When I looked at the time, it was around 11:45 p.m. The day of my anniversary has been nothing but one disappointing surprise after another. But tonight, it’s ending with a bang! The biggest surprising thing was yet to come. On my anniversary, I received a picture of a pregnancy test and a message that my husband's mistress was going to have his baby.
Olivia took the phone and read the text. “That whore! Don’t give her the satisfaction of responding. Don’t let her see you sweat. Deal with it on your own time! Wait until tomorrow, make her wait, and leave her wondering.
She was right. So I sat on the bed and removed my heels from my tired feet. 'What was I thinking? If he wants Susie, then he can have her! ' I burst into tears because I didn’t mean it. The mere thought of thinking about him with her broke me. I rocked back and forth, crying nonstop.
“Oh, Olivia, I don’t want to lose him. What should I do?”
“You are not going to let them get away with this! That’s what you are going to do.”
All kinds of questions raced through my head.
How long have those two been back together, right under my nose? I couldn't stop thinking about what I saw and how much it hurt. The more I thought and imagined Holland and Susie laughing about how he humiliated me tonight. I wasn’t going to give them that satisfaction. However, I wanted to run to him and take him away from there. But there was nothing I could do to stop him.
I broke down crying. It took everything for me to wait. So tonight, I openly devoted myself to weeping-deep, heart-wrenching sobs that begin to unleash on their own accord.
*****
Early that morning, I got up and got dressed. I hadn’t slept a wink, and I felt like I had cried out. Now, I was filled with pure anger and disgust.
I want my question answered. It’s time I go to the source myself! I drove for a long time to Susie's apartment, filming with anger.
Not acknowledging her text last night must have caught her off guard. When I showed up at six in the morning, I was pressing her doorbell nonstop.
That startled tramp woke up out of a deep sleep. She grabbed her robe. “Who in the world is at my door this morning?” she said in a groggy tone of voice.
“Alright, I’m coming. Who is it?” Susie wasn't sure she heard who was at her door correctly.
“Who is it again?”
“Amanza Halston.”
Her eyes popped fully open. “No! It was Amanza Halston! She has the nerve to come here this morning. What time is it? She wondered, trying to fix her hair and get the fog out of her brain.
It took her a second or two before she got the nerve to open her door as I laid on the doorbell. She finally opened the door, and I barged in right past Susie. As soon as I entered, I could see clear signs of Holland's presence. My heart sank. The smell of his cologne that I had brought him, and even his jacket and tie, was on the sofa.
"Excuse me! Don't you move another step! What do you think you are doing coming to my house this morning?”
“What did you think you did Yesterday when you ruined my yesterday? You sneaky, conniving wench! How did you know I would be there at Rochesters yeYesterday
“It's best if Yesterdayour husband!"
"I’m here, and I’m asking you!”
She said, "Yeah, yesterday is not only your day. We were also celebrating something special. You better wake up and smell the coffee. Holland only agreed to marry you because he was still at odds with me at the time, so he deliberately chose to marry you on the exact day I was born. Isn’t that special? He only married you on that day, hoping to make me jealous. ”
I was blown away but tried not to show it as I listened to her brag and talk.
“Now that I'm back, you must step out of this stolen relationship as quickly as possible. After all, it'll be good for our child to grow up in a loving environment with both their parents, " she said, showing me what was in her hand.
“Here is the pregnancy test, just in case you didn’t see the picture I sent to your text.”
I laughed in her face, and before I knew it,t I slapped he pregnancy test right out of her hand. “Get that out of my face! Holland was just the CEO of a start-up. You went through all this trouble for a married man. How pathetic! I never waste my time on second-hand trash. If you want, you can have it. Enjoy him.”
When I turned to walk toward the door to leave, Susie grabbed my arm hard and said with clenched teeth, “You'd better stick to your word.”
I had practiced women's self-defense for many years, effortlessly shaking her grip free from me and squeezing her wrist. “Don’t ever touch me again.”
Wait until I tell Holland you put your hands on me, and I’m pregnant!"
"Don't worry! I'll tell him myself! Wait! What!"
Susie tries to dial Holland's number.
Amanza snatches her phone! “Are you pregnant for my husband? Just tell the truth, and I’ll leave.”
Susie immediately snatches her phone back from Amanza.
“You can't come in here putting your hands on me and disrespect me this way!”
Susie shouts at Amanza. "Get out of my house! Before I call the cops! Get out! " Susie screams at the top of her lungs.
"Oh, I’m leaving and not because you told me to. I can’t stand to look at you any longer. I don’t know what Holland saw in you in the first place. You can have my leftovers! I don’t want him! "
“Enjoy him.”
******
When I arrived home, I was so upset. I was smart enough to know that this phase of my life was over. I couldn't ignore the fact that I heard she was having his baby. “I can’t do this anymore.”
I took an armload of clothes and put them into one of the suitcases lying on the bed. Jamming the material into my Gucci suitcases, uncaring of the wrinkles and years of careful packing habits, I added more, pushing the clothing and stuffing it in before zipping it back with short, jerky movements.
I promised myself I wasn't going to cry. Tears were useless and wouldn't help me now. Nothing would help but return to my life before this marriage. Like serrated blades, the memories of the past three years sliced into me and tore at my heart. "God, how naive I must have been."
I snorted, pushing back my hair that slid over my shoulder as I continued to pack. I closed the suitcase and rolled it to the living room, and that’s when I bumped into Holland, who came into the front door while exiting it. We said this simultaneously.
“We need to talk.”
“I want a divorce, Holland.”
Holland's POVOn the day of my anniversary, I left work excited. I had made it to that auction just in time to bid on the perfect pair of earrings. I saw them a few days ago, and they reminded me of my wife’s beautiful eyes. I just had to have them. But nothing went the way I had planned it that day. Once I won the bid to purchase this expensive jewelry, I knew reporters were at the event and would swarm around me to interview me. So, to disguise my wife's natural gift. I ended up bidding on the ruby necklace at the auction and won that bid, too. So, I knew that the bid would attract reporters to me. And Amanza would probably see me on television talking about the necklace. So, I never mentioned the earrings because I planned to surprise her with them as my anniversary gift. I got a phone call when I was getting ready to leave work. Susan said, “Hey Holland, what are you doing?” “Oh I’m on my way to meet Amanza at Rochesters, it’s our anniversary today.” “Did you forget what else
“You're joking, right?” Holland said. 'If you're doing this because you're jealous of Susie, you don't have to.' I ignored him and went to get the envelope. “Here, take it!”Amanza showed him the divorce papers.“Sign it.”"So you won't listen and let me explain myself?” "I don't want to hear it, Holland! Now sign the papers so I can get out of here!”“Listen! Susie isn’t who you think she is to me! Amanza, I never told you this, but she is my sister, and she is going through something, and I can’t just turn my back on her.”I sneered, “You have done a wonderful job taking care of her by knocking her up.”Holland looked puzzled, asking me. “What! How did you know about that?” That’s when the doorbell rang. Neither he nor I expected to see Holland’s mother, Kate. My mother-in-law is a nightmare, and shortly after that, another lousy dream follows behind her through the door, Susie. "Good evening, son." "Mom, Susan! What are you two doing here?" Holland asked, surprised. Kate ignor
“Amanza! Who's in the car? Your lover? Answer me!”I refused to answer as I stormed away from that house and the man I had lived with for three years. Holland kept calling my name: “Amanza! Amanza!” “Leave me alone! I’m not coming back! We have ended this charade of a marriage.""What?""Isn't this what you want so you can get back with Susie? I'm not stupid, Holland!" I continued to walk to the car swiftly. It was in the middle of winter, and it was cold outside. But I was too upset to feel anything. My blood was boiling, thinking about how he had slept with Susie and no doubt made passionate love to her the way he did with me and gotten her pregnant. When I had never shared myself with any other man except the man I had claimed as my husband. I wanted to have his child, but the constant badgering from his mother and his father made sly remarks about my style of dress and appearance. Living under the roof with someone who spoke up on my behalf or even tried to defend me was too st
“Man! It never fails. I always say the wrong thing when I'm with Amanza. How does she do it every time? She just brings out the darkest part of me.”I picked up the ring she had thrown on the lawn. See, I value my ring. In the heat of an argument, I didn't take off my wedding ring and throw it at her. I thought as I looked at my onyx and the gold wedding ring she gave me, which was still on my finger.I can’t believe that Collin was in that car with Amanza! Strange, how could that be? I know my eyes weren't playing tricks on me. It was him I saw through the half-open car window; I know I saw him. I wonder what he whispered in Amanza’s ear. Then he looked at me evilly as if he was angry. He glared at me, and I felt like he was threatening me! Some nerve! He's driving off with my wife and looking at me that way!For the first time, I felt aggression coming from him to me, as if he wanted to crush me. I had never seen that side of Collin, and he’s never acted that way toward me in the
I was worried about how my family would receive me, and it made me concerned, for the first month I had returned, wondering what everyone thought now that I was back home. I wouldn’t blame my family for their reactions. Since her broken marriage, especially with her father, Clinton. He didn't take my idea of marrying Holland too well. He knew Holland’s family and what he knew he didn’t like. But finally, I returned to the home where I grew up. I had missed the eight-bedroom, six-bath house and the many people here I had known since I was a child. What I missed the most was those early morning hours I had with my father before he would leave to go to the office. It had been three years since I left, and I wondered how he would react or what he might say now that I was back home. She had been avoiding everyone by sleeping late. It felt familiar and good to be home, yet strange, so I avoided everyone by sleeping late most days. I didn't know where the time went, but when I emerged from
“Hey baby girl,” My father greeted me, smoothing his paisley-print tie down before him.“Hi, Daddy,” I replied. “Are you busy? I need to talk to you.” “Come in and take a seat.” I am sitting at my desk with final designs and photos spread out all over my desk. I stopped working to give my father my undivided attention. I can tell by the look in my father’s eyes he was up to something. Sure, he was my father, and there was no other man on this planet I loved more, but his mere appearance in my office first thing in the morning meant he was about to ask me to consider doing something I would generally refuse. And from the way he pulled out the chair in front of my desk, with ever so slow movements before sitting as he stared at me with almost apologetic eyes, I knew my point of assessment was correct. “What is it, Daddy?” I was a little concerned.“You know I’m so proud of you. I know it was hard to get a divorce and come back home. But look at you now! I’m looking forward to your D
I glared at Susie, snatching my arm from her grasp, then pushing her so hard she bumped into Holland. “If you ever put your hands on me again, you will live to regret it!” Then with narrow slits in my eyes, I shook my head at Holland. “Pathetic!” I uttered, rolling my eyes and walking away.Holland stood there shocked, with a confused expression, stating. “Amanza?Susie shouts. “Are you going to let her get away with that?”“What do you want me to do? I can’t believe that was Amanza!” He stood there watching Amanza walk away. “Come on, let's go inside. Wait! Amanza!” He called out. “Holland! Why are you calling her? Wait for me!” Susie said, trying to keep up with his long strides.******Meanwhile, my plan to shock Holland is working out. But there is so much more shocking for you, Holland. Follow me inside. The woman who I was before marrying him, he has never met until tonight. I looked like a woman of wealth, but he’s about to learn my real identity as a power player in this city
The stage curtain opens, and the sign blinks and beams, “Diamonds Are Forever!" The glimmering and sparkling sign caught everyone's attention. Then, a strikingly handsome man walks out on stage, surprising the Halston family. “Oh, my lord! Is that Collin?” His father says in disbelief. He hadn’t seen his son in years since he resigned from the family business.“I thought he moved to Europe? What is that troublemaker doing back here?” His stepmother said, rolling her eyes.“Holland, is that your brother?” Susie asked curiously, her interest piqued. She batted her lashes with a hint of a smile. “Half brother?”“You Halston men have it going on, I see...” Susie says, swooning.Collin walked out on stage wearing a Charcoal grey and silver tailored Hugo Boss tuxedo. You could tell it was made specifically for his athletic build. It accentuated his broad shoulders and tight waistline, perfectly displaying his muscular tone and long legs. He looked devastatingly charismatic, charming, cool
Collin’s PerspectiveA week had passed. Collin knew he needed time to purge himself emotionally from his firm and close connection to Deja Amanza Wright. He filed away all the memories of wishing, thinking, and dreaming about the girl he had wanted for so long but would never have by his side. Collin sadly mumbled. "It's done."He flexed his hands open, then closed them tight against his knees, trying to push back the tidal wave of tears he felt. Logically, he knew that this was what he had to do. The pain coursed through his body to his broken heart. He couldn't keep hoping that he had an opportunity when there was none. So now it’s time to do and see things differently. If I stay in the same place emotionally, I fear I will be stuck and never move past my devastating loss. And as much as he wanted to hold on to these memories, never to let a single one of them fade. He prayed out loud. “Oh! God forbid let these memories disappear completely before they drown me.”Each day at work
“And, if I can have a second chance to capture love again, I think it will all be worth it.” “I wish things would have turned out differently. It would make my life so much easier if it were.""It's okay, Collin. Love can be a complicated thing. But it doesn't have to be if you find the right person for you. I’m not the right girl for you. Love can't be explained or quantified; it is something you must experience, and when you do, you will know. I promise you will know." Collin nodded, “Okay…I get it; it doesn't have to be me. I’ll accept that; I will be your friend. But do I have to be your brother-in-law? Yuk!”“Don’t make me laugh.” “No, I'm serious. I don’t get why it has to be Holland. He’s been a jerk all my life.” “No matter how I try to explain it, I know you, Collin. You will never understand. So don’t wreck your brain trying to figure me out. You probably will never get it because you have never been in love or married.”“So, I’m not on your level.” “That’s right…I have
Tonight, Deja's heart broke as tears came to her eyes. She couldn’t face him or answer his question, so she turned her back to him. “Collin, don't ask me that.” “Please, Deja,” He said, taking hold of her shoulders from behind. “I’m trying all I can to appeal to your sense of reasoning. She hung her head, shaking it, saying no.Collin Halston had been a longtime friend of the Wright family since Deja entered college. They had met and became close. Having Collin in her life over time made her rethink a few things. Deja wasn’t sure how she felt about him associating with her dad. Clinton and her father took a liking to Collin almost immediately. As time passed, he became a mentor and took Collin under his wing. Occasionally, her father would ask her that question during her college days. If I loved Collin, it would have made me highly defensive.Deja thought, ‘Why did I get so defensive when I asked that question.’“Deja, why are you crying? Who are you worried about? If you want to
Tonight, Deja's heart broke as tears came to her eyes. She couldn’t face him or answer his question, so she turned her back to him. “Collin, don't ask me that.” “Please, Deja,” He said, taking hold of her shoulders from behind. “I’m trying all I can to appeal to your sense of reasoning. She hung her head, shaking it, saying no.Collin Halston had been a longtime friend of the Wright family since Deja entered college. They had met and become close. Over time, Having Collin in her life made her rethink a few things. Deja wasn’t sure how she felt about him associating with her dad. Clinton and her father took a liking to Collin almost immediately. As time passed, he became a mentor and took Collin under his wing. Occasionally, during her college days, her father asked her that question. If I loved Collin, it made me highly defensive.Deja thought, ‘Why did I get so defensive when I asked that question.’“Deja, why are you crying? Who are you worried about? If you want to give us a chan
“Oh…Collin, my father had no right to ask you that.”“I never had the chance to tell you how I feel, but I should let you know now that I got angry about your meeting with Holland.”“Collin,” Amanza took a deep breath and considered her following words carefully. "Collin, you're a great guy, and I care about you. However, I don't see this developing into a relationship if that's what you're looking for from me."He stared at her blankly like he hadn't heard her. Did he hear what she said? "You don't see it going anywhere?" he asked quietly. "No, I don't, I'm sorry." If he were hurt, he wouldn't have shown it. There was no anger or pain in his eyes. “Have you forgotten? I was there for you to pick up the pieces last time.”Amanza rolled her eyes. “This is not about Olivia but me?” “Yes, I don’t want to see you hurt again, Deja.” Placing her hand gently on Collin’s masculine hand in a reassuring manner. “Look, I’m a big girl and can care for myself. I’ve learned a lot, and I don’
"I don't know about us getting back together...but I did not know how I felt about him and was angry. All I can say is we talked and covered a lot like two grown-ups, and I know how I feel about him...""I'm still not following," he said quietly. "Even though our relationship is in question, I knew I loved him at one time, and he loved me. We've been married for three years, and after being divorced for six months. In two nights, we still found an attraction between us and chemistry. That’s all I’m going to say, do you understand?" Collin nodded his head slowly, thinking about him and Olivia. "So, you're keeping your options open but not hoping you two get back together. Right?” "Exactly. I’m keeping my options open. If he’s not the right guy. I'll move on." He stared at the table for a moment. "Have you ever considered the possibility that you're just emotional right now after going through the storm and so much this year? And since Holland happened to be there, it’s not mistake
"Hi, Deja." The masculine voice said with a hint of reservedness."Hey Collin, how are you?" “I’m okay.” “Thanks for inviting me out to dinner. I know this must be about Olivia, right?” She says, still staring at him strangely."Deja?" Collin calls her name.“Uhm, yes,” “What’s wrong? Why are you staring at me?”“O,h nothing."Ah, where are my manners?" Collin says, quickly standing to pull out a chair."Here, have a seat."Amanza takes a seat, still staring at him. She didn't know if Collin wanted to talk about anything serious with her or if he was just looking for a good time with his friend. But he wouldn't get anything from her that went on between her and Holland if that’s why he asked her for dinner."I ordered you a glass of red wine. Would you prefer white or something else?" "No red is fine. It's usually what I drink," Amanza says, still staring as she raises the glass to her lips. Collin sips his tequila, smiling nervously and showing a hint of curiosity about her behav
“Deja, I know me. I won’t tolerate no family being involved in my relationships. Girl, you know I’m outspoken. And if he’s anything like his brother, he could keep stepping. I won’t let anybody treat me like I’m less than them. No point intended.”“Trust me, I didn’t take it that way. And Holland was so different at the start of our marriage. But Collin doesn’t have the same issues that Holland has with the family. The family has disowned Collin, and Holland is the beloved older brother. I think they all mistreat Collin because of the dread of stepmother syndrome. I would put my head on a chopping block, and she’d be behind the wedge between Collin, his dad, and Holland. Holland still has his issues, but I think that can be improved with time.” “Wait a minute. Why do you feel that way? Have you been talking to Holland, missy?”Amanza smiles. “I know my ex. He is a made jerk, not a born one. I just have a hunch. Collin is a good guy, and he’s open-minded. Hey Olivia, he said for me to
Naturally, I was curious about his dinner with Olivia. I wanted to know his story before he asked me about minds. “So, welcome back to work. I certainly hope you enjoyed your time off." Amanza smiles teasingly, thinking of her two friends. I can tell by how he strolled into my office and sat directly in front of my desk. Ever-so-slowly, his eyes canvas over my face. His eyes told me everything and what he was thinking, 'I know Collin will be curious about what I did this weekend. It would be silly to share what happened between Holland and me, especially since everything is still in the air. Besides, Collin would probably call me a loose hussy if he heard the details. 'Which I'm not. I was quite strong emotionally, and I’m proud of my actions with Holland. I know I'm not the kind of girl to have sex with any guy. I'm a woman with needs, and Holland has feelings for me far deeper than he even knows.’ "Good morning, Deja," Collin greeted her, smoothing his crimson-red silk tie."Mor