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CHAPTER 11- I DON'T HATE THEM, I JUST HATE THE ACT
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2024-10-29 19:42:56"I... I was at the bridge of saying those four words 'I will miss you ' when I felt a hand round my shoulder.
I turned a little only to see Joshua with a smug smile on his face, nice rescue bro,' I thought. I can confidently say he is the only one that I use to feel comfortable with most among the boys, maybe because he is my best friend. I returned my gaze only to see Ethan wear a frown on his face. They are both cats and rats, I just hope they won't start a fight soon.
Joshua is kinda annoying sometimes and he is ready to piss you off. One thing I like most about him is that he never hides the truth about one's personality. If you are a good person, he will tell you to your face and if you are a bad one, he will surely tell you.
One of the annoying moments he displayed was by telling a boy in our class that he has a mouth odor. He embarrassed him in front of the class and I did not wait to scold him for his stupid behavior. I stopped talking to him until he apologized to the boy.
I was back to earth when I heard Joshua voice
"What is this rascal telling my best friend?", Joshua asked and I felt like knocking his head. Ethan's hand-formed into a fist ready to pounce on Joshua anytime soon, the drama between them can never end.
"None of your business, stupid nerd, so buzz off", Ethan retorted and all I could do was hide my laughter. Should I separate them? Nah, let me continue to watch, I need to know the winner, lol.
Joshua suddenly started laughing and I became stunned, anger was evident on Ethan's body ready to explode at any time.
" Ha!, at least I am a stupid nerd, what about you? You lack common sense even in the exam hall due to too many girls flocking around you, I wonder what those stupid girls see in you, handsome face with no brain fellow", Joshua spilled those words and it took me my self-control not to laugh.
Ethan raised his hands to hit Joshua but I quickly held his hands, Joshua quickly hid behind me, such a chicken. Ethan later calmed down and left the class, all thanks to Joshua.
"What are you even discussing with that rascal?", Joshua asked and I almost felt like slapping him.
" None of your business, sissy Joshua, he almost wanted to run you off and I am quite sure if those blows land on you, the General Hospital will reject you", I said and he burst into laughter.
"That is why I have a friend to defend me, sorry, don't mind that guy, he is so full of himself and I need to treat his fuck up. It is so strange he is quite humble to you, did you charm him or something?" Joshua asked and I raised my brow at his stupid accusation.
"You are sick upstairs Joshua, since you know I charmed him, then figure out how I charmed him, either it is through his food, water, or making eye contact with him", I retorted almost pissed off.
He drapes his hand around my neck.
" We can't fight, don't be angry, let us talk about that psycho", he replied.
"Oh really?, you can tell me why you saw that he was full of himself yet you used to collect something from him, so pathetic", I said.
" You know me well Michael, just because I used to collect something from him does not mean I would be blinded not to say the truth about his characters. I saw that Ethan has a bad personality, that is why I won't stop complaining about it until he changes. I used to collect something from you too, but that can't stop me from telling the truth about you", he said and winked at me.
That is true though, just because they had a little argument does not mean they won't talk to each other. Joshua is someone that you can't stay mad at for long. Even though he is the second-best student, he plays like a child sometimes.
We dropped the conversation since I can't win him this time. Ethan and I never had the chance to talk for that term. I scored 78% overall, all thanks to reading.
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The holiday went well, Joshua and I use to meet up especially when he does not have any papers to write during his GCE(General Certificate Examination) and sometimes we go to Rachael's house to gist #BEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD.
Joshua and I happened to be in my dad's pharmacy shop some days before the beginning of a new session. We were just revising and doing other small talks. I was still struggling with one Physics question when Joshua suddenly came to my side to show me something
"Michael, check out this thing I saw on Facebook", he said showing me his phone as I read it out
"As of early 2015, some countries like Netherlands, Argentina, United Kingdom, Denmark, Brazil, just to mention a few legally allow same-sex marriage(gay marriage), and Texas legally allow Bestiality. Some countries also legalized marriage with animals and properties", I read out loud
" That is ridiculous, why would they allow such lewd acts, they are absurd", I stated
"It is good they approved it over there, trust me if such thing is allowed in Nigeria especially in Yoruba land, they would start doing deliverance for those who practice them, that witchcraft must be removed," Joshua said
"It does not matter whether it is legalized, there is a difference between what is right and what is wrong. Those practices are contradicting the principles in the holy book", I stated.
" Hmph, you are saying it as if you hate them, leave them, they are enjoying their lives, what is crucial most is not to practice what is bad", he said
"I don't hate them, I just hate the act. Let us drop it there, I can't give myself a headache over their issue, each one is responsible for his or her decision in life", I said.
" I won't even try it except if I want to receive my death sentence early enough. Even if I should have same-sex feelings, it will die there", he said and I felt touched by what he mentioned as 'same-sex feeling'.
What is it even all about? Am I possessing same-sex feelings? I can't wait to get to the bottom of this weird admiration I am having for boys. It may have stopped, but it seems to be taking a new dimension.
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