AS DESMOND entered the room, halos lahat ng mata ng mga kasama ko ay nakatingin sa kanya. Some of the trainees giggled and whispered about how good looking he is. He's wearing a white polo shirt na nakabukas ang dalawang butones and the sleeves are folded hanggang sa kanyang siko. Napailing na lang ako at tinignan siya. He's looking directly at me na para bang ako lang ang tao sa opisina.
Pero ang lubos na agaw pansin sa kanya ay ang pink na paper bag na may logo ng paborito ko na cafe. Hindi bagay sa suot niya. "Hungry?" Ani nito ng makadating sa tabale ko at itinaas ang paper bag na dala niya. Labis ang pagtataka ko kung bakit sa paborito kong cafe siya bumili. Baka coincidence lang. "Hi, I'm here to discuss the final design. Are you free?" Napalingon ako sa mga ka officemate ko na nagbubulungan, paniguradong tatanungin nila ako kung sino ang lalaking nasa harapan ko ngayon. "Okay..." Bago ko pa man matapos ang sasabihin ko ay lumaput sa amin ang boss ko para batiin si Desmond. "I'll be back. Please eat the food. I know you like it." He smiled, and walked towards my boss to great him as well. Ako naman ay halos malaglag ang panga sa sinabi niya. Dali-dali kong binuksan ang dala niyang paper bag para tignan ang laman. It's my favorite. How did he know? Is he stalking me? Asa ka pa Yvonne why woul he stalk you? Maybe it's just coincidence. Isinawalang bahala ko na lang ang nasa isip ko at kinain ang masa laman ng bag. Maybe I'll ask him later about this. "OMG. Ang pogi naman ng kliente mo!" Sabi ni Angel isa sa mga unang naging kaibigan ko dito sa opisina. "Dapat pala tinanggap ko yung offer mo na palit tayo ng client." Nanghihinayang na sabi ni Marina. Siya kasi ang kinausap noong naghahanap ako ng kapalit ko para sa project na ito. Pero sa kasamaang palad hindi pumayag si Mr. Williams na makipagpalit ako dahil important client daw si Desmond at ito daw ang nagrequest na papayag lang siyang pumirma ng kontrata kung ako ang hahawak ng project. "How I wish na sayo na lang ang project na ito." I sighed. "Sino yun sister!? Single ba siya? Baka available pa reto mo na sa akin!" Hirit naman ni Joseph a.k.a Josefina. Isa siya sa pinagkakatiwalaan kong kaibigan dito sa office. "Kliente ko lang. And no, he's not single he's getting married." i simply replied to him. "Sus! Tapos may pa food na bigay sayo. Baka ikaw talaga ang gusto pakasalan!" Hinampas ko ang braso ni Fina. "He's just being polite, Fina." I blurted "Baka kasi type ka. Ikaw na ang gusto pakasalan." Biro pa nito. "Oo nga te, kaya akin na lang si papi Nick." banat naman ni Angel. I just rolled my eyes to the both of them. Kahit anong paliwanag ko asi ay hindi naman nila ako pinaniniwalaan. AKALA ko ay madali lang ang pag-uusap nila pero almost lunch break na nkaalabas ng opisina ni Mr. Williams. As soon as he walked out of the room, ay pumunta agad siya sa table ko. "Should we talk it over lunch or after lunch?" bungad kong tanong at inayos ang mga nakakalat kong gamit para sana umalis. "Did you like it?" He said while smiling. Ang tinutukoy niya ay yung dala niyang pagkain kanina. Napalingon ako sa mga ka officemates ko ng makitang parang kinikilig ang mga ito. They are giggling and whispering. "How did you know that I like..." "Ma'am Yvonne, mag naghahapan po sayo, iyong boyfriend niyo po." hindi ko natuloy ang sasabihin ko ng biglang pumasok ang guard kasunod nito si Nick na nakangiting kumaway sa akin pero agad ding nagbago ang mukha nito ng makita si Desmond sa harap ko. Desmond's face also changed for unknown reason. Is it because of Nick being here? "Sister! Akin na lang ang isang papi mo." bulong ni fina sa tabi ko. "Nako! Haba talaga ng hair. So alin diyan ang pipiliin mo?" pabirong dugtong naman ni Angel. "Shut up, guys. Wag kayong ma-issue!" sabi ko at tumingin kay Nick na papalapit na ngayon sa table ko. Desmond looked serious pati si Nick ganon din. Para bang may kakaibang aura na kapalibot sa kanila lalo na ng makalapit si Nick sa table ko. Looking at them I feel small, bukod sa naka upo ako ay they're both 6ft tall and I'm only 5'6. "What brought you here Nick?" sabi ko at tumayo sa gitna nilang dalawa para silang poste sa harapan ko kaya naman pumagitna na ako para din mabawasan ang tensiyon sa office. "Hi, I'm here to have lunch with you." Nick looked at me and smiled. Now that I think about it, Nick's probably here to apologize about our argument last night. I was about to tell Nick na kanina pa si Desmond dito at isa pa ay kliente ko siya. Nakakahiya naman kung uunahin ko ang personal na bagay habang may naghihintay akong trabaho. For me, it's unprofessional. "Can we have..."hindi ko na naituloy ang sasabihin ko kay Nick na mamaya na lang kami mag-usap. Dahil biglang nagsalita si Desmond. at ganon din si Nick naman ay ganon din. I'm being ignored by this two men. Nakakunot-noo ko silang tinignan pero dahil mas mababa ako sa kanila ay parang hindi nila ako nakikita.Matalim na tingin ang ibinibigay nila sa isa't-isa, they are too focus to hear me out. It's getting irritating dahil nakakahiya sa katrabaho ko. "Ako ang nauna, Gomez. Yvonne is going to have lunch with me." Sabi ni Desmond at hinila ako papalapit sa tabi niya. Sa gulat ko ay hindi ako naka angal sa paghila niya sa akin. "Let her decide, bro." May diing sambit ni Nick habang nakatitig sa kamay ni Desmond na nakahawak sa pala-pulsuhan ko. "Hey, stop. We're making a scene..." awat ko sa kanila at hinawi ang kamay ni Desmond. "I got here first." Desmond seriously said and looked at me na para bang nagtataka kung bakit inalis ko ang pagkakahawak niya sa akin. Aba! malamang na aalisin ko. Baka mamaya may spy pala dito si Samatha edi na issue pa ako kahit ang fiance niya ang dikit ng dikit sa akin. No, erase that thought Yvonne. DESMOND. IS. NOT. INTERESTED. ON. YOU. Right. Malabo yun. Diba? "Don't be a child, Desmond. Hindi paunahan ang lavan." may pang-iinis na sabi ni Nick. This is not stopping and I'm starting to get angry na talaga. "Both of you, Shut up!" Finally, I caught their attention. Palipat-lipat akong tumingin sa kanila at dahil sa inis ko ay hinila ko sila palabas ng office. Nakakahiya sa mga katrabaho ko. "You know what...why don't the two of you have lunch together?" May pasigaw na sabi ko ng makalabas kami. Desmond and Nick was about to protest but I raised my hand stopping the both of them. Naiinis ako. If both of them are here to disturb me while I was working then, they should leave! "Tapos ako, sasabay na lang kina Angel at Fina. Please stop bothering me like this when I'm at work!" Inis na sabi ko at tinignan ang hindi madrawing na reaksyon nila. But they didn't complain probably because they are guilty. "Then I'll talk to both of you later, after lunch. Okay?" Dugtong ko pa at tinalikuran sila. I didn't wait for then to respond dahil paniguradong magkakagulo na naman. Kahit na kakakain ko lnag kanina nung dala ni Desmond ay bigla akong nagutom dahil sa ginawa nila. "Tara na. Kain na tayo." Pag aaya ko kila Marina, Angel at Fina. "Oh bakit hindi ka sa dalawang papi sumabay? Kung ayaw mo ay ako na lang" Malanding sabi ni Fina at umambang pupuntahan ang dalawang nakatingin lang sa direksiyon namin kaya naman umirap na lang ako sa mga ito. "Bye boy's! Enjoy your lunch!" Pang-aasar ko at kumaway sa dalawa at hinila si Fina palabas ng opisina para kumain.AFTER our lunch break, ay agad kaming bumalik dahil may naghihintay pa sa aking trabaho. Kung hindi nga lang ako nainis sa sagutan ng dalawa kanina ay natapos ko na sana ang trabaho ko. "Nick, can we talk after work? I'll finish it right away so we could talk" Tumingin ako kay Desmond para ipahayag na ito nagtrabahong tinutukoy ko. He's my client so he's a priority. "Okay, I'll wait for you." He just smiled and kissed my forehead na ikinagulat ko. I know he's sweet but we're in public at baka ma misinterpret ng iba. It may be normal to us but to other people? They might give meaning to it. Buti na lang ay kilala naman halos ng ka officemate ko na kaibigan ko lang si Nick After Nick left ay nakabusangot pa rin nag mukha ni Desmond. Para itong batang inagawan ng candy. What's his problem? Napailing na lang ako. "Let's go to the meeting room." Pag aaya ko dito para naman may privacy kaming mag-usap. I looked at him before speaking but he still look mad for some reason. Mayb
MAAGA akong gumising dahil medyo malayo ang lakad ko ngayon, its 2 hours drive from our house. When I arrived Desmond was already there leanint on the hood of his car, behind him is the house they plan to renovate. "Good Morning. Breakfast?" He said and offered me a paper bag of a known fast food chain. His favorite. Ano ba Yvonne stops going back to the past where he can't even remember you exist. "Good Morning. I already ate." I said politely at pinagmasdan ang kabuohan ng bahay. It's old but still beautiful. Vintage. His grandparents house na ayaw nilang patirahan sa amin noong mag-asawa pa kami. How funny. "Can you join me? It's lonely to eat alone." He insisted. He's still leaning on his car biting on his burger. Honestly I haven't eaten pero nakakahiya naman na humingi ako diba? I walked towards him and took the paper bag in his hands. Doon ko lang na realize na dalawa pala ang binili, so he bought this for me? Or maybe he's expecting someone, at ako yung unang dumating
“Congratulations Mrs. Velasquez, you're 8 weeks pregnant!” Tila tumigil ang mundo ko sa mga katagang binigkas ng OB ko. I have a hunch na baka buntis ako, but now that I heard it hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. I’m happy, and afraid at the same time. I’m gonna be a mother! Magkaka-anak na kami ni Desmond. I can’t wait to see his reaction. “COME home early tonight, Desmond. We’ll have dinner together.” I was planning to tell him on our special day about our soon-to-be baby. “Okay.” Sagot ni Desmond sa kabilang linya. Ilang linggo na rin simula ng malaman ko na buntis ako. Hindi naman naging mahirap ang pagpipigil kong sabihin kay Desmond kasi may business trip siya ng mga nakaraang linggo at sakto uuwi na siya ngayon. Tonight, on the last minute of our wedding anniversary, I'll tell him about my pregnancy. FOR the nth time I look at the clock,It’s already 9PM pero wala pa rin siya. I tried calling him but he never answered. I’m getting worried so I called Enzo, on
SUMALUBONG sa amin ang familiar simoy ng hangin, it’s been 5 long years since I left this country. When I left we ended our relationship that day, inilan ko na ang oras ko sa anak ko. Buti na lang kahit hindi ako maswerte sa pag-ibig ay maswerte ako sa kaibigan. Nick and Ally didn't left me, since the day Desmond left me for her ay hindi ako iniwan ng mga kaibigan ko.A small hand pulled the hem of my shirt so I bent down so that I could face him. Ang laki na ng anak ko, at sa paglaki niya ay mas lalo niyang nagiging kamukha ang kanyang ama.“Mommy, Will I see daddy?.” Malumanay na tawag sa akin ng 4 years old kong anak. “Yes baby, you will see him in a bit.” I smiled and kissed his cheeks.“I’m almost there.” Ani ng lalaking kausap ko sa telepono.“I can’t wait to see you two. I missed you” May bahid na sayang sambit niya.“Okay, see you” I’m really thankful to have him with us, he never gave up on me during those tough times and because of him I was able to raise Yandrich well. “
HINDI ako makagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko ng magtama ang mata namin. Bakit siya nandito? I look at them again na papalapit na sa akin. I don't know what to do. But I need to keep my self composed ayaw kong isipin nila na apektado pa rin ako sa nangyari noon, limang taon ng nakalipas. I want them to see that I don't fear them aymore, that I moved on. Desmond was with Samatha na parang ahas kung makahawak sa braso ni Desmond. Kasama rin niya ang kanyang ina na lumilisik ang mga matang tinitignan ako. I look at them confidently, taas noo ko silang sinalubong. Hindi na ako magpapa apekto sa kanila, I won't let them ruin me again. "Good Evening, Mrs. Velasquez. Long time no see." sabi ko at nakibeso rito. "You... What are you doing here?" bulong nito. I just smiled at her brightly. Halata sa mata nito ang pagkagulat dahil sa inakto ko hindi rin ito nakapagsalita ulit agad. Kaya naman binati ko na rin si Desmond at Samantha. Marahil ay akala nito ay iiwasan ko sila, too bad I'm no the same
AS I ARRIVED on our house bumungad sa akin ang anak kong naalimpungatan ata, dahil kinukusot pa nito ang kanyang mata. Halatang kakagising lang. He looks so cute on his blue shark pajamas. Nawala lahat ang pagod ko ng makita ko siya. He was really a godsent to me. "Mommy..." He said and yawned. "I was looking for you. Why are you matagal?" his sleepy voice make him even more cuter kaya naman hindi ko na napigila ang saili ko na pangigilan siya. I can't believe na galing siya sa akin. He wasn't planned but my son is the most wonderful thing happened to me despite of all that happened. "Nightmares?" Tumango siya kaya naman binuhat ko na siya papunta sa kwarto niya. "Kanina ka po niya ma'am hinahanap, naka idlip lang po kakahintay. Kaso ayaw ka naman po niyang tawagan, baka daw po busy kayo" malumanay na sabi ni Jorgie, she's Yandrich baby sitter. "I'm sorry, baby. Mommy was so busy earlier." I kissed his head at hinaplos ang likod niya. "It's okay,mommy. I understand." Halos pabul
"AN ACCIDENT?" I don't know what to say and react sa lahat ng nalaman ko kaya pala he told me at the exhibit nait was the first time he saw me because he couldn't remember me. Desmond got into an accident and forgot about me. I don't know what to feel. I feel numb."He got into a car accident. It is said that he forgot the recent years of his memories that day." Allyson said and looked directly into my eyes. Reading my emotions kung magpapatuloy ba siya. "Their family didn't elaborate on the information about what happened, but the only thing I know is that he doesn't remember that two years you two are married." She continued. "I don't know if I will be happy or what." I awkwardly laugh. "If he forgot about me then I don't have to worry anymore about Yandrich." But there is something inside me telling me something different. "But, why didn't you tell me?" Wala sa wisyo kong tanong. I'm buried on my thoughts and feelings. Naguguluhan ako sa nararamdaman ko."We don't want to stre
I WAS about to answer him, when my phone rang. Tunatawag si Yandrich. "Mommy, what time are you going home?" His sleepy voice makes me smile. I looked at Desmond to excuse myself. He just nodded. "I'm almost done here, love. I'll be there" Sabi ko, hindi na ako lumingon kay Desmond kahit ramdam ko ang titig niya sa akin. "Okay, Mommy. Ingat ka po, I love you!" He excitedly said. "I love you too, love. see you!" As I ended the call, inayos ko na ang mga gamit ko na nakakalat sa mesa. Desmond also help me but he's not talking. He looked pissed and annoyed. "I'm sorry about that." I said as soon as I finished to keep my things. "Anyway thank you for your offer but, may magsusundo sa akin. I'm leaving." Sabi ko sa kanya at umambang tatayo na ng bigla siyang nag salita. "Mukha nga." pabulong niyang sabi and tsked. He looks annoyed as I look at him. Why? "Ha?" Patay-malisya kong sabi kahit narinig ko naman ang sinabi niya. "I ask if ang boyfriend mo ba ang susundo sayo?