Amanda had been living with her parents since that day. She never told them anything that night when she came back to their house with two luggage bags. And they never even asked why she came back with her eyes swollen with tears. They accepted her again and it was all that mattered to her.
Everyday, she tried to move on. She tried to smile. She tried to laugh. She tried to regain herself by doing things that she loved the most. She tried everything that goes under the sun. But at the end of the day, Amanda felt there’s always a shallow inside of her. And from there she thought moving forward was never easy.
It was a process. A rigorous process that can only be obtained if you are willing to forgive and to forget. In her case, she can’t do both. To forgive and to forget those who caused her pain and humiliation would mean that all her efforts for her and her still born child to fight for their family will go to waste. Amanda already set her mind that she’ll have her time soon. And the odds will be in her favour.
That afternoon, she was sitting on the reclining chair on the balcony of her parent’s house. The property resides just a few miles from the city. The scenery always caught her breath away. It’s truly a breath of fresh air from such a long period of living in urban life.
She was in deep thought when someone disturbed her silence.
Her mother showed up from the inside, holding a mug of hot milk. With a knowing smile, she gave it to her. The warmth made her smile and turned once again to her mother. “Thank you, Mom.”
Her mother sighed and turned her gaze towards the sunset. “Alma called…”
“I heard from your best friend that you had fought with your husband.” her mother’s voice was never condemning. She just wanted to confirm and know the truth.
Tears flowed down from her eyes freely. She was looking at her mother, shame crept all over her body. Amanda opened her mouth but there were no words coming from it. She was scared of the day they’ll finally ask her about the current situation of her marriage. No one prepared her for today. Not when her mind had been unrestful for a while.
She knew for a fact that her mother would understand. That her parents will understand. But then what would they say? How will things go after this revelation?
Why was she the one to put to blame when she did everything to patch things up? She did everything she could. She almost begged for him to come back. And above all else, why did she have to experience so much suffering when all she had done was to love the man freely?
Was loving Keith Harris wrong from the start?
Her mother came to her side and hugged her. Her warmth and her soothing voice calmed her somehow. Amanda was sobbing at her mother’s chest. She felt like a kid once again, crying to her whenever something went wrong.
She cupped her face and wiped away the tears that strolled down her face. Her mother had been caring ever since. She had always been her number one supporter beside her father. And it pained Amanda more how she had become a disappointment for them.
“Past is past, Amanda,” a part of her mind kept telling her whenever her resolved waiver. “There’s no use of thinking of the what ifs. What already happened, already happened. Nothing can be changed even if you think of the maybes…”
“M—om,” she mumbled, her eyes afraid to meet her mother. Even with all the consolation, Amanda still couldn’t help but cry as memories of Keith betrayal flashed in her mind. And how low someone could get by even setting her up for something she didn’t do. “I’m so sorry,” She held onto her arms as she cried again.
Her heart felt heavy as the burdens of the words weighed on her shoulders.
Her mother caressed the top of her head as she stared at her, eyes almost teary eyed. “You always can tell me what was happening, Amanda?”
“You know that I’m always here for you.”
“Mom,” was all she could utter. Her mother hushed her.
“You know what they say about marriage life,” she told her while putting her own shawl around her neck. It was a little bit chilly outside the countryside. “That every once in a while, it’s normal for married couples to have misunderstandings…”
“Don’t worry. He’ll come around. Just so you wait and he’ll be knocking at the door to pick you up.”
If only it was that simple, Amanda thought as she hugged her mother back. Her parents hadn’t known the true story behind what they knew was misunderstanding. That the so-called misunderstanding had led her three years of marriage to fall into ruins. Her divorce with Keith Harris had been in process and was only waiting for the verdict of the court.
Amanda can’t let them know about this. Her mother will surely be heartbroken about the news and her father will surely be enraged.
After she came back from the KH Development Group that day, with a heavy heart, Amanda signed the divorce papers. But before she left her home for three years, she left a simple note to Keith.
Keith,
One day, our path will cross again. I assure you somehow that you will regret this day. You’ll reap what you sow, Keith. Soon you will taste your own medicine.
Your,
Ex-wife
P.s
Ex-wife, since we are already over.
“M—om,” she called her mother one more time. Amanda swallowed the invisible lump in her throat as she confessed the truth to her. She realised she can’t lead them to the darkness. Eventually, the truth will come out. So it’s better that her mother learned it first from her. “There’s something that you need to know…”
Her mother looked at her with that creased forehead. Amanda sighed as she revealed the truth.
“Keith and I already filed for a divorce,” She saw the surprise registered on her mother’s face. “I have already signed the papers. The decision rests with the court now.”
“What?” her mother was utterly shocked at her revelation. She even held onto both of her shoulders and subtly shook it just to confirm. “You can’t be serious about that…”
“Divorce was not something to be taken lightly.” disbelief was all over her mother’s face. “Why? What happened to both of you?”
She shook her head, unable to speak more of the details. Her tears keep strolling down her face.
“It’s already been decided, Mom. There’s nothing I can do about it,” she said sincerely. Despite the efforts she made, their separation was unavoidable since Keith had his own reason which she was never part of in the first place. She’s simply traversing the path of certain pain if she would still stay by his side with all that’s been said and done. “He should’ve told his grandfather about this.”
“It was indeed a hasty decision. But we…” she cleared her throat as she tried to convince herself that everything was alright even if it’s not. She loved the fool sincerely. It’s not easy to let go of such love she held dear in her heart for so long. “But I firmly believed that it was the best for both of us. We are not really a couple in the beginning.”
“Our marriage wasn’t built from love, trust, and respect. Everything was imposed. And even in those years, nothing was relevant to stay by each other.”
“My love hasn’t sustained us. I’m the only one who’s giving until the end.” She uttered, unaware that she had a voice on her head.
Her mother heard her and hugged her once more. “Oh, my poor child…”
“You should’ve told us sooner. It must’ve been hard keeping it all to yourself, Amanda,” her mother stroked her hair. Amanda’s heart tightened from her soothing words. If there’s anyone she doesn't want to see cry, probably it’s her mother. She’s too soft-hearted even in the pretence of a strong woman.
Her mother consoled her over the love and marriage she had lost. Amanda was just there, revelling in the warmth of her embrace. She was telling her everything will be alright. That they could always start anew. And then there’s nothing to be ashamed of what she’d gone through.
That everything was part of the process. A process where we receive pain from losing someone, of pain of losing dear to our heart, so we can prepare to receive something greater. Even far better than what we have lost.
And besides, Amanda realized that marriage without love is bound to happen sooner or later. It’s just a matter of time. An already ticking bomb. They can’t really force each other to stay if one doesn't want to. They will just ruin each other. There will be endless pain if they choose to stay in a lost case relationship.
Amanda was blinded by her love for Keith that she thought she was the luckiest girl when he married her. That finally her fairytale had turned into her reality. What she never knew would be short lived. And the cause of her despair will be the man of her dreams.
How ironic. She shouldn’t have cling to that slim hope that Keith Harris would fall for someone like her. It just won’t happen in this lifetime.
“If there’s any consolation,” her mother speaks up while pampering her like a child. “His grandfather really likes you. I know that for a fact. But, Amanda…”
“No matter what happens from here on, always remember that me and your dad will always be here for you.”
“Yes, Mom. Thank you so much. I am so lucky that I have you as my parents,” She said in a very emotional voice.
Her mother squeezed her cheeks like she used to when she was a kid. She’s now smiling as she kissed her on the forehead. “No, dear. We are the one who’s lucky to have you in our life. You are a blessing to us from above.”
Their sweet mother-and-daughter moment was immediately cut in when they both heard someone calling their landline. Her mother volunteered to answer the call and asked her to stay put. A few more seconds and she heard a loud thud inside.
Disturbed by what could be, Amanda stood up from the recliner chair and followed her mother inside. And she was petrified on the entrance, her eyes widened as she stared at her mother lying on the floor unconscious.
Then a loud scream of help startled the nearby neighbors.
Don Kennedy had heard the rumours circulating inside the company. Normally, he will not pay attention to anything if it’s not related to business nor he would not gain any profit. But the fact that the subject of the malicious humours was his grandson, he cannot just sit back and relax. He needed to see for himself what his good-for-nothing grandson had done once again.His grandson, Keith Harris, was unmistakably a protege. He handled the business more than he expected. He had sent the KH Development Group to the peak of its success. Only the flaw of his grandson was his unfruitful marriage with his wife, Amanda Munoz.He may have imposed the marriage on his grandson but Don Kennedy expects that things will turn around. He had a keen eye for a person with good character and he knew that among all the women Keith had dated, Amanda was different. No matter what circumstances brought her to his grandson, he took his chances.And then after three long years, he’ll be hearing this humours
Don Kennedy laughed at the ignorance of his own grandson. Who else in their rightful mind will sign a contract without reviewing its content? None, except for Keith Harris who was bedazzled by the sound of him being the CEO that he chose to ignore the minor details on the papers.Of course, as a businessman, Don Kennedy makes sure he’s one step ahead of the game. He’d read how the subject of his interest works and even his mannerisms. And when he takes action, it’s always to his advantage. Even the slightest mistake from the other would be a huge gain for him.In Keith’s case, he absolutely made the contract hard to contest. And that means by his grandson signing those papers, he was bound to every rule written in black and white.Ah, he knew he was ruthless. Many had told him so. But the thing about businessmen is you can’t let your guard down anytime. It’s a doggy-dog world in the first place. Even the one closest to you can turn out to be a two-faced enemy along the way.“What are
Amanda had the impression, even just a little, that she could somehow be civil to Keith in the future. It’s just a thought. A spur of the moment. It’s the good side of her that still wanted to make things right even if he had wronged her deeply. But seeing his existence right now, invalidates everything good she wanted to do.If looks could kill, he’s probably dead on that spot right now.Anger rose inside of her at the sight of Keith Harris. How dare he show his arrogant face to her again?Wasn’t he the one who wanted her gone? Now, what’s his deal showing in front of her as if he had still every right to do so?Keith tried to reach her, moving a step forward. On instinct, Amanda retreated a few steps back. She shook her head at him, her eyes were filled with tears once more as her hate for the man exceeded her grief.Amanda can’t believe herself that she could loathe someone this hard. It was all his fault that she experienced these misfortunes one after another!“Leave, when I can
He expected her temper, at least. But earning her wrath was a surprise for Keith.He knew Amanda as an innocent woman, pure of naivety. That she was easy to take control of and she would obey any wishes he made. That’s how marriage life works for them.Watching her walk away felt something strange inside his chest. As if something with significance was with her as she departed from his life. Keith hadn’t thought Amanda with much worth other than his timid wife. And seeing her once more had triggered the feelings Keith didn't want to recognize.Amanda was long gone but he’s still staring at the end of the road where the car disappeared in the corner. He sighed and glanced at his wrist watch. It’s already half past four in the afternoon. He needed to leave soon and tried his luck of persuading his ex-wife some other time.Keith walked towards his car and brought out two small basket arrangements of white lilies and roses. He hadn’t had the chance to see his in-laws on their last day as
The next few days are exhausting. Amanda was relieved that Keith had finally given up pursuing her. She already cut ties to him, changed her number and won’t entertain any of his men coming to her doorstep delivering various luxury things. It’s the least that she wanted. She wanted her peace after the tragedy that happened to her and Keith was never part of it.As she’s in her first month of her pregnancy, being alone in her parent’s house was hard. Dealing with her morning sickness everyday can be weary at times. And she craved some food, bizarre combinations, and troubled her best friend a lot for finding them.All these changes she gladly accepted. She’s actually looking forward to experiencing the journey of her pregnancy. There’s nothing in this world that could excite her more than to see her baby after a couple of months from now. And she’ll do everything she can to bring him or her safe and healthy into this world.She already made an appointment to an Ob-gyne. Her doctor had
Deja vu. It’s what Amanda was feeling right now. The only difference was it wasn’t the same scenario as the last time. And she wasn’t at loss now unlike before when she met him.She felt uncomfortable looking at the man who once saved her life out of her stupidity. He’s the one who almost hit her with his black Maybach. It was raining at that moment. And Amanda really thought that it was the end for her.She hadn’t had the chance to thank him after he drove her to the nearest hospital just to see if she’s really okay. He paid all the expenses and even extended his efforts to send her back to her home.Amanda really thought that it was the last time she'd see the man. The fact that he’s Richard Rodriguez, the one who succeeds the position as the CEO of the Ferrer Properties, was one thing. To see him in person for her interview is totally another!Her confidence was gone and her heartbeat went into overdrive. She could almost hear her heartbeat into her ears. Amanda was intimidated by
That woman, what was she doing out here?“Are you saying something?” Alma got back to their table after she took her time in the restroom. She had this curioused look as she took her seat across from her.She brought her to a newly opened restaurant not so far from the Ferrer Properties. Alma insisted on using her car so Amanda left her own at the parking lot back in the said building. Her best friend had reprimanded her not to drive on her own since she’s pregnant. She was guilty about it and accepted all Alma had said shyly.They already gave their orders to the waiter and were waiting for their food to be served. Alma opted for some pasta while she requested something heavy. Somehow, Amanda felt starved after that interview with the CEO. And seeing that woman had made it worse.You know what they say, pregnant women should always be happy. And one of her happy pills was to satisfy her appetite from dusk till dawn.She shook her head and glanced at the window beside her. “No…nothing
Keith wasn’t his best lately. He should’ve known. His loss of focus had been noticed by his executives and employees. And it gives the bad impression that he was slacking off which was not the case. It’s just that there’s a certain woman who always messes up his mind all the time. And that certain woman wasn't supposed to be a bother to him at all!Beside the unrest he’s experiencing at the moment, he had to make it up with Sarah. He doesn't know what’s her deal but since that day, she has changed quite a bit. He could tell that something was off. And that his card can’t sufficer her anymore.Maybe she wanted some quality time. Keith admitted that he lost time with her. Or rather say, he can’t make time for her. And he was sorry that Sarah had to feel it that way.He had promised her the world. He had sworn to be there for her whenever possible. And it seems he’s been neglecting his duties as her man. So he needs to redeem himself and set his priorities straight.For quite awhile, Kei