San Francisco royalty, Killian Fobster is an egotistical, manipulative asshole who will rather fuck an octopus on live television than get tied down to a woman. But when his one-night-stand from two months ago shows up in his office with not-so-pleasant news, he has to make certain decisions that may involve going against everything he stands for. With his vicious good looks, skirt-chasing habits, and cold demeanor, he is the last person a sweet girl like Hope Sterling should be involved with, but desperate times call for rather creative measures, and soon after she finds herself trapped in the sham of a fake union that threatens to blossom into something that may change her life forever.
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I'd never do it.
I mean... This wasn't me.
Nah, no, nada, nil, zilch. It couldn't be me. I was the responsible one. The one always prepared, always early and on time. On weekdays, I worked my butt off at the diner and on weekends I stayed huddled up in the book store down the block.
That right there was the full autobiography of my life. Pretty basic and plain, and I was the last person you'd expect to worry about an accidental pregnancy. So why the hell did I just spend a hundred bucks on a box of target-brand pregnancy tests?
Three words.
I. Fucked. Up.
Rewind two months back to Pampam's bachelorette party and my insistence on staying home because attending a cock fest and seeing a bunch of naked penises writhing at me wasn't exactly on my to-do list, but Lesley being the persistent friend she was, didn't take no for an answer.
"There aren't going to be naked cocks, Hope. It's a strip club, not pornhub." She reasoned, taking off my reading glasses. "Besides... It's not gonna hurt you to see some real-time peen."
And just like that, she'd dragged me out of the confines of my small condo, and made me put on a skimpy black dress that had me looking like Roxy the stripper. But my point is, Lesley had pushed me into the domain of ripped, defined men pole-dancing, hip-grinding, booty-shaking.
Give it a few drinks or two and I was tipsy-not drunk but not exactly sober either, and to worsen my situation, this stranger in a dark suit kept staring at me with intrigue.
He sat alone at the bar, and fuck, even if I held his gaze, he still looked at me, one eyebrow arched and the corner of his mouth lifting in a sexy smile.
I'd spare you the candid details but I'd be evil if I didn't point out how hot he was.
Jesus forgive me but this man was a walking sexual fantasy and I took pleasure in gawking at him. He was fit and toned and had a body made for sex. The kind that could turn an uptight girl like me into a moron.
He was like a dangerous demon sent by Satan to give women impure thoughts. He might've been the devil himself and that night, I'd been his number one victim.
The memories manifested slowly, every detail flooding back like a heavy tsunami.
He approached me on the dance floor, handed me a shot of tequila, and then leaned into me. "Are you here with anyone?"
My brow rose with intrigue. "And why are you asking that?"
He looked at me for a second or two, and then his lips twisted with excitement. "Because I want to fuck you and I want to know if there's anyone to worry about."
Now, normally I wouldn't agree to this. I'd pour my drink on his face or slap him for asking such heinous things of me but he'd gotten me so hooked that I didn't mind being his fuck puppet for the night.
And so, we left the club, finding ourselves in a hotel room, too drunk to care about anything else but the heat of passion sizzling between us.
He'd slammed me against the bed, his lips fusing to mine, his hands doing ruin to my flesh, fingering out my first orgasm, and by the time he'd gotten up, rid himself of his pants and ripped a foil paper with his teeth, I'd already been lost.
He'd driven into me so hard that my eyes rolled back from sudden pleasure-so intense that I had turned mush against the bed, but he had elevated me back up and went again, on the floor, the bed, the shower, the couch, against the sink, hard, slow and in-between. He pleasured me with his fingers, his tongue, and his cock, and when it was all over, I collapsed into the bed, breathing out heavy breaths.
Granted, it had been the hottest experience of my life. But what were the odds that after having sex for the first time in months I'd wind up pregnant?
It had been over two months since I hooked up with him and frankly, I couldn't remember every detail, except for the ones I tucked away in my memory bank for safekeeping and only revisited on lonely nights when it was just me and my...you know...vibrator.
Aw fuck. You know what, maybe it was just a coincidence. I just needed to stop thinking the worst.
My period had only been delayed by a month and six days. No biggy. I had irregular period flows sometimes. It was due to stress. It had to be stress. There was no way I was pregnant.
I was just overeating and this test was going to give me the peace of mind I needed when it popped up with a big fat negative.
Counting to five in my head, I turned to the counter full of tests.
I'd flipped them all upside down, not wanting to look at them until the full amount of time had passed. You didn't need to tell me. I knew this was crazy, taking so many tests, and I still couldn't believe I'd spent so much on them all, but I was a realist and I had to be sure if there was a tiny life force inside of me or not.
My front door opened and then flung shut. "What is so important that you made me leave work and drive all the way over here?" My best friend, Lesley, waltzed into my apartment, speaking as soon as she stepped in.
I rushed out of the bath to meet her. "Great you're here. I was freaking the fuck out."
"What's wrong. What happened?"
"Well..." I pointed at the closed bathroom door. "I need you to look at something in there."
She stared at the door and then swung her gaze to me. Her brows furrowed. "Hope, I'm sorry but I'm not going to look at your shit."
"Ew, what the fuck? no."
She sighed with relief. "Well then what?"
"Just come see." I pulled her with me and led her into the bathroom.
"There." I let her go and pointed to the pregnancy tests lined on the counter.
Long seconds dragged on as she stared at it, then at me. "What the hell is this?"
I bit my lip. "Just look at it and tell me what it says, please."
Again, she glanced between it and me, then said, "Okay hold up, is there something I'm missing. Why the hell do you think you might be pregnant?"
"For starters, I just figured I didn't bleed last month...and the one before that. "
"Isn't that too fictitious for you to start peeing on multiple sticks? I mean...it's natural." She shrugged. "You stress yourself a lot."
Trust me, I wanted...I so wanted to believe that was the case.
"This is different. It feels different." I pressed a hand against my chest and cringed a little. "My boobs hurt bad and they look bigger."
She sighed and pinched the bridge of her nose. "Sore breasts could mean you're about to start your period."
"It doesn't!" I panicked. "Please just check okay..."
"Fine." She rolled her eyes at me and narrowed it to the tests. "God...I can't believe I'm about to do this."
Reluctantly, she took a step forward and I turned my back to her, not wanting to accidentally see the results.
I nibbled on my lip nervously. For whatever reason, I felt certain that I would take the news better if it came from her. So I stood there and waited for her to either save my life or ruin it but the more she stayed silent, the more I got a little more anxious. "Please put me out of my misery and tell me what it says."
At this point, I couldn't tell if the lump in my throat was from nausea or panic. Probably both.
"Hope..." She called me, her voice trailing off. "You're not gonna like this..."
Oh no no no no.
I held my breath, my heart pounding so hard in my chest that I could swear I heard it in my ears.
"It's positive."
My heart sank as I swiftly turned to face the test results staring at me. "I-I'm... pregnant? I'm...really... pregnant...?"
It felt as though life had been sucked out of me. I slumped down on my closed toilet seat and lowered my head in my hands.
I was pregnant...really pregnant for a...Oh god. I didn't know anything about him. Aside from his name and the fact that he fucked good, I didn't know him. I mean, what if he was a serial killer. Or he was in the mafia? What if he was already married with kids and a beautiful wife. Oh my god!
My heart felt like it was going to break through the safe confines of my rib cage. I sniffed, but it didn't work. Tears burned my eyes and I brawled.
Lesley crouched down beside me and patted my shoulders. "You need to calm down, Hope. You're freaking out for no reason."
Now that was laughable. I sniffed and pulled my shirt up to wipe my nose. "At this point, I think I'm allowed to freak out. I got knocked up by a stranger I met in a strip club and I still don't even know why the hell a man like that was at a male strip club, to begin with."
God, I was such an idiot.
"Wait. Are you saying that super hot guy who talked with you at the bachelorette party is the father of your child?"
I felt sick again. "It sounds worse when you say it out loud."
"But I thought he used a condom, I mean you said he did."
"He did. I'm sure he did. I mean I saw a used condom on the floor." I turned to her. "Lesley he's the only guy I've slept with in months."
"Are you...keeping the baby?"
My chest felt tight.
Did I want this baby?
God, I'd never been so confused and conflicted in my entire life.
I didn't want to get rid of it but I didn't want to raise it on my own either because taking care of my own needs was enough struggle. I couldn't even afford my rent talk more of a baby, and the only thing keeping me from sleeping on the streets was my job at Joe's diner.
I took a sharp breath in, letting a few huddled tears fall. "I don't know what to do, I don't..."
"Oh, Hope," Her arms went around me. "Whatever decision you make, I'll be by your side. If you choose to let it go, fine. If you choose to keep it, great. You'll make a perfect mother and I can't see any child raised by you turning out any less than amazing."
"You think so?" I sobbed out, clinging to her shoulder.
"I know so," she affirmed, tapping my back. "Now wipe your tears. You look ugly when you cry."
I bawled into even more tears, knowing she was right. "Thank you, Les."
"Don't thank me." She pushed the tendrils of my hair away from my sweaty forehead and tucked them behind my ears. "This is what friends are for."
I sniffed and wiped my eyes with the backs of my hand. Romance novels made it so easy but in reality, getting knocked up by a stranger sucked. "Where do I go from here?"
She took a huge breath. "Well I'm no pregnancy expert but I think you should let the baby daddy know."
My heart jumped, my stomach clasped and I felt like throwing up. Getting pregnant was the easy part- meeting him, breaking the news-I could never. I didn't even know where he lived. He could be dead or on the other side of the world for all I knew.
"Even if I want to, I can't. I don't know anything about him."
"I'll get the info for you."
"How are you going to do it?"
"I have a friend who knows someone who does these things." She got up. "I think you need some time to come to terms with this. And it's probably best if I leave you alone while you do so." She held my hand and squeezed softly. "I'm only a phone call away okay? If you need me, I'll be here, but for now, maybe a little quiet time will be best."
I sniffed and nodded. She made a logical point. "Thanks, Les. Thanks for coming over. I probably wouldn't have gathered enough courage to check what the stick said. I love you."
She smiled grimly. "You're a smart girl, I know you'll figure this out. And I love you, too."
Once the door closed behind her, I headed into my room, flopped onto the bed, and cried my eyes out.
HOPEA month later. Giving birth was the easy part— the heart-stopping contractions. Sweating like a donkey and trying to push while being spread out like some farm exhibit with strangers gawking between my knees. The yelling, the bleeding. Having my vagina stitched—it didn't seem terrifying at all.Know what was?Having to deal with all this baby weight that came after.I cursed my misfortune, turning to look at myself sideways in the mirror. After my pregnancy with Ryan, my body has yet to regain its original shape and for me, that was pretty devastating. "What's taking so long?" Killian asked, as usual, walking into my room unannounced but I was too annoyed to care if he saw me standing in my underwear or not. "What's wrong?" He strolled with lith grace towards me, and I found it ironic how he got to look this perfect while I carried all the scars and weight that came with birth. "The dress I picked out didn't fit. I feel humongous." "Hope." He sighed and stared at me through
KillianI sleepwalked through the all process of wiping the blood away from my hands and strapping into a blue overall. My brain didn't recollect any information, except the one where I was being ushered into a room with doctors hovering around the elevated bed like wild animals. I carefully stepped inside, My heart wrenching painfully in my chest as my eyes landed on Hope. She was laying with a thick pink blanket draped over her parted legs. Her pale face was strained with tears, her hair flying wildly across her face. She was sweating, eyes closed tight with the pain."Hope, you need to push," the doctor demanded, but she shook her head, groaning in pain. "I can't," she breathed, keeping her eyes closed as her legs quivered. "I can't. It hurts.""Hope..." My voice broke as I moved closer to her, calling her desperately and I wasn't sure if she had heard me but then her bloodshot eyes pushed open and the moment they met mine, my chest felt tight; like I was being suffocated. "Ki
Killian My heart wasn't made of stone. It was just like everyone else's, and right now, it hammered against my ribs so painfully I was sure I'd die. But I didn't stop.I squeezed the stirring wheel as I sped down the freeway, trying to exhaust myself, trying not to think. I was running—away from my life, away from my thoughts, away from Hope.The look on her face when I'd zoomed off taunted me. Hearing the pain in her voice as she begged me to stay wounded my heart. It felt like someone had cracked open my ribs and gripped my beating heart in their hands only to nearly squeeze the life out of it. The guilt ate me alive. I shouldn't have left her that way, but despite the pain, I did it because I was hurting, because I was scared that if I stayed, I'd only be caging her. I couldn't do that. I couldn't hurt her any more than I already had. So I wanted to go. I wanted to go back to my life where she meant nothing to me.But how could I ever do that when she'd taken up all the space t
I was in a complete daze when I walked back into my apartment.My heart broke and it felt like someone had punched me in the stomach. I didn't want to believe that Killian was gone. I didn't want to believe that he had left me again. Maybe it was all a dream, maybe if I closed my eyes or if I pinched myself hard enough he'd—"Great, you're back," Scott's voice pulled me out of my tailspin. He stepped out of my kitchen with a cup of coffee in his hand and looked at me like nothing had happened; like he hadn't just sold his pride and driven the love of my life out of the door. "Now that you're here, we can talk about your flight schedule." My fist clenched by my side. When I said nothing but glared at him with all the hate and anger and fury I could muster, he released a long breath. "Come on, why are you looking at me like that." He walked toward me and stretched out his cup. "Drink this, you'll feel better."I slapped his hand along with the cup out of my face and watched as it shat
My heart was palpitating. It pounded hard, so hard that I swore it would burst out of my chest. "What the hell are you doing here?!" Scott barked, charging at him again but I quickly wormed my way in between them."Scott please stop.""No." He hissed, his eyes filled with so much rage as he shoved me aside and jammed Killian against the wall. "I thought I told you I didn't want to see you anywhere near my sister?! What part of leave her the fuck alone didn't you understand!" Killian groaned. God no. He was bleeding. This was all my fault. I shouldn't have let him in. I shouldn't have asked him to stay. "Scott, I'll explain," I held his arm desperately. "Please let him go.""Stay out of this," he gruffed, flinging his arm away from mine so harshly that I stumbled backward but caught myself with the support of the counter."Let me fucking go!" Killian barked, ripping Scott's hand away from his throat and staggering back, fighting to get his air. For a moment, he looked like he woul
"Kiss me," I implored, once again enslaved by my body, unashamed of my words. "Kiss me, Killian."I never really understood the power of desire until this very moment, until we were both inside my apartment, standing inches away from each other, feeding off the sensations, the overwhelming sense of need and desire. "I'm afraid to do so." My breath quickened. "Why?" "Because," he took a step closer to me, so close, I could barely breathe. But rather than kissing me, he swept my hair over one shoulder and ran his fingers over my bare neck. "There's so much I want to do to you right now, there's so much I feel." He admitted, trailing his hand down my arm. "But I'm afraid I might hurt you again."A burst of pleasure shot through me at his words. "You won't hurt me, Killian, I know you won't. So kiss me right now.""Are you sure?" he murmured, his words falling mere inches from my lips. "Because once I do, I might not be able to stop.""I trust you."That seemed to do the trick because
HopeAfter dinner, Killian and I walked the beach a while in comfortable silence, watching the scanty crowd. Life here seemed so different, so surreal, carefree, easy. "Everyone here seems happy. It's amazing.""If you like it so much, we could always relocate."I snapped my head to look at him. He shrugged. "It'll be a good chance to get away from everything. There are lots of free rooms, we could maybe make one into a nursery." I released my breath in a soft sigh. "Killian, stop saying things like that."He chuckled softly. "I mean it. You're the only woman I've ever brought here, that's because you mean a lot to me.""Not even Megan?" I wanted to suck the words back in the second they slipped out because he stared at me with an emotion that choked me. "On second thought, don't answer that," I said quickly and looked away from him. "Not even her." His words sent a flutter to my belly. "Really?"He smiled. "Let's find somewhere to sit, your feet must hurt."They did. I nodded an
HopeI stood in front of the large mirror on the wall and smoothened my dress over my bump. As much as I would've loved to lay down in my bed and cry my feelings away all night, I still had an evening with Killian Fobster to get through first. For some last-minute adjustments, I applied eyeliner and pinched my cheeks, satisfied with my look. I took in a deep breath and flitted back into the bedroom in search of my shoes. That was when a knock sounded on my door. It had to be Killian.My nervousness topped up a notch. I quickly kicked the pizza wrapping underneath the couch and padded barefoot towards the door, trying not to show entrepreneurial oomph.When I opened it, his dark eyes caressed me, gliding from my head to my toes before lingering back on my face. "Can I come in?"I blinked away the hotness I felt and immediately released the door handle for him to step in."You're here a little earlier than I expected, I'm not done getting ready yet," I told him, watching as he looke
Killian I'd spent the better part of my morning clearing the piled-up stacks of documents on my desk. The other part consisted of planning a date that put me in a royally pissed mood because nothing was going the way I wanted it to. What the fuck was I thinking when I'd said that in the first place?I had rehearsed last night a thousand times since my conversation with my mother. What I'd say to her, how I'd make my plea. And I thought I'd figured it out but then this happened and I had only a few hours to plan the perfect date. That woman was going to be the death of me; I just knew it.I took off my glasses and tossed them on my desk. My mind was trying to narrow down a plan but nothing fit, nothing fucking fit. I scrubbed my hands over my face and I inhaled a deep breath before pressing the intercom button. "Cleo?"I waited for her to reply or at least walk into my office but when nothing happened after a minute, I pressed it again. "Cleo?"Another minute passed. Was it so impo
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