Killian
"That all you got, tough guy?" She purred, her hot whiskey breath fanning my face as we staggered into the hotel room.
I couldn't remember her name. Charlotte? Charlene? Scarlett? Hell, it didn't matter. The only thing that mattered right now was those lips and the obscene things I planned to do to them.
"Seriously you have to come up with something better than this." She mocked. "You said you were going to manhandle me up. Is this how you plan to do it?"
Filthy little kinky brat. She looked somewhat younger than me, twenty-something or thereabout, certainly not young enough for me to give two fucks.
"You have no idea what you're asking for, blondie," I growled, reaching for her ass and squeezing hard. "I'm not an easy pony to ride."
Her breath wavered. "Try me."
"Oh, I will." I gritted. "And when I'm done cuffing you to that bed, spanking your ass bare and fucking you so hard, you'll be begging me to use you, and I'll do it, I'll mark you, eat you up, spit you out and make you my fucking bitch."
Her breath trembled slightly, her eyes shimmering with a look I knew too well; Want. She wanted it. I knew her kind. They were defiant, locked in their tower of stubbornness but once they gave in, sweet lord, they'd do unspeakable things just to please you.
A cruel smile sprawled over my face when she remained too stunned to bite back. "Cat cut your tongue, blondie?"
"You have a smart mouth for sure."
"You haven't seen anything yet." I grabbed her by the throat and pulled her to me, ascertaining dominance as I sealed her hot mouth in a harsh kiss that left us both breathless when I pulled away. "On your knees. It's time to take me into your mouth."
She stared down at my hard bulge and flushed crimson red.
I smirked. "What? Shy? Scared you can't take me?"
Her eyes came back up. "I sure as hell can."
"Very well then. On your knees, now."
"Just so we're clear, I'm doing this because I want to, not cus you asked."
"Tit for tat, blondie."
Narrowing her eyes, she sunk to her knees in front of me and my stomach clenched when she unzipped me and took me into her hand. "I have to give it to you." Her hungry jade eyes drank my dick in. "I was not expecting this."
She gripped me with just the right amount of pressure to send a hiss right through my mouth. "I have a huge cock, I get it. Now if you're going to suck me don't make me wonder how much longer I'm gonna have to wait."
A wicked smile stretched over her face. "Do I have a choice?"
"That depends on if you want to leave this room sore or not."
She chuckled. "Cocky bastard."
"I've heard worse." I buried my fingers into her hair and twisted it. "Show me just how good your tongue game is."
"Here goes nothing." She snaked out her pretty pink pierced tongue and laved at my shaft before slowly taking me into her mouth. It was warm, wet. I moaned when the tip of her tongue swept over my sensitive spot, lapping at me like a melting ice cream cone on a hot Sunday.
"Deeper Blondie." Holding her hair tight, I pushed into her mouth and her shoulders hunched. "I need you to go a little deeper than that."
Raw, intense, choking sounds of pleasure erupted from deep within her feminine throat. She didn't stop. She was gagging and choking, froth now dribbling down from the corner of her mouth but she didn't stop, she continued to force me down her throat like a desperate little puppy.
"Good girl." Keeping her head still with my hand, I thrust faster, in and out. Her nails dug into my flesh, her doe eyes bleeding black tears. My stomach tightened. I could feel my orgasm stirring, but that feeling was short-lived when my cell phone started to buzz.
Fuck.
I groaned.
"What's wrong?" She looked up at me with concern in her eyes.
"Don't stop," I told her, reaching for my phone at the back of my pocket and glaring at the contact ID that popped up.
Tanya, my grandfather's social worker. What the hell did she want now?
I picked the call, staring down at Blondie as she took me back into her mouth.
"Sir Fobster." A tiny voice laced with anxiousness rang from the other end of the phone.
"What is it, Tanya?" I gruffed, pushing the pleasantries aside.
"Sir," I couldn't see her but I could tell she was fidgeting. "Your grandfather, he had a pretty bad heart attack again and is at the General Hospital."
My stomach dropped.
"How the hell did that happen?!" I boomed, sending blondie flying back in shock.
Tanya was silent for a moment.
"Answer me!"
"He overdosed on enhancement pills while with his mistress, sir." She rushed out.
What the—
That old fucker.
I squeezed my fist, trying to calm my nerves. "I'm on my way."
***
Thirty minutes and I was tapping my fingers harshly on the sleek hospital counter as I waited for the reception to go ever whatever she had to.
"VIP room 16," she finally responded, motioning to the elevator doors.
The ride up was extremely nerve-wracking. The antiseptic smell of the hospital made me sick to my stomach. Fuck, I hated being here, but he subjugated me to this ordeal every damn time.
The moment I arrived at his ward, I barged into his room unannounced, still fuming from rage and quite horny.
He was currently conversing with his nurse—sending her looks that made my skin crawl.
Noticing my presence, he craned his nearly bald head towards me and his eyes brightened.
"Killian." It seemed my presence surprised him. "Who told you I was here?"
I shot a dark glare at the nurse who still stood there looking doe-eyed like some china doll, and she bowed slightly before sauntering out.
"Your social worker called," I stated, approaching the bed.
He groaned. "That damn girl. I told her not to worry you."
"Well she did and she told me everything. Viagra?" I clenched my fists, refusing to give vent to my frustration. "Of all the things you could take, you choose to overdose on Viagra?" My voice was a little harsher than I'd intended but I didn't apologize for it. This old man deserved a beating.
He waved my outbursts away and rolled his eyes like a teenager. "It was just a one-time thing and well, she was hot."
She was hot?
I laughed.
How old did this man think he was?
If I didn't care about him and the fact that he was my grandfather, I would've smacked him on the head with a bat.
"What the fuck is a man who has a heart condition taking Viagra and screwing a woman for. Do you want to get yourself killed?"
He narrowed his eyes. "Someone has to do it since my only grandson constantly refuses to get married or bear me great-grandchildren."
I forked my fingers through my hair and suppressed a groan. "Don't you get tired of having this argument with me?"
"No. You turn thirty soon. You need a wife, some babies, a stable home." His head tilted arrogantly while he fixed me with a look that said he would argue this to the ground but I had no desire to argue anything with him since he'd just barely survived a heart attack and I did not want to be the cause of another one.
I sighed. "I'm not going to argue this with you."
"Killian, I need to go to my grave knowing you are not going to end up as lonely as I did."
My chest tightened. "You are not going to die."
He shrugged. "I am old. My heart is not as strong as it once was and sooner or later I'm going to join my daughter, your mother. If she were alive she would've wanted you to quit your philandering with all these women and settle down. Is that so much to ask?"
My jaw clenched. I didn't want to talk about this. "Why won't you have the operation your doctor is recommending?"
"And why won't you marry?" He countered. "Perhaps if I had great-grandchildren to look forward to, the pain of such an operation would be worth going through."
I scrubbed my hands over my face. As a man, I had my codes. Getting married or having children wasn't one of them. I didn't care about commitment or devotion and the incident with my ex should've been enough to promote my reasons but this fucker wouldn't budge.
"Are you saying you won't have the operation if I don't marry?"
He nodded simply. "Yes."
God, this man was as stubborn and stiff as a log of wood. "Do you always have to be so goddamned rebellious?"
"If it means you won't end up lonely then...yes."
I released a disbelieving breath.
I was anything but lonely.
I didn't hurt. I felt nothing most of the time. But I was not lonely.
"I am not lonely."
"You've changed since your relationship with Megan ended. You've become more vicious and I know grief hurts but—"
"Forget it." I cut him off, I didn't want to hear it. Didn't want to be reminded. "I won't get married."
"I know I can't force you. I don't want to force you. But I am not consenting to the operation until you do."
For some reason, anger coiled in the pit of my stomach. "Fine."
"Fine," He repeated.
"Fine!"
HopeFor the rest of the week, I threw myself into my unread novels and my job at Joe's. Lesley was busy too; trying to work her shifts while helping me locate my baby daddy's whereabouts. Apparently, it wasn't as easy as I thought it would be, and turns out, he was a hard man to find. I admit it did get me riled up. I mean, choosing to keep this child was a tough decision. What if Lesley never found him and I had to raise my child alone without child support or a father figure? Needless to say, by Wednesday, I felt much better. I'd visited the hospital for an official report. Thankfully, a local clinic took me in, though they made me wait a day. Later that evening, I called my mom to check on her, I felt guilty hiding the fact of my pregnancy from her but I didn't think she was ready to know. Most especially when she still played matchmaker and tried setting up blind dates with every single hot-looking bachelor in her block. She proceeded to tell me about her job
HopeThe subway ride from Bayview to Powell street was long and I had to endure the cacophony of noise usually brought about by people constantly fighting over free seats. Fast forward half an hour later and I was standing in front of an enormous lobby whilst running my hand over the red dress Lesley had picked out for me. Taking a deep breath in and adjusting my little dress one more time, I made my way through the entrance.The receptionist; a flawlessly dressed auburn-haired girl around my age sat behind a marbled desk. She smiled pleasantly at me. "How can I help you?""Hi, yes, please. I'm here to see Killian Fobster." "Is he expecting you?""I called to schedule a meeting yesterday.""What is your name?""Hope Sterling."She smiled. "Excuse me one moment, Ms. Sterling," she consulted something behind her desk for a moment. "Great, you are expected. Please take the last elevator on the right to the sixteenth floor."After handing me a security tag stamped with the company's lo
KillianI'd never felt so disgusted in my life. Pregnant? By me? Bullshit. It couldn't be me, I was careful, I always was. And I should've been working instead of downing my third glass of alcohol but that bitch undid me and completely fucked up the rest of my day. Perhaps my week. Fuck. She'd left me unable to focus on work, and all I could do was curse under my breath and gulp more chugs as I thought back to the night I'd fucked her with abandon. I lifted the glass to my lips, letting the final drops slide into my mouth. Strictly speaking, it wasn't any of my business thinking back to that night but Hope was shaping up to be the major cause of my trainwreck, and right now, I wasn't sure of anything anymore. What if... She hadn't been lying? The look on her face should have been enough to make me believe her but I just didn't want it to be true. What if there was a slight chance that she was pregnant with a child, with my child. A child that I most de
HopeI tried to get enough air, I tried to breathe properly, but the pain I felt was so intense that I wasn't sure I could win the battle. My arms wrapped tightly around myself. It felt like I was falling apart. I'd never felt this way before. It was new. Unwanted. I never wanted to experience it again. "Hope, please tell me what went wrong," Lesley implored, handing me another roll of tissue wipes. "I can't help you if you don't tell me what happened." I shook my head, tears falling from both sides of my eyes as I blew into the wipe and tossed it aside. I made a total fool of myself. Stupid, stupid! What was I honestly expecting? Lesley bit her lip, blowing a heavy huff of what could only be frustration. "You burst inside your house bawling your eyes out, and now you expect me to sit and watch like nothing happened?" I closed my eyes, inhaled, and forced myself to stop crying. Killian Fobster was an asshole who didn't deserve my tears. He didn't deserve this
Killian My life was pretty easygoing. Wanted a Rolls-Royce Sweptail? I got a Rolls-Royce Sweptail. Wanted to spend a month in Switzerland? I spent a month in Switzerland. Wanted a penthouse apartment with a view of the big city? I bought a penthouse apartment. For as long as I could remember, I lived my life how I wanted— controlling the outcomes and everything else that revolved around it—but recently everything was starting to fall out of place and it began about the time that woman with the body of the devil and face of an angel walked into my office. I tried but I just couldn't understand why such a woman intrigued me. I usually preferred my women glamorous and stylish with confidence and experience and a heavily endowed body to go with it. Hope sterling was none of that. She was timid and plain and too innocuous for my liking, and after that night, she should've been out of my head and long-forgotten but up until this very moment, she taunted my mind with an intoxicati
HopeRejection tasted bitter in my mouth. It'd been two days but it still lingered. I groaned as I dragged myself out of the comforts of my bed and headed to the kitchen for some much-needed coffee. I'd probably need some ice too if I wanted to look anyway respectable for work. And yes I knew taking coffee wasn't healthy considering I was pregnant but a cup never hurt anyone. I slumped on the kitchen counter as I filled my mug. Today I was dragging, I'd drained myself from staying up last night. I shouldn't have stayed past my bedtime reading but it was the only solace I could find at that hour and I totally had to find out what happened to Ace after Sofia...you know... I was paying for it now. Soon enough, I arrived at work and got behind the booth. I tossed on my work outfit and began my shift even though it felt as though I was going to pass out any minute. According to the brochure I acquired from the hospital, my morning sickness shouldn't have been ge
Killian"Does he have to be in here?" Hope asked, glaring at me as I plopped down on the stool at the other side of the exam table. The tech tossed her an odd look. "Isn't he your husband?"Husband? Was this woman blind or did she not see the way we irritated each other?"I do not have all day, please proceed and stop listening to whatever this crazy woman is saying." I scowled, fidgeting with my watch, twisting it back and forth. It was my nervous habit, and right now I was pretty nervous. "You're the crazy one," Hope muttered, laying straight on the exam table. I ignored her."Cute couples," the woman chuckled, shaking her head in muse as she draped a blanket over her thighs and lifted her dress to squirt ultrasound gel all over her belly. As she began to move the transducer around, I kept my eyes focused on the TV screen mounted high on the wall in front of me. At first, it was just a blur of black and white. I was calm, there was nothing to worry about. But when she stopped m
"I'm going to be a father." I dodged out of the way the moment Brad's drink broke out of his mouth in a spray that stained the wooden bar and the tender who quickly came down with a rag like he had expected nothing less. "What the fuck!" My blonde-haired friend exclaimed, wiping away the moisture with the back of his hand as he doubled over to release a burst of deep boisterous laughter that made curious heads turn our way, and maybe if I wasn't in such a horrid state of dilemma, I would have found it comical enough to laugh too, but I was.Apparently, rock bottom had a basement and I was currently living in it.I picked up my translucent glass, frustration nibbling on the edges of my nerves as I gulped down a mouthful.Frankly, there was a part of me that wasn't happy about it. Knocking Hope up was the last thing I wanted to do and it wasn't helping my case that I craved having her again. I leaned back into my leather chair and fiddled with my watch. All day long I hadn't been abl
HOPEA month later. Giving birth was the easy part— the heart-stopping contractions. Sweating like a donkey and trying to push while being spread out like some farm exhibit with strangers gawking between my knees. The yelling, the bleeding. Having my vagina stitched—it didn't seem terrifying at all.Know what was?Having to deal with all this baby weight that came after.I cursed my misfortune, turning to look at myself sideways in the mirror. After my pregnancy with Ryan, my body has yet to regain its original shape and for me, that was pretty devastating. "What's taking so long?" Killian asked, as usual, walking into my room unannounced but I was too annoyed to care if he saw me standing in my underwear or not. "What's wrong?" He strolled with lith grace towards me, and I found it ironic how he got to look this perfect while I carried all the scars and weight that came with birth. "The dress I picked out didn't fit. I feel humongous." "Hope." He sighed and stared at me through
KillianI sleepwalked through the all process of wiping the blood away from my hands and strapping into a blue overall. My brain didn't recollect any information, except the one where I was being ushered into a room with doctors hovering around the elevated bed like wild animals. I carefully stepped inside, My heart wrenching painfully in my chest as my eyes landed on Hope. She was laying with a thick pink blanket draped over her parted legs. Her pale face was strained with tears, her hair flying wildly across her face. She was sweating, eyes closed tight with the pain."Hope, you need to push," the doctor demanded, but she shook her head, groaning in pain. "I can't," she breathed, keeping her eyes closed as her legs quivered. "I can't. It hurts.""Hope..." My voice broke as I moved closer to her, calling her desperately and I wasn't sure if she had heard me but then her bloodshot eyes pushed open and the moment they met mine, my chest felt tight; like I was being suffocated. "Ki
Killian My heart wasn't made of stone. It was just like everyone else's, and right now, it hammered against my ribs so painfully I was sure I'd die. But I didn't stop.I squeezed the stirring wheel as I sped down the freeway, trying to exhaust myself, trying not to think. I was running—away from my life, away from my thoughts, away from Hope.The look on her face when I'd zoomed off taunted me. Hearing the pain in her voice as she begged me to stay wounded my heart. It felt like someone had cracked open my ribs and gripped my beating heart in their hands only to nearly squeeze the life out of it. The guilt ate me alive. I shouldn't have left her that way, but despite the pain, I did it because I was hurting, because I was scared that if I stayed, I'd only be caging her. I couldn't do that. I couldn't hurt her any more than I already had. So I wanted to go. I wanted to go back to my life where she meant nothing to me.But how could I ever do that when she'd taken up all the space t
I was in a complete daze when I walked back into my apartment.My heart broke and it felt like someone had punched me in the stomach. I didn't want to believe that Killian was gone. I didn't want to believe that he had left me again. Maybe it was all a dream, maybe if I closed my eyes or if I pinched myself hard enough he'd—"Great, you're back," Scott's voice pulled me out of my tailspin. He stepped out of my kitchen with a cup of coffee in his hand and looked at me like nothing had happened; like he hadn't just sold his pride and driven the love of my life out of the door. "Now that you're here, we can talk about your flight schedule." My fist clenched by my side. When I said nothing but glared at him with all the hate and anger and fury I could muster, he released a long breath. "Come on, why are you looking at me like that." He walked toward me and stretched out his cup. "Drink this, you'll feel better."I slapped his hand along with the cup out of my face and watched as it shat
My heart was palpitating. It pounded hard, so hard that I swore it would burst out of my chest. "What the hell are you doing here?!" Scott barked, charging at him again but I quickly wormed my way in between them."Scott please stop.""No." He hissed, his eyes filled with so much rage as he shoved me aside and jammed Killian against the wall. "I thought I told you I didn't want to see you anywhere near my sister?! What part of leave her the fuck alone didn't you understand!" Killian groaned. God no. He was bleeding. This was all my fault. I shouldn't have let him in. I shouldn't have asked him to stay. "Scott, I'll explain," I held his arm desperately. "Please let him go.""Stay out of this," he gruffed, flinging his arm away from mine so harshly that I stumbled backward but caught myself with the support of the counter."Let me fucking go!" Killian barked, ripping Scott's hand away from his throat and staggering back, fighting to get his air. For a moment, he looked like he woul
"Kiss me," I implored, once again enslaved by my body, unashamed of my words. "Kiss me, Killian."I never really understood the power of desire until this very moment, until we were both inside my apartment, standing inches away from each other, feeding off the sensations, the overwhelming sense of need and desire. "I'm afraid to do so." My breath quickened. "Why?" "Because," he took a step closer to me, so close, I could barely breathe. But rather than kissing me, he swept my hair over one shoulder and ran his fingers over my bare neck. "There's so much I want to do to you right now, there's so much I feel." He admitted, trailing his hand down my arm. "But I'm afraid I might hurt you again."A burst of pleasure shot through me at his words. "You won't hurt me, Killian, I know you won't. So kiss me right now.""Are you sure?" he murmured, his words falling mere inches from my lips. "Because once I do, I might not be able to stop.""I trust you."That seemed to do the trick because
HopeAfter dinner, Killian and I walked the beach a while in comfortable silence, watching the scanty crowd. Life here seemed so different, so surreal, carefree, easy. "Everyone here seems happy. It's amazing.""If you like it so much, we could always relocate."I snapped my head to look at him. He shrugged. "It'll be a good chance to get away from everything. There are lots of free rooms, we could maybe make one into a nursery." I released my breath in a soft sigh. "Killian, stop saying things like that."He chuckled softly. "I mean it. You're the only woman I've ever brought here, that's because you mean a lot to me.""Not even Megan?" I wanted to suck the words back in the second they slipped out because he stared at me with an emotion that choked me. "On second thought, don't answer that," I said quickly and looked away from him. "Not even her." His words sent a flutter to my belly. "Really?"He smiled. "Let's find somewhere to sit, your feet must hurt."They did. I nodded an
HopeI stood in front of the large mirror on the wall and smoothened my dress over my bump. As much as I would've loved to lay down in my bed and cry my feelings away all night, I still had an evening with Killian Fobster to get through first. For some last-minute adjustments, I applied eyeliner and pinched my cheeks, satisfied with my look. I took in a deep breath and flitted back into the bedroom in search of my shoes. That was when a knock sounded on my door. It had to be Killian.My nervousness topped up a notch. I quickly kicked the pizza wrapping underneath the couch and padded barefoot towards the door, trying not to show entrepreneurial oomph.When I opened it, his dark eyes caressed me, gliding from my head to my toes before lingering back on my face. "Can I come in?"I blinked away the hotness I felt and immediately released the door handle for him to step in."You're here a little earlier than I expected, I'm not done getting ready yet," I told him, watching as he looke
Killian I'd spent the better part of my morning clearing the piled-up stacks of documents on my desk. The other part consisted of planning a date that put me in a royally pissed mood because nothing was going the way I wanted it to. What the fuck was I thinking when I'd said that in the first place?I had rehearsed last night a thousand times since my conversation with my mother. What I'd say to her, how I'd make my plea. And I thought I'd figured it out but then this happened and I had only a few hours to plan the perfect date. That woman was going to be the death of me; I just knew it.I took off my glasses and tossed them on my desk. My mind was trying to narrow down a plan but nothing fit, nothing fucking fit. I scrubbed my hands over my face and I inhaled a deep breath before pressing the intercom button. "Cleo?"I waited for her to reply or at least walk into my office but when nothing happened after a minute, I pressed it again. "Cleo?"Another minute passed. Was it so impo