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CHAPTER 65- DECISION CREPTING IN
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2024-10-29 19:42:56It would have been a worse scenario for me if I continued to feel the pleasure, but it stopped. My body became numb, as I closed my eyes, the imaginations of Joseph's attempt to rape me crept into my mind.
I felt a surge of power as I pushed Phil away.
"I can't do this. I can't. It is an immoral act", my voice started shaking as tears glimmered in my eyes.
I could feel the surprised look on Phil as his gaze was on me. He groaned, then hissed before moving closer to me.
" Are you okay?", he asked with concern as I nodded.
"Are you sure you don't want to do this? We both like each other, don't we?", he tried to reassure but I could not help but feel a bitter taste on my tongue.
" I don't want to get carried away by temporary pleasure. I know you are probably angry but I can't seem to keep off my mind from how we will both feel after having sex. I can't do this. God condemns such act", I said, my mind r
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