay nakaluwag sa paghinga dahil sa sinabi ni Tito Lucio. Akala ko ay kung ano na.
“I am not Dad's son, Sandra. Kung iniisip mong baka magkapatid tayo, ay hindi.” Napatalon ako nang may bumulong at pumulupot na kamay sa aking baywang. Nagulat ako sa presensya ni River at lalo na sa kaniyang sinabi. “Mom and Dad's marriage is fixed by my grandfather. May boyfriend noon si Mom at noong ikasal sila ni Dad, nalamang buntis si Mom at sa akin. My dad wanted me to become a Costales dahil marupok siya at minahal ang asawa.” Napangisi siya habang nagkukwento.
Doon ko siya hinarap gamit ang gulat na mga mata. I didn't know that! Bakit ngayon ko lang nalaman? Fuck.
“W-What? What abo
“You two... are engaged?” tanong ni Lionel. Gulat ang mata niya at nakatingin sa akin. I don't know if it's just me or the pain in his eyes is really evident.“And... you’ve married?” nakangiting tanong ko at itinuro silang dalawa. Hindi ko akalain. Hindi ko alam na kasal silang dalawa! But why the hell is Lionel telling me that he likes me if he's married to CK?And CK is okay with that?! Oh my goodness, ayoko nang manghimasok pa sa kanila.“You know each other?” River asked. Ngumiti ako at tumango sa kaniya. I pointed at Lionel before talking. “He's my batchmate in the Cadet Pilot Program. We're workmates... tapos si CK ay aircraft mechanic din ng airlines,” I said.Tumango tango si River at tumingin sa kapatid. Nakatitig sa akin si Lionel kung kaya't muli akong napasulyap kay River na ngayon ay kunot noong nakatingin kay Lionel. Surely, River can already sense something.Napatingin ako kay CK
“I like you,” I said while smiling at Estelle. She smiled back at me sweetly, pero hindi tumagal ang titig ko sa kaniya at bumaba sa katawan niya. I honestly don’t like her romantically, but I’m bored. Subukan ko kayang mag-girlfriend? Maganda naman si Estelle, eh. Puwede na.“Do you want to court me?” she asked.“Of course,” I confirmed and smirked wider. She looks sophisticated. Kung papasa ako sa standards nito ay may chance siguro ako sa babaeng gusto ko. “Then you should lift your grades higher.” Napatigil ako sa pagtitig at nag-angat ng tingin sa kaniya. My brows raised at what she said.I should what?“What?” tanong ko muli.“You're smart, River. Hindi mo lang sineseryoso kaya't babagsakin ka ngayong college,” Estelle said. I groaned at her. Talaga bang sinabi niya iyon sa harap ko?! Unbelievab
I believe in River. I believe in him and on what he says. Hindi mapapantayan ng kahit ano mang sabi-sabi ang ipinakita at ipinaramdam niya sakin.“I'm sorry, Darling... hindi ko kaagad sinabi sayo,” River said.“You forgave me for leaving you and still loved me even after what happened. How can I stay angry at you? Mas malaking kasalanan ang ginawa ko sa iyo... iniwan kita,” I said softly.“I love you... I've loved you more because of your thoughts,” he said.Ngumuso ako nang may maalala. Lumayo ako at sinamaan siya ng tingin. His eyes widened and stared at me again.“You liked Estelle before?” tanong ko “Kailan? Ang bilis mong mag move on, ah?!” says the girl who got engaged a few weeks after calling off her last engagementHalos mapanguso ako dahil sa naisip. Nilingon ko siya muli at nakita ang nakangising pagmumukha niya. Inirapan ko siya at itinulak subalit muli niyang hinila an
Lionel glared at CK for a few seconds before heaving a sigh. Sumulyap si Lionel sa akin at saka bumuntonghininga bago tumango tango. It seems like he already came to his senses.Noon lang lumuwag ang paghinga ko. Parang sa wakas ay naliwanagan din siya sa mga naiisip niya.“I understand,” he said huskily. Napangiti ako at nagbaba ng tingin. I thought everything turned out fine, pero bigla na lang lumapit si Lionel upang halikan ako.He quickly and smoothly locked his lips into mine that made me gasp. Napakabilis ng pangyayari na bago ko pa siya maitulak papalayo ay may humila na sa akin.“What the fuck are you doing?!” River pulled me to go behind him. Kinwelyuhan niya si Lionel kaya't kaagad kong hinawakan ang braso niya.“Kuya River!” Pumagitna rin si CK upang pigilan si River at ganoon din ang aking ginawa.“River, tama na,” I said and tried to tame him. Humigpit ang hawak niya sa aking pala
“There's no chance of saying no to me, Darling. There's no chance,” River said before he slid the ring on my finger.Nakangiti ko iyong tinitigan bago siya muling hinarap. Then, he smiled and kissed me deeply again.It was one of the happiest day of my life. Parang kahit ilang araw na ang lumipas ay sariwa pa rin sa akin gang nangyari at hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala.The following days were filled with happiness. And like what River wants, sa condo niya ako nanatili. Vincent granted me the leave that River requested. Natapos nga ang kontrata namin ni River na narito lang ako sa condo niya.My family usually visits me here. Si River naman ay diretso ang uwi rito pagkakatapos ng trabaho. On Sundays naman, he's here for the entire day with me.“Ang ganda ng singsing mong inggrata ka! Milyon siguro ang halaga niyan!” sabi ni Vincent nang bumisita siya rito. Hawak niya ang aking kamay at tinititigan iyong mabuti.“N
“You don't have to move... I'll cook our breakfast. Stay here, alright?” bilin ni River habang nakaupo sa gilid ng kama.I shook my head and hugged him tighter. Kumalam na ang aking sikmura at alam kong ramdam niya iyon, but I don't want him to leave. I still want to cuddle.“But, darling, you're already hungry. Magugutom din ang anak natin,” he said. His bedroom voice is like music to my ears.Malungkot man ay tumango na ako at hinayaan siyang tumayo.He sat down and put his boxers on. Ngumisi ako at humagikhik bago sumampa sa likuran niya.“What are you doing?” natatawang tanong niya.“I'll come with you,” I whispered and snaked my arms around his neck.My naked chest was pressing at his back. He was topless and only wearing his boxers.“Darling!” He groaned. Humagikhik lang ako at lalong hinigpitan ang yakap sa kaniya.“I love you,” I said cutely.
“I'm sorry, we have to go,” sambit ni River at saka ako hinila upang makalayo sa mga interviewer. Bago pa man kami makalapit ay marahas akong hinila ni Ma'am Roselle kaya't napabitaw ako kay River.“Mom!” sigaw ni River at sumunod samin. Ma'am Roselle took me inside of their house at sa pakiramdam ko ay galit siya.“Ma'am Roselle,” I called. Nang makarating sa loob ay saka niya ako hinarap at sinampal.“Mom, stop it!”“Roselle!”I heard River and Tito Lucio shouted before River enveloped me with a hug. Isinubsob niya ako sa kaniyang dibdib na parang pinoprotektahan sa ano mang pwedeng gawin ng kaniyang ina.“What a scandal! Manloloko ka! You're still engaged with that Engineer, and yet, you're here... flirting with my son!” sigaw niya sakin.“Mom, it's not like that—!”“Not like that? Then what's this?! Pumayag na nga akong maging ma
Kagaya ng sinabi ko kay River ay nagpasya akong pumunta muna sa apartment ni Jeanne bago ako dumiretso sa bahay namin nina Mama. Paniguradong mag-aalala ang mga iyon at kailangan ko munang tanggalin ang bigat ng aking pakiramdam.“Sandra!” sigaw ni Jeanne pagbukas ng pinto at saka ako niyakap. “Alalang-alala kami ni bakla sa iyo! Dinumog ka ng media tapos ay kung ano-anong tinanong sayo! Kumusta ka? Ayos ka lang ba? Kapag nakita ko talaga ang hayop na Damien na iyon ay talagang sasapakin ko siya!" sunod-sunod na sabi ni Jeanne nang harapin ako.Bahagya ko siyang tinawanan at saka tumango. “Maayos lang ako, Jeanne. Don't worry,” I told her.“Anong sabi ni Costales? Nagalit ba siya sa iyo?” nag-aalalang tanong niya. I know River is not angry with me pero kahit ganoon ay gusto ko pa rin siyang puntahan at maghatid ng tanghalian para makausap siya. Pakiramdam ko ay nasasaktan siya rito.“River said that it'll be
“I'll stay here for a bit. Iuwi niyo na lang muna si Jordan. Susunduin ko na lang siya bago ako umuwi sa bahay,” sambit ko at inihiga ang natutulog na si Jordan sa backseat ng van kung nasaan si Aubree. “Alright. We'll go home already. Umuwi ka rin agad at magpahinga…” Dad said. Tumango ako at hinawakan ang pinto para isara. I closed the door and watched them go. Tahimik na ang lugar. The tent was still built, but the chairs were gone already. Bumuntonghininga ako at saka nilingon ang sasakyan ng taong alam kong kanina pa nanonood. “You can come near if you want to. Hindi kita bubugbugin ngayon,” I said after sitting in the grass in front of the grave, knowing that someone can hear me.
I woke up the next day, feeling more tired than usual. Rinig ko ang pagiging abala ng lahat sa labas kaya't tumayo na ako mula sa pagkakahiga.Napabaling ang aking tingin sa kabilang bahagi ng kama. My tears fell once again at the sight of it.“Dad,” I heard Jordan knocking on the door.Pinunasan ko ang aking mga luha at nilingon ang pinto. Jordan managed to open the door and ran immediately to hug me.“W-What's wrong, Jordan?” I asked him.Umiyak siya at mas humigpit ang yakap sa akin.“H-Have you had breakfast?” tanong ko sa kaniya. Umiling siya at narinig ko ang kaniyang hikbi habang nakayakap sa akin.
“You’re marrying Charlotte, and that’s final.” Napatanga ako sa sinabi ni Mom sa kabilang linya ng telepono. What the fuck?“Mom, I thought we’re on the same side? You promised me that we’ll convince Dad that I will never marry Cha!”Damn it. It’s been days since I went to Batanes with Cha. Pumayag akong pumunta rito, and even lied to my love that I have a business trip with Dad dahil nangako si Mom na tutulungan niya akong kausapin si Dad basta sumama muna ako pero…“I don’t like that girl, River! Kung ayaw mo siyang hiwalayan… ako ang maghihiwalay sa inyo.” Before I could even argue, ibinaba niya na ang telepono. This is frustrating!Pero hindi
She never really took me seriously at first. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero sa palagay ko ay dahil iyon sa lahat ng katarantaduhang nagawa ko noon.It felt like all of my sins were recorded, and she became my punishment.“I don’t believe you, River. I’m sorry, but you’re unbelievable.” I couldn’t remember how many times Sandra replied this statement to me every time I told her that I like her very much.Kalimitan ay dinadaan ko na lang talaga sa pagbibiro ng pamimilit o di kaya’y pagsuyo sa kaniya. But deep inside, it’s slowly hurting me. It’s like she never trusted me.Imagine? She even tried to turn me into a gay just so her family wouldn’t know about it!
I ran to the hallway quickly and quietly. I don't want to attend the philosophy class. It's boring.“Hey, River,” Alice greeted me nang malampasan ko siya sa hallway.I winked at her and she held my arms. But damn, this isn’t the time for flirting.“I'll catch up with you later at the party. Right now, I just need to run away from class,” I said and kissed her cheeks.“Alright, see you later,” she said.I smirked and continued running. Surely, the lecturer will catch me in no time kaya mas dapat ko pang bilisan ang takbo. Madaya naman kasi at foundation day tapos may klase siya sa amin.
“I'm sorry, the patient died due to the wound in her chest and internal bleeding. Her ribs are broken, and it affected her lungs. Kung nabuhay siya… she won't be able to walk. Her legs are fractured badly.”That’s what the doctor told us.I stood up slowly and noticed Kuya Angelo wiping his tears.I bit my lip. I remembered our youth. She was blooming like a flower, and her brother was already building fences so no man could touch her.I had that flower. But somehow… I failed to protect her.“Gusto kong makita ang anak ko… pupuntahan ko si Sandra,” Mama Alondra told Kuya Angelo.“Makikita rin natin si Sandra. Konting tiis la
“River! What the hell happened? What did that bastard do to Sandra?” salubong sa akin ni Lionel nang makarating ako sa kanila.Bumaba ako ng sasakyan at ngumiti sa kaniya. He looks so worried and behind him is his wife. Nakita ko ang galit at panggigigil sa kaniya. It seems like Alejandro wronged them as well.Subalit nang makita niya kung gaano ako kalugmok ay unti-unti niyang ikinalma ang sarili. Dapat lang niyang ikalma dahil pinapahanap ko na si Alejandro. Ang gusto ko munang tutukan sa ngayon ay ang aking asawa.When Lionel sensed my mood, wari ko ay naintindihan niya na agad ang nangyayari. M-Maybe he already has an idea.“I-Is the news… t-true?” tanong niya sa akin. Ramdam ko ang pag-aalinlangan sa boses niya.
Without any hesitation, nag u-turn ako kaagad at mas binilisan ang takbo ng aking sasakyan dahil sa sinabi sa akin ni Vincent. I’m not sure what it is pero kung mula sila sa tower control at hinahanap nila ako ay paniguradong may kinalaman ito kay Sandra!“C-Come quick.” Iyon ang huling sinabi ni Vincent bago ko narinig ang hikbi niya at pagpatay niya sa tawag.I was too excited to go back. Thinking that Sandra is already there excites me. Goodness. Sana ay naroon na siya dahil kung wala pa ring balita ay hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko! Masisiraan na yata ako ng ulo.Gustong-gusto ko nang bilisan ang takbo ng aking sasakyan at makarating doon kaagad.The sun is already shining. I haven't slept or eaten yet. Gusto ko lamang makita ang aking asawa. Mabut
The storm is still preventing us from searching the sky clearly. Wala kaming ideya kung anong aircraft ang ginamit ni Alejandro... o kung talaga bang ginamit niya iyon.“Why are you still awake? Hmm?” I asked Jordan when I visited him.“I can’t sleep properly. Have you eaten?” he asked.I smiled weakly and shook my head.“You should eat. If Mommy comes back, she'll be angry if she'll know that you didn't eat,” he said and held my hand.Nag-angat ako ng tingin nang makita sa likuran niya si Dad.“How is everything going?” Dad asked.“The authorities are helping us too. Sinisimu